This Banger Is Always In My Head

This banger is always in my head

A little pre debut Jun han 😆

This worth my daydreaming on a hundred percent

insomnia / junhan

when you just can’t seem to sleep it seems like junhan always has a solution

unedited

warnings : reader has insomnia, uhhh tooth rotting fluff (?), gaon makes an appearance for like 5 secs, reality of insomnia

gn! reader x boyfriend junhan

you could have sworn the last time you checked your phone the time was 11pm but you’re proven wrong as soon as you exhaustedly roll over to read 2 am in big bold white letters.

nights like these were nothing but the usual for you although it was getting increasingly worse. even after trying what you felt like had been every possible answer, the future seemed to offer nothing to abide by.

after checking the time and realizing you weren’t going to get any sleep, you decided maybe junhan would still be awake at the studio. his sleep schedule was definitely something. even after staying up for hours on end he never failed to put a smile on your face. even when he was ready to sleep he would stop at nothing to make sure you would rest right by his side.

reaching for your phone in the seemingly endless dark you quickly sent a text to him.

you : hey… would there be any chance you’re still up?

and sent. hopefully he wasn’t sleeping and had to wake up to get again, another restless night for you.

hyeongjun : hey my love, i’m still awake! i’m in the studio right now. late night for both of us i see…. 😴 what’s got you up so late?

you : just another one of those nights. i even took some melatonin but i can’t seem to sleep…… :(

hyeongjun : wanna swing by the studio? you can spend the night with me if you’d like. the boys won’t mind and they miss you, as usual, anyways

with a rushed ‘yes i’m on my way text’ you stood up to throw on a pair of oversized sweatpants with one of junhans band tees you so secretively stole.

stepping outside there was a light breeze. it reigned cold on your skin and to your surprise, you felt a glimpse of warmth. not physical warmth just the pure feeling of joy that you had somebody like him.

no matter what, junhan was always there for you. even in the beginning of your relationship. he would facetime you or even send you videos of him playing the guitar to possibly fix any possible sleeping issue you had been dealing with.

it wasn’t out of the normal for him to do things like this, but the way he never cared to go out of his way to help you was what always made you warm. regardless if it was the coldest day in december, you could always feel the constant warmth and love junhan always gave you.

making your way to the studio you thought of many things like this. even if it meant you had to walk through a war, if junhan was on the other side, you would make it through.

once you arrived at the studio you had ran into gaon who knew about your insomnia and had often sang or even played some guitar for you to rest in his studio when junhan was just slightly busy.

gaon wished you the best and with a hug you were opening the door to see your lovely boyfriend.

nothing could ever replace the immediate sleepiness you felt when you entered his presence. it was almost as if he was your sleep aid.

“aw, you’re here!!” junhan said while standing up to give you a big warm hug.

seeing you like this was far from easy for him. if he could take it all away from you, even if it meant he had to experience it, he would. seeing you go through all those restless nights and all those early mornings where getting up was such a challenge made him hurt for you and wonder why somebody so precious to him would have to go through such a thing.

when he wraps his arms around you and lightly strums up and down your back, you can already feel your eyes becoming heavy.

“let’s get you in bed okay?” junhan says while cleaning up his studio and grabbing his zip up.

on the way to their dorm you guys talked about all sorts of things. junhan knew you got your energy out by letting loose and talking as much as you pleased. he loved hearing you talk and he loved hearing anything you may have to say about your oh so eventful life. it was beautiful, you were beautiful.

once arriving back to the dorms to see most of the boys already in their rooms and sleeping, it had helped set a mood for you.

after taking off your shoes and lining them up next to junhans, he tells you to wait right there for just a minute.

as you stand there you realize, it was the little things like this that meant the most to you. lining up your shoes next to each other after a long day, debriefing with him when he acted like you were the only person talking even in a room full of people, him holding your hand in a crowded place because he knew you would get overwhelmed, and even down to just being with him. everything meant so much to you, but the little things proved to be the things you loved the most.

junhan comes up to you holding a white soft blanket. wrapping it around you, you can’t help but notice that the blanket is nice and warm.

“i put it in the towel heater for a minute so it would be nice and warm for you” he says while slowly guiding you towards his room.

walking into his room was always something that made you feel so safe. from the familiar white glasses laying on his desk to the guitar in the corner of his room, you loved being surrounded in his presence and being. just in where he is was enough for you.

he starts to make down his bed and motion for you to come cuddle up next to him and you gladly do so.

“do you want me to sing something to you?” he asks while wrapping his arm around you and running his hand through your hair.

“yes please.” you say as your eyes are already feeling more droopy by the minute.

he begins to hum ‘beautiful’ by crush while slowly guiding his hands through your hair.

once he hears your breathing become slightly heavier he can’t help but begin to doze off himself.

and as the night turned into morning, your love for junhan grew stronger and stronger every single day.

if youre my mutual you have to stay alive and stay safe and take care of yourself. no exceptions idc

How are you today?

Anyway look at him