Totally.Yes.YES!I Mean - I Personally Did Not Know That I Can Be Autistic, Because I Never Have Had Any

Totally. Yes. YES! I mean - I personally did not know that I can be autistic, because I never have had any problem with playing with words, understanding jokes, sarcasm or poetry. I thought that if I have no problem with a phrases like: “I love you to the moon and back,” I can not even theoretically be autistic.

So my brand of autism comes with the "takes things literally" dlc but not in the way that I believe people when they say outlandish things but in the way that I believed my mother when she told me I can't draw at age 5 and then again when she told me I'm not an artist when I tried to apply for an art academy so I gave up on drawing around middle school because I took it literally that I am NOT an artist and cannot be. Same for when she told me I can't ever go to college, my child brain just accepted that as fact.

I took it literally when I worked in a factory and they had set goals for us and I worked myself to permanent injury, not understanding the unspoken rule of "take it slow and don't worry about hitting the goal" because the managers knew they could take advantage of me and I'd do what they told me to do and all the other employees disliked me because I tried too hard and that could make the goals higher for everyone but nobody communicated this to me

I think one of the biggest issues with autism evaluations is that they don't explain these things to people being evaluated. Taking things literally doesn't mean I don't understand sarcasm or jokes. It means I am easy to manipulate and take advantage of.

Happy Pride!

I gave my soapbox speech about how weight loss is mostly bullshit to two different patients in a row yesterday and so help me I’m pretty sure one of these days someone is going to say “but SURELY you agree I’d be HEALTHIER if I lost weight!” bc you can see the disbelief in their eyes. And like. Sure, maybe! You might see some improvement in biomarkers like LDL and A1c, and your knees would probably feel better. But you would be amazed at how much more good you can do for yourself by focusing on things you can actually meaningfully change without resorting to making yourself miserable. Eat more fresh fruits and vegetables—it’s hard bc they’re more difficult to prepare and more expensive per calorie and go bad faster than other foods, but they’re what we evolved eating the most of so they’re what our bodies need the most of. And walk around more; sure, cardio is great for you, but if it sucks so bad you don’t do it, it isn’t doing shit for you. And we evolved to walk very very long distances, a little bit at a time, so our bodies respond actually very well to adding walks into our schedules, which is vastly easier than adding workouts that are frankly designed to be punishing when the definition of punishing is “makes you less likely to do it again in the future.”

You get one life. It is shorter than you can begin to imagine. Don’t waste it hating yourself because somebody is going to make money off that self-hatred. You deserve better than to be a cash cow for billionaires who pay aestheticians and dermatologists to make them (or at least their trophy wives) look thin and beautiful no matter what they actually do.

I hope it helps. 

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Yes! YES! That’s me!

I think it needs to become common knowledge that "inability to read social cues" can show up as overcompensating.

You don't know how much misbehaviour is allowed, so you become the perfect child who never tests rules.

You don't know if someone is irritated with you, so you'll be extra generous and self-effacing.

You don't know how much is expected of you at work so you'll kill yourself in a minimum-wage job and not notice that nobody else is working like this.

"Hardworking and quiet" should be as much of an autism red flag as "ignores rules and doesn't know when to stop talking". Or why don't we just start using words to communicate so i can stop tracking everybody's eyebrow twitches, that would be great.

this doesn’t have a fake answer and i know earnest polls get reblogged less. but uh…… what if i ask nicely.