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50 days to fall in love - A Jeon Jungkook fic

Synopsis: A New Variety Show, 50 days to fall in love reality show follows different couples around for 50 days. The six couples are set up with eachother based on a scientific compatibility test, the test assumes that 50 days is the perfect time to fall in love with someone. Let’s watch as these young people navigate through life and love.

Word Count: 12k+

Pairing: Jeon Jungkook and reader,

Genre: fluff (tooth-rotting fluff), some very light angst and slice of life

Authors note: I've been obsessed with Asian dating shows, so I wrote a fic about them because that's the way my brain works. please don't be a ghost reader!

Episode 1

“Hello, I’m Jeon Jungkook” Jungkook greets the camera cheerfully taking a seat. “Can you briefly introduce yourself?” the interviewer asks and Jungkook companies sitting straight in his seat. “I’m Jeon Jungkook, 27 years old. Many of you may remember me as a child actor in multiple movies and tv shows. I don’t act as much anymore, I set up a production house with my friend so I’m more of a director now” Jungkook says looking off-camera. “What about hobbies?” “I have a bunch of them, I do boxing, I’ve been very into motorbikes lately, videography used to be a hobby, now it’s my job, also food, I love food,” Jungkook says with all seriousness making even the production crew laugh. “What would you describe as your ideal type?” Jungkook thinks for a good few minutes before answering this. “Someone considerate and worth sharing my life with, I like someone who’s passionate about something, it doesn’t have to be work but I relate better with people who have this fire within them. I like the tsundere type, to be honest, someone who’s cold to others but warm with me” the last part makes Jungkook giggles at the last part. “This is the compatibility test, 102 range-based questions, please answer them diligently” Jungkook’s a little too shocked when he’s handed the booklet. “102 questions? Can I get a 100% match?” he asks curiously going through the questions.

“Hello I’m ___” you say to the camera sitting down. “Can you introduce yourself a little bit?” “Sure, I’m ___, 26 years old. I recently moved back to Seoul to be closer to my family.” you smile a little as you say that. “I moved to New York for university when I was 18 and left New York at 25 as a Stock Analyst. I currently run a hedge fund with my father, my job is pretty much what defines me right now” you confess a little mortified about it. “What about hobbies?” “I've been trying to cultivate new hobbies, I play tennis like once a month, I’ve been doing pottery for a few years now, I’m pretty good at it and, um, I collect expensive whiskey” you laugh as you say the last part. “What kind of men do you date?” this question is a thinker, “I’d say boring” this honest answer makes the producer laugh too much. “It’s not really a negative thing, I’ve dated men from my industry and people in finance can be very boring. All the blame doesn’t have to be on them because I’m pretty boring too, in the past I’ve never really put effort into my relationships because work has been my only focus” you answer confidently sitting straight in the chair. “Are you ready to put effort into your romantic relationships?” “Yes, it’s not that I have a problem being by myself, but it would be nice to have someone who helps you get through the day. Plus, I’m kinda the boss right now, so my workload is much more relaxed” the last part makes you laugh a little too much.

“Are you okay with walking, those heels seem kinda high?” Jungkook asks a little too concerned as you walk out of the steak house with him. “Just make sure I don’t trip and hurt myself” you joke, feeling much more confident around him. “Aye Aye captain” he jokes along too as you both walk down the pavement, walking towards the Han river. “I was supposed to go to NYU too but couldn’t because of a project” Jungkook shares following up on your question about college earlier. “That’s too bad, college degrees are going to be obsolete anyway,” you say honestly and Jungkook does the same thing he's been doing all night, looking away from you for a second with the biggest smile on his face. “I haven’t been on a blind date in years” you confess stumbling a little and he catches you right away, his hand lingering around your waist for just a second. “This is my first blind date,” he says and you turn to face him, shocked and outraged. “With the way you look and how charming you are?” you say standing still and he does so too, with the river beside you. “Good to know you think I’m hot and charming, but a blind date just never happened for me” “Glad to be your first,” you ask turning around and walking ahead of him again.

Your hands are a little clammy as you walk up to the restaurant, first dates are nerve-wracking enough, a first date with cameras just makes you more nervous. Jungkook arrived ten minutes before you, he can see you walking up to the table from the corner of his eye. Rubbing his hands against his jeans one last time, he stands up and greets you politely. “Did I keep you waiting?” you ask the very handsome man in front of you. “No, I arrived early, my father says on time is late,” Jungkook says nervously sipping on his water. “I like punctual guys,” you say and Jungkook smiles widely, feeling much better about this. “Good for us I guess,” he says reading the menu to distract himself. “Do you drink? This place makes amazing cocktails” Jungkook says trying to get a read on you. “Of course, I drink, I think I’m going to get an old-fashioned, there are very few places in Seoul that do a good old-fashioned” you can’t stop your nervous rambling at all. “You must’ve lived abroad,” Jungkook asks closing the menu, he knew what he was going to order even before he got here.

“Oh yeah, shit, we didn’t really introduce ourselves,” you say and Jungkook can’t help but giggle at your nervousness. “I’m ___, 26, I work in finance,” you say more interested in hearing what he has to say. “I’m Jeon Jungkook, 27, and I’m a director” Jungkook’s waiting for you to recognize him but that hasn’t happened yet. “A director, that sounds interesting, what kind of projects do you work on?” you ask seeing the server approach the table. “I’ll have an old-fashioned with Ribeye, medium rare with a side salad, can we do french fries for the table?” you ask looking up at Jungkook and he takes a second to shake his head yes. Jungkook isn’t as confident as you were while ordering his food, he’s still awed by it. 

It’s around 2 am when the cab stops outside your apartment complex. Jungkook was supposed to be tired by now, but he was somehow more excited. “So, will I be seeing you again?” you ask him as he leans on the cab. “Will I be seeing you again?” Jungkook turns the question around on you and you nod confidently. “I’ll need your number then” he had been thinking about a moment to ask for your number all night, and now was perfect than ever. “What should we do next? Definitely, something that doesn’t require you to wear heels” Jungkook helps you from stumbling over again, his hand feels hot even though he’s not touching you. “It’s not me, it’s these messed up pavements, I can run in these” you defend yourself pushing some of your hair away. “How about rock, paper and scissors to decide what we do next?” you suggest and Jungkook has to restrain himself, you’re perfect, a little too perfect for him. He loses immediately pulling a paper while you pull a scissor.

Comments:

Lola: Jeon Jungkook in a dating show might heal the world

SaggitariusQween: Jungkook’s already fallen in love, he doesn’t need the 30 days

Zzzzz: Get in line Jungkook, I too have a crush on ___

Yesto: their chemistry is off the charts

Episode 2

“What? Are you doing this show for real?” Namjoon asks Jungkook noticing all the cameras in his apartment. “Of course I am, I can’t keep third-wheeling Aera and you for the rest of my life,” Jungkook says applying some moisturizer on his face. “Which date is this? What’s she like?” Namjoon asks sipping on his coffee and lounging on the sofa. “Second and she’s so cool, she’s outgoing and funny and just so confident,” Jungkook says walking into the living room while applying some lip balm. “The strangest part of the date was she didn’t recognise me, or she did and she was too polite to mention that,” Jungkook says going through the stack of paperwork Namjoon brought. “Isn’t that kinda great tho, she isn’t interested in you because you’re Jeon Jungkook, she’s interested in you just because”

Namjoon's words are ringing in his head as he drives to the location you texted him, it’s a pottery studio. Jungkook opens the door with his hip while holding onto the coffee he picked up on his way. He catches you inspecting a plate when he startles you with a gentle tap on your shoulder. “Good morning!” you greet him excitedly forgetting about the ceramic plate. “Morning, I got us coffee, did you have something to eat?” he asks handing you your warm latte, he remembered your coffee order. “I did have a granola bar on my way here, you want one?” you ask getting a bar from your handbag and Jungkook chuckles taking it happily. 

“It is frustrating how bad I am at this” Jungkook whines for the millionth time struggling with clay. “You need to be gentle Jungkook” “I am being gentle ___” “No you aren’t, take a deep breath, be softer,” you say as your hands come around him and he immediately goes gentle. A glass-like structure forms around within seconds and Jungkook looks up at you while you’re laser-focused on the pottery. “How are you so good at this?” Jungkook asks as you’re both washing your hands, “My mom taught me, she used to make handmade pottery” you say as Jungkook wipes his hand. “You’re amazing at it, can we switch the stuff we made because I really want this bowl-plate thing you made,” he says handing you a fresh napkin. “Sure, what colour do you want it to be,” you ask wiping the streaks of clay off your arms. “What colour do you like” Jungkook asks getting another towel. “A sage green, might look cute, might look like shit,” you say and Jungkook points to something on your face. “Is it clay?” you ask still missing a spot. Jungkook reaches for your cheek, swiping the mark away, a simple touch sending shock waves through your body. 

“So, after our first date like any normal person, I looked you up on Instagram,” you say and Jungkook sits up straight, sensing what’s coming. “And I knew your name was familiar but I hadn’t joined the dots yet, why didn’t you tell me that you’re super famous,” you say looking up at Jungkook sitting across from you. “It didn’t come up naturally, and I really didn’t want to rub you the wrong way by bringing it up” he answers cautiously fishing for the perfect piece of fried chicken. “Is it a deal breaker?” he asks peaking a look at your face and to his surprise, you mouth a no. “I was surprised in a good way, I’ve only dated guys whose jobs are similar to mine, that leads to similar lifestyles and hobbies, and two similar people dating are like two trains headed straight towards eachother, it is going to be a catastrophe” you take a beat to look at him and he has a neutral look on his face.

“We’ve led very different lives and we can learn from eachother, our lifestyles are very different so it will push each of us out of our comfort zone a few times, but it’s nice, it’ll keep us active. What do you think?” you turn the question around on him, laughing to help with the awkwardness. “I completely agree with the similar people being a trainwreck waiting to happen, but the life philosophies and principles do need to coincide to have a long and healthy relationship,” Jungkook says as you both completely abandon the lunch. “I was a little worried about you not being into me and my job,” Jungkook says about what he’s been thinking about since the first date. “You’re so smart and confident, you know what you want and don’t want and I was worried I was in the don’t want column,” Jungkook says sipping on his coke and you look at him with the biggest smile ever. “It’s shocking how good you can read me and if you were in the don’t want column, I wouldn’t be here” 

“What do you have planned for the rest of the day?” you ask Jungkook as you’re walking to his car. “I am meeting up with my tattoo artist to finish off a piece and then I have to go glass shopping,” Jungkook says adjusting his shirt. “Glass like a prescription?” “Yeah my doctor wants me to wear glasses instead of lenses for a while, what do you have planned today” Jungkook knows you don’t work on Saturdays, “nothing, might pick up some candy on my way back and watch a documentary” these plan don’t sound that bad to you, this is what you do on most your weekends. “Wanna join me?” you agree immediately and the production sends off you with vlog cameras. Jungkook seems familiar with the tattoo parlour like he’s spent hours here. “Do you have a tattoo?” Jungkook asks removing his shirt and revealing an arm full of tattoos, also a very lean torso. “I do, but my parents don’t know” you whisper this, feeling the camera Jungkook mounted a few centimetres away. “Where?” he whispers back with a sly smile. “Upper thigh” you whisper leaning closer to him. “Oh” he shies away immediately looking away. “Do you want to get any more?” he asks as the tattoo artist starts with the tattoo. “Maybe, I’m a little indecisive about the design and I feel like I’m going to regret them, do you regret any of these?” you ask taking a seat by him. “Yes, but I’ve gaslit myself into believing they aren’t” Jungkook confesses with a giggle. 

“My eyebrow piercing did hurt, my lip one not so much” Jungkook tells trying to comfort you. “Why did you remove them?” you ask as the person marks a point on your nose. On a whim, you’ve decided to get a nose piercing because why not. “For a movie, I was bored of them anyway” Jungkook says as you wince seeing the pin ready. “I’m just going to pierce it, might hurt like a prick but it’s only going to last a few seconds,” the technician tells you and you feel your heart sink, your pain tolerance is bad. “It’s going to be fine, you don’t have to go through this” Jungkook says in order to reassure you. “No, I should have bigger fears in life than needles hurting me,” you say clutching onto Jungkook’s hand tight as the technician pierces you. Jungkook can feel how much it hurt you because of the way you’re holding onto him.

Jungkook can’t take his eyes off you as he’s driving you back, “What?” you ask and he looks away smiling. “You look hot” it just slips out, Jungkook doesn’t feel as embarrassed about it. “I wasn’t hot before the piercing?” you tease and Jungkook gets defensive immediately. “No, um, that’s not what-” “I’m messing with you,” you say laughing and patting his arm as he stops outside your apartment complex. Jungkook’s quiet as he opens the car door for you, he leaves all the cameras in the car but forgets that you both have your mic packs on you. “I had so much fun today,” he tells you, leaning against his car. “I did too,” you say pushing some of his long hair away from his face. The both of you are barely recorded by the camera still rolling in Jungkook’s car. The camera almost doesn’t catch how close the two of you are standing. “Let’s have many fun days like today” you suggest looking at him. The camera doesn’t catch Jungkook holding onto your hand, grazing your hand with his thumb. 

Comments:

Lola: I was hoping for a ghost moment and got it

SaggitariusQween: we support people maturely talking about what kind of relationships they want

Zzzzz: I agree Jungkook, ___ is hot

Yesto: the sexual tension is off the charts

Episode 3

“I just touched down in Incheon, I’m going to get a cab and sleep for a few hours” you talk to Jungkook over the phone, dragging your luggage. “Alright, don’t get a cab, I’m waiting for you at arrivals” it’s hard not to spot Jungkook with a team of cameramen around him. “I thought you were joking, I can’t believe you actually came” you skip a little as you walk closer to him still on call. “I haven’t seen you all week, I was starting to forget you” Jungkook catches you off guard with the hug, but you lean on him for just a little while. “I was just in and out of meetings for four days, I’m so sleep-deprived I’m starting to shake,” you tell Jungkook buckling in the car. “Just sleep a little, your place is an hour and a half away” he didn’t drive to the airport either, he came here straight from set. “No, I want to catch up with you. What did you do all week” you say as the driver changes lanes. “I’ve been on set all week, the movie is in the last week of shooting” Jungkook’s a little sleepy himself, it’s 4 am, he’s supposed to be asleep right now. Jungkook knocked himself out before you, you turn off the lights as gently as you can. Hoping the camera doesn’t catch you blushing like an idiot seeing him asleep. Somewhere along the way, after minutes of swinging and stirring awake in the car, you lean on him for the support, but also the warmth. 

Jungkook gives up after a few attempts to wake you up are futile. Removing his seat belt, he brings his arm around you and you get comfortable immediately, this new warmth is also what stirs you awake. “You stayed up to come to pick me up and I immediately fell asleep,” you say moving a little away from him while his arm stays put. “Don’t worry about it, I feel much better knowing you got some rest” Jungkook says yawning behind his hand. “What are we doing later today?” you say bending down to get some water, Jungkook is about to move his arm when you lean back like before. “Bowling and wine bar, are you tired, do you want me to change the plans?” he asks and you mumble a no, falling asleep again. “No, I just need five hours of sleep and coffee” “Have a big lunch or you’re going to be shaking because of coffee again,” Jungkook says with a smile, recalling a text from you. “Yes, what time is it?” you ask reaching for his hand, his hands feel a little heavy, maybe you’re just too tired. “I’ll see you in 12 hours”

Jungkook’s body still feels a little sore as he’s walking up to the bowling alley, he feels a lot less tired as he sees you shaking your head to the music. “I thought about making bowling a little more fun, we make a bet,” you tell Jungkook the minute he sits down. “Bet, sounds fun, do you have something on your mind” “I do actually, whoever wins gets to design a tattoo for the loser,” you say and Jungkook perks up all excited. “___, let me remind you, getting a tattoo removed is very expensive and painful,” Jungkook says arrogantly as he picks up a ball. “Jungkook, let me remind you, I am very bad at drawing,” you say throwing the ball and the ball completely misses.

You eventually do end up catching up with Jungkook, barely because this is the last round and Jungkook is leading by 8 points. “___ last chance for you to recall the bet and let me win” what you’ve realised today is just how competitive Jungkook is, it’s kinda hot. “I’d rather watch you lose,” you tell him and he throws the ball, backing away in anticipation he jumps and shouts scoring a perfect strike. “So, do I get to decide on the placement and size too?” Jungkook doesn’t feel tired at all right now, as he drapes an arm around your shoulder. “I don’t like you a lot right now” “Does that mean you liked me a lot more before this” “That’s not what I said” you’re a little huffy as you pick up your handbag but Jungkook takes it from your hands immediately. “That’s what I’m choosing to interpret ___”  he teases you a lot more as you walk to the wine bar, you don’t mind it, you like it, you feel the walls coming down. 

Jungkook doesn’t want to look at your phone as it lights up with notifications, but he can’t help but sneak a look when he sees a strange notification. “Why are you on tinder?” he asks more with fascination and you look at him embarrassed. “I forgot to delete my account” you are a little clumsy picking up your phone but he stops you with a gentle pat on your hand.”You don’t have to” “No but I want to” you open the app to the hottest man’s profile right there. “Wow he’s hot, I’d swipe right on him”  Jungkook says scooting closer beside you. “I wouldn’t, first his bio says here to make friends and the glasses don’t pass the vibe check,” you say and Jungkook looks at you horrified. “Explain the glasses and vibe check thing ___” Jungkook says very seriously, “A lot of serial killers wear these glasses, and I’ve seen a lot of crime documentaries, so it’s a no for me,” you say swiping right and another profile appears. “Thank god he doesn’t have glasses,” Jungkook says sarcastically taking a big swig from his wine glass. “Yes, he is actually kinda hot, a picture at the library, a picture with a dog, his hobbies include pottery, same as mine, I’d swipe right,” you say teasing him and Jungkook scowls turning off your phone for you. “Good thing you don’t need to” you snicker as Jungkook avoids your eyes, red with a tinge of jealousy and wine. 

“Dogs are cute but you know what’s cuter?” Jungkook asks you, very clearly a little intoxicated. “You?” you state dumbfoundedly, not as drunk as Jungkook. “You think I’m cute?” he asks struggling with the seatbelt, you nod helping him with it. “Puppies are even cuter ___ and I’m picking one up from the shelter next week,” he says flopping his head back and hitting it. “You’re a clumsy drunk,” you say placing his head on your shoulders. “I’m going to spoil that dog so much, we’re going to go on hikes, I’m going to be a fit dad” Jungkook rambles on, getting comfortable on your shoulder. “Would you join me and my son for a hike ___?” Jungkook asks lifting his head up, but it immediately flops down. “As I said on our first date, I’d rather die than go on a hike,” you say and Jungkook wines, very cutely. “What if I asked cutely, will that change your mind about hikes?” you turn your face a little and realise just how close Jungkook’s lips are to yours. “Maybe, but in return, I’d want you to help me move” “You’re moving?” Jungkook perks up again, hitting his head much harder again. “Yes, but I want you to stop moving so that you don’t hurt yourself,” you say and Jungkook snuggles just a bit closer.

“So, when am I meeting your boyfriend?” Hara asks chewing on a slice of pizza. You’d known Hara for over a decade now, she was the closest thing you had to a sister, other than your sister. “Jungkook’s not my boyfriend, we’ve only been on three dates,” you say picking out mushrooms from your slice of pizza. “Three dates, how is the sex,” Hara asks in a teasing tone and you swat her arm, feeling a little conscious of all the cameras in your apartment. “We haven’t had sex yet, we haven’t even kissed” you confess with a small voice, looking at the floor all embarrassed. “Dating in Korea is very different than in the states, I’ve definitely kissed guys after the first date” you saw chewing on pizza while also packing up some stuff. “Just kiss him if you want to, you don’t have to overthink it so much” Hara gets right to the point, that’s her style.

“You have so much fancy lingerie” Hara shouts from your closet. “This is fancy stuff, how much did you spend on this?” she asks looking you dead in the eyes. “I bought these my first year working, I’d just gotten a massive Christmas bonus and my boyfriend had dumped me, I wanted to buy “something for myself”, I’ve never actually worn them” “Try 'em for me!” Hara doesn’t let you get in a word till you’re hiding in your bathroom, slipping into a babydoll sleeping set. “It’s so sexy, sure uncomfortable to sleep in but sexy” Hara says as you peek open the door ever so slightly, making sure none of this is in the camera frame. “Wear this and you’ll have Jungkook kissing you all over” Hara teases you and you take a moment to look at yourself in the mirror, it had been a while since you’d felt sexy. 

It was around 1 am when Jungkook called you, by this time Hara and you had stuffed yourself of pizza and soju, she was already knocked out in your bed. “Why are you still awake?” Jungkook’s surprised that you picked up his call, you’re knocked out by now. “Hara came over and we just talked about a lot of stuff and I couldn’t fall asleep” your voice booms in Jungkook’s car as he parks his car. “Is everything alright?” “Yes, everything is more than fine, are you home?” “No, I’m downstairs” it doesn’t take you too long to spot Jungkook’s car, he always parks at the same place. “Are cameras rolling in your car?” you whisper to Jungkook as he rolls down the car window. “Yes” “Are you wearing a mic?” Jungkook finds your questions adorable as he says no. Jungkook gets out of the car and you’re sure none of you is on camera, you forgot about the camera in the backseat.

“Why are you so jumpy today?” Jungkook asks you and you rope your arms around him, coming on tiptoes to come face to face with him. “I don’t know what the rules of dating are in Korea, and I really don’t want to scare you away because I really like you,” you say truthfully and Jungkook snakes his arms around your waist, you’re stumbling already. “Rules about what?” he asks and you’re starting to regret bringing this up. “About what the acceptable pace for a relationship is, about kissing, about sex” Jungkook wasn’t expecting this, it takes him a second to come up with an answer. “___, um, you don’t have to worry about these rules, you just have to ask me and if we’re on the same page, then, um, we’ll go forward with it,” he says chuckling nervously and you lean even closer. “Alright, um, cool-” you stop speaking when he pulls you even closer, his face centimetres away from yours. Jungkook feels oddly confident knowing you’re both on the same page, and he doesn’t let him think himself out of kissing you. He picks you up a little as you kiss him intensely, smiling against his lips. 

Comments:

Lola:OH MY GOD!!!!!!! THEY KISSED

SaggitariusQween: god, when is it my turn to be happy

Zzzzz: them trash talking to eachother is cute but you know what’s even cuter, THEM KISSING EACHOTHER

Yesto: I don’t know if I want to be Jungkook or ___

Ester: their chemistry is seriously something else

Wallu: here because I saw a clip of the show on Twitter and now I’m HOOKED

Episode 4: 

Your morning is not off to the greatest start. First, it was moving day, you hate moving. Second, your dad showed up, bright and early, because a dad can always help with moving, his words not yours. Thirdly, your mom showed up, because she wanted to spend quality time. Fourthly, Jungkook was on his way and wasn’t picking up your calls. To summarise, your divorced parents do not get along are over at your apartment and, Jungkook’s going to meet them like this for the first time. The bell rings and you rush to open the door before your mother can, “Good morning!” Jungkook’s a little too cheerful as he pulls you by the waist, ready to plaster a big kiss when you move your head away. “My parents showed up because why not, they’ve already fought twice about things that went wrong on their wedding day, it’s kinda intense and I want you to-” “___, are you not going to introduce us to your new friend” your mother surprises you, Jungkook still holding onto you, till he process and drops his arm around you immediately.

“Hello,” Jungkook says politely bowing a complete ninety degrees and your fathers yells in the background about how your mother had packed something wrong. Jungkook was not ready to meet the parents, but he was more unsettled by how anxious you looked. “Dad, I really don’t think there’s a correct way to stack boxes” you’re trying really hard not to snap at anybody right now. “Hey, how about you and your mother drive up to the apartment with the small stuff and your father and I’ll ride there with the truck” Jungkook suggest handing you his car keys. “You don’t need to do that, he will ask you some questions you won’t want to answer” you whisper to him but Jungkook hands you his handbag and a few other stuff. “I’ll be fine” 

Jungkook wasn’t fine, he was very close to shitting his pants. Your father is a tall, quiet man, Jungkook wants him to like him so much but at the same time, he’s terrified of him. “You look young, how does one become a director this early?” your father asks Jungkook who’s sandwiched between the driver and your father. “Well, I’ve been working in the industry since I was 12, so I had a lot of connections in the industry,” Jungkook says and the driver gasps recognizing him. “Oh my god, you’re the kid from Memories” the driver lights up with excitement. “___  works hard, she not going to give up her career for marriage or kids” this question takes Jungkook by surprise. “We haven’t discussed this, but I’m not expecting her to” “Most men don’t feel confident about ___’s success, are you intimidated by her success” Jungkook’s starting to realise what you didn’t want you to spend one on one time with your father. “I feel intimidated by ___, not because of her career or success but because she’s confident and I’m not” Jungkook hadn’t really vocalized his feeling about you to anyone yet, it’s insane to think that he’s talking to your father about it. “Are you confident about ___?” it is too early for Jungkook to know that, it’s barely been a month since your first date. That’s been his issue in the past, not being able to match his partner's pace and keeping them waiting till he figures out his feeling. 

“Mom, I need you to stop bothering dad and just let him build this dresser, don’t you have pilates right now” it’s been a long day of mediating between your parents, and you feel guilty for wanting them out of your house. “And did you don’t need to help me with this stuff, I can do it, Jungkook will help me with it” “___ don’t build furniture with a man, it means that you’ll share it with him someday” your mother interjects and Jungkook quietly listens to it all as he arranges your kitchen. “What is so wrong with it mom, Jungkook’s a kind guy I don’t mind the thought of sharing furniture with him,” you say with defeat, “___’s he’s famous, famous people are shallow, he’s too handsome, handsome guys cheat,” she says looking straight at your father. “It’s been fifteen years, when will you get over it” your father sighs putting away his tools. “You both are very difficult to love” you mutter to yourself, walking out of your room and watching Jungkook diligently wipe your crockery, you don’t deserve him.

“Just go home, today has been a disaster,” you tell Jungkook taking the napkin from his hands. “So, I was thinking because pizza for dinner, are your parents, going to stay,” Jungkook says scrolling on his phone and you tug on his arm to get his attention. “Why are you still here? Aren’t you uncomfortable?” you ask and Jungkook cracks a smile before answering you. “I am ___, it’s way too early to meet parents but I don’t care because I like you,” Jungkook says earnestly and you look at him awed. You were expecting him to ghost you after today, “You do?” you ask coming between him and the counter. “I do, do you?” Jungkook asks you, very nervous about your answer. “I do like you,” you say looking Jungkook right in the eyes, you feel sure about this. “You do?” Jungkook asks you again, you peck his lips softly before answering him. “I do and so do you” Jungkook has stars in his eyes when you pull back, “I do,” he says kissing you again. “You guys getting married or something, what’s with the I do’s?” the magical moment is broken by your mother and Jungkook doesn’t push you away this time. 

“I haven’t been in front of the camera in a while, I mean I have for the show, but not for photoshoots,” Jungkook says anxiously as they’re setting up for another set of pictures. Jungkook’s being featured by Forbes for being an entrepreneur thirty under thirty. He didn’t expect his production company to take off, he expected it to be a blip in his career before he gave up and went back to acting. But one of the films he directed is up for a few oscar awards and he can’t believe it. “Have you been liking filming the show?” the interviewer asks him between shots. “It’s definitely pushing my comfort zone, but it’s been fun so far,” he says as the stylist sets his hair before the last few shots. “So, I just texted him asking him his plans and true Jungkook fashion, he hasn’t checked my texts yet,” you tell the cameraman finding Jungkook’s green room. “Is he bad at replying to texts?” the cameraman asks and you nod furiously. “It’s because his phone is on silent when he’s on set, he usually calls and gives me individual answers to all my texts” you’re a little giddy talking about him. The cameramen leave the camera’s behind as they’re notified that Jungkook’s arriving soon. You’re all by yourself, thinking and rethinking the last month.

“___?” Jungkook’s a little confused by the dim lights and candles in the room. “I wanted to surprise you before you left for Japan, you have to leave in four hours right?” you ask standing up and checking your watch. “Yes, DID YOU CUT YOUR HAIR?” you shout frightening him a little. “Yes, I wanted to look presentable for the photo shoot,” he says as you run your fingers through his hair. “It was presentable before, you looked so romantic” Jungkook can’t help but notice how putty you are about the hair change. “Do I not look good anymore?” Jungkook asks taking a look at the spread of food, a lot of it looks homemade. “You look all hot and sexy but not romantic, it’s like a triangle of what you can achieve with a haircut, it can either be sexy and romantic, romantic and hot, hot and sexy, but not the three of them together” Jungkook loves when you say the most ridiculous things so seriously. “So, the gist of all that is you think I’m hot and sexy,” he says with a teasing tone, pulling you closer with one swift move. “The food’s getting cold, you need to eat” you feel nervous and Jungkook looks at you all smugly. “I can’t believe I make you nervous,” he says forcing you to look at him.  

Jungkook and you had been super busy all week, but to make up for it Jungkook had made big plans for the night. It would be your first month since your first date, it would also be the day he officially asks you to be his girlfriend. Instead, he was sitting by himself in the omakase restaurant you really wanted to try out. You pick up Jungkook’s fifth call, you had been knee-deep in documents for the last two weeks. “Hey, where are you? Are you stuck in traffic?” Jungkook asks walking away from the camera. “We had plans tonight? I totally forgot” those words leave your mouth and break his heart a little. “You forgot?” he asks with a small voice, moving even farther away from the camera.

Comments:

Lola: is this their first fight or are they breaking up

SaggitariusQween: ___ is so right about the triangle of haircuts

Zzzzz: do we know if ___’s dad is single

Yesto: This started out so well and ended so bad

Ester: HOW DOES ONE FORGET A DATE WITH JEON JUNGKOOK

Wallu: I can’t believe I have to wait till next week

Dontlook: ___’s mom is an absolute diva and I’m a fan!!!

Episode 5:

“You forgot?” Jungkook asks you as you leave the conference room. “I’ve been in and out of meetings with my lawyers, I’ve been accused of insider trading” you whisper the last part even tho the office is mostly empty. “Are you alright? Why didn’t you tell me earlier? Did you have dinner?” you’re floored by the fact that Jungkook wants to take care of you even tho you stood him up. “It’s just been overwhelming and I’m so fucking scared” you’ve been acting tough all day but it all is starting to get to you. “I am so so sorry for standing you up Jungkook, I promised myself I wouldn’t let my job ruin my relationships but here we are” you close the door to your office and lay on the floor. “___ this is a problem that’s out of your control, you don’t need to be sorry” Jungkook reassures you going back to the table and picking up his keys and jacket. He keeps you on the phone all the while he’s driving to your office.

You’re sitting on a bench outside your office building, the streets are dark and empty. “I’m so sorry for today, I can’t believe I forgot” you apologise again as Jungkook walks out of his car. “Hey- did you get fired?” Jungkook asks referring to the box filled with stuff beside you. “No, I’m taking a leave of absence for a month while the internal investigation completes” you stand up defeated and put your stuff in his backseat. Not wanting to have this conversation on camera, you pull him, as away as you can. “I’m so scared” you finally let your guard downs a few tears expecting your eyes immediately. “What if they find the allegations to be true, what if I end up in jail” you ask and the cameraman zooms into the both of you. “None of that is going to happen” Jungkook tries to reassure you but nothing is helping you right now. Leaning your head on his shoulder, you can feel the fear seize you. “You’re the best boyfriend, running to me even when I let you down” the words come out of your mouth without much thinking and you both realise what you just did. “I mean, we haven’t talked about our labels, but if your first thought after I stand you up is to make sure that I’m okay, you’re an amazing caring guy and you deserve someone better than me, someone, who never forgets-” Jungkook shuts you up with a deep kiss, the amount of feelings he has for you scare him, but he’d rather be hurt than not give you his hundred per cent. 

Jungkook and you spend the rest of the weekend off-camera, you’re starting to feel a little better between all the calls with your lawyer and Jungkook doing everything in hopes to make you feel better. You’d been staying at Jungkook’s place this weekend, it was all very pg 13. “Jungkook parents and my parents, if you’re seeing this, first off don’t and secondly, it was a very g-rated sleepover” you talk to the camera as you make breakfast for the both of you. You were too busy cutting fruit when Jungkook surprises you by snaking his hands around your waist. “You’re making me breakfast, I have the best girlfriend in the world,” he says with his hoarse voice, snuggling into your neck. “When did you wake up?” he asks still hugging you as you plate the fruit. “A few production members were here to set up these cameras, now your parents are probably going to see this,” you say pointing to the cameras.

“Hello mom, I have a great girlfriend don’t I?” Jungkook plays along, helping you get everything to the dining table. “So, what are your plans for today?” you ask him as he munches on the egg sandwich. “I have a few work meetings and I have to be done reading a few scripts, what are you up to?” Jungkook asks watching you sip on your coffee. “Hara is going to take me on a girl's day to help make me feel better, we’ll go window shopping, try on clothes we’re never going to buy and go day drinking” you try and sound a little excited about today, first Monday without work. “So, I have a crazy plan. I’m going to LA for a week tomorrow for some work commitments, how about you come along?” Jungkook suggests, picking out all the apples from your bowl of fruits, he knows you aren’t a fan of apples. “Really? I don’t want to bother you during work” you say and he furiously shakes his head. “The work is a few parties and galas, I’ll have so much more fun with you there” “I don’t have fancy Hollywood clothes, you should go by yourself” you try and push him away a little, wanting to wallow in your misery for a while. “Here, I know you are more than capable of buying stuff for yourself but I want to spoil you.” Jungkook hands you his black card like it’s nothing. 

“You need something low cut ___, show off those amazing pair of-” “Can you be a little less crass and give me that dress,” you say opening the changing room curtains and taking the low cut dress from Hara’s hands. There will be four total events you’ll attend with Jungkook, so you need four outfits with two alternates. Hara is great at shopping so you get the outfits done in no time. Next up is heels. “I just need one comfortable pair of heels that’ll go with all the outfits,” you tell Hara as she sits you down ready to make you try a thousand shoes. “No, absolutely not, when your boyfriend hands you his credit card to spoil you, three pairs of heels are a minimum” Hara next brings you to a nail salon, “I never have the time to get my nails done, these look cute” you show off your freshly painted nails as Hara drives you somewhere. “Where are we going next, my place for wine and sushi?” you ask enthusiastically and Hara nods her head no. “I didn’t know I needed a haircut,” you tell Hara as you walk into the salon. “Today is not about your needs, it’s about spoiling yourself” 

Jungkook and you weren’t expecting any of this press at the airport, you’re clutching onto his arm close as you make your way through. “Are you alright?” he asks you as the flashes go off very frantically. “I just wish I had put on some makeup if I knew there was going to be press” you joke as you go through security. “You look absolutely stunning” Jungkook isn’t big on PDA but he really wants to hold your hand right now. It’s like you can read his mind as you lace your hands together while picking out some snacks.

“Let’s play the balance game” Jungkook suggests picking up the stack of cards production handed you earlier. “Summer or winter” the both of you answer winter together, “Passenger or driver” Jungkook answers driver while you answer passenger, “That’s good to know,” Jungkook says picking up the next card. “Plans or surprises” You both have different answers again, he goes for surprises while you go for plans, “I can plan surprises for you then” you reassure him picking up the next card. “Words or actions” this one is a thinker but you answer first, “actions because words can be empty sometimes” “I prefer actions too” the options keep getting harder, till you’re both stumped thinking about this one, “Passion or stability” “I don’t think I could choose either, passion is very important for a long term relationship,” Jungkook says and you nod in agreement. 

“We need to stay awake if we’re beating this jetlag” you shake Jungkook for the nth time on your drive to the hotel, it’s a bright morning but you’re both still on Seoul time. “How about just a cat nap before we have to start getting ready for the event,” he says resting his head on your shoulder. “Nope, we need to set the cycle right and go to sleep today at a reasonable time so that we can enjoy the rest of the trip,” you say and Jungkook groans snuggling closer to you. “You can be a little annoying when you’re reasonable” Jungkook is very close to falling asleep, he loves the way your hair smells. “That’s rude” it’s hard for you to be awake too, Jungkook’s a little too warm. “I just said a little, the rest of the time you’re attractive, very very attractive” he smiles as you snuggle closer, very close to falling asleep. 

“Jungkook, wake up! It’s six pm already, WE FELL ASLEEP” you shake Jungkook awake and he sits up in bed all groggy. “six pm, SIX PM!” he jumps out of the bed checking his phone. “What time is the car arriving?” you ask taking out a million things from your suitcase. “In forty minutes, you get ready here, I’ll get ready next door in my manager's room” Jungkook stumbles picking up today's suit and you rush into the restroom for a much-needed shower. Jungkook’s struggling with his tie when you emerge from the restroom, ready in twenty minutes. “Do I look like an oscar nominated director's girlfriend?” you ask and Jungkook gasps at how beautiful you look. “You definitely do, I can’t believe you’re my girlfriend. You’re so fucking beautiful” Jungkook has an awestruck look on his face, the same one he had on your first date. “Let me help you with that,” you say taking the tie from his hands. Jungkook takes out his phone, taking a few pictures and videos. “You’re very good at this, how many exes did you do this for?” he asks teasing you as you fix his collar. “None, I went to a private school with uniforms that had actual ties,” you say as he takes a few more pictures. 

“I haven’t socialised in a while, I forgot how exhausting it is,” Jungkook says as you feed him some of your chicken. “You guys are very adorable,” Jimin says from beside you, he’s an actor and you’d been talking his ear off all evening because you don’t know anyone here. “Aren’t we” Jungkook says pulling your chair closer to his. “I don’t want to be single either, do you have any single friends ___” Jimin says very seriously. “I have a friend, she’s single but she’d eat you alive” “Hara?” Jungkook asks and you nod furiously sipping on your whiskey. “I think they’re both the same kinda intense tho?” Jungkook suggests and you disagree, “He’s not her type tho, she likes men who hate themselves for some reason, Jimin is very sure about himself” there you go again saying the most ridiculous thing with all seriousness. “So what, you’re not Jungkook’s type either, yet he’s sappy about you” Jimin says and you turn around to Jungkook with a quirked eyebrow. “What is your type then Jeon Jungkook?” “She’s two tables away, she’s quintessential Jungkook type,” Jimin says before Jungkook can shut him up, not to your surprise she’s a tall, beautiful model. “It was just a fling, I could never emotionally connect with her, but I can with you” he says kissing your cheek. “I believe you,” you say caressing his thigh.”So, about your friend Hara, when are you introducing us” 

“I’d marry these tacos” Jungkook says growing as he takes another big bite, it was the third event and the both of you escaped early to get some food. “How do you know about this place?” he asks and you chew quickly, “After my parents divorced, my dad moved to LA and my mother moved to Seoul, so I’d spend summers here” “There’s so much I don’t know about you, tell me more” “I went to a boarding school for five years, my sister named her son after our pet fish because she lost a bet to me-” “Woah wait, hold up, what is your nephew’s name?” “Henry” “Why would you name your pet ship Henry?” Jungkook asks rolling up his sleeves. “I had the biggest crush on this boy in my class, his name was Henry,” you say and Jungkook sighs cutely. “What was the bet with your sister about?” “It’s too soon for you to know Jungkook, we’re trying to fall in love with eachother and that would just sully my image in your mind” you both laugh as you say that.

“Tell me something I don’t know about you,” you ask Jungkook as you’re both staring at the ocean. “I had my first-ever kiss on camera, I’m a little claustrophobic, and other than for editing purposes, I’ve never actually sat down and watched any of the movies I’ve directed” you turn around to look at him, “Why? They’re masterpieces, I cried for an hour after I got done watching Metropolitan” “Really, an hour? Also masterpieces?” “Yes, the movie so accurately portrayed the loneliness of living in a big city, that scene where she lays on her apartment floor crying by herself as the camera moves away showing an empty apartment, that hit a little close to my heart. I thought I’d never tell you this, but I decided to move closer to my parents because of that movie” a tear escapes Jungkook’s eye and you’re quick to wipe it away. “You, um, wow, really, my movie touched you like that?” “Yes, and a million others too, you’re great at what you do. Do I need to remind you how gosh darn amazing you are” you try and cheer Jungkook up, poking his cheek. 

“My lady, can I have a dance with you?” You both had just gotten back from the last event of the week, a Forbes event. You both had a few too many drinks tonight, maybe that’s why he looks extra charming right now. “Sure, my lord” you giggle playing along with him. The soft music sets the right tone as you rest your head on his chest. There’s silence in your hotel room as you both sway, you don’t know what love feels like, but your heart feels content and happy like it’s never before. Jungkook twirls you around, only to pull you even closer. “So, I got us another room next door, one without cameras,” Jungkook says plastering a sloppy kiss on your cheek. “Really?” you ask pulling away to get a good look at his face. “Yes, only if you want to” “I want to” you reply a little too enthusiastically. Picking you up bridal style, he kisses you one last time before he walks out of the frame. 

Comments:

Lola: Jimin is right, they are adorable

SaggitariusQween: HOW ARE THE BOTH OF THEM SO BEAUTIFUL IN THE MORNING…

Zzzzz: Jimin get in line, we all want to date Hara

Yesto: This is going so well, too well

Ester: why can’t we get the sex on camera too, we’re too involved in this relationship anyway

Wallu: ___ had had such an interesting life

Dontlook: ___ talking about how much Jungkook’s movie affected him, just want he needed to hear

Kth: Can’t believe we just have two episodes to go

Episode 6: 

“I can’t believe you convinced me to take a hike,” you say holding bam in your arms. “It was a barter babe, I helped you move, and in turn, you agreed to go on a hike with me and my son,” Jungkook says cooing at bam, he’s the smallest, cutest, puppy you’ve ever seen. “Come on, it’s going to be so much fun, we’ll see the sunrise,” he says putting one of his airpod in your ear and blasting cheesy pop music. “I’ve been updating my Instagram so often since we started dating, you take too many pictures of me,” you say as Jungkook is taking pictures of bam and you. “Things are good, so good, too good, it’s a little self-sabotaging but I’m starting to worry about why things are so good” you confess to him as you’re climbing down the stairs, maybe hikes aren’t that bad. “What’s the worse that could happen?” “We could have a major fight” “Then we would fight, talking about it, you can’t expect a relationship where there aren’t disagreements, as long as at the end of the day we still want to be with eachother, we’ll be fine” 

Jungkook had the great idea to throw a dinner party for all your friends instead of meeting them at different times. “What if our friends don’t get along,” you ask him while struggling with a chain. “So many things you’re worried about in that smart head of yours, what if things work out, have you ever thought about that” Jungkook says taking over with the jewellery. “You really balance me out Kook,” you say looking at him through the mirror while he too, struggles with the chain. “This should not be this difficult” he groans as the bell to your apartment rings. “It must be Hara, she’s a master at this” You’re not wearing a chair for this dinner because Hara showed up one martini in and suddenly the hook was too small. On the plus side, everyone’s laughing, joking and getting along, especially Hara and Jimin. “Oh my god, you’re handsome,” you say as Jungkook introduces you to his friend Jin. “Jungkook, lock this one down, she has taste” Jin plays along shaking your hand. “Okay that’s enough, you’re married and you’re dating me” 

“Okay, what did you tell Jimin because he’s been giving me some serious hints,” Hara asks you as you pour yourself another drink in the kitchen. “I told him that you’d eat him alive,” you say as you watch Jungkook talking to a few of your friends. “Like sexually-” “No, like emotionally, I’ve seen you with guys and if you do make a move on Jimin, just remember that he’s a dear friend and Jungkook holds grudges,” you say as Namjoon enters the kitchen with an empty glass. “Alright” Namjoon hasn’t talked to you a lot, Jungkook thinks highly of him and you’re worried he doesn’t like you. “Can I make you another drink?” you ask and Namjoon nods, still quiet. “When Jungkook told me about the show I wasn’t very worried because he can be a little spontaneous, but I’m worried now because he’s actually fallen for you,” Namjoon says sipping on his drink. “I don’t want to scare you or anything but I hope you’re sure about your feelings, I care about him a lot and so do you” he continues speaking but you’re still stuck on his last sentence. 

“How do you know if you’re in love with someone?” you ask your mother and she takes a long sip of her coffee. “You just know when you are in love with him ___, is he constantly on your mind, does he make you feel better about yourself, do you see a future with him and does it feel right” your mother lists and you massage your head, feeling a headache coming. “I’m just so, I have so many feelings for him and we’re so great together but what if the fairytale ends” this makes your mother frown. “Is this because of your father and I? We might not be married to eachother but that doesn’t mean I don’t love him anymore” “You love him, still?” “Not on most days, but we spent our youths together, we raised two confident, beautiful daughters. The concept of loving someone is selfless, you give and give until you can’t anymore. Maybe you’ll get hurt in the process, maybe you’ll find the love of your life, you just need to trust the process” she says with a reassuring pat on your hand. “What if I hurt him, I think I’m more terrified of hurting him than me getting hurt” Namjoon’s words are still ringing in your mind. “Darling, you might, but you need to stop worrying about what might happen. Focus on what is happening right now instead, you’ve met this incredible guy and you’re both crazy about eachother, focus on that” 

“So, ___, thoughts?” Jungkook’s gathered his hyungs at his apartment tonight, it was pretty easy to lure them with the promise of fried chicken and beer. “She was hyping up your movie all through the dinner, she enjoys a good whiskey and is very charming, and we know for sure that she doesn’t indulge in insider trading, she’s kinda perfect for you,” Yoongi says taking a big swig of his beer. “Are you sure about her feelings for you?” Namjoon asks the important question everyone has been thinking about. “Yes,” Jungkook says confidently and Namjoon follows up with a how. “She suggested we make Wednesday date night a thing, she’s been clear with her feelings and emotions so far, she leans on me for support and lets me do the same, and, um, not to be sappy but each second I spend with her feels meaningful” Namjoon is a little satisfied with Jungkook’s answer. “Have you guys talked about marriage and kids? It’s really important to be on the same page about this stuff, and no you can’t change eachother mind about this” Jin says sternly, “We haven’t talked about it yet, it’s only been like a month and a half” he says getting a little defensive. “There’s no rush in bringing it up yet, but wherever you do, talk about it in lengths because it’s important” he takes note of what Jin said. 

“Okay, let’s talk about the important stuff, is the sex good?” Jimin asks and multiple people groan at the same time, a few cushions are thrown in his face. “It’s mindblowing” Jungkook mumbles and Namjoon and Jin stand up disagreeing. “You are like a little brother to me why would I want to know that” “I DID NOT NEED TO KNOW THAT” Jungkook’s giggling at how outraged the two are and Yoongi’s question only adds fuel to the fire, “Is the sex good or does it get better every time” “It gets better every time” 

“How was your week? Wait what’s different?” you ask as Jungkook walks up to you. “I’m dressed like you, the sweater, longline jacket, so many accessories, the boots, I’m dressed like you and I kinda like it” Jungkook twirls around for you and it’s shocking how accurate he is. “Where did you get the boots from? Absolutely love them” “I stole a pair from Jimin hyung, he has too many pairs to notice one missing,” he says walking along with you, his hand draping across your waist. “So, I just had coffee with my mom and worked out four times this week, what a productive week,” you say sarcastically as you take your seats. “I don’t love it when you talk about yourself like that, it’s been a tough month for you, cut yourself some slack,” he says massaging your arm. “Thank you,” you say kissing his cheek, “For what?” Jungkook asks as the lights in the stadium go dimmer. “For being kind to me when I’m not” the concert crowd reves up with the first song. “You’re very precious to me, I’m always going to be kind to you” you’re glad how easy it is for Jungkook to vocalize his emotions because you wish it was that easy for you. To just say a million things you feel as you both dance and sing around, you wish you could just vocalize how you feel. 

Comments:

Lola: ___ talking to her mother about love, made me call my mother

SaggitariusQween: Namjoon looking out for Jungkook, what a sappy bunch of dudes

Zzzzz: Jimin getting pillows thrown in his face for asking relevant questions

Yesto: Jungkook reassuring ___ is the kind of support I need

Ester: ‘So, ___, thoughts’ was sucha relevant question

Wallu: please I’m hoping to god they end up together, I’ll stop believing in love if they don’t

Dontlook: I don’t know why I’m more curious about Hara and Jimin

Kth: Can’t believe we just have one episode to go

Episode 7: 

It was the final week of the show, it was also very close to d-day, and you were freaking out about it. “I’m just going to focus on work, I have a shit ton of it to get through” you tell Hara as you’re driving her to work. “So, do you or do you not want to know more about my first date weekend with the guy you set me up with” “correction, I did not do that so when this thing ends in a colossal mess, I don’t want to be blamed for it,” you say sipping on your coffee while stopping at a red light. “What does a first date weekend even mean?” you ask driving again and Hara snickers a little too gleefully.

“We went on a first date on Friday, ended up at his place and spent the rest of the weekend together,” she says throwing you a wink, telling you exactly what they did the entire weekend. “At first, I just thought he was hot and had a great ass, but we talked so much. I think he’s the first guy after Eric that I’ve emotionally connected with” Hara says while she’s texting the mentioned guy. “Eric, your high school boyfriend,” you ask very shocked, “Yes, he might be the one ___” she says with a dreamy look on her face. “Just take it a little slow, play it safe, we don’t want you getting hurt again” “Life is too short to always play it safe ___” 

“I promise you don’t have to go through this, we can just forget about this” Jungkook has been trying to talk you out of the tattoo for a while now, but you’re willing to go through it. You handed the tattoo artist a cute drawing of the winking emoticon Jungkook made, very similar to Jungkook’s own tattoo. “It’s kinda silly and cute like you” Jungkook worried, he was worried that the tattoo might hurt, that you might change your mind, that you might regret it. You’re getting it done on your right, upper inner arm, and you’re scared about it hurting too much. “Just relax and sit back, it’ll be done in a few minutes,” the tattoo artist says and you exhale really loud as the pen touches you for the first time,

Jungkook can feel the pain based on how hard you’re clutching onto his hand. “So, I’m thinking about changing apartments?” Jungkook says in an effort to distract you. “Really? your apartment is pretty big already” you say clutching your lip in pain. “Yes, but I want a house with a backyard for bam” “You’re such a great pet owner, Jesus fucking christ” you don’t get used to the pain, rather it gets worse. “And I um, want a garden to grow some flowers and vegetables, my dad’s great at gardening stuff and I want to have a hobby in common with him” Jungkook keeps talking and you’re starting to relax just a bit. “Because I can’t for the life of me learn how to golf, it’s such a boring game” “You’re such an amazing son, I hope our kids learn that from you” 

Jungkook ignored the insane thing you said all through the time you get your tattoo done. He doesn’t bring it up as he’s driving to dinner. “Okay, that was a super insane thing to say this early in a relationship” you finally address the elephant in the room and Jungkook can’t help but giggle at your anxiousness. “I was taken aback for a second too, but um-” “I was in so much pain that the talking filter in my mind was broken, I am so sorry,” you say as he stops at a red light. “You don’t need to be sorry, but it’s cute to think that you think of our future, our kids” Jungkook’s trying to make this all easy for you by teasing you but it only mortifies you more. “Why did I say that, I want the earth to open up and swallow me” you cringe all over and he can’t help but laugh. “It wasn’t that bad, I was thinking about bringing up the topic of kids and you just dropped it like an atom bomb,” he says and you hit his arm hard. “Can we cancel dinner, I’ll just take a cab home” you suggest and Jungkook nods a no aggressively. “On the other side of cringe is a fun evening ___, we’re going to eat sushi and go sing some karaoke” “I didn’t know we were doing karaoke” “We weren’t but I just added it to today's agenda”

“Holy smokes babe you’re so off-key,” Jungkook says as you very passionately sing a prince song. “I like it when you call me babe, babe” truth be told, the sake you had with dinner is hitting hard right now. Case and point, the complete bench is empty but you take a seat on Jungkook’s lap. “I noticed, the first time I said it your eyes lit up. You tested the waters with Kook too but I like babe better, babe” he says browsing through the music selection, looking for the perfect song. “I also would like to try honey and sweetheart, those are such classics too,” you say and Jungkook finally selects a song. “Honey, I’m looking forward to all the new nicknames to come, my sweetheart,” he says as you stand up to get some water. “That sentence didn’t make sense grammar-wise, but love the sentiment” he surprises you with a quick twirl, you almost stumble but he catches you as he starts singing. “I'd spend ten thousand hours and ten thousand more. Oh, if that's what it takes to learn that sweetheart of yours” Jungkook sings sweetly and you look at him with the most love-sick look, you’ll never be the same kind of happy you are today. 

“I can’t believe it’s been fifty days already, time went by too quickly” Jungkook sighed sitting in the same conference room he sat down for the pre-filming interviews. “___ and you have been the only couple out of the six couples who stayed with their initial match till the end,” the interviewer tells and Jungkook gasps with surprise. “We were too perfectly matched already” Jungkook can’t help but brag a little. “During the early dates with ___, did at any point you feel like changing your partner?” the question makes Jungkook think of the earlier dates. “I was very fascinated by ___ on our first date, and with the gradual growth that we had I was only more curious to know more about her” Jungkook answers honestly and the interviewer nods with a smile. “Do you think 50 days is enough time to fall in love with someone?” he giggles before answering this one, “I think I fell for her when we were in LA, she was such a champion for me through the complete trip. If I were to pinpoint the exact moment, it’d be the second she told me how much my movie affected her.” Jungkook can’t stop smiling, he’s a little giddy to see you. 

“I think around date number three I realised how much Jungkook’s out of my league, but at the same time, I so badly wanted him to be interested in me” you answer the interviewee's question about any time during the month you felt insecure about the relationship. “Do you have any regrets at the end of these 50 days?” she asks and you sigh sitting back in your chair. “I wish I had been more vocal with my compliments and feelings towards him, he always tells me how beautiful I am, how I’m doing better, I wish I had been a little less scared of being forward with him” “Did you fall in love with Jungkook, if yes, when?” you take a good few minutes to answer this question, “When we went to the concert, that’s when I fell for him. My professional life had been in the gutter, to put it gently, and Jungkook told me I was very precious to him, and there was this sinking feeling in my heart, I knew I was down bad for him” a tear rolled down your cheek as you talk about that. “Jungkook left you this” it’s a card that tells you where he’s waiting for you. 

“It was very easy to guess your favourite place in Seoul Kook, you should have made me work a little harder for it” you spot him sitting on a bench facing the Han river. “I didn’t want to make you work for it at all, I’m very impatient today,” Jungkook says like he isn’t impatient all the time. Jungkook lifts you a little off the ground when as he hugs you, your laughter feels like music to his ears. “So, before we talk any further, I have something for you,” you say handing him a very plain envelope. “You wrote me a letter?” he asks and you nod, letting him read the letter you poured your heart into.

Jungkook,

I am not the best at saying what I’m feeling, so I’ve decided to write them down. This list might seem like a weird way to share how I’m feeling but that’s how my mind works.

1. I love how caring you are, and how at times you put me first even when you don’t need to

2. I love that you cry while reading books, it shows how kind-hearted you are

3. I love how you are patient with me and our relationship, even when it’s frustrating at times

4. I love how passionate you are about your work, it shows how much you care

5. I love how reassuring you are, and how you remind me to be gentle with myself. 

6. I love your voice, you could be a singer in another life

7. I love the way you kiss me, I could never get tired of it

And, most importantly, I love you. 

PS. if this reads a little too cringy, we will never speak of this letter again, capiche?

Love,

___

Jungkook’s floored as he’s done reading the letter, you wipe a few tears from his face. “Never thought a list would make me feel like this” he jokes putting away the letter and circling his arms around you. “Lists can be very inspirational, especially when written by me” you play along avoiding his eyes. “___, look at me,” he says pulling your face up with a gentle touch on your chin. “I love you, I love you in a way that frightens and excites me, I love you” Jungkook kisses you passionately at the end of his sentence, he can feel you smiling against his lips and he doesn’t want to stop. 

Comments:

Lola: not gonna lie, the list broke me

SaggitariusQween: They’re so in love, I’m so happy for them yet for some reason I want to run into traffic.

Zzzzz: The nicknames are so darn cute

Yesto: I understand ___’s need to want kids with Jungkook asap

Ester: them talking about the moment they fell in love with the biggest smiles, made me a little too happy

Wallu: Hoping this couple lasts long because I couldn’t believe in love if they don’t

Dontlook: Okay, just checked their Instagrams and they’re all over each other’s pages, glad they’re still in love

Kth: Can’t believe there’s not going to be another Jungkook and ___ episode

A year later…

The bed is empty and cold when you wake up, putting on a robe you wince because of the morning light as you walk downstairs. Jungkook’s humming by himself as he flips the omelette, he knows better than to cut up fruit, after last night the both of you need a big, hearty breakfast. His plans to surprise you with breakfast in bed are ruined by you hugging him from behind. “I hate waking up with you not in bed” you mumble against his bare back and he chuckles turning around to face you. “I am sorry, but in my defence, you were supposed to be asleep so I could be the perfect boyfriend,” he says kissing you on the lips. “You are already a perfect boyfriend,” you say kissing him with a smile on your face, the perfect moment is broken up by the toaster going off.

“So, happy first anniversary,” Jungkook says and you look at him all puzzled and confused. “Our anniversary isn’t for another month, that’s why we planned the Paris trip for next month,” you say and he frowns his eyebrows. “No, we’re going on the trip next month because of my scheduling issues and a year ago today, we went on our first date” Jungkook has a lot of things prepared for today. “I thought our anniversary would be the day I accidentally called you my boyfriend and you went along with it”  you made sure to mark that date in your calendar, never wanting to forget it. “How do we decide on this?” “Rock, paper and scissors” you suggest and Jungkook complies immediately. Like always he pulls a paper and you pull scissors, “How the fuck do you always win? What kind of witchcraft is this?” he groans with outrage. “So, Our anniversary is next month but I’d still like those gifts. I on the other hand didn’t get you any gifts because like we decided, our anniversary is next month” you snatch the small bag from his hands, it's jewellery for sure. 

“What, is this a ring? Are you proposing? How dare you just hand me my engagement ring like it’s a random cup of coffee” you’re the one outraged this time but he just laughs sitting up in his bed. “First off, you literally stanched the gift from my hands and just open it,” he says and you gently open the velvet box. It’s not a ring, it’s a pendant, a replica of the pendant your grandmother gave you and you lost a few years ago. “Oh my god, this is the sweetest thing ever, my god you’re sweet. I love you” you say pecking his lips and he’s still fixated on the small bag. “There’s more to it, look inside” you find a polaroid picture of Jungkook and you from a year ago, behind it reads, ‘Let’s move in together the card and the gift makes you tear up a little. “I don’t have a gift for you yet Kook, it’s arriving next week and it’s not as sentimental as this one,” you say cuddling closer to you.  “You’re the only gift I need ___, other than the vintage camcorder you’ve already bought me” “I knew Jimin is too weak to keep a secret” you groan about the ruined surprise. “Hara’s made him weak, can’t believe they’re pregnant” Jungkook sighs as he’s looking back at the year, it’s been a life-changing year. “I know we’re too busy to have a kid right now, how about we have very protected sex in our bed” Jungkook suggests pulling you in his lap. “Our bed” you aw about the fact that you’re both moving in together while Jungkook leaves a trail of sloppy kisses.

ISTG YALL THESE BOOKS ARE TRYING TO KILL ME. i literally cannot right now every story i read of theirs always does smth to me 😣. this story was PHENOMENAL i’m not even joking. the way the express their love for each other makes me sick bc of how cute it is. i will never understand how oc waited for so long bc i could NEVER. she a strong one ✊🏼. i couldn’t stand the way this made me feel like i literally felt what they felt. another i can’t understand is how someone can make and come up with such great stories bc again i could literally never come up with something as good as this. i spent my whole night reading this. it’s 9am n i’m in tears. this was honestly so amazing read this RIGHT NOW.

a thousand reasons why | jjk (m)

Summary: “And if all of this experience was indeed a dream, you chose to stay just a little longer.”

After leaving to work towards his dream rather than the bonds that shackle him to home, you didn’t expect to see Jungkook again years later at your best friend’s wedding. And even less, for love to rekindle at second glance.

pairing: Jungkook x reader

genre: f2l; fluff, angst, smut, crack

warnings: a whole laundry list tf: (past) minor character death, somewhat toxic parents, (mentions of) gambling, blond & then 5th muster pied piper (fuckboy) jk lol, this jimin, jealousy, alcohol consumption, unrequited love (not between jk & oc), friends fighting; explicit multiple (2) sex scenes that include: dom & big dick!jk, light hair pulling, marking, tiddie sucking/breast play, clit pinching, pussy slapping, soft & rough sex, praising, biting, some spit ig, oral (f. & m.), fingering, handjob, consent <3, cockwarming, squirting, oversensitivity, multiple orgasms, mouth fucking,… uhh, consensual drunk sex, protected & unprotected sex…. yeah

word count: 43.1k (i sincerely apologise <3)

credits: such a beautiful banner by my lovely @taemaknae​​ <3 !! beta’d by @bangtanhome​​​ @hobiandsprite​​ & @missgeniality​​ - your brains are exquisite and this fic would be NOTHING without you !! & parts read by @hantaev​​ ILY ALL <3

a/n: i’m honestly SORRY for the wc lol pls still read tho, i worked so so hard on it :’) based on the 2013 movie YJHD! and a belated love letter to one of my favourite people in this world - happy birthday, jeon jungkook. i’ll always be inspired by your words and admire you forever <3

uploaded to AO3, too (for those who prefer pdfs or mobile readings!) + the fic is split in ‘Before’ & ‘Now’ - that way, you can read it in 2 sittings if you’d like <3

➳ listen to the (collaborative!) ATRW playlist for the full experience!

MASTERLIST | WIPs

The slowly vanishing light of the sun bathes the room in a golden glow when you close the door to your apartment behind you.

Coming home feels different today. With the boxes under your arms, you feel the weight of the postcards and invitations heavier than usual. After letting Dia ramble about the plans for the next few days, dreamy eyes drifting off now and then, you’ve grown increasingly tired this evening. And yet, you can’t wait to send off the cards that remain before the big day breaks in.

You lift the sunglasses from your eyes and place them on your head, not bothering to change your clothes before you sit down at your desk and start putting the invitations into envelopes. You wait and read with a thumping heart, fingers working through the pile quickly until you finally see it.

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rolling stone | jeon jungkook

summary: he was a rolling stone with no ties to anyone or any place and that’s how he and his fans liked it. now he’s found you and it’s never been this hard to convince someone that he’ll stay.

the problem is neither of you know what it means to express yourselves without reverting to sex as a form to end discussion. it causes all hell to break loose when Jungkook realized if he wants you to stay for him [with him] then he needs to show it to you too. can Jungkook and Y/n get past their own growing doubts on if what they feel is real and work out a way to be together—especially considering Y/n wants nothing to do with the limelight?

➢ genre/au: idol au, friends-w-benefits, smut, angst

➢ pairing: idol!jungkook x non idol!reader[she/her. female autonomy]

➢ 17.2k words

warnings: smut. angst. FWB. jk is lowkey sad :(, also mentioned to be a player but we don’t see it. unprotected relations. handjöb. fingering. cunnilingus. make out in a jacuzzi. sèx interrupted. jk has a busy schedule. y/n isn’t mean, just blunt. jin and Hobi go to military. bts is on break. dispatch being little bitches. rough missionary and riding. face slapping during sëx. jealous jk. lowkey insecure jk. saesang mention. they have cute moments. slight fluff when y/n and jk are together—also v comfortable to be themselves. open ending sorta.

song inspo: rolling stone — brent faiyaz [ im rich as fuck and I ain’t nothing at the same time ]. still with you — jeon jungkook [ i will look into your eyes and say I missed you]. do I wanna know — arctic monkeys [ too busy beings yours to fall for someone new ].

this work is a part of a collaboration: INDUSTRY BABY

Blue flashing lights danced across the crowds of people in the large arena. It reeked of sweat and voices cracked out of pitch from screaming. So many bodies crammed into the arena creating body heat that added on to the sweat that came to him from dancing. Without a care in the world he lifted the end of his shirt to wipe sweat off his forehead. A smile spread on his face at the chants from fans going crazy over his exposed abs that glistened with sweat. When he let his shirt go there was a clear ‘awe’ sweeping across the stage.

Jungkook felt like he could live in this moment forever but the shutting off of the lights as the music faded into nothing told him it was time for him and the others to head out.

“They go crazy every time,” was the first thing Hoseok said when they made it backstage. A water was thrown at Jungkook that he caught midair chugging down its content in a few gulps, crumbling the plastic in his hand. He coughed a little, nodding his head, “Every time.”

“You know what I wanna do right now?” Suga, asked them all, “I wanna go home and sleep for two days.”

“Really? I want to go out and get drunk,” Jimin said with a grin, “What about you Kook?”

Jungkook reached for the back of his black tee, lifting it up from the collar and yanking it off, leaving to get his things in the corner of their dressing room. He just shrugged in response because he didn’t know. He could go out and drink and probably find some nameless girl in this foreign city to sleep with and get his adrenaline out but he was also so damn tired.

“I’m just gonna rest,” Jungkook said, making Jimin and Hoseok groan.

“It’s the last concert for a long time, come on man let’s go out,” Jin said as Jungkook threw on a t-shirt, “You’re gonna have so much time to rest.”

Taehyung had a little smirk on his face, “He’s not resting, he’s gonna call up that little sneaky link of his.”

“Which one?” Namjoon asked as he sat on the sofa for a breath. Hoseok joined him watching Jungkook pack up, “The only one he intentionally flies out to see. The others he only has when he’s already in the city. International playboy, our Jungkooky is.”

“I’m not going to call anyone,” Jungkook mumbled.

By the time Jungkook got to his hotel room it was past midnight and by the time he got in bed it was closer to 2:00am. He was too used to nightlife to be affected by this though. He was alone in his apartment and the only thing he had was his cellphone and the tv playing behind him. The movie that played in the background was boring and he flipped his phone over and over again against his chest as if contemplating something.

With an annoyed smack of his lips he unlocked it and went to his contacts waiting to hear the dial tone end and the line to connect.

“Hello?”

“Are you busy?” Jungkook asked, checking the time again, “What time is it for you?”

“Just past midnight, where are you?” You asked as you rolled onto your side on your bed. Jungkook’s brows furrowed in thought, “I can’t remember… but close enough to only be a couple hours apart from you.”

Your lips curled into a soft smirk, “Think you can catch the flight out?”

“You want me to?” Jungkook asked, checking the time again to see if that was even possible right now. He couldn’t see you shake your head no, even as you smiled.

“It’s late and you’re tired,” you said what he already knew, “Besides, don’t you have another girl to keep your bed warm? You know… it’s been a while since the last time.”

Jungkook scoffed, choosing to ignore the first question you made and chose instead to say, “Have you gotten a boyfriend since then?”

He wasn’t jealous at all.

Not at all.

The two of you have been in this extremely tricky relationship that isn’t technically a relationship but he doesn’t know how else to refer to it as.

He met you two years ago when the group performed in your city. You had been working as a waitress then and the management team had rented out the restaurant you worked at for them to go there for drinks and food after the concert. You were attractive, that’s what Jungkook had realized first when he saw you bringing out their plates. He had been pumped up with adrenaline from performing and once everyone was drunk and no longer paying attention he found himself asking you questions casually.

He remembers you telling him you had wanted to go to the concert but couldn’t actually get tickets because they sold out so fast. He remembers telling you that he’ll give you backstage passes for the next night where they would be performing there again. After meeting you backstage it didn’t take long to get you back to his hotel.

You weren’t easy but you also didn’t shy away from his advances, even signed an NDA for that one night without batting an eye. You understood his work and you weren’t expecting anything at the time. You were just a college student looking for fun and this idol gave it to you.

For the last two years he’s flown in to see you when he’s had the chance. His visits usually consisted of visiting your place for the weekend or meeting at his hotel to have sex and just give him time to relax. You had conversations after sleeping together sometimes in bed, sometimes in the bathtub, but never once did either of you push for anything more.

He believes even now you’re just here for the fun of it.

It’s been months since he last saw you and weeks since he last talked to you so his question felt valid and your silence felt alarming.

“I went on a date the other day,” you said with a shrug finally answering his question, “But it wasn't worth it.”

“Hm,” Jungkook said as he looked away, “What’d you guys do?”

“Just went to some restaurant and had drinks… you know the usual,” you told him.

He nodded, looking back at you as you laid in bed with the lights dimmed and the soft hum of the television in the background. It mirrored his own vacant bedroom and set up that he found himself on his side just like you.

You waited for him to say something but he didn’t, he just looked at his screen zoned out. You looked at him with worry in your eyes, “You’re tired.”

“No, I’m not,” he released a betraying yawn and even he couldn’t help but smile at his attempt to lie to you. He released a heavy breath flipping onto his back looking away from his phone, “Alright I’m tired, but I wanted to talk to you.”

“Did you miss me?” You asked with a smile watching him nod still looking up at his galaxy sky. You laid your head on your hand as you said, “I missed you too.”

He broke out into a smile as he shifted his gaze toward you, “Did you?”

“Mhm,” you nodded as he turned back onto his side to face you, “I missed a lot of things.”

“Yeah?” He asked subconsciously, biting his lip.

Now Jungkook couldn’t lie, he had relations with other people recently and he doesn’t regret nor feel guilty over them. He expresses himself very clearly that those hookups are nothing more than just that. In the beginning he might have said that you were just a hookup, a constant hookup in his life that he never thought much about, but now he knew that was a lie because he missed you too.

He cleared his throat as he decided to finally vocalize it instead of just nodding his head, “I missed you a lot actually.”

“Like?” You asked lightly.

“What?”

“Like what did you miss?” You asked with a hint of a smirk as you thought about all the things you missed about Jungkook since the last time you saw him. He looked at his screen with large sparkly eyes as he took you in. Your hair was splayed across your pillow and your shoulders were exposed just slightly over your shirt but he knew that you’re not wearing anything on the bottom. You liked to sleep without pants and he knew this well.

“Miss sleeping next to you,” he confessed as he thought about the empty bed he usually occupied. He looked at you more hazy, “Miss sleeping with you.”

You smiled knowingly because things between you always seemed to drift back to the topic of sensuality. That was what this situation between you two sprouted on anyway, the desire to have sex with one and other with no strings attached. This was built on your sexual attraction toward each and no matter the kind of conversation you have it will always find a way to drift back into its familiar territory. Neither of you had a problem with that but always a wake up call to whenever you get a little too emotionally attached and have to revert.

“Wish I was there with you right now,” you admitted with a small bite of your bottom lip, “I haven't been able to feel you in months, do you know how hard that’s been?”

Jungkook felt his heart leap for a moment as he understood where the conversation would lead to but still felt a pang of irritation. Don’t make him believe it’s difficult for you to be away from him when you enjoy dates. He hasn’t been inside of you in months but he also knows you’ve had your fair share of flings in the meantime just like him.

Still, he couldn’t hold in the small grunt in annoyance at the reminder of how long it’s been, three or four months too long. He shook his head, “Fuck, I really want to see you right now.”

“Jungkook,” you said softly through the phone, “I want to see you too.”

“What if I fly out this weekend?” Jungkook asked suddenly and seriously despite how late it was for the both of you.

“Could you?” You asked hopefully. He nodded his head, “I could.”

When Jungkook flew in that Friday at 3:00am he knew you would be sleeping. It didn’t stop him from using the house key you had given him the last time you were and probably in the most incognito way he’s been in a long time, he went to your place.

You were sleeping on your side looking peacefully perfect. Jungkook dropped his bags on the floor by your bedroom door before slipping off some of his outer layers to join you on the bed. You tossed around a bit at the noise and sleepily you opened your eyes nearly screaming at the figure approaching you. When you noticed it was Jungkook you smiled, lifting an arm up for him to crawl into. He did so tiredly as he collapsed onto your bed in your arms.

“I’m so tired,” he confessed as he rested his head in the crook of your neck, “So fucking tired.” And he wasn’t just talking about right now.

You pressed a soft kiss to his forehead letting him cling to you, “I know, baby.”

He sighed against you as he let his eyes close and went under the covers with you, “Miss you.”

“Missed you too,” you said, running your fingers through his hair as you both tried to fall asleep.

“Morning,” you whispered softly the next morning as you rolled onto his chest noticing he was awake. He gave you a warm smile, brushing your hair out of your face and looking down at you with sleepy eyes, “Morning.”

His arm was wrapped around your head as you laid on his bicep and his thumb reached over to caress your cheek softly.

Sometimes, he craves this sort of intimacy. He’s a man who has no problem moving from one place to the next, one girl to another… he’s just not the type of man that can be owned by any place, person or thing. There’s a reason he loves being on tour so much or why he has so many girls to be with not one relationship in a long time.

He’s a rolling stone, that’s what Namjoon always says, he can’t stay anywhere or with anyone for too long.

Namjoon’s right, Jungkook completely agrees with him. Sometimes he does imagine what it would be like to have someone to go to when he needs it, a constant in his life, never a rare occasion. You’re about as constant as it gets when it comes to his nonexistent love life and that probably makes this all just a fraction more pathetic. His most reliant fuck was still so out of reach.

His touch was tender, thumb still grazing on your cheek as you fought the urge to go back to sleep. He leaned down the short distance between you and pressed his lips to yours in a chaste kiss.

“What's your plan for today?” You asked with a smile.

“This,” he said, giving you another sweet kiss, “And only this,” another kiss.

You let him deepen the kiss, even pushing forward to get closer to him. He smiled between kisses as he shifted to his side and fully enveloped you in his arms. You pulled away after some time to look at him and his eyes were closed like he was still tired.

“But what’s your plan when you get back,” You asked him and he released a breathy sigh holding you close against his chest while caressing small circles along your arm.

“Well I have a bunch of meetings this week for Calvin Klein,” Jungkook said as he hugged you, “Then I’ll have to fly back home.”

“Mmm, does that mean I’m gonna get to see you in your underwear?” You asked, placing a soft kiss on his naked chest. He smiled, “You already do see me in my underwear.”

“You’re right,” you said with a small laugh before realizing something that made you groan, “That means millions of other people are going to see this and that makes me a little jealous.”

He breathed heavily as your hand slid down toward his purple briefs slipping under the band. Jungkook leaned toward you for a kiss, “I’m not going to have a photo shoot in just underwear, baby.”

“Yeah but that’s because of your reputation not because you don’t want to be seen like this,” you said, planting another kiss on his torso as your finger teased his happy trail, “You’re not doing it for me.”

Jungkook bit his lip, “If you don’t want me to do the shoot at all then… I could probably cancel it.”

He knew it wasn’t fully possible to cancel a contract he already signed and it’s strange of him to even propose that but the words left his lips before he could stop himself. He wasn’t thinking reasonably but if he could find a way to not do it if it made you uncomfortable then he won’t.

You shook your head, hand slipping toward his flaccid member that was slowly coming to life with your touch, “You can’t cancel it for me.”

“I know,” he sighed when your palm ran over his dick feeling himself harden underneath your touch, “But are you gonna be upset with me?”

“Of course not, it’s your job,” you said kissing down his abs while rolling his cock around with your palm, “I can’t expect you to not do something for me of all people. When you get a real girlfriend then you can make decisions like that.”

Jungkook nodded in understanding but still kept the thought in his head. If he had a real girlfriend he shouldn’t see you anymore—no, he wouldn’t see you—no, he couldn’t see you anymore. If he couldn’t see you then he wouldn’t be able to feel the pleasure of your hand slowly stroking his member.

Refusing to think more on that topic he pulled you in for a real kiss as your hand wrapped around his hard length giving it some gentle strokes that had him releasing a soft moan into your mouth. He let his hand slide down your back toward your ass letting his fingers dig in and hoist you up higher for a leg of your yo curl up against his thigh. His long arm reached down toward your covered center letting his middle finger trail up the length of your slit from where your clit started all the way toward your butt feeling a dampness from where your cunt was.

You climbed further up his side still with your hand stroking his cock as he pulled your panties to the side to feel your pussy.

Your free hand moved to his chest, taut muscles tensing with each stroke of his dick and you pulled away from his mouth with a string of saliva connecting you two still. You trailed kisses down his collarbone as his breath hitched from the way you switched between squeezing at his base to softly circling his tip. He licked his lips, biting back a groan as you left a sloppy open mouth kiss against his pec, tongue soothing any sting your teeth left when you nipped at him lightly.

Jungkook took a deep breath when he felt your tongue swipe over his hardened nipple all while you slipped your hand down to squeeze his balls making his cock twitch more. Your teeth nipped at his bud pulling lightly and he hissed in please as you did it again a few times while simply rolling his balls around while his cock twitched and ached for relief. He went to lower his hand down toward your clit when you nipped his sensitive nipple again.

He brought the hand that he had just resting on the bed toward your chest that pressed against his, groping a tit as best as he could from this position.

His middle finger ran along your folds slowly feeling your hips begin to wiggle a little against his thigh and he let his ring finger join in flicking your folds. You pulled away from his chest to look at him as he pushed the thick finger between your pussy lips sinking into your entrance before rubbing the outer labia.

“I never get tired of seeing you like this,” you moaned while giving his cock attention and jerking him off quickly. Your hips bucked back into his hand as he pulled his finger out to flick into your entrance folds before plunging back in rougher now with his ring finger too.

“I know,” he sighed as it all became too much. He had to be inside of you, he was too tired when he got here and now all he can think about is your pussy. With a grunt he picked you up and put you down directly over his cock not caring about your slick which dribbled onto his purple briefs. His hands immediately fell down to your hips guiding you back and forth to grind your wet push on his cock which laid flatly against his pelvis.

He licked his dry lips, “I love seeing you like this too”

“You gonna fuck me now?” You asked hopefully as he nodded, you raised yourself onto your knees holding his thin waist for support and watched him line his cock with your entrance.

You didn’t need much prep considering the foreplay you just had and let yourself sink onto his length.

There was nothing slow about the way you were lifting yourself up his length and dropping back down. You were in a time crunch solely based on your need to ful together once before you let your weekend with him start. Jungkook’s hands dug into the thick flesh of your hips and thighs as he picked up the pace letting his own hips fuck up until you.

“Fuck,” he growled as he moved you up and down on his big cock, “Love this pussy.”

Your hands groped at your own tits making him speed up his thrusts as he took in the pretty sight of you above him riding his cock like the good girl you are for him.

"Y/n, I lo—“

His words caught in his throat as you nearly jumped off of him. Both of you turned to the nightstand where his phone sat facing up and ringing. Jungkook shook his head, “Ignore it.”

You nodded trying to go back to riding him as the call ended making you feel more at ease. Just as you both were getting back into it, it rang again.

“Fucking hell,” he groaned in frustration as he looked at it and saw his manager’s name displayed. He chose to ignore it again, moving back in to kiss you this time but once again you were interrupted and at this point you were fed up. You pushed against his chest to move him back and with a defeated sigh he let you slide yourself off his hard dick.

He laid there for a moment trying to catch his breath as the fall ended only for another to begin. Swallowing dryly he picked up his phone and finally answered harshly, “What?!”

“Flight’s been changed, Seokjin leaves tomorrow for the military so you gotta get on the soonest flight available if you want to see him off,” his manager said and Jungkook felt a pang of guilt in his chest.

Guilt because he wanted to stay and make you feel good instead of just running off the second he’s called. Then he felt more guilty at the thought that he’s even considering not going to see his own hyung off.

“Okay,” Jungkook said in a raspy tone, “I’ll get ready.”

“I’ll pick you up in twenty.”

“Twenty? Wait that’s no—“

Click.

He released a deep breath as he looked over to you as you sat up and fixed your underwear looking around for a t-shirt to slip on. His member was achingly hard and coated with your wetness but he knew he didn’t have enough time. He would have to shower still and pack his bags.

“Sorry,” he muttered shyly as he sat up looking down at his dick knowing he would either need to jack himself off in the shower and shower cold.

“Don’t worry about it,” you said, tugging your hair behind your ears, “You have obligations, I get that.”

“Y/n,” he called to you but you weren’t listening.

You seemed to read his mind though since you said, “Go shower, I’ll pack up your things for you.”

In the end his leave was rushed and unsatisfactory, leaving him more stressed and worked up than when he first arrived here. In truth he was annoyed, he just got here not even a full 24 hours ago but he had to leave already. He hasn’t even been here for twelve hours!!! He thought Jin was leaving sometime later this week so when did that change? Why did they let him fly to see you only to make him go back the second he does?

He’s sad about his hyung leaving and he would never miss it but he doesn’t want to miss being with you either.

Jimin was the first to hang out with Jungkook after Jin’s departure. Jungkook won’t lie and say he didn’t cry sending his friend off which he’s sure is a mixture of missing him but also the stress that’s getting to him every day.

“Where were you this morning?” Jimin asked. Jungkook was stuck on a flight all night and he didn’t get back till this morning right before they sent Jin off. He released a tired sigh, “Do you really want to know?”

Jimin nodded as Jungkook continued, “I went to see Y/n.”

“Already?” Jimin asked with a small chuckle as Taehyung joined them in one of the cars they were leaving.

“Already what?” Taehyung asked.

“He already went to see Y/n.”

“You did?” Taehyung asked looking back at him, “How was that?”

“Short,” Jungkook answered honestly as he yawned, “Literally flew in one night and left the next.”

“What did Y/n say about you leaving?” Jimin asked him and he just shrugged.

“Nothing, well she said I have obligations and just ended it there. She didn’t really talk to me after but she helped me pack and stuff,” Jungkook said as he stared out the window as their trusted driver got in. Taehyung sighed, “You think Y/n is tired of it already?”

“What do you mean?”

“It’s been two years Kook,” Taehyung said honestly, “You’re not dating, you rarely even talk and yet you string Y/n along, basically. Or it might be the other way around where you’re being strung along by her and isn’t it just tiring? Don’t you just want to be in a real relationship with Y/n?”

“No,” Jungkook said sternly, “I don’t.”

“You’re lying,” Jimin said annoyed, “You do want to. We know you better than you know yourself so don’t sit there and tell us that you don’t want Y/n for more than just a fuck.”

“Don’t say it like that.”

“Isn’t that what it is?” Taehyung asked with a light scoff and laugh. He knows Jungkook, he’s not a relationship sort of guy.

He also cares about Jungkook deeply. He knows that out of all of them he seems to be the most exhausted and borderline depressed. He loves being on stage and touring but they all need a break and Jungkook is thankful for time off but he just doesn’t know what to do with himself. Instead he wondered what you were up to and he hated that. He shouldn’t be worrying at all about what you were doing.

“Are we getting drunk tonight?” Your friend Lia asked as the two of you stood in your bedroom. Jungkook left yesterday but you’re sure he’s back home now and it's barely Saturday night. He arrived during midweek but he couldn’t even stay past Friday morning considering he had to leave. It defeated the purpose of wanting to spend a weekend together but you understood.

You understand your place. You’re practically just a side piece and he had to go see Jin. Everyone is going to miss him and Jungkook will too, that’s why you couldn’t say anything to him and honestly you wouldn’t have even thought to act upset with him.

“We can,” you said, double checking your appearance in the mirror. Your intention for this weekend was to stay at home and probably lay in bed with Jungkook the entire time.

You didn’t even act like you were having the best night at the club. You did manage to actually dance with your friends and get a few drinks bought for you but you could only think about going home. Usually you don't mind going out and getting drunk but sometimes you just really aren’t in the mood for it. Tonight happened to be one of those nights where you’re practically forcing yourself to have a good time so it wouldn’t feel like an entire waste of time.

“So what’s your name?” Some guy asked you at the bar. He had just bought you and Lia a round of drinks that you watched the bartender make and now he’s interested in conversation. You didn’t think anything of it as you decided to entertain him at least for a bit while Lia chatted up the bartender.

“Y/n,” you said simply, “Yours?”

“Eric,” he said, taking a drink from his cup, “So what are you girls doing out tonight? Plan on hitting any more bars?”

“Probably,” Lia piped in, looking him up and down. You won’t lie and say the guy isn’t cute. He’s taller, a bit more lean and with wavy blond hair. His eyes were a shade of green from what you could tell and he happened to have pretty hands. In point, he’s attractive.

“Wanna join?” You asked, feeling slightly tipsy and at this point if you weren’t going to do anything fun tonight, why not make the most of it?

“So are you in school?” He asked once the three of you were outside and Lia was putting the number the bartender gave her in her phone case. You shook your head, “No, I’m graduated, you?”

“I work in eCommerce,” he told you as you walked down the busy streets of downtown which were full of nightlife and bar hoppers. You released a light gasp, “Me too.”

“Do you?” Eric asked while pointing to another bar where the three of you could go in. He paid for your entries and you repaid him with a drink at the bar. So far he seems better than the usual creeps who try to hit on you. You were both drunk too so conversation just came in easier. “What do you sell?”

“Um well I work for a company that takes on brand clients and we help them sell their things on Amazon and in store,” you told him as the two of you sat at the bar, “Just the other day I went to this sports apparel headquarters and we picked out best sellers and how to market them online.”

“I do similar work but with small businesses,” he told you with a smile, “You work with franchises though, right?”

“Yeah! Maybe I’ve seen you around somewhere, at a convention maybe?” You asked hopefully. Since the two of you had similar jobs it was easy to find something to talk about and by the end of the night you exchanged numbers and you actually didn’t mind it he texted you after.

You have to carry on with your normal life when Jungkook isn’t around. You’re not dating, you don’t even talk on the regular so it’s not like you owe him anything either. He goes off and sleeps with whoever he wants and you do the same. You shouldn’t feel guilty about getting a guy’s number but sometimes you can't help it.

The following Thursday you went on a ‘date’ with Eric. It wasn’t anything serious but the two of you had a lot in common. At first you tried to find an excuse to not go but Lia convinced you otherwise. She reminded you that it’s been too long since you went on an actual date and it’s not like you had a real reason to turn him down.

If anything it was a nice change of pace to get to talk to a man who can actually be seen in public with you and who doesn’t have to disguise himself every time you go out. He didn’t have a reason to leave the date or a flight to catch. You forgot how normal and easy it was to go on a date with a guy. You didn’t have to worry about pictures being taken or rumors that might spread.

It didn’t change the fact that you still missed Jungkook’s presence sometimes.

It took weeks to see each other and in all honesty, you were very surprised when you found out where you would be meeting. You couldn’t wrap your mind around the fact that he really did fly you out to a city you’ve never been to for the weekend. He had promotions here and wanted you to come because of how long it’s been since you last actually enjoyed each other’s company to full potential.

You looked around at the exhibit you were currently in. It was a dark room with a projection of being underwater mixed with patterns that felt otherworldly. It reflected off your skin and created a shadow wherever you stood and it just had you in awe at how pretty it looked.

“Finally found you,” a voice said from behind you and as you looked over you could see a perfect silhouette of someone familiar.

Jungkook stood where the light still hit more clearly and he was dressed casually but still in designer. The two of you met somewhere in the middle as you pointed to the room, “I think this one’s my favorite.”

“I can show you a better one,” Jungkook said as he took a step closer toward you letting his hand touch your lower back—the one without tattoos.

You were at an illusion museum, his idea but for the most part you were both still a little concealed with hats and baggy clothes. Still, he must’ve picked the right time because there was practically no one around anyway.

“Show me then,” you said as he took your hand in his and led you to the next exhibit which was a mirrored room from floor to ceiling. You could see your reflection at your feet and even when you looked up. Purple lanterns filled the room that reflected off of absolutely everything and looked like a maze. Once again there was practically no one around except a couple older couples. It made you both feel a little more at ease to be out in public together.

“Can I take some pictures?” You asked and he nodded. You ended up taking turns getting your pictures taken in different areas and got two of you both together. Jungkook laughed at one where your eyes were half closed or when your hair was out of place and you laugh at the ones he couldn’t keep a straight face in.

It wasn’t until you got to a different exhibit that looked like you were stepping straight into the night sky that someone approached you two. At first you both seemed very nervous until the man who had to be in his early fifties asked, “Would you like me to get a picture of you together?”

You looked to Jungkook trying to let him be the one to tell the man no but instead he handed the man his phone and said, “If you could.”

He came to your side and pulled you into him with a hand on your lower back, you placed your hand on his chest smiling for the camera as the man took a few shots. Jungkook ended up with both his arms around you as he pressed a kiss into your hair while your face scrunched cutely. That was probably Jungkook’s favorite photo and he didn’t hesitate to make it his lock screen. It’s not like anyone would see it.

“You look good in this,” Jungkook said as he showed you one of the mirror selfies he took with you in the lantern room. You peaked over his shoulder to look at it and smiled, “Right? I do look good.”

“Post it,” Jungkook spoke absentmindedly as you two sat in an empty blue room with clouds everywhere. The cushion you two shared looked like a cloud too. Before you could say anything he said, “You know just uh, just blur me out.”

“No, it’s fine,” you told him as you looked through the other pictures, “I can find one where I’m by myself.”

Jungkook looked down at you feeling the urge to apologize. If he was just some ordinary guy this wouldn’t be a problem. He wouldn’t look down at a picture appreciating your pretty face with regret that he can’t even show it off.

Your eyes met and you could practically see the guilt on his face so your forced a smile on his face and said, “Are you hungry yet?”

“Starving,” he muttered as he ran a hand over your hair before pulling you in for a quick kiss, “Where should we go?”

“We should probably just order in,” you offered more for his sake than yours but he shook his head no.

“It’s a big city, there are a lot of options and we could probably find some hole in the wall restaurant,” he said and it was settled.

His security team looked as inconspicuous as a bunch of seriously huff guys can look. They went in first to this tiny pizza parlor with a wall divider by a table and that’s the one you chose—the most hidden one. The two of you ordered a large pizza and drinks.

“Have you been busy?” You asked as your feet touched under the table. His foot ran over yours almost playfully doing footsies with you when you couldn’t hold hands.

Jungkook nodded as he played with the wrapper of his straw, “Yeah, I finished up the Calvin Klein shoot but it took a lot of energy. I’ve been trying to relax now that it’s over but this upcoming week I have a bunch of promotions to do again.”

“Not much of a break, is it?” You asked sadly. He took you by surprise when he took your hand in his hand over the table for anyone to see.

“Not really,” he said, tracing circles against your knuckles with the pad of his thumb, looking down at how your pretty hand fit perfectly with his.

You looked at him apologetically, “Am I taking you away from your work?”

He shook his head no, “No, well I don’t see it like that. I wanted to see you, it’s been a while and last time I left we didn’t have any time together.”

You were reminded of the time he left mid sex, literally. Jungkook looked up at you, “I did, um, you know go out though. Nothing serious just hung out with some girls the guys brought along, but I didn’t do anything.”

The two of you happened to be very open when it came to your personal lives. It sets a clear boundary line for any time either one of you gets too attached in your ‘relationship’. You just nod, “I went out too.”

When your food came the two of you switched topics of conversation and carried a light aura around you.

By the time you got to the hotel Jungkook had gone off to get you two drinks. You looked around the large suite he booked for you two and took in the jacuzzi outside.

“Should we go in?” Jungkook asked, appearing next to you as he handed you a glass of champagne. You stood at the balcony window overlooking the pretty city and decided that you should. When’s the next time you’ll be able to see a place like this, especially without Jungkook—who surely won’t be interested in you much longer. Flings like the kind you and him have don’t last.

“I didn’t bring anything to wear,” you argued and he looked down at your dress taking you in.

“Neither did I,” he winked and with a roll of your eyes you nodded.

“Let me go get ready then,” you said pointing toward the bedroom. He let you go off as he went outside to get it running.

You were just in your suitcase seeing if there’s anything you can wear when your phone rang.

“Hello?” You asked, putting your phone on speaker so that you could continue to get ready to go in the jacuzzi.

“How’s the convention? Are you bored to death yet?” She asked. It was midday for her whereas it was night for you. You lied and said you had a work trip this weekend.

“Not bad actually,” you told her as you found a hairclip to keep your hair up and out of the water, “Just busy.”

“Boring,” Lia said, making you laugh a little as you removed your jewelry next, “You know who I ran into the other day?”

“Who?”

“Eric, we were both waiting for coffee.”

Jungkook was already tugging off his belt on his way to the bedroom he would be sharing with you tonight. He stopped at the door when he heard another voice, debating if he should go in quietly or give you privacy. Instead he ended up just waiting outside when he heard something.

“I really like Eric for you,” Lia confessed through the phone as your eyes shifted to the entrance to make sure Jungkook wasn’t coming by, “You two seem to understand each other. You have the same occupation, same humor and I see chemistry. You haven’t dated in a while but honestly I feel like you and Eric would really work out.”

“Lia, I—“ you paused in thought. You’re not even sure what you’re trying to say, “We do get along but I don’t know, I’m not really looking for anything serious right now.”

“Bullshit! You’ve gone out like three times already,” Lia said, almost yelling through the phone, “You’re telling me you haven’t even thought about it?”

“I mean yes I’ve thought about dating but—“

“But what?”

Lia asked feeling a little annoyed. She’s your best friend, she knows that you’re always supposedly busy with something. She knows that if you talk to guys it’s only to entertain them and nothing more. In no way is she saying you need a partner to survive but you’re always stressed and she wished you had someone to always be there for you and understand your line of work and busy schedule. She released a deep sigh, “I’m not saying it has to be Eric but I am saying he’s practically made for you. You enjoy talking to him right? You like your conversations and that you have a lot in common. I just think that if you give dating a try, Eric is perfect.”

“I’ll think about it,” you said, “But I have to go. Everyone’s going out for drinks right now.”

Jungkook came into the room a couple minutes later. You looked over at him as he began to undress making sure to fold his clothes and leave it on the bed next to yours. You smiled as you took in his naked appearance aside from his briefs and went over to him. Jungkook felt your arms wrap around him as you hugged him from behind and he placed his hands over yours on his stomach trying to smile.

He has to act like he didn’t just hear your full conversation and that he wasn’t bothered by it at all.

“It’s ready,” he mumbled as he looked over at you. You had a pretty set of black lingeries and a silk robe that had his eyes trailing over your body in lust, “What if we just go naked?”

He needed to distract himself from what he just listened in on. You have to admit you felt guilty about your conversation with Lia considering you were flown out to see Jungkook and you didn’t want to think about anyone but him. That’s why you nodded eagerly and said, “Take it off me then?”

Jungkook smiled as he did just that, sliding down your underwear first. In the end the two of you went outside in only your silk robes and fully nude into the jacuzzi. You hissed at the hot water but he helped you sit down next to him while handing you the glass of champagne. The water was just high enough to cover your breasts or at least where your nipples were but Jungkook didn’t mind seeing you bare like this.

“The jets are strong,” you said, popping a few of the bubbles it made.

Jungkook laughed for a reason unknown to you and said, “No, I just farted.”

You pretended to gag in disgust, “Jungkook! You’re disgusting.”

He only laughed harder, “What? Don’t act like you don’t do it.”

“I’m a lady, I don’t fart,” you joked, making him roll his eyes as he played with the water.

“That’s not true, I’ve literally heard you do it in the bathroom,” he said honestly and it was refreshing that neither one of you were embarrassed. It felt domestic the way you were comfortable around each other and not always trying to look appealing and sexy to one and other. He enjoyed sex with you but he enjoyed joking and laughing with you two. It’s not talked about as much but you make him laugh and you get his jokes, you’re not embarrassed even when you pretend to be. One time he burped right in your face and despite telling him it was gross you did it right back.

“In the bathroom,” you said with a smile, “Not in public like you.”

“We’re not in public,” he said, lifting a foot out of water to watch it drip down, “It’s just me and you.”

You nodded in agreement and he smiled, “Tell me an embarrassing story and I’ll tell you one back.”

“I don’t have an embarrassing story,” you lied with a shrug making him roll his eyes yet again, “If you keep rolling your eyes at me I’m going to drown you.”

Jungkook just laughed as he looked you over, “If you dunk me in that water the only way I’ll drown is between your legs because you’re looking way too sexy right now.”

“You’re really going to say that after telling me to tell you an embarrassing story? Won’t that give you an ick?” You asked splashing his face with water as he flicked some back to you. He shook his head no.

“Not unless you tell me you shit yourself once,” Jungkook jokes, “Then yeah I might take us both in the shower before I eat you out.”

You scoffed, “I did not shit myself, you dick.”

“How would I know if you don’t tell me an embarrassing story?” Jungkook asked as he flicked water into your face.

“Okay fine, I’ll tell you one,” you groaned despite him applauding you, “In high school I went to this party with some guy I was seeing. I blacked out and puked on him, he was so mad that he never talked to me again.”

“Now that guy seems like a dick,” Jungkook said, “And maybe it’s because I’m a romantic but personally I would’ve held your hair back for you while you puked on my shoes. I don’t know, I guess not every guy could be a gentleman like me.”

You laughed, “Yeah okay, tell me an embarrassing school moment.”

“I don’t really have any,” Jungkook shrugged, “I was in high school but I was also a trainee so I didn’t have much free time. I did get to have fun and go out with my hyungs but not big parties or anything like that.”

You didn’t say anything for a moment just trying to wrap your mind around how hard it must’ve been to be a trainee. He smiled, “But I’ll tell you a semi embarrassing story. I can’t remember if I farted or burped on live but it definitely wasn’t quiet and everyone heard it.”

“That’s not that embarrassing,” you rolled your eyes. He laughed softly as he closed the small gap between you. He set his glass down on the ledge and took yours from you too. You watched him as he moved in front of you now, right between your legs. You ran your fingers through his curly hair as his hands found your naked waist underwater.

“Your hair is getting longer,” you said as he looked at you with bedroom eyes. It was bound to happen, you enjoyed your cute moment but at the end of the day it was like a switch that you two went through when you were together. You just wanted to get your hands on each other.

“You like it?” He asked dipping his head lower to be against yours, lips softly brushing against yours, “I haven’t cut it because you like it long.”

His arms tightening around your waist as he pulled you into him. Your hands found their way to the back of his neck trying to get him closer to you before taking the lead. He met you halfway and you fully succumbed to the kiss.

His lips pulled away from yours so they could attach themselves to your neck, placing soft kisses along your jaw and down your jugular. You craned your neck to the side to give him more access as you delved your fingers into his dark locks. The Jets of the jacuzzi were the only sounds heard aside from your little gasps and water splashing against your skin. His hands traveled from your waist up toward your stomach and then breasts. He held them both in his hands as his lips found their way back to yours and slipped his tongue inside your mouth.

You reached your hands over his chest feeling every ridge of abdomen muscle, nails lightly scratching against his skin. You ran your hands down him feeling every muscle tighten as you explored the ink on his arms and shoulders. You were full on making out and his thumbs were circling around your hardening nipples as he gave them a few squeezes.

Jungkook's kisses started moving lower again, kissing along your jaw and then collarbone. His tongue licked down to the valley of your breasts making you gasp and push him back. It took him a second to move but when he did his hands stayed fondling your boobs. He looked at you with furrowed brows as you looked around.

“Let’s go inside,” you said nervously and he looked around too. You were high up that nobody from the street would see but that didn’t mean other hotel goers couldn’t. Licking his lips as he looked down at where his hands were he nodded. He finally released you to reach for your robes which had just been thrown to the side. He helped you into the side of the jacuzzi making sure to block you as he helped you slip the robe on. You thanked him, handing him his and watching him stand in his naked glory to slip his on too. It was hard for you to ignore his hard member that pointed upwards.

The second you made it back inside Jungkook picked you up from your thighs and wrapped them around himself. You squealed at the cold from having your bodies wet but he carried you with ease toward the king sized bed. You began to slip off the silk again making sure to slide it off your shoulders and bud before he even set you back down. Like that your mouths connected again while he helped tug the robe off before letting you down on the bed.

Jungkook didn’t hesitate to start where he left off, mouth licking at the mounds of your breasts before tracing circles around your hardened nipple, bringing one into his mouth and kissing. The tip of his tongue flicked at your bud before capturing the whole thing in his mouth and sucking. The sensation of his mouth around you and his tongue flicking at your nipple made your back arch into his mouth, hands tangled in his wet hair with want. Jungkook pulled away with a pop, his own drool dribbling out the corners of his mouth as the heat radiating off your body became too much for him.

He took his time kissing down your stomach toward your legs which had goosebumps from the sensation and the cold. Soon, he was licking and nibbling every single exposed part of your body: Your collarbones, stomach, belly button, your sides and the area around your breast. The inner part of your thighs got a lot of attention from his mouth as his hands spread them further around himself. He was inching closer to your wet heat.

It’s like he was trying to get every single thing he couldn’t do the last time you were together. All he’s been able to think about was to feel your pussy around him when he was deprived of it. He began teasing your inner thighs, so close to your core but not yet there and you wanted to feel his tongue between your folds so badly.

His brows knitted together in pleasure, an almost angry expression on his face as he let out a groan. You were so fucking wet, he's never seen a pussy get as wet as yours did. It was always such a damn treat. He ran a finger through your folds gathering slick on his fingertips before bringing them back out and examining them and the way they shined.

A sudden thought crossed his mind making him ask, “Who else makes you this wet?” His lips part allowing his fingers to slip inside his mouth and pet his tongue. His eyes rolled back loving the sweetness, even your insides smelled good.

You sighed, “Nobody, that’s the bad thing.”

You were being honest. No guy you fuck brings the kind of pleasure Jungkook does and he knows it. His hands went to your thighs hoisting your legs up and spreading them as far out as they could go before finally burying his face in your cunt. A moan left your mouth as he pressed his lips to your clit. He brushed his thumb gently over the hardened bud not having time to tease before he did it again and again. You could hear the slurping sound of his mouth swallowing your clit into his mouth and sucking while flicking his tongue over it. He was a messy, a goddamn messy, pussy pleaser but you didn’t know he only got like this with you. He only ever makes you with your little cunt like this because he lives for your reactions, your tastes, the way your legs shake around him.

Jungkook slid in a finger listening for your loud moans because you were always so vocal for him even if you didn’t use your words. He didn’t need to do much talking as he let his tongue do it for him, licking up whatever slosh his finger pushed out of you, sliding a second in to join the first.

“Oh fuck,” you whined as he back to bump into your clit with the tip of his big nose, “Just—ngh—fuck me already.”

"Can’t you just enjoy what I’m giving you like a good girl?" He asked, pulling away ignoring the line of arousal connecting his chin to your drenched pussy. You rolled your eyes, sliding a hand down toward your pelvis, fingers just barely touching your clit to try and speed up the pleasure before his hand smacked yours. You hissed in a mixture of pleasure and pain as he smacked your clit softly, “Y/n.”

His tone was in warning but you ignored him, “You want me to beg to have you inside me?”

He released a scoff with a laugh as he sat up with his arms hooked around your thighs and yanking you toward his angry cock until your pussy touched it directly. The length of his thick member was longer than your slit and he took pleasure in grinding against your fold letting his cock bump against your clit coating himself in your arousal. He licked his lips looking down at the way your fat pussy lips hugged his dick.

“Dirty fucking girl,” Jungkook hisses in pleasure when he feels your hand curl around his cock pumping him twice covering him in your slick. Protection was never something the two of you ever thought about simply because you never let him finish inside you and you regularly tested yourselves for other things. So without a second thought you lined him up with your entrance.

Jungkook's head fell forward, lip tugged between his teeth, an almost pained expression as he tried to concentrate on the way you pushed his fat cock inside your tight cunt. The image was absolutely desirable. Jungkook worked hard on his body, every muscle had a purpose and right now they were all flexing in wet pleasure due to the way your walls constricted around him. Your hips gripped tightly by Jungkook's hands finally sinking all the way down and without another thought he moved them to the back of your legs forcing them up to your chest being held down by his arms.

Jungkook slides almost completely out before slamming back in. He was nearly in a push up position as he folded your body to his content as he drew his hips back and once more sank back in with his full length.

“Yes,” you moaned loudly despite a pain in your legs from the stretch. Your eyes met as he pulled back, letting his mushroom tip circle around your entrance before diving back in full thrust. Unable to stand the small space between your bodies, you slid a hand toward his neck tightening just enough to make him groan and his hips stutter, before yanking him down into a makeout.

You squeezed your walls around him on purpose, pulling his bottom lip out with your teeth, hand still on his neck as he fucked you hard. One of his hands released your legs to take a breast in hand and groped it, making your hips begin to fuck back onto his cock as you hooked the leg he released around his back.

“Y/n,” he growled, “Look at me.”

You did as told completely unaware of how unbelievably sexy he looked with his glute muscles flexing with each stroke of his thick length inside your wet cunt, muscles in his thighs tightening showing veins protruding on his happy trail that all led toward his cock.

With a new angle he reached a deeper point and his hand was able to grope at your tits more freely while the other kept your hips down on the mattress. He licked his lips, “You talking to anyone right now?”

You were too gone to pay attention as his cock hit a new angle where he pleasure your pussy lips every time he pulled out. With the hand on your hips he moved it to your butt, drawing back and smacking lightly, “Y/n.”

You moaned at the slap, still refusing to look at him making him do it again, harder this time as he thrust deeply into your cunt. He smacked his lips in annoyance as he did it again, “I’m talking to you.”

When you refused to acknowledge him he nearly growled as he yanked you off the bed to sit back on his haunches and bring you down on his thighs with his cock still buried to the hilt. He pinched your ass before smacking it again, “Y/n—“

His words were cut off as his head whipped to the side when your hand connected with his cheek giving him the same sexual treatment he’d been giving you. You ground your hips onto him, “No, you asshole, I’m not.”

His jaw clenched as he looked at you, unable to stop fucking you as you sat on his lap. You’re lying right to his face yet when your raised your hand to slap him once more he couldn’t stop the animalistic growl that slipped past his lips as he took a boob into his mouth fucking up into you

He groped at your ass, spreading the soft cheeks apart and rammed into you when you threw your head back in a moan, "So fucking good."

A hand on your ass and another on your tit letting you pull his face into you. Your already erect buds tightening as he pinched and pulled at them. He left wet, sloppy kisses over your throat, moving his hands to grip your waist harshly. Jungkook's nail dug into your soft flesh as he lifted your hips up and down on his cock.

"Just like that," he groaned, “Cum on my cock.”

You never needed permission to orgasm but his words had you falling apart. His eyes locked on yours as he felt your warm walls begin to tighten around him. A familiar ring of nerves clenching around his member as it sucked him into your folds. He wasn't going to last much longer either. Just like that you were releasing, biting back a euphoric moan as Jungkook held your side tightly to keep his cock buried inside of you relishing in the warmth of your release as he forced himself not to cum.

“So good,” you gasped, hugging him with shaky legs as he let you come down from your high.

Once you calmed down Jungkook helped lift you off his achingly hard dock and he watched you move onto your hands and knees before him.

Neither one of you needed to voice what would happen next and he released a pleased sigh when you laid down on your stomach and took his cock in your mouth. Your hands slid down the length of his cock with a small twist of your wrist around him as you made out with his tip moving some of his foreskin back. He squeezed his eyes shut and released a groan, hand going to your damp hair as you flattened your tongue down his length and began to bob your head.

"Fucking hell," he licked his dried lips, head thrown back as his body heaved trying to catch his breath, “I’m gonna cum.”

He was so close due to everything you’ve done and you weren’t surprised at all to feel his hot cum shoot into your mouth with a twitch of his hips.

He released a breathy laugh as he helped you off him and looked down at your fucked out state. He dropped down to the bed trying to catch his breath, “Fuck that was good.”

“Mhm,” you hummed in agreement as you laid over him letting him hug you, “Even though you were a little mean.”

“Me?!” He asked as he brought a hand toward his neck that was still a little red. Rolling his eyes he brushed your hair out of your face, “Yeah okay.”

By morning you finished at least two more rounds of horny sex and you were both physically drained.

He knew that now wouldn’t be the time to bring it up but he didn’t know when else to do it. You spent all night having sex and today you both would be flying back home since it was only a short weekend trip from Saturday to Sunday. He needed to bring it up now before he missed his chance.

“So… I heard you on the phone last night …” Jungkook finally said as he did the buttons up on his black shirt sitting on the edge of the bed not facing you, “With your friend? She mentioned this guy… who is he?”

“Huh?” You asked, barely listening as you scrolled through your phone lying comfortably in your bed. You weren’t fully paying attention. It was early, you were tired, and you just wanted to enjoy some relaxing time before you had to go to the airport. When you processed what he asked you said, “Oh uh, just some guy we met.”

You were trying not to seem nervous because technically you’ve done nothing wrong, right? “We went out for drinks.”

“Like on a date?” Jungkook asked, forcing his eyes to stare at the window just a few feet in front of him. He didn’t want you to see his face if he reacted in a way he wasn’t supposed to. If he could see the way you shrugged casually it would probably just annoy him a little more.

“Um, well, I don’t know if it would count as a date,” you said and that had his head turning back to face you. His lips parted in what seemed like a soon approaching smile but it wasn’t out of joy, it was disbelief.

“Really? Because from what I heard it wasn’t just one time you went out with him,” Jungkook said as he quit buttoning his shirt up leaving the top two undone so he could focus on you instead.

“What?” You asked looking back at him, “Were you listening on my call?”

He scoffed, “It was on speaker and your friend was yelling. So, just be honest, have you slept with him?”

He wasn’t shaming you or anything, he just wants to understand the extent of your relationship with that guy. He’s been thinking about it all night even when he was inside you moaning out your name and making you cum.

Your eyes narrowed, testing him, “Does it matter?”

“Does it matter? Yes it does, Y/n, to me. We’ve been talking and I just flew you out to see me for a weekend and you’re asking me if you potentially fucking another guy matters or not?” He couldn’t hold back the bitterness in his voice, feeling the way it deepened with a small hint of annoyance.

You sat up now letting your phone drop to your bed, “Why are you getting mad? Didn’t you tell me you went out with some girls?”

“Yes but I didn’t know them. I didn’t go out with them alone nor did I go out with them more than once,” Jungkook said honestly, “And I damn sure didn’t sleep with any of them.”

“I didn’t have sex with him,” you cut him off making his words stop, “But either way don’t worry about what I do when you’re not around.”

“Y/n…”

“No Jungkook, you don’t hear me asking you when the last time you fucked someone else was,” you told him feeling annoyed, “What do you expect? Am I just supposed to wait around and see when the next time you want to catch a flight is?”

“I’m not…” he took a deep breath to calm his nerves, “I’m not asking you to do that. I don’t care who you see when I’m not around but don’t… —I’m not gonna be some guy fighting for your attention, Y/n.”

He couldn’t even make full sentences at times because he didn’t know how to say what he wanted to say. He couldn’t articulate it without sounding misleading. He was not looking for a relationship but he also can’t stand the idea of wondering when you’ll be taken by someone else. He just… he can’t have a relationship.

You were facing each other on the bed now but not once did your eyes stray to each other's bodies. This was a conversation, nothing more, nothing less.

“Oh but I can be one of those girls who has to fight for yours? Why? Because you’re famous? Because I'm nobody? You’re the one who made it clear since the beginning that this was always going to be casual so why bother even asking about who I might be seeing now?” You asked and Jungkook hated that what you said was right no matter how cruel you sounded saying it.

“Okay but don’t act like what you and I have is… it’s different. Maybe before it wasn’t my place to ask you who you’re seeing but come on, we both know this isn’t just casual,” Jungkook said as he looked down, catching sight of your phone facing up with the time displayed.

“You could’ve fooled me,” you scoffed, “You take me out for the first time ever this weekend and suddenly it’s not just about casual sex? Cut me some fucking slack if I can’t read your mind on if you just want me for a quick fuck or if you just want me for yourself.”

“Fine, I’m sorry,” he muttered under his breath, biting down on his bottom lip to stop himself from saying anything more. He’s got no place to do so anyway. You weren’t dating, this was just casual, and he had someone in his hotel room just three weeks ago. It makes him seem hypocritical. But the thing is, he knows you have sex with others when he’s not around and he does too but that’s all it is. It’s not three dates like your friend Lia said you had with Eric.

Now that’s an attempt at a real relationship away from him. That’s him possibly losing you and that’s what’s bothering him.

You looked at the time again, both of you very aware of the fact that he needed to leave for the airport sooner. The edge to your voice quickly dissipated as you asked, “You’ve got to go already?”

The mood changed so fast at the realization of the time and that he was leaving again. It was hard to stay hostile toward the other when you both knew your time was up and you didn’t know the next time you can see each other again is.

Jungkook nodded his head as he finally stood up. It didn’t take him long to pack up since he traveled lightly but there was still a stretch of awkward silence when he did have to put his things away.

“Are you mad?” You finally asked as he stood in front of you now. You stood up from the bed to walk him out but he didn’t move back. Instead he took your hand in his, placing a small kiss on your knuckles, “No. You?”

“No,” you told him and it was the truth. You knew from the beginning what it would mean to sneak around with Jungkook like this. You didn’t beg him for a relationship because you didn’t expect one. He’s made it clear that a relationship would be hard for him with all his work and fans. You don't have a single problem with that, you’re such a big fan but… he can’t get annoyed if you see other people in the meantime.

Jungkook’s hold was gentle but firm and he pulled you into a hug, “I should go.”

“I know,” you sighed hugging him back, “You’ve got a busy schedule this week.”

Jungkook scoffed at the reminder but he wasn't annoyed by you but by how much of an understatement that sentence was. Despite their break starting his schedule is still just so hectic he had to move so much around just to come see you.

“Call me when you land?” You asked as you followed him to the front door. He nodded yes, twisting the handle to leave your apartment. He was dressed in dark clothing and a driver would be picking him up from your private parking garage so he wasn’t worried about being seen. So he let his mask fall for a moment to press a kiss to your lips.

“I’ll call.”

“Bye.”

“Bye.”

When Jungkook made it onto his plane he couldn’t stop himself from taking his phone out to text you. He didn’t even think about what he was doing till he sent the message.

jungkook: what if we give us a try?

jungkook: I shouldn’t have gotten mad. it’s not my place. ik.

jungkook: but i'm tired of acting like we’re not more than just a hook up

jungkook: I dont want either of us worried so should we give dating a try?

When he landed back home thirteen hours later, he finally saw your text.

you: I don’t think so

That following week he appeared at your doorstep looking absolutely hurt even days after he ignored your texts. He couldn’t message you after that day but that didn’t mean he could go to you in person for a real conversation.

“I just don’t see it working out, I rather not waste my time,” you told him honestly. You hated being cruel but it was for the better. Soon he’ll realize that he was better off without you and that you were just doing him a favor. Of course he didn’t see it that way because he just didn’t understand.

“How do you know that when you can’t even try?” Jungkook was getting flustered. He hates every second of this. It’s not his first time attempting to start a relationship with someone, he’s gets that but he just doesn't get why you won’t even give him a try. He understands his life is hectic and it comes with a lot of attention but it’s you that he’ll really want. You’re the one he'd like to call at night after a show or fly in to see when your schedules matched. It’s the only way you can both save yourselves from losing each other if someone else comes along.

“I don’t want to try Jungkook, I just… I just want to stop now,” you told him and you were looking him in the eye as you said it so he couldn’t even tell if there was a part of you that thinks you don’t want to stop. How could you want to stop seeing him? You used to be at their shows watching as a fan and now you’re trying to throw him away as if he didn’t give himself to you. Just last weekend you were joking, taking pictures together, having round after round of sex but now it’s like that never happened. Maybe it was his fault for bringing up Eric but he needed to know at the time because he didn’t want you to leave him.

You felt horrible saying that to him but you needed to. If you weren’t honest right now then you’ll regret it later on when you’re getting sent thousands of hate comments that you just can’t handle mentally. You would honestly give everything to be with him in a normal relationship but you can’t have that. That’s why you went on more than one date with Eric, he made you feel normal.

You understand that other people have happily dated a celebrity knowing all that came with it but you just don’t see yourself as one of those. Call yourself pessimistic but you’re just thinking logically. Jungkook tours so many cities, so many countries with thousands of fans everywhere BTS goes. Fans who have dedicated themselves fully to the group and others who’ll defend them over anything. It’s not that it’s bad but when it comes to their love life not all are happy. You don’t want it to someday leak and now you’re Enemy No.1. Now they’re spamming you with hate, finding out where you work, who your family is, where you come from. They’re outing everything about you, sending threats and nasty comments all about how you didn’t deserve Jungkook. You could not handle that, and obviously not all fans are like that but it would also be a lie to say that none were like that.

“You don’t mean that,” Jungkook said as he sat on the edge of your couch looking dejected, “You want to be with me, I know you do. I want to be with you too and you’re being so fucking unfair right now.”

“I’m being unfair?” You asked with a scoff, “What isn’t fair is that you won’t listen to where I’m coming from but you expect me to listen and agree with everything you say?”

“Because I’ll be there for you!” Jungkook said, raising his voice a little, “I know it’s hard. I know my life isn’t easy but come on… isn't this what you wanted in the first place?”

Your face dropped at what he just said. Of course he would think that is all it would take to make you want to be with him. Oh, he’s Jeon Jungkook of BTS, who wouldn’t want to be with him? And yeah, okay, you thought that at one point too but you realized that it just doesn’t seem like something you actually want. You cleared your throat awkwardly, as you stood up from the couch.

Jungkook looked at you waiting to see if you would say anything but instead he was met with silence as you began to walk to the front door and he’ll be lying if he said that didn’t hurt. You didn’t even have to say anything right now for him to understand what you wanted. You were done talking and you wanted him out. You knew he would be leaving in the morning and you couldn’t even handle another minute with him here and that fucking hurt. He pushed off the couch letting you know he was upset as he grabbed his things, putting on his hat and mask and anything that would disguise him.

He walked to the door with all his things standing in front of you waiting to see what you would say but you wouldn’t even look at him. Even as he stood not even a foot away from him you refused to look at him and he knew it was because you were lying to him. You wanted him to think you didn’t want to be with him when you clearly do. Jungkook’s lips parted as they came close to calling your name but his phone began to ring. One look down and he knew it was his manager probably wondering why he wasn’t back at the hotel yet. He didn’t miss the way you glanced down at his phone too but you went back to staring off when he looked at you. He ignored the call just so he could try and talk to you again, “Y/n—“

Ring. Ring.

He needed to leave, he was being summoned and you knew he had to go. If you didn’t say something that’ll hurt him then he’ll try and stay to talk this out but there was nothing to talk about. You two weren’t ever supposed to be anything more than just casual but this past weekend complicated things.

He just needs to see that he’s in over his head. He doesn’t actually want to be with you, he just doesn’t want you with anyone else. That’s why this whole argument started anyway, he was mad you went on three dates with the same guy so you need to say something to help him clear his head and think logically.

“You can’t give me the normal I want,” you finally said and he felt the ache in his chest expand, “That’s why I’m saying no. That’s why I went out with that other guy.”

Jungkook’s body went rigid as he let you push him away, words cutting deep. The door closed shut behind him and he was alone in the empty hall of your apartment building.

Jungkook got into the back of the black G-wagon that had been sitting in the parking garage for hours with the driver up front. He looked back at Jungkook and casually asked, “Any other stops tonight?”

It was a usual question to ask and Jungkook hated it because it was his fault. He’s the one who was insatiable for the attention, for the affection. Everyone’s used to his ways and there’s a reason why there’s a new rumored girlfriend of his every other week. He knew why you were rejecting him but he just wished it was different, that he was different. He was scared to lose you to someone else but he can’t even give you what you want.

“Not tonight.”

He knew it was obvious on every live he did that he was not feeling himself. With some of the others already enlisted and time to himself where he could relax and talk to ARMY, he felt alone. Then he felt bad for feeling alone because he was always flooded with love and support but that’s the problem. He knows he’s loved but he doesn’t feel it on his skin. He hears it and sees it but he can’t touch their affection. He can’t lay in bed and feel it because it’s not there. It just can’t replace the intimacy that came with having someone when he felt alone.

He couldn’t even call you because you wouldn’t answer. He can’t DM you or text you, especially not see you. There’s other people on his phone eager to get another night with them and yet he’s stuck on you and what you said to him.

It’s not like he expected it to be easy. He knew that just asking for a real relationship was asking for a lot but he just doesn’t get it. He spent so much time wondering what it was about you that made him want to stay every time he was with you. Maybe it was your crass way of speaking, not caring who he was or if you were a fan. You were blunt and honest and refreshing. You made him crazy when you would go months without talking yet he never even noticed at first.

Jungkook would be with some girl from some nameless city and then he would be in bed with her. He would lay there after only for a second before he was rushing out the door not bothering to look back.

He would go home or back to the hotel and maybe contemplate being alone or find someone else to keep him company before he got bored of them.

If it isn’t clear that he’s not that good of a guy to be with, then he must be good at hiding it—especially from his fans who had absolutely no idea that he wishes you were there for him.

He could tell you that you’re the only one he never wants to leave. That if he could he would stay in bed with you even if he didn’t realize that’s what he wanted. He would say that waking up beside you the next day was comforting even if he didn’t know why.

But he knew now and for some reason he thought you would be overjoyed to be with him. Then he felt stupid because why would he expect you to react that way? As if he didn’t know you and the way you were. As if he didn’t know how crazy and unconvincing he sounded offering you words of security and reassurance if you went out with him.

He was so utterly stupid to think he could just ask you out of the blue to be with him and only him—even when he was thousands of miles away.

“Aish,” he cursed as he looked down at his phone, the comments and gifts flying in and out of his screen. His usual gravity LED lights in the background and a song that made him laugh bitterly playing quietly.

Call Out My Name by The Weeknd and he just thought, how fitting.

Comments flooded in asking what was wrong, why he was laughing, if this song meant something and it made him laugh again.

What was wrong? He’s been cut off by the person who was his comfort and they wanted nothing to do with him anymore.

Why was he laughing? Because it’s crazy that he expected you to ever want to do this with him, if you wanted to you would’ve proposed the idea sooner, right?

Did the song mean anything? Not necessarily, it just happened to be playing but he was so in his head that he didn’t realize how fitting it actually was until he heard it.

No, he shook his head, he’s just being dramatic.

He forced a smile on his face, “I do miss seeing all of ARMY, I hope to go back on tour when the break is over, I would like to see you all.”

He read some comments off the screen trying his best to focus on this instead of you.

Then he saw it right there as he was trying to distract himself from you. Like usual, you read his mind and knew he was thinking about you again. Why else would you join the live now of all times?

You just wanted to see him because even if you ended things harshly that didn’t mean you couldn’t miss him. You missed him so much but you were just in two totally different worlds. Pretending was fun while it lasted but when things got serious you couldn’t do it like a coward.

You’re not sure if he noticed you but there was no denying the stutter in his voice as he stared at the screen intently. It felt like he was looking right at you and the thought made you squirm and ready to leave but you stayed instead. You watched him listen to music, chat like nothing was wrong and laugh every now and then, but you can tell it wasn’t real. You can tell it’s all strained.

“So,” Jungkook cleared his throat as he prepared himself to speak next. He’s been thinking about this since you joined the live and he figured now is the time to just go for it. If he doesn’t just do it then he’ll wonder if this is his last time to have you interact with him in some way. He doesn’t even know if you’re still watching but he at least needs to try.

“I wrote and produced this song last night,” he finished as he reached for his laptop immediately looking for the track, “I’m gonna sing it for you… all.”

He didn’t have to look at the comments to know everyone was going crazy over the thought of him singing something new. He grabbed his mic and plugged it in playing the back track and asking if everyone can hear it right. You didn’t comment or anything but for some reason you knew this was for you. He looked into the camera one more time as he began a soft melody of ‘Still With You’ in Korean.

You could really only make out a couple lines from what he taught you but it was easy to tell the song and what it meant to him if you went based off the way he sang it so intently.

‘That faint voice of yours that grazed me

Please call my name one more time

I’m standing still under the frozen light, but

I will walk towards you, step by step

Still with you

A pitch dark room

I shouldn’t get used to it

But I’m used to it again

The low-pitched sound of the air conditioner

If I don’t have this, I might just fall apart

We laugh together, we cry together

These simple feelings were everything I had

When will it be?

If I see you again

I will look into your eyes

And say, "I missed you"

In a rapturous memory

The rain pours even when I dance alone

By the time this mist clears

I'll run with my feet wet

So hug me then

Behind the faint smile that looked at me

I will draw a beautiful purple shade

Though our footsteps may be out of step

I want to walk this path with you

Still with you

In a rapturous memory

The rain pours even when I dance alone

By the time this mist clears

I'll run with my feet wet

So hug me then

The moon looks lonely

Like it's crying in the bright night sky

Even though I always know the morning will come

I want to stay in your sky like a star

Every day, every moment

If I knew this was gonna happen

I would have remembered more of them

When will it be?

If I see you again

I will look into your eyes

And say, "I missed you"’

You didn’t know what to feel right now nor what to say. It’s not like you could comment how you miss him too without thousands of other people saying the same thing. You didn’t even know if you wanted to address this so like a coward, you left.

Jungkook knew he didn’t want to reach out to you. He didn’t want to know if you heard the song or not because if you don’t reach out to him it either means that you didn’t or you don’t care. He’s not strong enough to find out which one it is, he is just thankful he got it off his chest.

You were hectic, running around your house looking for things you wouldn’t specify. You shoved things into your suitcase that you weren’t sure you would even need and ignored all the questions being thrown at you.

“You’re not making any sense Y/n,” your friend said as she sat on your bed, “How are you just going to go on a trip so suddenly? Where are you even going? What about work?”

“I’m using my PTO,” you told her as you checked the time one last time to make sure you wouldn’t miss check in.

“Alright but where are you going? Where’d you even get the money?” She asked as she organized your suitcase for you since you were going crazy shoving things in there.

“I can’t really explain everything right now I’m going to South Korea,” you told her and even you agreed that you sounded absolutely ridiculous.

“Okay well now you have to tell me what the fuck is going on. That’s not just some short trip and back, Y/n. You don’t just go there suddenly because you’re bored,” she said.

You took a deep breath as you brushed your messy hair out of your face, “It’s complicated. I promise I’ll tell you everything when I come back but I have to go now.”

Before I change my mind, you thought.

Your friend looked at you with worry, she’s never seen you this unorganized and that’s why she said, “Okay. I’ll drive you to the airport then.”

It was crazy, you were crazy for this but it’s been on your mind for days. For all you knew Jungkook is completely over you and the song he wrote but you wouldn’t know unless you talked to him [at least tried to]. He might not want anything to do with you, hell you’re not even sure how you plan on even seeing him but you had to do this.

If you didn’t act now then you’ll never do it and you’ll regret not even trying. You want to write an apology to his amazing fans for possibly hurting Jungkook and for going after him like this to make him yours but you had to. If he wants you then you’ll find a way to fit into his life and fame.

A lot of people say that idol’s understand them or saved them and yes, that’s true for a lot but this is different. This is such a once in a lifetime occasion where you actually got to know Jungkook as a person and not just a member of BTS. You got to know when he looked like waking up beside him. You learned how he likes his eggs in the mornings and what songs he sings in the shower.

You experienced his hands washing your hair or massaging your shoulders. You laughed at inside jokes in hotel rooms or your apartment at that. You couldn’t just throw this away because you’re scared to face millions who could possibly hate everything about you if he genuinely makes you happy to be with him.

Jungkook just got home from seeing off Hoseok for his service. He was tired and sad because yet another person was leaving him for a while.

You never reached out to him. He waited for days but you never did and he realized that it was over.

He kept thinking about that as he got in the car. His driver and manager looked at him as the driver asked, “Where to?”

“Home,” he muttered tiredly as he stared out the window.

“Jungkook, cheer up,” his manager said with a warm smile, “Things might look up soon.”

Jungkook didn’t respond as he tuned out the car ride entirely.

When he got to his apartment building he went to his floor not noticing the way the lobbyist looked at him or how his staff did too. He left alone and unlocked his front door alone.

He didn’t even bother to turn on the light as he slipped his shoes off and sullenly walked around aimlessly.

“Jungkook?”

Great, he thought, he’s imagining you now too.

“Jungkook.”

His entire body froze, it went rigid as he looked up from his feet and around his dark apartment.

There you were holding the extra house key to his place that he gave you a while ago even though you both knew there would never be a chance for you to come. He dropped the things he had in his hands as he looked you over from head to toe. You were completely disguised from head to toe in black like he usually did when he would leave your place.

A million questions ran through his head but he couldn’t voice a single one of them as you took a hesitant step closer to him.

He crumpled to the floor, face in his hands as he forced himself to not act so emotionally.

“Y—you’re here,” Jungkook said, “You’re actually here?”

You dropped to your knees in front of him and hesitantly brought your arms up to reach for him, “I’m sorry.”

He didn’t say anything as he let you pull him into a hug, both sitting on the floor. You rubbed soothing strokes into his back, “I’m sorry.”

“You just… you just ended things between us, Y/n,” he said looking up at you, “You said you couldn’t do a relationship with me and now you're here. Why? How? How are you here right now? Why didn’t you tell me? Who let you through?”

“I dipped into my savings,” you confessed, “And I called your manager. I know I shouldn’t have but I had his number because of that one time your phone broke when you were with me. I didn’t think about telling you, I just booked a flight and came.”

He didn’t say anything as you crawled into the space of his lap letting your legs wrap around his back as you sat on the floor. He let his arms encircle your waist, “I missed you.”

“I missed you too.”

“Did you?” He asked cautiously, feeling his fingertips slip under your shirt to feel your skin directly.

“I did, and I’m sorry Jungkook,” you told him honestly as your arms wrapped around his neck, “I’m sorry that I was so cold last time. I know I hurt you but I thought that it was too hard. I didn’t think I could handle a relationship with you and that was really fucked up of me. No other guy has meant to me what you do and I just got defensive because I just wanted to live a normal life if I couldn’t have that with you. So when you said you wanted a relationship, I just flipped.”

“It’s not like what you said isn’t true,” Jungkook admitted. He’s had time to think about why you rejected him and he gets it, he really does but it just doesn’t change the fact that he wants to be with you. It might be selfish for him to ask you to be with him but he wants to be selfish. He wants to have someone for himself, he wants to belong to someone who fully understands him.

It’s just taken him too long to notice. All those drunken nights with random women in his bed.

All those fans and adoration that got to his head, made him feel bigger than he actually was. Made him less apologetic and cold. His Jin hyung was right, he didn’t want to be owned at the time. He didn’t want to be tied down because he knew he would someday hurt the other person because of his lifestyle.

He’s been in the fame game since he was just a kid. He’s had the money, the girls, the fans, everything he’s ever wanted. He thought that’s what his life was.

He thought that was everything until he spent too many nights alone. None of it meant anything compared to having that one person who could hold him in their arms at night.

“You’re right, I won’t always be able to see you, even now you know how hard it is with my schedule and that’s that I’m on break, Y/n,” he said as he stroked your back, “And I don’t want you to leave me but I’m scared I’ll let you down.”

“I don’t know what I’m supposed to say,” you said as you thought what he was saying. Did you fly here for no reason? Was he just going to reject you now that he’s thought things through? Wasn’t this what he had wanted? Isn’t this why he would get mad if you were with another guy?

He shook his head as if reading your thoughts, “I guess what I’m saying is I still want to try even if I can’t do it perfectly. I want to be with you however I can.”

“Jungkook, I think I know what I’m getting myself into if I want to be with you,” you told him honestly, “I know there’s going to be things I expect of you that you won’t be able to do and that’s okay. We’ll work aroun—“

“But I don’t want to hide my relationship with you, Y/n. I want to be able to take you on real dates, be out in public, show you off, and I won’t be able to do that. Are you okay with that?” Jungkook asked, “I won’t even be in the same country as you most of the time.”

He was contradicting himself, he knows. He wants to be with you, but at the same time he can’t. He wants to give you more than possible and he’s scared to let you down.

You moved to get off his lap, “So what now then? Did I make a mistake coming here?”

“No. No! Y/n,” he reached out for you again but you moved back, “I just… I don’t want to let you down.”

“You won’t.”

“I will, Y/n, we both know it and I want to be selfish and be with you but it’s unfair to you,” Jungkook said honestly and you had to hold his face in your hands to look at you, “And you were right. The second I thought of you having a normal life with some other guy it fucking killed me. I know I rushed things with you and tried getting you into a relationship neither of us were in a place to be in but I don’t want to lose you because I can’t give you what you want.”

“Listen to me,” you said as his eyes met yours, “This is what I want. You are what I want and I know I said a lot of things but I’m willing to figure it out if you are. If you don’t even want to try then let me know right now and I’ll leave.”

“No, I don’t want you to,” at that he pulled you back into his arms, “I want to be with you.”

“So please Y/n, let’s figure this out?” He asked seriously. He’s been in relationships before but they were so short lived, so temporary and shallow. What he felt for you wasn’t. He can’t just let you go.

“Okay,” you said, pressing a kiss to his lips gently.

This life wasn’t for everyone but as long as you both were willing to try there was nothing else he can ask for. All he can do is enjoy the time he’s given right now with you.

“So do you want to be together, then?” He asked for final confirmation and when you nodded your head he couldn’t help but release a breath of relief.

He was going to find a way to stay for you, to stay with you.

BREAKING NEWS: JUNGKOOK OF BTS DATING A NON-IDOL?

FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS, a secret source has followed the life of Jeon Jungkook and his travels in and out of the country.

He’s made frequent visits to a ‘friend’, our source says. It was hard to find information on this friend until just last week when the two were spotted at an Illusion museum in __ kissing.

Now, this special friend has been identified as 22 year old, Y/n L/n, a Brand Strategy Manager for a national eCommerce company in her area. Her earlier education was spent at __ where she then went to the University of __ for her degree in marketing. Her family consists of __ and her closest friends are __.

It is unclear as to when exactly their relationship started but it’s to be noted that BTS did a two-day show in the city L/n resided in exactly two years ago when speculation first started.

It is also unknown if the pair are dating despite being photographed holding hands, kissing, sneaking into cars and most recently video footage of the pair staying at a hotel. The reason for the lack of clarity is due to pictures of L/n joined by another man recently at bars and restaurants between visits from BTS’s Jungkook. The question arises: is Y/n two-timing the world’s biggest heartthrob?

ARMY across the world, don’t worry DISPATCH will look closely into the extent of their relationship and bring you the truth. We have been gathering evidence over the past two years to make sure what we bring you is factual.

It was all over the news the next day.

Pictures upon pictures of you and Jungkook.

Pictures of him leaving your apartment building.

Pictures of him flying into your city.

Pictures of you two from the damn window of your own home.

Pictures at the restaurant, the airport, cars, etc. but it wasn’t all.

Pictures of flying into Korea.

Pictures of you doing everyday tasks, seeing your friends, meeting your family, meeting Eric.

For fuck’s sake, even pictures of you at work wearing a bracelets he got you last year for your birthday.

Jungkook has been on the phone all morning calling every single executive from HYBE threatening their jobs to those who didn’t take the articles that were flooding every news outlet down. He's making sure everyone knows that he’s not going to sit around and watch his girlfriend be completely bullied by the news for the sake of a good story.

The label is going crazy filing lawsuits over the pictures in the jacuzzi or the ones in your own home which were clearly taken by saesangs.

All along you both thought it was hidden but the entire time Dispatch was just waiting for the right moment to expose the greatest scandal in BTS history. It should’ve even be a scandal but just like that…

Your hopes at living as a nobody were completely crushed as you became somebody a lot of people are growing to hate.

“It’s going to be okay,” Jungkook tried saying to you as he stayed on the phone with Namjoon who was trying to do damage control on his end, “I’m not going let anyone hurt you, Y/n.”

It was too late. You’ve been painted as a two-timer, they found out where you live, who your family is and you just have so much explaining to do.

But Jungkook swears he’s going to be here for you. He’s going to stay when other times he’d run away. He’s going to stay and protect you and protect his loving and supportive fans because he has a right to be happy too. He’s chosen to stay.

::.

NO PART TWO

a/n omg she’s a long one. also I hate idol aus but idk 💀💀I always see Twitter and Tiktok going crazy over dating rumors and I was like… woah, let me make delulus either mad or happy?????anyways obviously just a piece of fiction by a bitch from nebraska so don’t take it to heart.

and I don’t want no y/n slander bc idk about you but dating an idol seems so stressful and ik for a fact I wouldn’t be able to handle hate lol.

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