Currently Thinking About Making A Script Where I'm White (lemme Explain Ok) So I Just Wanna Know Is It

Currently thinking about making a script where I'm white (lemme explain ok) so I just wanna know is it really that hard to not say racial slurs like I was just like hmm like is it really this hard to be normal? Like I was curious but like I think I would be able to go without saying the n word so (also I don't really wanna race change I'm just wondering like why is it like that)

I tried to do the same thing from when the lady thought I had superpowers but like even though I probably would've shifted I got scared lmao🥲

When I posted a contents on tiktok and someone had the confidence to control what I post

Them: 'delete this'

Me:

Lolsies

So the one post where I was like I think If I like actually tried then I will shift is because like in one of my dreams like there was this lady and like I don't know what it was but maybe it was like a place for kids (I think I was also younger in age) like we was all wearing like the same clothes though like um white or... like it was just like white clothes and this like place so we was eating our food (idk if it was breakfast, lunch or anything) and like ig I was planning to escape with some of the other kids and like we did and we probably would've gotten far but like I was going to run towards the woods because like it might be a bit more difficult to find us but like one of them was like we can't go there or sum so I just re-routed and like ran another way but like there was writing on the grass and it said like 'lured or luring/lures' but like I think she probably knew we would go that way or sum cause she was like right behind us when I turned around and like I'm guessing she had some sort of powers cause she kinda lifted us in the air (not by hand) and I think she was gonna off us but like it was kinda like I shifted because like there was a moment where I was like calming down and like slowed my breathing or sum idk what was going on here but like I was thinking like oh maybe I can go back to when we were eating so that I can try to escape properly so like I closed my eyes and was just thinking like ok I'm going back to actually escape without getting caught so like I just didn't open my eyes until I like heard the sound like (when you have a glass plate or bowl the silverware makes noise when they hit together) so then I like looked around and like the lady was right beside me bro😮‍💨SIGHHH but like what scared me was when she like grabbed me like I didn't know that she could tell but like ig she did so she yelled at me and was like 'what power do you have' like girly im a shifter🤭🤭 but like ig that counts as me being powerful so✌🏾😋 but anyways i woke up and told myself that i should shift to a calm environment

Whoever saw this from their waiting room hiiii (I'm tryna get like that😮‍💨)

I might be tweakin but I'm starting to think I might be shifting without noticing or like just like idk maybe I am (are you FEININ for your s/o FEININ are youuuuu FEIN FEIN FEIN FEIN FEININ I also want to catch someone in 4k but I'm scared they might find my house, knock on my door and smack me🥲...I think my face will hurt)