It Wasn't That Long Since I Started Reading Korean Manhwa/webtoons Besides Japanese Manga, And Recently

It wasn't that long since I started reading Korean manhwa/webtoons besides Japanese manga, and recently I got into the historical-fantasy genre webtoons/manhwa where out of all of them, The Fantasie of a Stepmother (A Stepmother's Märchen) is my No. 1 fav in the list. I just love the story and the characters and more so than that, I'm in love with the main male lead of the story, Norra Von Nurnberger.

(The greenest of the green flags and I'm a simp for him now!!!)

Norra Von Nurnberger

He's so fucking beautiful OMG!!! 😭🤧💖💘🥰😘

Were you … okay with getting beat up by this gang? You considered it — genuinely. Perhaps, to love is to feel pain? For every punch they get in, you could take that chance to stare into their eyes. Every throw could be interpreted as a passionate hug. Every kick an extreme game of footsie.

☆ Chapter 1: Who’s Next?

He’s smiling down at you – kind and gentle, and you really really really want to hop on that train right about now. You’re frozen as he presses his fingers lightly against your forehead, wiping away the loose dirt that’s collected there. And then … and then –  He stares into your eyes – deep and warm and curious.

☆ Chapter 2: Quick Like a Bunny

“Bunny,” he repeats himself – simple and matter-of-factly. “That’s not my name.” “But you’re just so cute –” Your nose scrunches up at his words, and he laughs as he claps his hands. “Oh! See, you are a bunny!”

☆ Chapter 3: The Tiger

“If I could describe you in one word, Suo, I’d say that you’re –” “Intelligent? Patient? Cheeky?” “Insufferable.” He laughs lightly at your words as if you hadn’t just offended him, before gazing down at you with a look that screams mischief and something else that you can’t quite place yet.

☆ Chapter 4: Getting Around Town

“You don’t have to be so careful Hayato – I won’t break ~” He hums thoughtfully, before bending down to whisper in your ear. “And if I do? Break you, that is.” That catches you off guard. You laugh, loud and boisterous – “Then I expect you to fix what you break, pretty boy.”

☆ Chapter 5: Let's Get Ready to Rumble

☆ Chapter 6: In Progress

☆ Chapter 7: In Progress

don't steal or repost, thanks! - Melody♡

⌕. WIND BREAKER

⟳. WHAT ARE WE ?

suo hasn't been treating you differently to others yet you think it’s unusual which led to you going insane from all the thinking you did when in the end you two end up being together.

pairing/s : suo hayato x gn!reader

warning/s : lowercase intended , childhood friends to lovers troupe RAHHH ( idk if this is a warning but ill still put it )

word count : 2.7k

note : i only read this once and i think i used the " you " and other words repeatedly but i tried my best on searching other terms 🥲 and me still centering everything when it’ll just be mess up on pc or laptop 😭

꒰ masterlist 𖦹 wbk masterlist ꒱

suo hayato has been your childhood friend like literally. you guys were friends in the age of five or six you can’t remember but you and that man have been friends for like decades. well, practically you both grew up together just by how close you two are.

he’s the only man closest to you other than your father. he’s similar to a brother figure and you only see him as that yet the brown haired man’s action says different. thinking about his actions late at night has made its way into your night routine.

what was your night routine during the time you never questioned his actions? it’s simple — you eat, do your skincare, brush your teeth and go to sleep. nowadays, you just lay in your bed staring at the ceiling recalling every interaction you had with that man. there are also days you can't hold it and scream at your pillow because of how kind he is to you.

it’s normal and you're only thinking that and making it deeper that it shouldn't have because what if there’s an actual meaning in there and you’re just brushing it off? these thoughts never fail you to stay awake at night.

your alarm goes off as you hit it to turn it off, you feel a little bit groggy as you force yourself to sit on the edge of your bed, rubbing at your eyes to remove the sleepiness you’re feeling. “ gosh, i feel more tired than usual. ” you thought to yourself as you stand up, making your way on the bathroom to wash your face.

luckily there wasn’t any school today or else you’re cooked knowing yourself you’ll doze off in the middle of the class. you cursed suo as if it was his fault that you didn’t get enough sleep. ever since you started thinking his actions have more meaning — it made you more delusional.

delusional that he likes you, you don’t even know what is his motive for that or maybe he’s just fucking around, you have no clue plus it’s messing up your mind. letting out a sigh while you dry your face up using a towel leaving your bathroom to prepare your breakfast and that you can leave to roam around the town besides you need to restock up your fridge too.

you slip on your shoes and your bag slinging it on your shoulder as you lock your apartment door.

the sun shines on your face making you squint covering your eyes with your palm while you look down squeezing your eyes shut because of the sun directly hitting your eyes.

you straightly made your way into the café that kotoha runs wanting to have a drink before walking to the market.

“ hello, [name]! how are you? ” you heard kotoha ask when you’re literally just about to step foot inside. “ i’m fine, thank you for asking. ” kotoha nodded, satisfied with your answer as she set down a plate she was just wiping a minute ago.

three minutes later, kotoha placed your usual drink in front of you as she continued to wipe the plate she put down earlier. the door opened the bell rings signaling that someone stepped inside the café and it was just the trio. sakura, nirei and suo.

“ oh! kotoha and [name], hellooo !! ” he greeted both of you and smiled as kotoha greeted him back. the brown haired girl greeted the three of them as sakura and nirei sat next to each other while suo sat next to you.

suo propped his elbow as he rest his chin on his hand before smiling at you. “ what are your plans for today? ” he asked. he always asks you what are your plans once he gets the chance to talk to you. “ walk around the market, my fridge is almost empty. ” you replied. suo looks at you and nods. “ i’ll tag along. ” he said giving you a close eyed smile.

you raise one of your eyebrow as you looked at him and looked at nirei and sakura who was chatting with kotoha. “ we just finished patrolling. ” he said when he noticed you were looking back and forth to say that “ suo, you’re hanging out with your friends. ”

“ oh! wouldn't they mind if i steal you from them, then? ” the brown haired boy shook his head left to right. “ i’m sure they won’t — right sakura and nirei? ” he asked as he looked at the two boys while sakura looked at him as if he was angry when he literally just don't get it. “ huh? oh yeah, it’s alright! ” nirei said when sakura is still puzzled. “ what are you guys say- ” he tried to chime in but got cut off with nirei just saying that sakura also agrees.

“ see? they wouldn't mind. ” the smile on his face never faded as you nodded sipping on the drink that you almost forgot about.

you finished your drink as you thanked kotoha before leaving money on the counter as you waved them goodbye, suo doing the same.

“... is that why he asked if it’s alright? ” sakura asked while he eats his omurice. nirei and kotoha nodded in sync.

you were glad suo tagged along or else your hands are full of fruits, vegetables and meat. you were buying a lot so it will last you for a month so you can avoid leaving your apartment to buy the ingredients you need if you’re craving something.

“ ahh, you’re buying a lot are you planning to lock yourself in your apartment? ” turning around to face suo as you blinked at him. “ obviously not, i can’t live without interacting with someone. ” you said, turning your back against him as you buy an ice cream. “ do you also want one, suo? ” suo declined your offer as you just shrugged and thanked the old man who was selling the ice cream, taking a spoonful of it, consuming it.

the vendors or the elders that are in the same place you two are also have been mistaking you and suo that you two are together so whenever you decline or suo decline it they will say that it’s a pity you and him aren't together since you two look good together.

every time you hear it you can't help but sigh internally because you’re confused about how you see him and also confused about how he sees you, you were in your own world thinking about the things everyone said to you and suo.

if he didn't pull you out of the way you would have been hit by a kid who was paddling fast like they were in some kind of race.

“ you never change [name], ” he said as he release his hold on your wrist. “ don’t zone out like that. ” he added making you let out an apologetic smile, leading him into a bench. “ let’s take a break for now then let’s go to my apartment. ” you said. both of you sitting at the same time.

you take a spoonful of the ice cream again, consuming it as you repeat it and in a second the cup of ice cream is finished. “ wait, ” suo said making you look at him as he places down the plastic bags on the ground before he takes out a handkerchief, wiping the corner of your lips making you surprised your hand moves in its own putting a hand on his wrist, making him stop his movement.

“ why are you doing this? ” you start, your hand still on his wrist as he tilts his head to the side. “ just, what are we suo? ” you finished, looking at him there was a glint in your eyes that suo couldn't understand what it is. “ what do you want us to be? ” his question made you huff taking your hand off his wrist.

this man got you in a chokehold and that annoys you because why does he have such a huge effect on you? did he put you in a spell or something?

he puts down the plastic bags on your kitchen counter while you look at your list everything is checked out except for " a carton of ice cream " written with a red pen. you wanna ask suo if he wanna tag along to go to an ice cream store together.

“ looks like you got something on your mind, ” looking up to see him standing in front of you, his hands on his back. “ are you able to go with me to the ice cream store? i’ll buy you an ice cream too! consider it as a reward for helping me. ”

the both of you walked into the ice cream store as you shivered a bit because of how chilly it can get inside the store. you quickly goes to one of the ice cream freezer, sliding the glass as you grabbed an ice cream that was stored in a tub and an ice cream that was in a cone.

the brown haired boy only stared at you — having a hard time picking which flavor you should get. “ suo, what should flavor should i get? ” you asked him, showing different flavors of the ice cream. “ that one. ” suo replied, pointing at your favorite flavor at all times.

nodding at his reply putting the other flavors back to the freezer as you closed it. “ what about you? what ice cream do you want? ” you asked, suo taking the ice cream out of your hand, walking into the register to pay for it.

you stand there stunned as the tall male gave a smile leaving with a small thank you.

he left your apartment as you sighed in relief. you let out a silent scream, putting both of your hands on your head before running into your room.

what happened today just made you wonder about it more. when suo asked “ what do you want us to be? ” just keeps repeating over and over again like it’s on loop. do you want to be his? or do you want to stay friends with him? that thought made you stay awake all night.

you were looking at the ceiling again having a staring contest with it — you’re in a predicament that looks like you can solve easily yet it’s hard.

suo is a mysterious person. everybody knows that including you, of course. you’re no exception when it comes to that, that man can read you like an open book when it comes to him? you can’t exactly pinpoint his exact feelings seeing that he always have a smile on his face.

“ what do you want us to be... ” you recalled what he said as you smiled, kicking your feet under the sheets. just what will you do without him? you two aren’t even together and here you are blushing and kicking your feet.

the next day, you feel your eyes can't open temporarily because of how tired you are feeling. at the same time, you forcefully opened your eyes looking at yourself in the mirror. there’s a bag under your eye, a clear sign that you didn't get the sleep you want.

today, you’re feeling extra insane from all of that thinking you did last night. “ maybe hanging out with suo today will fix everything? ” you asked yourself, taking your phone out texting suo quickly.

spoiler alert — it didn't fix everything or maybe it did?

now, you two are sitting outside of a small cafe, a drink infront of you while on suo have nothing but just water.

“ well.. i expected you would only drink water so i brought teacakes. ” you stated, placing a box in front of him as he gave you a bright smile. “ ah, how thoughtful of you. ” you brush it off saying that he deserves it.

“ suo! ” someone called out, both of your head turning to who it was. a blond hair boy and a black and white hair boy walk towards to where you guys are sitting.

the blond hair boy scratches his cheek with his index finger while the two toned hair boy has both of his hands in his pocket — the one they all have in common is they all wear furin jackets.

“ oh, uhm are you on a date.. ” the blond hair asked nervously not wanting to interrupt as suo shook his head which made him sigh in relief.

“ don’t get the wrong idea, me and suo are just friends! childhood friends to be exact. ” you explained with a smile. seems like he’s rubbing off on you by how you smile more often.

you continued to sip your drink while suo talked to them for a bit. not long after they had walked away to do their own thing, suo’s eyes are fixated on you again. you ignored it by looking at your side which is inside the cafe.

“ how come, you’re always like this with me? ” you blurted out a question while he bites on the teacakes you had brought him. “ i know you’re aware of your actions. if you don’t stop i’m close to falling for you. ” you said in a joking manner as he just smiled in return.

“ i’ll wait for that day. the day you’ll fall for me. ” he said as he showed you a smile — a smile that’s so breathtaking, if they challenge you to look at him like this, tell everyone you’ll be out there with a huge amount of money.

you’re probably overreacting it or is it just you but he looks more handsome than usual?

“ let’s go, it’ll probably get dark later. ” his voice grabbed you out of your train of thoughts as you nodded, standing up and taking the drink you failed to finish.

as usual, suo walks you to your apartment. you mumbled a thank you, as you ran quickly inside your apartment slamming the door.

you rubbed the back of your neck, feeling embarrassed at what you said back there in the cafe as you sit on the floor, leaning on the door. it’s confirmed, suo hayato will be the death of you.

days turn into weeks and weeks turn into months. you can’t handle the feelings you have for him. you always tell yourself that if you’re ever friends with someone it should only stay as friends however that’s not the case here anymore.

day by day the only thing that you have in mind was suo it was always him. it was like his name was imprinted on your brain. you could never go on a normal day without thinking about suo.

inviting suo into your apartment wasn’t in your to-do list yet you still did it, therefore you two were sitting on the floor across from each other. rambling about your school and things you had seen when you were out.

and that’s when you did something stupid next thing you did was ramble about how you like him so much and that you still think about what he said when you two were in the cafe. to top it off you weren't even drunk, you never even had a single alcohol in you.

“ to answer your question about what do you want us to be, i’d like us to date. ” you noticed the silence when you finished talking.

“ well, that took you several months to answer my question. ” he teased and laugh which made you embarrassed.

“ don’t rub it off my face! you wanna go on a date with me or not! ” you said heat rushing up to your cheeks. suo finding this adorable as he lifted his hand to pinch your cheek. “ i’ll go on a date with you, my treat of course. ” he said, pinching at your cheek making you scrunch your nose before pulling away his hand.

months had gone by after that date you two had. it was memorable for you.

you were eating ice cream again while suo wipes the side of your mouth to clean the ice cream that remains. you finished the ice cream again in no time, throwing it into the nearby trash can before glancing at the man in front of you.

“ what are we? ” the question you asked when you’re so puzzled about his true intention. suo laugh “ we are a happy couple. ” he answered, as you giggle like a kid that got something they want.

you convinced yourself that those sleepless nights. the nights you wouldn't even get a blink of sleep because of the constant thinking you do because of him.

date posted : 063024

Happy Birthday Yatora Yaguchi - July 5th || Blue Period

Na lápide está escrito: “Itachi Uchiha, a criança que se sacrificou para resolver problemas de adultos.”

Arte mostra como deveria ter sido o túmulo do Itachi em Naruto Shippuden

P3: Reader is Kaji’s Wallpaper

TW: fluff and angst with happy ending, suggestive

Synopsis: Reader and Kaji have finally returned to their old routines after Kaji's time in the hospital, and it’s been great, but Kaji is emotionally constipated and not great with words, so you have been feeling self conscious lately. Tsubaki counsels you about your feelings. Kaji shows you how he feels.

This is the 3rd and final part in my series Timid Reader x Ren Kaji ! If you liked it then check out the one shots connected to this series on my master list, and thank you for reading! ( Part 1 )

It’s been several months since Kaji went to the hospital - he was discharged in under two weeks since they were worried about internal injuries. Kaji was clear with the staff that they weren’t allowed to tell you until he was better or until he was bad off enough that he had to tell you. They obliged, regardless of ethical codes dictating they couldn’t go against his wishes, they were also too afraid of him not to do as he said anyway. It’s not that he enjoyed hiding it from you, but he wouldn’t be able to handle your pitifully sad eyes when you inevitably blamed yourself for it. 

He was immensely relieved the day the doctor came in with his most recent scan to notify him that he was out of the woods. Finally, he was able to tell you the truth, and as he did he apologized the whole way. The hospital staff who had watched this gruff guy who had scared the daylights out of them, was holding your hand dearly as he genuinely apologized for hiding something like that from you. Giggling despite the situation, you happily forgave him all the while telling him that you understood why, but you would prefer he leaned on you a bit more next time - promising him that you weren’t that weak. A rare chuckle fell from his lips as he scoffed at you, but he still affirmed that you were right. 

The two of you were just happy to get back to your normal routines of sharing playlists, sweets runs, coffee dates and walks around Furin. It seemed like everything was finally good, except one nagging feeling deep in your gut.

It was about 7:30p on a Friday, and several Furin members were gathered at Pothos for an end of the week get together over omelet rice and coffee. In the time that you’ve known Kaji, and the rest of Furin, you’ve grown closest to Tsubaki and Kotoha. Proven by the fact that you were huddled in a corner booth excitedly chatting with Tsubaki about new fashion and hair trends, Kotoha jumping in here and there with her take. Kaji is sitting with his seconds and some other Tamon team members across the cafe as they discuss new team movements around Furin. Occasionally, he’ll throw a glance your way to ‘check’ on you, but really he just loves seeing how comfortable you are with his people and how openly you can smile around them. His eyes linger on your smile for a moment too long as Kusumi gently taps his shoulder to bring his attention back to whatever Nirei was saying. 

As the conversation about Tsubaki’s next hairstyle choice dies off, a comfortable silence falls as you sip on your coffee, and the red and black haired King decides it's the perfect time to ask about you.

“So… How is dating that one?” Tsubaki asks while wriggling his brows and throwing a glance over to an unsuspecting Kaji still absorbed in whatever Nirei was going on about. 

“It’s good.” The words come out short through a tight smile as you give him a nod. Tsubaki narrows his eyes at you suspiciously.

”Explain.” He says, well, more commands in a low, serious tone. At first you try to avert your gaze to the tabletop, but Tsubaki’s stare was too intense to look away from.

”It’s nothing, really.” You respond with a better fake smile this time while waving your hands in front of you as if to say ‘it’s no big deal!’

”Y/N. He isn’t treating you badly is he?” He asks, growing ever more serious with darkened eyes and emitting a protective aura. Though your heart fills a little at Tsubaki’s blatant Mama Bearness - your eyes just grow impossibly wide as you shake your head ‘no’ vehemently.

”God no! He’s really, really great, respectful, and kind… I just…” Trailing off as you check to make sure Kaji is still out of earshot. “I know he likes me, and enjoys my company and all, but I’m afraid he’s not…” Tsubaki leans closer, holding his breath with anticipation ,”attracted to me.” Finishing in a small voice as you cast your gaze downward now, unable to meet his gaze any longer. Suddenly, everyone else in the cafe is snapped out of their conversations by Tsubaki howling with laughter next to you - almost toppling out of the booth if you hadn’t lunged forward, wide eyed, to quickly pull him back in.

”Care to share with the class?” Umemiya asks with an amused smirk, seated at the table next to Kaji’s. You turn beet red, as you shake your head even harder than before. Turning to Tsubaki for help, but he’s still stifling his rowdy laughter and gripping the table for stability.

“N-no, bahaha! No, we’re go-ood, ha!” Tsubaki stutters out between guffaws. They all stare at you and Tsubaki with curious and concerned faces - Kaji more so than everyone else - except Umemiya and Hiragi who just looked incredibly amused, knowing they’ll get the full story later.

”Tsubaki, please.” Whispering desperately as you lean your forehead into the sleeve of his jacket, unable to stand all the attention.

”Sorry, sorry,” Tsubaki apologizes genuinely, despite his shit eating grin. Once everyone’s attention seemed to return to their conversations, Tsubaki leaned close to you again with a knowing smirk.

”I’m really sorry for laughing - I just thought you were gonna say something else entirely,” he said with a relieved smile and shake of his head. “Anyway, as for your worries, look at the photo he set as his wallpaper. Both of them. I think you’ll know how attracted he is to you then.” He instructed you with a knowing chuckle. Despite his confidence, you still feel racked with nerves as the end of the night approaches.

When you bid your goodbyes to everyone, Tsubaki made sure to throw you a wink and you internally grimaced as the embarrassment from all the attention earlier began bubbling back up. ’It’ll be fine!’ He mouths to you with two thumbs up, obviously in front of everyone, who cock their heads at you in turn. Tsubaki, realizing what he did, smiles sheepishly at you, and you don't know if Tsubaki embarrassed himself on purpose to make you feel better, but it worked regardless. ‘Thank you!’ you mouth back with a grin and a hand heart. With that, everyone went their separate ways.

“What was that all about?” Kaji stops walking, and asks with a quirk of his brow in your direction as the two of you made the short walk back to your house.

”Oh, um, well…” You start to speak and then trail off. Knowing your boyfriend hates when people aren’t honest or beat around the bush with their words, you sigh, knowing you had to come clean. “Tsubaki asked if we were doing okay, and I said we were…” Kaji’s eyes immediately show the anxiety of where this conversation is headed. “It’s not that, I promise! Tsubaki thought I wasn’t being honest because you weren’t treating me well, but when I told him the real reason - that’s what made him laugh so loud.” Explaining quickly, you want nothing more than to dissipate any fear he may have.

”Okay… so what were you two talking about then?” He asks with an apprehensive lilt to his voice, and gestures with his hand for you to continue. Those intense slate blue eyes bore into your own as he anxiously awaits your response.

”I told him that I’ve been feeling really self-conscious lately, because you’ve never really told me outright that you find me attractive - which is fine by the way! I’m not vain enough to want to be called pretty all of the time or anything. Also, you don’t really try to touch me… and that’s okay too! It just makes me kind of wonder if you don’t find me attractive, or don’t want to… touch me…” The words tumble quickly from your lips only to trail off softly as you meet his gaze. He’s staring down at you with a flabbergasted expression, one that you mistake as anger.

“Ts-Tsubaki suggested I look at your phone background, be-because he said then I would know how attracted you are to me. Bu-but I just can’t ask that of you though - it feels like I’m disrespecting your priva-” Before the words could fully leave your lips, Kaji had pulled out his phone and put it in front of your face.

”No problem.” He breathed out  - as if he had rushed to pull out his phone - and made the lock screen light up. Kaji knew he had a hard time with words, and an even harder time with comforting others, so he silently prayed that Tsubaki was right - this would convince you how he felt. Your eyes lit up like a child’s - the same way they did in the photo on his lock screen. 

The picture was taken during the morning, because the light was soft and mist hung in the air. Your hair was illuminated by the morning rays of light, and behind you soft tones of pink, orange and purple reflected on the canal. With your arms clasped behind your back, and your head tilted back slightly so your face is turned towards the sky. Soft locks of your hair rippled down your back and out of your face, so it looked like the morning light was caressing the slope of your cheekbones. Pink rays tinted your plump lips, parted slightly, so your breath mingled with the mist. Soft rays of light reached down from the heavens above it seemed just to reflect the wonder in your eyes. A beautiful, Blushing Phantom butterfly fluttered through the morning mist, right into your face. You had let out a squeak when it happened, which caught Kaji’s attention - something he would forever be grateful for. He was an enthralled audience of one as he silently pulled out his phone as it had fluttered closer, then fluttered away, and then closer to your face again before slowly landing on your nose and spreading its wings. You stood stiller than a statue, careful not to scare it, so you didn’t notice when Kaji took the photo. 

Actually, you had been so enraptured by the winged creature, that when the delicate ivory and blushing pink butterfly took off beyond you - you had spun so quickly on your heel to watch it go. Kaji had captured his Home Screen background then, which after a moment he unlocked his phone to show you. Swiping the app icons out of the way, he reveals a professional level photo of you backlit with the morning rays and the same canal background. This time, your arms swayed around your spinning form, with your skirt still whipped up by the movement. Rippling locks still mid spin around you, and an innocent smile filled with as much wanderlust and amazement as the first time a child learns what a butterfly is. When the ethereal insect had disappeared from your sight, you had turned to see Kaji staring at you with an amused face, but internally he was fighting what he soon found out to be called “cuteness aggression”. 

”I really love butterflies.” You had admitted with a sheepish grin. Kaji’s face broke as he couldn't help but smile as a laugh puffed past his lips. In the moment, he brought a hand up to cover his smile, and to ease the rising need he had felt in his chest to scoop you up and cover you with kisses right then and there - he sufficed with taking your hand. He held onto you tightly all the way to school that day. When he picked you up later that afternoon, you found him standing by the gates smiling absentmindedly down at his phone, but you never knew why until now.

Kaji slowly lowers his phone to see your eyes wider than ever, and your lips slightly parted from shock. God you’re so cute, I just want to kiss you! He fights the urge as he waits for you to say something.

”I-Is that how you see me?” Your voice was so small, but the desperate hope you were feeling bled right through, and Kaji nods without missing a beat.

”All of the time - ever since I first saw you.” He states earnestly, and a tear falls from where it’s been brimming in your eye, but you giggle as you sniffle and wipe the tear away. Kaji’s eyebrows raise slightly, hoping you’ll tell him what’s so funny.

”Tsubaki was right. That did convince me.” You giggle louder as you beamed up at him with adoring eyes.

”Thank God for Tsubaki.” He whispers as he rubs the back of his neck and sighs in relief. As he did, it dawned on him then that there was a second part to your worries. A deep well of guilt rises in his chest as he starts wondering how long this has been bothering you - how long have you thought he didn’t want to touch you? His eyes scan over your smaller former and the smile still persistently tugging at the corners of your mouth. Terrible thoughts flash through his mind - have some of your smiles been forced? Has he been making you feel as if you’re not good enough? The questions that shatter his heart to pieces finally form at the front his mind - If you felt this way for the entirety of your relationship, then how do you not hate him? How can you even stand him after he’s made you feel that way? 

As you start to turn with an unsuspecting smile on your face, continuing towards your house, suddenly Kaji feels that feeling again. The need washes over him to grab you, squeeze you, snuggle into you… and he didn’t feel like fighting it anymore. In one swift motion, Kaji crushes you against him and you let out that adorable squeak as he presses your back to the wall on your right.

”K-Kaji?” Laughing out his name, but your eyebrows crease a little. “What are you doing…?” You ask, tilting your head, still giggling softly. Burying his face into the crook of your neck, Kaji remains quiet for a long moment, and you don’t try to fill the silence - waiting for him to instead. He inhales your sweet scent before exhaling a long breath, and then prepares the words he’s struggled to say, and that you deserve to hear.

”I want to be affectionate towards you, but I don’t know how sometimes..." He begins slowly, unsure of himself. "When we first met you were being attacked, so I never wanted to do anything that reminds you of that, or leave you feeling that I could or would treat you like that…" Uttering the words in a shame filled voice, and then he sighs out miserably. "I just really don’t wanna mess this up, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t want to touch you, and it certainly doesn’t mean that I’m not attracted to you. I am. Believe me - I am.” Kaji is uncharacteristically talkative as he spills his guts into the soft skin of your throat, and you silently drink in every word. He goes on to surprise you with even more.

”I want to touch you all of the time, every second of every day. Since the moment you texted me at that concert…" He muses as he remembers wanting so badly to kiss your forehead. "I’ve had to physically resist the urge to have my hands on you with every breath I take.” He’s shuddering now, breathing unevenly as he pulls away from your neck to stare you down with molten eyes.

“It hurts Y/N.” A panged whisper leaves him as he dips his lips closer to yours, and you breathe in his shaky exhale. “I want to touch you so badly it hurts.” He repeats in a strained tone you’ve only heard him use when he’s badly injured as he presses his forehead gently to yours.

“But I just don’t want to hurt you. God, I would start hating myself again if I ever did…” He whispers miserably, and your eyes widen slightly at his admission. During your time dating Kaji, he’s mentioned his hatred of himself to you - briefly - but he’s never mentioned that he stopped hating himself at any point. 

“I wouldn’t hurt you, I swear I wouldn’t…” He whispered desperately, a breath away from your lips now as tears pricked the corners of his eyes as he held himself back with the ragged tether still in place deep inside of himself.

“... Just, please, let me feel you.” Begging against your mouth so sweetly, the taste of peach Chupa Chup clings to his breath and washes over your tastebuds, as he caresses your cheek with his thumb oh so lovingly.

”Yes.” Is all you can utter as you nod vehemently at him, but he doesn’t move , not certain he can trust himself yet. “You would never hurt me, Kaji. I’ve never thought for a second that you would… so please kiss me, touch me, feel me.” Begging desperately right back and letting your lips finally brush his ever so slightly. Still he holds tight to the tether, body shaking with uneven breaths as his lips begin to tremble with anticipation. “Touch me Kaji, you’re the only one who can, because I’m yours…” As the confession leaves your lips and enters his - like a soft breeze rustling the branches in a tree - Kaji’s tether finally snaps. 

Surging forward, he envelops your mouth with his and kisses you hungrily. At first, he just enjoys the feeling of your plump, soft lips on his, but as a gasping breath parts your lips he pounces on the opportunity. Sliding his tongue eagerly inside, relishing in tasting the peppermint gum you had been chewing on the way here and how it compliments the sweet peach Chupa Chup on his tongue so well. Using his wet muscle to set about mapping out your mouth - caressing your tongue and flicking the tip of it with his, before placing kitten licks to the inside of your lips. All the while he’s pulling the most scandalous wanton whines from deep in your core.

When he expertly parts your legs and presses the top of his strong thigh to your throbbing core - you part the kiss with a whiney moan as you fist the front of his hoodie and drop your forehead to his chest, blushing up to your ears.

”Ka-Kaji…” You whisper shakily, and he almost pulls away out of fear that he took it too far, until you continue in a small pleading voice. “I-I can’t be quiet when you touch me like that… Can you take me home please?” The murmur is soft to his ears, even though his anxiety that this is too much for you and that you just need to go home rears its ugly head and he starts to pull away, but you quell his nerves quickly as you flash him an embarrassed smile.“Do you think you could get away with spending the next few hours at my house?” Offering him the invitation with a mischievous look as you peer up at him through thick lashes. All Kaji can do is release a shuddering breath in relief as he nods before placing a firm palm on your lower back and quickly leading you to your house… and back onto his thigh.

***********************The Next Morning*****************************

The next day, Kaji goes out of his way to hold your hand on the way to school and even kisses your cheek before you head to class. You're left blushing and sputtering for the rest of the morning. Both of you were so absorbed with the evolution in your relationship, that neither of you noticed Kaji left his headphones on your bedside table last night. It only occurred to you that he wasn't wearing them this morning when you receive a text from Kusumi.

Kusumi: Hey, is Kaji okay? He doesn't have his headphones with him today, but is weirdly really calm about it??

Kusumi: Like I don't think he's noticed at all...

Your heart palpitates for a moment before you're able to recover your composure. Hana - who is peering not so stealthily over your shoulder - burst into giggles as she pieces things together.

Y/N: No idea! I'll bring them to him around lunch though!

Kusumi thought it was weird that you had Kaji's headphones, but thought nothing else of it. Until you showed up around lunch and surprised him with a small bag of suckers and his headphones. His white haired captain barely registers his two most prized possessions (prior to meeting you) as he chooses to bend down and kiss your forehead before rumbling a 'thank you' sweetly into your bangs. It was odd to see Kaji so openly physically affection.

When you turn about three shades darker from blushing up to your ears, and Kaji responds by smiling down at you adoringly Kusumi started to think maybe the two of you had a nice time after Pothos last night. Once he sees the dark glint in his captain's eye though, that's when he realizes the two of you had a really nice time last night.