What We Once Were

What We Once Were

(Y/N) sips on her alcohol as she waits for Tommy to arrive at the Garrison, since it was early in the morning she was only person there beside Harry and the new barmaid, Grace.

Her knuckles hit the wood softly catching Grace attention, “Do you have the time?” Grace looked down at her watch before looking up.

“9:54, ma’am.” (Y/N) huffed, she couldn’t believe she had to get up at the break of dawn, and drive two hours all the way here only to be kept waiting, “Waiting for someone, ma’am?” She glanced at Grace.

“Yes..”

“Do you mind me asking, who, ma’am?” (Y/N) didn’t really pay to much attention to the girl when she replied, “Tommy Shelby.” Grace looked (Y/N) up and down wondering who she was and what business she had to her target, before she can question (y/n) more Tommy walked in through the doors.

“(Y/N), sorry to keep you waiting.” He took off his cap walking towards her, he threw a quick glance at Grace before kissing (y/n). Grace looked away going back to work making Tommy draw back, (y/n) looked questionable at her business partner and secret lover. He didn’t say anything just snaking his arm around her waist and moving them to the back room.

After Tommy closed the door he put his finger over his mouth telling (y/n) to stay silent, he heard talking and than a door opening than closing. He opened the window and saw Harry there but no Grace, “ Harry, where has Grace’s gone?” Harry shrugged.

“She said she was feeling bit ill, so I sent her home.” Tommy grunted before asking him to bring a bottle of Irish whiskey, and closed the window.

“I really hope you didn’t call me all the way down here to make some girl jealous.” Tommy turned smiling at her.

“Never.” She narrowed her eyes at him playfully, “Uhuh...” she took a seat at the table as Thomas brought the whiskey and two glasses over.

“If you didn’t call me to make the new barmaid jealous, than why am I here?” She asked seductively as she held her glass towards Thomas as he pour her drink.

“Business ...” he started setting the bottle on the table and taking a seat next to (y/n).

“Business?” She asked a bit annoyed that she came all the way down here for business that could have been taken care of in her factory.

“Yeah...” Tommy lit a cigarette, “I have more product coming soon and I need somewhere to hide it.” (Y/N) shook her head.

“There’s no way I’m letting you store illegal weapons in my very much legitimate business, again.” She said setting down her glass.

“The last thing I need is coppers breaking down my door and asking questions.” She sighed.

“No coppers are gonna be knocking on your door, okay? Because it won’t be there for long. Just for two days at least and we move it to our new location. ” he gave (Y/N) a pleading look making her nod, she could never resist his stares it always made her inside warm.

“Fine. But you owe me, Shelby. ” she leaned towards Tommy, they both turned towards the window hearing a sound, “Harry..?” Thomas said, no one answer he looked at (y/n) as she looked back at him.

“Maybe a rat?” He opened the window looking around seeing a knocked over cup, “Maybe...” he mumbled sticking his head back inside and continue his ‘business’ with (y/n).

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“Ma’am, there’s a Mr. Campbell here to see you.” (Y/N) looked up and told her assistant to send him in. (Y/N) put her files away and leaned back in her chair, “Miss (y/l/n)...” he grabs her hand shaking it.

“Inspector, what brings you to my fine establishment?”

“My have sources that says you have been working with Thomas Shelby...” (Y/N) smiled before stopping him.

“And your here to ask why a gunsmith like myself is working with a Bookie from Small Health. Am I right?” The Inspector shook his head.

“No, I’m here to tell you that one of my moles that I had assigned to Mr. Shelby overheard you two talking. From what I heard it wasn’t about your legal businesses.” (Y/N) smiled dissolved from her face as she clenched her jaw.

“Is this the part we’re I’m suppose to be asking for a deal?” She said unbothered.

“No, (Y/N). This is the part where I give you two days to clear out your warehouses. “ (Y/N) looked confused.

“What?”

“My man will storm your warehouse in two days and by than I hope you move your products and his. ” she stared at him thinking if he was setting a trap or not.

“Why are you telling me this....”

“I have my reasons. ” Her hand tugged at the bracelet she wore nervously, she nodded as he stood up. She follow suit walking him to her door.

“Mr. Campbell...?” She stopped him as he stood outside her office, “What is stopping me from not telling Mr. Shelby about this?” He shrugged.

“Nothing.” He simply says walking away, the workers in the room watches him leave and some looking back at there boss. (Y/N) didn’t pay no mind to them as she walked back in her office, she sat there for a well before throwing her paperweight against the wall making a dent. She covered her face with her hands annoyed and frustrated with this whole ordeal.

Tommy pulled up to (Y/N)’s gun factory after she called him. He exits the car and walks through the empty halls to her office, he knocks a couple of time before entering. He saw her with a cigarette between her lips as she put away her paperwork, “When did you start smoking?” She rolled her eyes at him.

“I always smoke, you just never seen me in the act.” She blew the nicotine in the air, she motion with her hand to take a seat.

“If you mind I rather stand.” (Y/N) eye Tommy before talking, “Fine..” she put out her cig and folded her hands and front of her.

“Mr. Campbell came to see me today...” Thomas unbothered by the mention of the inspector look at the pictures scattered all over the wall, “and he told me you have a mole..” Thomas looked towards her again not bothered my the information.

He chuckled, “And you believe him?”

“How else would he have known about my warehouse? Or where it was in that matter.” She said

Tommy didn’t say anything as he pulled out a cigarette and lit it, (Y/N) slowly watched him growing aggravated at his sudden silent.

“So?” She asked, he looked at her and shrugged.

“So...” she threw her hands up getting out of her seat and standing in front of him, “What is this? Did you take up a vow of silence utter of a sudden.” She hissed.

“I wouldn’t be talking if I did.” (Y/N) nose twitch as her patient was weary thin.

“This isn’t the time for jokes, Tommy. ”

“Am I laughing?” He said annoyed going to her mini bar table in the corner of the room, “Listen I look into it, alright?” He down his drink turning towards a still pissed (Y/N), he grabs her and pulled her close kissing her. (Y/N) anger toward Tommy slowly melted away as his hands roam her body, she hooked her arms around his neck deepen the kiss.

(Y/N) pulled at the roots of his hair making him moan in her mouth, she leaned on her desk wrapping her legs around his waist. One of (Y/N) hands slowly slide down to Tommy’s member making him pull away unexpectedly.

“What’s wrong?” She said he shook his head.

“Nothing, you caught me surprise that’s all.” (Y/N) looked at him suspicious as he start kissing her neck. (Y/N) slowly fell back into the moment when Tommy suck on her sweet spot. He lifted her on the desk, as his hand went under her skirt rubbing her. With one hand she unbuckled his trousers releasing his hard cock, Thomas groan as he felt her warm hand gently rub it.

(Y/N) pushed him back making Tommy look confused, she smiled at his red face and swollen lips without a word she got on her knees. His eyes rolled in the back of his head feeling her mouth suck on his tip, “Fuck...” he grunts gasping the back of her head, Tommy pulled her hair making her moan. (Y/N) move closer to him till his shaft is three quarters in your mouth.

She gag on him, which makes her moan. This causes him to jerk his hips forward, pushing himself further in her. She quickly bob her head and twist her tongue all around his cock, she starts moving her head faster wanting to feel Tommy inside her.

Tommy jerk his hips into her wanting to cum in her warm mouth, as he got closer he held (Y/N) still, “Oh, Grace...” he whispered catching (Y/N) off guard making her choke as she felt him twitch in your mouth. Not a second later she feel his warm cum hit the back of your throat and sliding down. He grunts as his cock is still in her mouth after he empty himself inside her, he pulls out with trail of cum on her lips and chin giving (Y/N) a chance to breathe.

She used her desk to stable herself as she gets up, Tommy faced away from (Y/N) as he fixed his trousers not wanting to look her in the eye after what happened. They both stood silent until (Y/N) spoke up.

“You don’t waste time do you.” He rolled his eyes.

“Don’t start..”

She glared at him as he fixed himself something to drink, “Your protecting her, aren’t you.” His nonchalant look filters for a moment before composing himself. She knew it his eyes betrayed him when she mention the barmaid. She shook her head.

“It doesn’t matter, you should leave.”

He sighed, “(Y/N)...” she put her hand up stopping him.

“Don’t...”

He took a step close to her making her step back, “...just leave.” She plead, he looked conflicted as he watched someone he considered not only a lover but a friend look so hurt. He turns to leave until (Y/N) said something leaving him heartbroken.

“I hope she loves you the way I do.” She watched him take a moment before leaving shutting the door behind her, she slammed her fist on the desk angrily as tears fell down her cheek. Thomas still near the door heard her sobs making him hold back tears himself. He soon left without her noticing.

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Time Go By Fast

3 years later

(Y/N) looked in the mirror trying to fix her hair, she turned around hearing the door opened, “Mummy, I don’t know what dress to wear.” (Y/N) looked at her young daughter holding the dresses she choose for their day out.

(Y/N) made a face, “Hmmm...” she waved her daughter over and looked at the two dresses, “I think this one...” (Y/N) pointed at the left dress.

“You think...?” (Y/N)’s daughter made a face of distaste at her mother’s choice, making (Y/N) rethink her decision.

“Okayyy...” she said a bit thrown off, “The other one, it matches your necklace.” (Y/N) said straightening the bow on her head. (Y/N)’s daughter sighed sad looking at the dress.

“What? What’s wrong with this one...?” the young girl looked at the pink dress in distaste making (Y/N) more confused.

“It doesn’t...how do I say this..” (Y/N) stared at her waiting for a answer.

“...fit my personality, for example the dress you brought me yesterday. Definitely fitted my personality, don’t you think?” (Y/N) tried to keep a straight face as she finally catches on what her daughter was trying to get at this whole time. (Y/N) slowly nodded her head when the young girl finished.

“That dress is suppose to be for your birthday...” the girl bounce on her heel anxiously waiting for her mother to continue, “...but I guess you can wear it for-” the girl squeal happily wrapping her arms around her mother repeatedly saying ‘thank you’.

“Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.” She said repeatedly running out of her mother room to finally get ready, (Y/N) shook her head with a small smile going back to her vanity mirror.

“I spoil her too much.” She mutters applying a little bit of make-up before leaving the room and going down stairs for breakfast.

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(Y/N) sat on the bench watching her daughter play with other children, before a man walked up to her, “Is this seat taken?” She didn’t say anything as the man took a seat next her, he didn’t say a word as they sat their together. (Y/N) dug in her pocket pulling out a cigarette, she sighed as her lighter choose a perfect time to not work as her daughter was turned away.

“Here...” before she can take the cigarette out of her mouth the man next to her light it, she leaned closer to him. (Y/N) inhale the nicotine slowly before blowing it into the air. “Thanks..” she mutters.

(Y/N) stiffens as she looked at the man in front of her, he looks at her nervously, “T-Thomas?” She whisperers, he gave her a small smile.

“Hi, (Y/N)..” he rest his hand on hers making her tad bit warm inside.

“Mummy...” (Y/N) and Tommy looked away from each other as (Y/N)’s daughter made her way over, making (Y/N) pulled her hand away and turn her attention towards her daughter.

“What’s wrong, princess?” She asked grabbing her little hands, “I made a new friend..” she said excitedly, (Y/N) eyes light up.

“Really? That’s great, my love.” (Y/N) smiled as her daughter talked about her new friend.

“Can he come to my party?” She asked happily

“It’s your big day, sweetheart. But I think we need to ask his parents first.” The little girl glanced at Tommy eagerly.

“So can be?”(Y/N) looked confused at why her daughter was asking Tommy, she was about to ask her daughter before Tommy beat her to the punch.

“I don’t see why not...” he said making the child grin and run back to her new friend to tell him the news. (Y/N) sat back a bit caught off guard about what just happened.

“What are the chances. My boy and your daughter....friends.” He chuckled softly.

“Hmmm...” Thomas looked at (Y/N) before reaching for her hand again, she flinched as his cold hands touched hers making him look away.

“I’m sorry.” he looked at her, “...for your lost, must be hard for you and your son.” He nodded pulling out a cigarette.

“Yeah...” after he walked out on her, he never felt right. The love he had for Grace was gone the moment he laid back in bed with her, he couldn’t find it in him to love her like (Y/N) loved him. For a period he thought having Charlie would have made the love he had for her come back but...it didn’t, the birth of his son made his marriage with Grace somewhat bearable. For the time being.

“If we had a second chance would you have stopped me?” (Y/N) frowned.

“My heart would have but my pride wouldn’t.” She said sadly

“Would you have stayed?” Without a second to waste Thomas blurted out his answer, “Yes, without a second thought.” He grabs both of (Y/N) hands, stared in her eyes.

“My life with Grace was...not the best. I wasn’t a great husband, and the only thing that kept our marriage intact was my son, Charlie.” He said ashamed.

“I remember one night I dream it was you that carried my son. It was you I married. I wish I stayed that night, I wished so badly that I got to tell you I love you.” (Y/N) couldn’t stop the tears from falling, Thomas pulled her close kissing her tears away. (Y/N) was lucky there wasn’t a lot of people here today, she always hated cry especially in public.

Thomas couldn’t contain himself any longer and kissed her. (Y/N) took a minute for kissing back, she hook her arm around his neck pulling him in closer. She pulled away making Thomas attack her neck as she glance over to the playground to see the kids are still playing before turning back to Thomas.

“As much I would love to finish this but I have to get the little one home.” She untangle herself from Thomas as they both stood up.

“Are you saying there’s a chance we get to do this again?” Thomas says with a sly smile.

“Maybe, if you ask me properly.” She smiled.

Thomas smirked leaning in to her, “(Y/N) would you go on a date with me?” (Y/N) bite her lips playfully thinking before nodding her head ‘yes’ making him give her a very much longing kiss.

They both pulled away, “I’ll see you soon.” She said kissing his cheek before calling her daughter, Thomas stared at her as she walked away with her daughter. He finally came back to reality when his son hugged his side, he picked him up and walked to his car.

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6 months later

(Y/N) and Tommy laid on the blanket looking at the stars her head rested on his arm as the snuggle together on the grass. (Y/N) smile at the day they had together, she forgot the feeling of being wanted and adore. Her inside fluttered remembering how they couldn’t take their hand off each other, it was so hard for them not to get carried away since it was their first date with each other.

The nervous feeling she felt for weeks after he asked her out distracted her constantly, the moment he picked up her up all that worried melted away and the memories resurfaced as to why she always felt secure with Tommy. The whole day he held her hand as if at any given moment she would fly away, and he made it his sole mission to make her laugh, smile, and feel happy.

(Y/N) smiled turned into a sly smirk as she felt Tommy’s fingers ran up and down her thigh, she glanced style smiling fool before her making her glare at him.

“Don’t start something you can’t finished, Shelby.” He looked at her as if he didn’t know what she was talking about, “Whatever do you mean, Ms. (Y/L/N).” He says now moving his fingers under her dress, he stared into her eyes before kissing her. Both didn’t waste time as they undress each other.

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2 years later

(Y/N) watched as Tommy played with the children, she looked down at their five month year old son in the stroller. She smiled at the memory when she told Tommy the news, they were both thrilled to have a baby together and the kids were excited to be a sibling. But she sighed sadly at the aftermath....

𝑇ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑟 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ (𝑌/𝑁), ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑜𝑓𝑓 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑗𝑒𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑙𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒-𝑢𝑝. 𝐻𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑓𝑒𝑤 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠 𝑜𝑛 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑛𝑒𝑐𝑘, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑠 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑝𝑠 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑝𝑎𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑙𝑦. 𝐻𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑡𝑜𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑝𝑢𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦, “𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦, 𝑛𝑜...” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑒 𝑏𝑦 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒.

“𝑊ℎ𝑦 𝑛𝑜𝑡?” ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑡 𝑡𝑜𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑠 ℎ𝑖𝑚, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑟𝑢𝑏 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ, “𝐵𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝐼'𝑚 𝑡𝑖𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑛𝑎𝑢𝑒𝑜𝑢𝑠...” 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦 𝑤𝑎𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑠.

“𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦, 𝐼 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑖𝑡.” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑒𝑑, “....𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦!” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑎𝑠𝑝 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑖𝑡 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ,  (𝑌/𝑁) 𝑝𝑢𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ 𝑙𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑒𝑑. 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟.

“𝑀𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑚𝑒?” 𝑆ℎ𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑘 ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑐ℎ𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑙𝑛𝑔, “...𝑦𝑒𝑎ℎ 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑒.”𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑠𝑎𝑟𝑐𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑐

“𝐼'𝑚 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑜𝑢𝑠.” ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑏𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑝𝑎𝑙𝑚 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟, “𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑓𝑒. 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟.” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑐𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚.

“𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑏𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟, 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦...” ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑛 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑒𝑘,“𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢...𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠.”

“𝐼𝑓 𝑖𝑡𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑏𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑤𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑑𝑜 𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑟𝑛..” (𝑌/𝑁) 𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑜𝑛 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑠𝑜 ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑜𝑛 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒.

“𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡..” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚.

“𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑖𝑡?” ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑠𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑏𝑏𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 ℎ𝑖𝑚, “𝐷𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑒?”

“𝐼𝑡𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑒𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟..” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑘 ℎ𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡, “𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡?” ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑠𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑟𝑦

“𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦, 𝐼-..”

"”𝑊𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑏𝑢𝑠𝑛𝑖𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠, 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑒 𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑠 𝑖𝑓 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑜𝑤𝑛. 𝑆𝑜 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑏𝑙𝑒𝑚.”

“𝑇𝐻𝐸𝑅𝐸'𝑆 𝑁𝑂 𝑃𝑅𝑂𝐵𝐿𝐸𝑀 𝐼 𝐽𝑈𝑆𝑇..”𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑢𝑝, “𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑎 𝑤𝑒𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔. 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔. 𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑒, 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑑𝑠. 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡.” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑚𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛. 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑜𝑎𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑖𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑜𝑟.

“𝑊ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔?”

“𝑂𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑎 𝑓𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑖𝑛' 𝑑𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑘.” ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑜𝑟,“𝐼𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑒 𝑔𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑑𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑤? 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑟𝑢𝑛 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝐺𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑜𝑛, 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑡𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑑𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑘, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑢𝑝 𝑖𝑛 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒'𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑑. 𝑅𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒.”

“𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜. 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤.”(𝑌/𝑁) 𝑓𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑙𝑎𝑚𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑜𝑟 𝑏𝑒ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑚, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑎𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑑, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑢𝑝 𝑡𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑐𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔.

𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑥𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑘𝑒 𝑢𝑝 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑠𝑙𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑛𝑒𝑥𝑡 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑒𝑟. 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑚 𝑑𝑟𝑎𝑝𝑒 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑠𝑡 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑓𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑠𝑛𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑎𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑒𝑎𝑟, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑙𝑦 𝑡𝑟𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑚𝑠𝑜 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑐𝑘 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑛. 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦 𝑤𝑜𝑘𝑒 𝑢𝑝 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑙𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑, (𝑌/𝑁) 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑎𝑝𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑖𝑐.

“𝐷𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑤𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.”

“𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑒, 𝐼 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠.” ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑟𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝑠𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑢𝑝, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑑𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑.

“𝐼'𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡. 𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼'𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦.”

“𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑏𝑒 𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑜𝑛 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑.” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑

“𝐼𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑑𝑠. 𝐼'𝑚 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑢𝑡 𝑎 𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟. 𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑠𝑒 𝑚𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑢𝑝 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑏𝑠.” (𝑌/𝑁) 𝑐ℎ𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦’𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑝𝑠.

“𝐼'𝑚 𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡...”𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚, “𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑡𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦.”

“𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒, (𝑌/𝑁).”

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1943

Tommy looked unfazed as his son, Charlie stands in front of him in the living room scowling him. (Y/N) looked confused and startled at what she was witnessing, Charlie never looked so angry but so disappointed at the same time at his father.

“Got something to say, boy?” Tommy asked a making Charlie face grow red by the second.

“I could ask you the same thing, old man.” Tommy sighed and took of his reading glasses well putting his book down on the table next to him. He stood up off his seat and looked eye to eye with his son.

“Ask and you shall receive.” Tommy said.

“Is what Lizzie Stark say is true?” (Y/N) wondered what Lizzie said to make Charlie look so coldly at his father.

“Hmmm, I see...” he fell back into his seat remembering what he been hearing about her.

“Is it true? Is Ruby your daughter.” Tommy looked from his son to his wife, (Y/N) looks back at him.

“...yes..” (Y/N) looked away from Tommy angry she couldn’t believe she was played once again by him, she kept a neutral face as her children looked shocked and angry at their father.

“For 17 years you kept this a secret.” Charlie hissed making Tommy turn back to him.

“I did what I had to do for this family.”

“For who? Her or us.” Ester said glaring at him.

“For all of us.”

Charlie shook his head in disbelief, “No, you did it for yourself. Like you always do, she a pawn like the rest of us.” He grumbled walking out of the living with his sister following behind, (Y/N) got up off the coach and moved closer to Tommy.

“(Y/N), I’m sorry.” (Y/N) pinch the bridge of her nose feeling a headache coming and sighed, “I know you are Tommy. I know you are and that’s okay. Because I already knew.” He sat there still unfazed by what his wife said.

“How?”

“Is that a serious question?” She rolled her eyes looking in the fireplace, “....she has your eyes and your attitude, I didn’t know for sure but I do now.” He finally looks up at her.

“Are going to leave me?” He asked genuinely. (Y/N) moved sitting on his lap, he leaned his head on her chest listening to her heart beat, “No, I’m not gonna leave you. I’m already in too deep, so why not ride it out...” she says.

“And besides it helped me relieve some of the guilt.” She sighs rubbing small circles on her stomach, Tommy clench his jaw at her words.

“I’m gonna check on dinner, I’ll send Mary in to fetch you when it’s done.” He nodded watching her stand up from his lap.

“(Y/N)..” he said stopping her, Tommy got up and pulled her by her waist and gave her a tender kissed. She kissed him back with the same passion, he broke the kiss leaning his head onto hers, “I love you, don’t doubt that for a minute.” She didn’t know what to say so she just nodded.

“I love you, too.”

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1975

Tommy laid in bed with machine hooked up to him well looking through photos of him and his family, he saw an old photograph of him along with his brothers and another one with him and (Y/N), he traced his finger over her face longingly. He was back were he started when Grace died, expect his children were all grown up and despised him, expect for his youngest. All he had was his dirty money and the manor, most of his family moved away or died. So he was the only one left to run the business and keep it intact for all of these years.

Tommy started coughing badly causing his nurse to come in quick and hand him his medication. He took his pills and took a drink of water as he rest back in his bed with the photo album still on his lap, his nurse was about to go when Tommy stopped.

“Marie...” he asked weakly making her walked back to him, “Yes, Mr. Shelby. Do you need anything else.” She asked kindly.

“Yes, I need you to call my children. Tell them it’s an emergency...” he said coughing a bit before settle back. The nurse nodded leaving the room to call his kin, Tommy relaxed as he waited for his family to get here.

After waiting for well before his door opened to reveal his son, John. He walked in with Ruby and Mary close behind as they pulled up a seat next his bed.

“Hi, dad.” John said.

“Hello, dad.” Mary Jane said.

“Hi, dad.” Ruby said.

He smiled as they took a seat.

“So, what’s the emergency?” Mary Jane asked.

“I’ll tell you when Charlie and Ester get here.” The three siblings looked at each other.

“Dad?” Tommy looked at him.

“When was the last time you spoked to them.”

“Not since your mothers funeral, god bless her soul.” Tommy said.

“That was nearly two years ago.” Mary Jane said shocked, she knew her brother and father weren’t on good terms but still she kind of hoped one of them would at least called him once.

“It’s not their fault, I wasn’t a always a good father or husband for them to check up on. I deserve it for my past sins.” Ruby felt a bit sad because she was the breaking point to Charlie and her father downfall, but (Y/N) never blamed her unlike Charlie. It seem like she understood, if that makes any sense.

They all turned hearing the door opening to see Ester and Charlie with their own families, Tommy looked happy seeing his son and daughter walked in the room. He smiled as his grandchildren surrounded his bed giving him hugs and kisses, telling him how much they missed spending Christmas and Easter with him.

“Come on, kids. Why don’t we give them some space.” The children awe in sadness wanting to spend more time with their grandpa, “Now, now. Listen to you mother. “ Tommy said as they moved off his bed and followed Charlie’s wife and Ester’s husband out the door.

“I’m happy that you came..” Tommy said.

“Marie said it was emergency.” Ester said taking seat on the other said of the bed making Charlie followed suit.

“Indeed. I wanted to talk to you all about my will.” Tommy sat up a bit.

"And you couldn't wait to tell us this tomorrow." Charlie said watching his father pull out a folder from his side table, "I wanted to talk about it now, just in case.." He said nonchalantly putting on his glasses.

"Dad, why is everything okay?" John asked worried

"There's no need to worry, I just wanted get everything settle before my depart.." He says.

"Dad..." Charlie started but cut off by his father,

"Now, my estates are gonna be split between all of you." He hands each of the properties to his childern.

"You giving me the betting shop?" Charlie said, "Yes, you can sell it or keep it. It's yours." Charlie looked back at the paper.

"I only have one request to ask of you." they looked at him with teary eyes, "...forgive me.” He said looking at all his children. They nodded.

“Now, bring my grandkids back in here before they have to go.” Ester stood up and called all everyone back, the children rushed in as they surround their grandfather again. He told them stories of their grandmother and his brothers/sisters, all the well his children watched and laughed along forgotten ever being sad. The night was coming to a end, John and Mary Jane along with Ruby bid their family a goodnight before leaving home.

Ester bend down kissing Tommy on head before saying goodnight, “I love you, dad.” She whispered Tommy smiled grateful at the women he was so proud to call his daughter, “I love you too, my dear.” Tommy kissed her hand saying goodnight her and her kids.

“Hey, can you give me a minute with my dad?” Charlie asked his wife who nodded kissing him on his cheek before saying goodnight to her father-in-law. Tommy waved goodbye to his grandchildren and daughter-in-law, Charlie came close to his father’s bed.

“Dad?” Tommy looked up at him.

“I wanted to stay I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have treated you-.”

“Charlie...” Tommy stopped his son, “...there’s no need.” The look on his father face told him everything he needed to know, “I love you, dad.”

“I love you too, son.” He smiled.

“But before you leave, here.” Tommy handed him the photo album, Charlie looked taken back at the book his father was holding towards him. He took from his hand as he scan through the pages.

“I can’t believe you still got it,I always thought we lost it.” He said staring at a photo of him and John in the backyard.

“Marie was l throwing stuff away and came across this old thing, so many memories.” He said he looked at his son as he smiled at the pictures, “I want you to keep.” Charlie looked at him.

“Are you sure?”

“Of course, my old man brain gonna misplace it one of these days. I want you to have it. Just in case.” He said.

Charlie nodded, “Thank you..” Tommy started coughing and wheezing making Charlie give him a glass of water, he thanked him and took a couple breathe from his mask before lying down.

“Maybe we should stay over.” Tommy shook head, “No, Im fine I have Marie here.” Charlie looked complex.

“I’m be fine.” Tommy said sincerely trying to put on a brave face for his son, Charlie nodded.

“Okay, dad. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“See you tomorrow, son.” He watched Charlie walk out with the album in his hand, Tommy got comfortable in bed with a photo of (Y/N). He stood up for a well thinking about his life and his family, h sighed kissing the photo.

“I miss you, my love.”

Tommy settled into bed. Nothing but ventilator sounds fill the room, slowly he drifted and to sleep as he imagine (Y/N) sitting next to him on the park bench watching their kids and grandkids play. He turned to her watching her smile and laugh at them.

“There’s a pretty face.” He whispered.

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This is why it’s so important for parents to support their trans kids.