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aemulus. (noun) latin for rival or competitor. thought to be the origin of the name emily.

park seonghwa is in no position to ask you for a favor. but being underqualified for something has never stopped him before.

pairing: academic rival!seonghwa x fem!reader

details: grad school/nursing school au, fake dating

word count: 8.1k

warnings: swearing, food allergy, smut (18+ mdni), oral (f receiving), multiple orgasms, unprotected sex, discussion of birth control methods

a/n: for @sluttywoozi's birthday <3 (just a month and a half late)

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“I need a favor.”

“From me?”

Seonghwa tongues his cheek and looks around. “Is there anyone else in the room?”

You scoff. You aren’t friends with Park Seonghwa. You don’t even particularly like Park Seonghwa. You know the feeling’s mutual so why was he asking you for a favor?

“If you want something from me you should try being a little nicer,” you mutter, turning your attention back to the textbook on the desk in front of you. 

You hear Seonghwa sigh beside you before he tries again. “Sorry, yes, I need a favor from you. I need a date to this event Dr. Harvey is hosting for all of his graduate mentees next weekend.”

Date? You? Your face must be scrunched up into an expression of confusion and concern because Seonghwa puts his hand out to stop you before you interject. 

“Yes, it has to be you. I-I’m trying to secure a position on his research team next semester and I need an extra edge.”

You raise an eyebrow. “And I’m the extra edge?”

“Exactly! Dr. Harvey loves you. If I show up with you on my arm, the spot is mine for sure.”

“You really think it’ll be that easy? I haven’t taken one of Dr. Harvey’s classes since undergrad.”

You’re not even a student in Seonghwa’s program, the one Dr. Harvey was the head of. There just happened to be some overlap between your field of study and his that required you to take some of the same courses. 

“But you were his TA last semester, and you’re the top student in the department, after me-” you have to fight the urge to roll your eyes, “he brings you up in almost every meeting we have,” he continues, sounding more than a little annoyed, “when we’re supposed to be talking about my dissertation.”

Despite the non-case Seonghwa was making on his behalf, you couldn’t help but feel a little curious. “He does? What does he say?’

“Usually, it’s little comments about how you would do something differently, which is not-so-subtle code for better. If you ever decide to write a dissertation on microbiology, let him know. I’m sure he’d love to be your mentor-” Seonghwa stops himself there, taking a deep breath as if to physically shake the bitterness from his demeanor. “Sorry. The point is that he thinks very highly of you and it would really help me out if you were my plus-one to this thing.”

“And what exactly does ‘this thing’ entail?”

“It’s a little appreciation banquet for all of the students he’s mentoring. He said it’s at this hotel, I think it’s downtown, and it’s a dinner and drinks in the evening and a brunch the next morning-”

“Wait, it’s overnight?” You hadn’t meant or intended to interrupt him but the prospect of spending the night in the same room with Park Seonghwa was enough to make you panic and forget your manners. 

Seonghwa looks annoyed that you cut him off but holds himself back from responding with something snippy. Instead, he lets it go. Unheard of for him.

“Yes, but it’s just one night.”

“One night?” He nods. “And I just have to show up with you?”

“Well, you’d pretend to be my girlfriend. ”

Right. That had sort of been implied when he asked but you were hoping that wasn’t the case. It honestly sounded like a nightmare, but the idea of having something to hold over Seonghwa’s head was tempting. 

Doing him the favor was one thing. The execution of said favor was another. Were you going to be able to put on a believable act as Seonghwa’s girlfriend? It certainly wasn’t going to come naturally to you... but you were friends with a bunch of theatre kids. You could pull it off. Probably. 

“Okay, well, what’s in it for me?” you ask.

He blinks, clearly caught off guard by your question like he hadn’t expected to get this far. 

“What do you want?”

Oh fuck. You scramble to think of something worthwhile that he could be of use for, coming up short in pretty much all aspects.

“My dad’s getting married in a couple of months. Our little duet can have an encore then.”

Seonghwa grins and offers his hand for you to shake. “Send me the details. Pleasure doing business.”

-

It isn’t until Seonghwa’s already left the classroom that he realizes he doesn’t even have your number. He’s known you for years now but has never had to contact you outside of the context of school. Never had reason to. He could turn around right now and go back and ask for your phone number. You’re still in there. 

He lets his pride get the better of him, and with a quiet groan, he shoves his hands in his pockets and keeps walking. He’ll just email you later to ask for it. 

-

You iron out the details over text, once Seonghwa finally gets your number. You had made fun of him in your reply email for forgetting to get it back when he begged you to come with him in the first place, which only reassured Seonghwa that he had made the right choice that day. It would’ve been way more embarrassing to have you say that to his face. 

He asks you to meet him at a cafe the day before the event so you can iron out your story together. You look nervous, he notes, so he tries to break the ice. 

“Thank you for agreeing to meet here. I would’ve had you over to my place, but my roommates are kind of obnoxious.”

“That’s okay. Thanks for the coffee.” You gesture with your cup, shaking the ice around before taking a tentative sip. 

“Least I could do, considering.”

You shrug. “You’re already repaying me by going to my dad’s wedding with me, but I’m not one to turn down free coffee.”

“Fair enough.” He clears his throat. “So, how’d we fall in love?”

-

Seonghwa picks you up at five pm on Saturday. He makes some comment about you looking nice that you don’t really believe he means, but you return the compliment anyway. He does look good. Annoyingly so. He had told you it was a formal event but you hadn’t expected him to show up in a fucking three-piece suit. 

His hair is slicked back on the side to show off his undercut, and wire-rimmed glasses sit on the bridge of his nose, the reflection of traffic lights and street lamps shining in the lenses. It’s a little intimidating to be on his arm for the night when he looks like that, not that you didn’t also dress for the occasion, he just... looks so sharp. 

“Do you have everything you need?” he asks as you climb into the passenger seat. “Pajamas? Toothbrush?”

“I think so.”

“If you forget something we can probably grab it at the kiosk they have in the lobby,” he assures you.

You groan. “Yeah, but we’ll have to pay a small fortune for it.”

“That’s the price of convenience.” He puts the car in drive and navigates out of your apartment complex’s parking lot onto the main road. “You can pick the music,” he offers after a moment of silence. 

“But you’re the one driving.”

“Is that a rule?”

“Yeah, the driver picks the music. Have you never heard of that before?”

He shakes his head but hums thoughtfully. “No, but I don’t mind. I’m not picky.”

“Shocking,” you mutter under your breath. 

“What was that?”

“Nothing.”

You plug the aux into the lightning port on your phone and scroll through your playlist until you land on something you deem to be neutral enough to play in the background. You can feel Seonghwa watching you out of the corner of his eye but you willfully ignore it. 

“Do you remember the story?”

You nod. “We only got together officially a couple of months ago. You asked me out by waiting outside the door of one of my classes last semester-”

“Which class?”

“Um...” you frowned, trying to remember. 

“It was pharmacology.”

“Right. Sorry.”

“Just be sure to remember that.”

“I don’t think anyone is going to be interrogating us about our relationship,” you scoff. 

Seonghwa takes a deep breath. “You’re right, I’m sorry. This is just important to me and it needs to be believable. If anyone were to find out that I tried to pull this shit off just to get on Harvey’s good side... I don’t even know what would happen to me. Like, would I get expelled? I definitely wouldn’t get the position, I-”

“Woah,” you cut him off before he can spiral any further, “we... don’t have to do this. You can drop me off back at my apartment and pretend like it never happened. I won’t make you go to the wedding...”

“No, no I need you,” Seonghwa insists, panicked. “It just... didn’t occur to me how stupid this idea was until now.”

“If you think it’s a bad idea we shouldn’t do it,” you reason.

“It is a bad idea,” he agrees, “but I don’t know what else to do. Jung Wooyoung is vying for the same spot and he’s way more likable than me.”

“That’s not true, he’s just more of a kiss-ass.”

“Same thing. Either way, I already told them I was bringing a plus-one so I can’t show up without you.”

You nod, holding back from suggesting other alternatives. Seonghwa seemed resolute on going through with it and it wouldn’t do any good to try and convince him otherwise. He was like you in that way. Stubborn to a fault. Trying to “fix” the problem would only start an argument and that was the last thing you needed right now. So you let it go, and it only killed you on the inside a little bit. 

-

Seonghwa checks into your room as soon as you get to the hotel. Since it’s late in the afternoon, it’s already ready, and you go up to drop off your things before navigating to the ballroom together. 

You try to ignore the single king-size bed in the middle of the room but it’s like it’s glaring right at you, taunting you in the reflection of the vanity mirror as you reapply your lipgloss. If Seonghwa notices your apprehension about it he doesn’t say anything. 

“We don’t have to go over the top,” Seonghwa reminds you in the elevator. “You don’t have to kiss me or be super touchy if you don’t want to. Some hand holding and familiarity should do it.”

“Are you sure?” 

He smirks at you. “I mean, if you want to kiss me, you’re more than welcome to. But it wasn’t part of our agreement.”

You stare at him. He had never said anything like that to you before. It felt like it had come out of nowhere. The smirk falls when he sees your reaction and he side steps away from you, clearing his throat awkwardly. 

“Sorry, I was, uh, I was kidding. It was, I wasn’t-”

The elevator dings to signal its arrival on the first floor before Seonghwa can finish whatever excuse he was stuttering through. He motions for you to exit first, putting his arm in front of the door to keep it from closing. When you turn back to look at him, he’s all calm and collected again like nothing even happened. The only evidence of ruffled feathers was the pressed set of his lips and the pink tinge of his cheeks. 

“Ready?” he asks, straightening his tie. 

“As I’ll ever be.”

He offers his hand to you and you take it, entwining your fingers with his. His thumb finds the back of your hand and draws absentminded circles. You’re not sure if it’s supposed to be comforting but it is. 

There are already a few people mingling when you and Seonghwa make it to the ballroom. You don’t recognize any of them but that was to be expected. Seonghwa had said that it was an intimate event, just Dr. Harvey, his mentees, and their potential plus-ones. Not everyone is here yet from what you can tell. You can’t hear Jung Wooyoung’s loud voice echoing throughout the hall so you figure he must be one of the late ones. 

The way the room is decorated reminds you a bit of Christmas with the opulent chandeliers hanging from the ceiling and the ivy garlands laid across the tables. All that's missing are the trees wrapped in lights and potted poinsettias in every corner.

Dr. Harvey is in the middle of a conversation with a couple of other students when he spots the two of you. He excuses himself and approaches you with a smile. 

“I’m glad that you both could make it!” he says, greeting you with a hug. 

He hugs your fake boyfriend next and claps him firmly on the back. Seonghwa coughs at the unexpected hit but plays it off easily with a chuckle. 

“When Park told me he was bringing you, I thought he was kidding. I couldn’t believe he finally got the guts to ask you out.”

Seonghwa stiffens next to you but keeps the smile plastered on his face. You, on the other hand, can’t mask your surprise. 

“What do you mean?” you press. 

“Oh, just that I sort of wondered if you kids would get together,” he explains. “You used to argue in my class all the time as undergraduates, but whenever we had group activities you would pair up anyway.”

“That’s because we didn’t trust anyone else with the work,” Seonghwa points out. 

You squeeze his hand urgently, trying to tell him to shut the fuck up before he ruins his chances with his big mouth. Thankfully, he seems to get the message and relaxes a little but you can tell he still wants to protest.   

“You didn’t even trust each other with the work,” the professor corrects. “You would bicker about every little thing under your breath when you thought I couldn’t hear even though you always sat in the front of the classroom.”

“I guess we are a little competitive,” you admit with a grin, looking up at Seonghwa with what you hope comes across as affection. 

“That’s an understatement, my love,” he agrees.

“Well, it’s nice to see that you’ve been able to turn that energy into something positive,” Dr. Harvey says. “What changed?”

“Well, we’d been seeing each other for a while and finally decided to make it official,” Seonghwa muses. 

And by ‘seeing each other’ he meant fucking. When you decided on your story that day in the cafe, Seonghwa had said it would make the most sense if your fake relationship budded from a friends-with-benefits thing- or acquaintances with benefits, whatever the two of you were. But of course, you couldn’t tell your professor that so you had to more so imply it by talking around the subject.

“Well, I hope that you being together means I’ll get to see more of your face. Park, you need to bring your girlfriend around the department some time. I’m sure the other faculty miss you too.”

Seonghwa nods. “I’ll be sure to do that, sir.”

“Great! I think some more people are starting to trickle in so I should go say hello, but please help yourselves to drinks while we wait for dinner.”

You both thank him and wait before saying anything else to each other. 

“I think that went okay,” Seonghwa sighs.

“Could’ve been worse,” you agree. 

He takes a quick look around before turning back to you. “Do you want something to drink, baby?”

“God, yes.”

At the bar, Seonghwa orders you both a glass of wine. It’s an open bar but there’s a little fish bowl for tips balanced on the edge of the counter so he deposits a couple of bills in it as he thanks the bartender.

He holds one of the glasses out to you with a half-smile. “Cheers.”

“To getting through the night,” you propose. 

“To getting through the night.”

-

Dinner is a choice between a chicken pasta dish, a beef and potatoes dish, and ratatouille that could be made vegan upon request. 

“Does the pesto have pine nuts in it?” Seonghwa asks the server when he reaches your end of the table.

“No, all of our options tonight are nut-free,” he replies. 

“Perfect, thank you. Did you want the pasta, then, baby?” 

“I- yes please.”

“And I’ll get the beef and we can share.”

“Sounds good,” the server says as he jots down your orders on his little notepad. 

You wait until he moves on to the next guest before leaning over to your date and whispering “I can’t believe you remembered.”

“Hm?”

“You remembered... I’m allergic to tree nuts.”

He shrugs like it’s no big deal and murmurs, “you almost dying in the middle of chem lab our freshman year is pretty hard to forget.”

He had a point. Still, you were surprised he remembered the girl that collapsed to the floor and had to be stabbed in the thigh with an EpiPen all those years ago as you. You’re not sure if you’d remember the details so clearly if it were the other way around. 

All of the dishes were pre-prepared by the hotel’s event catering staff so they were served almost immediately after the orders were taken. 

Dr. Harvey led the conversation, engaging each of his students about their studies and personal lives. He was even sure to include the plus ones at the table, making an effort to get to know them as well. That was why Dr. Harvey had been one of your favorite professors, why you’d agreed to TA for him when he asked. He genuinely cared about his students, wanted them to succeed and was willing to go the extra mile to help them do so. You still remember crying in his office over a failed lab report, remember how he had patiently walked you through what you’d done wrong until it finally clicked for you, how he ended up giving you half of the credit you missed back just for following up and showing how dedicated you were to learning the material.

Even now as he listens to his mentees talk about everything under the sun, he doesn’t want anyone to feel left out. 

A hand on your thigh startles you out of your zoning out. You had been trying your best to pay attention but it’s just so hard to stay attentive when Wooyoung opens his mouth. He’s been talking about algae for what you estimate to be the past twelve minutes- so in your defense, you never stood a chance anyway.

“Do you want another glass of wine?” Seonghwa asks, low enough for only you to hear.

You hadn’t even realized you’d finished your first one. It had probably happened sometime in the middle of Wooyung’s rambling. 

“Yes please.”

“Okay, be right back.”

He stands from the table and takes both yours and his empty glasses in one hand, using the other to push his chair back in. Thankfully, he’s back before you can be cornered by the others at the table. You can feel it, the curiosity your presence invokes from your peers. You only recognize a few of them but all of the sideways glances make you wonder how many of them suspect why you’re really here. Maybe you’re being paranoid. Maybe they’re just surprised Seonghwa managed to pull anyone at all... no, that couldn’t be it. He’s too hot, his personality alone wouldn’t be enough to deter anyone from going out with him. 

“What’s wrong?”

You take a sip from your newly refilled glass of wine and try to play it off. “Hm? What do you mean?”

“You’re making a face.”

“What face? This is just my face.”

“No, you’ve got that wrinkle in between your eyebrows. You’re worrying about something. What is it?”

You sigh and lean over to whisper in his ear. “I feel like your... friends think it’s weird that I’m here.”

“These people aren’t my friends.”

“I know. I didn’t know what else to call them- is that really the part of what I said that you think is important?”

“Why do you think they think it’s weird?”

“I don’t know, I just keep noticing everyone looking at me.”

“It’s probably because you’re pretty,” he suggests, which makes you want to change the subject entirely. 

He thinks you’re pretty? Does he think you’re pretty or does he think other people think you’re pretty? What would possess him to say something like that?

“That- no, it’s not that.”

“How can you be sure?”

“Because I know what a dirty look is and I’ve been getting a lot of them. Do you think they’re onto us?”

Seonghwa makes a displeased sound in the back of his throat. “I don’t know. Maybe I underestimated the number of people applying for the same position as me.”

“Maybe, and maybe they know we haven’t always gotten along and are suspicious of why this is the first they’re hearing of us dating.”

“I guess we need to turn it up, then,” Seonghwa muses under his breath. 

“Wha- that’s not what I-”

-

After dinner, there’s a bit of mingling. You get the opportunity to formally introduce yourself to the guests you’ve never met before and answer the burning question on everyone’s mind as to why you’re there in the first place. 

Seonghwa’s hand is warm on the small of your back, making you wish you had decided against wearing a backless dress. Although, you suspect you still would have been able to feel the heat of his palm through the silk had it offered more coverage. 

“Didn’t think you had it in you, Park,” Hongjoong, you thought his name was, says as he wraps an arm around his own date. In her heels, she’s taller than him by an inch or so, and somehow it only makes the man more intimidating. “Thought you were too busy for dating, or was that just an excuse?”

“I am busy. But when you meet the right person, you make time. You of all people should know that.”

Hongjoong narrows his eyes almost imperceptibly and grins. “You’re right, we’re all fools for love, aren’t we?”

“It certainly seems that way.”

Seonghwa and Hongjoong continue exchanging semi-polite small talk until the latter’s date tugs him away, mumbling something about needing another drink. 

“I didn’t realize you were so popular,” you say under your breath once the two are out of earshot.

“Yeah, you’re not the only one who hates me,” he mutters. 

“And here I thought we had something special.”

Seonghwa gives you a half-smile. “Sorry to break it to you like this.”

“For what it’s worth, I don’t hate you,” you clarify, voice lowered. 

He can’t hide his surprise as his eyes widen. “Wait, really?”

You nod. “I wouldn’t lie about something like that.”

He straightens up a bit, stiffening, and you wonder if you’ve said something wrong. “Good to know.”

You each have another drink before the night ends. Champagne is served with dessert and Dr. Harvey proposes a toast to all of his students once everyone’s gathered around the table again. 

You clink your glass to Seonghwa’s and take a sip. The bubbles soothe your throat, making the lies you’ve been telling all night easier to swallow. 

You’re not drunk, you haven’t had that much to drink, but the alcohol is definitely making you feel lighter. People have started filtering out of the ballroom to go to their rooms but a few linger a little longer, taking advantage of the free booze and relaxed atmosphere. Your professor flits between the remaining students, continuing conversations that had been cut short during or before dinner. 

Soft music is playing over the speakers and a few couples are dancing to it. Seonghwa hadn’t said anything about dancing, it probably wasn’t on the actual itinerary, but he draws you out to the floor without warning. You want to protest but his hands are already on your hips and your chest is already pressed to his. You don’t think you’ve ever been this close to him, save bumping into each other in labs and accidentally spilling samples down your coats. Based on the number of times that had happened, you don’t expect Seonghwa to be particularly graceful. But he seems intent on proving you wrong as he leads you to the rhythm. 

“I didn’t know you could dance,” you murmur. 

“There’s a lot you don’t know about me,” he quips back. 

You quirk an eyebrow. “Yeah? Like what?” 

He seems to think about it for a moment before answering. “I love Star Wars.”

“I already knew that.”

“What?”

“You used to bring a Darth Vader thermos to class. The lid was his helmet.”

“Legos?”

“Lego guy keychain.”

“Animal Crossing?”

“You’d literally play it in class.”

Seonghwa smirks. “Wow.”

“What?”

“I just didn’t realize you were obsessed with me.”

“Wha- I’m not obsessed with you!” you sputter. “I’m just very observant! And you make your interests too obvious.”

“Sure, whatever you say,” he teases, making you roll your eyes. 

He spins you before you get the chance to argue again, extending his arm all the way and then whipping it back so that you’re stumbling into his embrace. 

“My turn, then?” he asks. 

You feel your face scrunch up in confusion before you can stop it. “What do you mean?”

“Your favorite color is pink,” he whispers, as if it’s some kind of secret. “You love The Lord of the Rings. You quote it all the time. You like to cook. You always brought your leftovers for lunch and everyone would ask how you made whatever it was because it smelled so good.”

You’re staring at him now, lips slightly parted in surprise. His gaze flickers down to them and then back up. He smiles. 

“You’re not the only observant one.”

A song is still playing but you’ve stopped dancing. It’s like you’re standing in the eye of a storm, surrounded by music and conversation that blurs and distorts around you. It all sounds muffled, but that might just be the ringing in your ears. You realize what’s about to happen a moment before it does but you’re still unprepared when Seonghwa kisses you. 

His lips are softer than you expected, not that you’ve imagined kissing him before... not that you ever wondered. His arms are still around your waist and he pulls you in closer, deepening the kiss. 

You’re stiff at first, unsure of what to do with your arms or your own lips, but you relax when you feel his tongue swipe at your bottom lip. He makes a contented sort of sound in the back of his throat when you open your mouth for him. It’s just slightly, just enough for him to get a taste, but he seems pleased nonetheless. 

Distant cheering in the background startles the both of you out of your daze, pops the little bubble you’d somehow found yourselves in. It’s then that you remember that you’re in public, and that you probably shouldn’t be sucking each other's faces off in the middle of this very nice ballroom in front of your peers. 

You part, both a little breathless. 

“I hope that was okay,” Seonghwa whispers against your cheek. 

“It was, yeah. It was okay. More than okay.”

“Good. I’m glad.” He grins, the upturn of his cheeks pushing his specs higher on his nose, making glimmers of light from the chandelier dance in the reflection of the glass like stars falling from the sky. One of his hands strays from your waist to take your own.  “Wanna get out of here?”

You’re nodding before your brain can fully process the question. “Yes please.” 

-

The journey back up to your room is a blur. You vaguely register bidding Hongjoong, Dr. Harvey, and a couple of other people whose names had long since slipped your mind goodnight. You’re not sure what you said, Seonghwa probably took the lead. 

Your cheeks are warm with embarrassment as you make your way out of the hall hand in hand. You feel like everyone knows what you’re about to do. And with a kiss like that in a crowded room, it wouldn’t be hard to figure out.

But did it really matter if they knew you were about to get your back blown out? It would only help sell the story to them even more. At least, that’s what you’re telling yourself, still not ready to admit that you’re not playing pretend anymore. 

The clicking of your heels on the marble sounds entirely too loud as you walk through the lobby to the elevator bay. The lights have been dimmed for the night, emulating the darkness outside. Only a few employees remain behind the desks, stationed for any late check-ins. The rest had surely clocked out hours ago when the rush ended.

“Do you have a key?” Seonghwa asks you, eyeing the purse you’d somehow remembered to grab on your way out. 

You did, but, “there’s one in your pocket.”

His hand comes to the front of his pants, feeling for the plastic card. “Right. Sorry.”

He uses the key to activate the elevator and then he uses it again to open the door to your room. The ride up had been silent, and a little awkward, both of you standing on opposite sides of the tiny room, avoiding eye contact.  

You wonder if the energy has shifted, if the moment has passed. Had he suddenly come to his senses? Was he already regretting kissing you? 

You don’t get the chance to ask either of these things, however, because he’s kissing you again as soon as you stumble into the room. It’s dark, so everything is a little uncoordinated, but it almost seems fitting for you and Seonghwa. 

He presses you up against the door, fingers fumbling with the ties on the back of your dress. It’s hard for him to undo them when he can’t see what he’s doing, too occupied with kissing his way down your neck. 

“Fuck this,” he gasps, breaking away. “Lift up your arms.”

You do, gasping as Seonghwa tugs the silk up and over your head. It’s the kind of dress you can’t wear a bra with so you’re left completely bare from the waist up. 

“Fuck me,” he breathes, running his hands over your body. 

“I’m trying.”

A beat lapses before Seonghwa lets out a quiet chuckle. You’re the one to pull him back this time, tugging at his suit jacket as you kiss him in an attempt to get it off his shoulders. 

“Let me, um,” he mumbles against your lips, feeling along the wall of the little hallway you’re standing in for something. “Let me turn on a lamp or something. I want to see you.”

The comment makes you feel shy but you’d be lying if you said you didn’t want to see him too so you let him go and only laugh a little bit when he trips over his suitcase on the way over to the desk.

“Oh, would you rather have it off?” he asks, noticing the way you’re holding your arms over your chest. 

“No, no, I want to see you too,” you assure him. “I just feel kind of weird being the only one naked.”

“Well that’s an easy fix.”

He makes his way back over to you, loosening his tie as he does. He leaves it hanging around his neck so that you can take it off for him. The satin feels heavy in your hands and you wonder briefly how it would feel tied around your wrists- another time, maybe. 

Seonghwa focuses on unbuttoning his shirt while you lift the tie over his head, hands brushing together as you work in tandem. 

You reach for his belt but he ducks out of your grasp with a grin, shrugging off the button up as he sinks down onto his knees in front of you. You barely register the feeling of his hands on your thighs. You’re too caught up with the way he’s looking up at you. He’s taken his glasses off, though you don’t know when- or where he’s put them for that matter, and is gazing up at you like painted the cosmos themselves. Like he fully intends on worshiping you. 

Park Seonghwa on his knees. What a sight. 

“Can I?” he asks, fingers gently wedging themselves in between your legs to part them. “Please?”

You nod. 

“I need you to say it.”

“You can,” you whisper. 

“I can... what?” Seonghwa presses. “I haven’t even said what it is I want to do to you.”

He’s taunting you now. It’s obvious what he meant when he asked you but he just loves pushing your buttons too much to stop, even when he’s on the verge of begging to taste your pussy. 

“You can do whatever you want to me,” you breathe. 

“Fuck.”

You nearly lose your balance as Seonghwa lifts one of your legs over his shoulder but he plants both of his hands on your ass and pulls you onto his face before that can happen. He groans at the first taste of you, even though it’s over your panties. You’re not sure whether he meant to leave them on to be even more of a tease or if he had just simply forgotten to take them off in the rush to get you on his tongue. 

They’re the seamless kind, the kind that aren’t supposed to show through thin material. You’d chosen to wear them with your dress instead of suffering through the discomfort of a thong all night. The comfort was a benefit. The sheerness was a drawback. You might as well not be wearing anything with how form fitting they were, especially considering how wet you already are.

Your hands are in Seonghwa’s hair and you’re trying not to pull too hard but you have to anchor yourself to something or you’re afraid your knees will buckle. 

“That’s it,” he praises, nose nudging your clit as he licks into you. It’s muffled but you can still make it out, if just barely. “Harder, baby.”

“Are you s-sure?”

He nods and the motion makes you want to cry out. “I won’t break. Promise.”

You decide to trust his word and tug a little harder. He moans and rewards you by pushing his tongue inside of you. He can only go so far with the fabric of your underwear restricting him but it’s enough to get you to whimper his name. 

-

God, you sound so pretty, it’s almost too much for Seonghwa to handle. You taste just as good as he’d always imagined, better even, and he’s losing all sense of control because of it. He can tell he’s making you feel good but this won’t be enough to get you to cum, at least, not as hard as he wants you to before he fucks you... if that’s where the night ends up going. He would be more than happy to have you cum on his tongue, kiss you goodnight, and then fall asleep beside you if that’s what you wanted.   

He manages to get your panties out of the way and to the side with his teeth before diving back in and sucking your clit into his mouth. You make a little surprised sound and melt into him even more. 

He wants to get his fingers inside of you too, but it would be difficult with the way the two of you are positioned so he pulls back and jerks his head in the direction of the bed. You help him to his feet and pull him in for a kiss, moaning at the way you taste on his lips. 

Seonghwa didn’t think it was possible for him to get any harder than he already is but you’re always going and proving him wrong. 

You release him after another moment and fall back onto the mattress, calling to him like a siren. You don’t actually say anything, but you don’t have to. The sight of you on the bed you’ll share with your legs spread and your thighs still glistening with your arousal and his saliva is all it’d take for Seonghwa to throw himself into the sea and drown in you. 

He takes off his slacks finally, just to give himself a bit of relief, and joins you on the bed as fast as humanly possible.

“Can I take these off?” he asks, running his fingers over the soaked patch of your underwear. 

“Please,” you laugh. 

You lift your hips so that he can pull them off of you and then he’s back in between your legs with your thighs clamped around his head so tightly he can’t hear anything aside from your desperate pleas for him not to stop. 

He doesn’t even realize he’s been grinding into the mattress until you’re cumming on his tongue and it takes everything in him to hold back from falling over the edge with you. 

“Hwa...” 

Your voice is so distant he doesn’t hear it until you repeat it. The nickname makes his heart do a little somersault. You’ve never called him that before. It makes him want to smile like an idiot and not fight so hard to suppress those pesky feelings he’s been harboring for you for God knows how long. He wants to kiss you all over and make love to you and give you a little house on his Animal Crossing island even though he’d have to rearrange the entire layout. He actually brought his switch with him, it’s in his bag and he could go get it right now and-

“Hwa!”

Fuck. Right. He pushes the aforementioned feelings down again, clears his throat, and plays it cool. “Hm? What’s up?” His voice cracks on the ‘up’ because of course it does. So much for playing it cool. 

“Can you fuck me, please?” 

He feels like he could fall through the floor. How the fuck could you sound so polite asking to get your back blown out like that? His dick twitches against his thigh and Seonghwa has to take a deep breath to steel himself before answering. 

“You sure you want to keep going? You want this?”

“God, yes,” you whine, leaning forward to try and pull him on top of you. “Are you going to make me beg for it?”

Tempting, but, “no, it’s just... I have to tell you something.”

Jesus, was he really doing this now? It felt like the worst possible moment to bring it up but he wouldn’t be able to forgive himself if he slept with you without coming clean. He’d already gone further than he probably should have, judgment clouded by lust and alcohol and the lingering scent of your perfume on your neck. 

You face falls, making Seonghwa realize he definitely should have worded it differently. 

“It’s not anything bad! I don’t think...”

“Just tell me,” you say flatly. 

“Um, remember in the car earlier today when we were going through our story, and you couldn’t remember what class I asked you out after?”

“And you yelled at me about it?”

“I didn’t yell at you-” he pauses, and squeezes his eyes shut. This was why he kept going back and forth over what he was about to say, why he was hesitating even now. “I reacted the way I did because... I actually was going to ask you out that night after your pharmacology class got out.”

“What?”

“I was there, waiting outside and I-I chickened out.”

You blink in disbelief. “You don’t... hate me?”

“Hate you? I never hated you!” You give him a look. “There was a bit of... animosity between us, but it was never hate! At least, not for me! Did you hate me?”

It’s your turn to feel exposed. That’s what Seonghwa thinks you feel anyway, from the look on your face. 

“No... I already told you I didn't! It was... what you described.”

Seonghwa narrows his eyes at you. “I don’t believe you.”

“I mean, like you said, it wasn’t hate. I just didn’t particularly like you. And I thought that was a mutual thing.”

“It was!” he agrees quickly. A little too quickly, maybe. “It was. For a while. And then it wasn’t. But I never said anything about it because I kept thinking it was just a phase I was going through. I thought I’d get over it and you’d never have to know.”

“But that never happened?” He shakes his head. “But you built up the courage to show up and ask me out that day. You had to have accepted it then.”

He sighs and rolls onto his back. “I guess I did, but like I said, I was a coward. When I peeked through the window on the door, I saw you laughing and joking around with your friends and I just thought about how it’s never been like that with us. And I thought it’d never work out because we’re... us. We bicker all of the time. We’re always competing. That didn’t magically go away when I realized I had feelings for you. So I thought you deserved someone who you’d actually get along with.” 

“Well, that should have been up to me to decide,” you say. 

“I know,” Seonghwa admits with a groan. Then, he bolts upright. “Wait, would you have said yes?”

“Probably.”

“What do you mean probably?”

“I mean, I would’ve liked to see where it went. I’ve always thought you were attractive.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, it’s one of the things about you that annoyed me.” Seonghwa scoffs. “Just being honest.”

“Well, if I’m being honest,” he counters, propping himself up on his elbow. “I kind of like it when we bicker.”

“Don’t tell me it turns you on.”

“Only sometimes.”

You roll your eyes at him. “You’re sick.”

He shrugs. “It’s only because you’re so hot when you’re mad at me.”

“You must be really horny right now, then,” you mutter. 

“You’re mad at me?” 

“Yes, I’m mad at you! You’ve been keeping your little crush on me a secret all this time! And you chose now to tell me?”

“I know, I’m sorry. I have the worst timing.”

“Understatement of the year.”

Seonghwa figures he deserves that one so he lets it slide even though it chips at his pride. “Wait, so... what does that make us? If we feel the same way, shouldn’t we give it a real shot?”

You groan, putting your hands over your face. “Can we talk about it after you fuck me stupid? I’m still so wet I can’t think about anything else.”

“Oh yeah, right.” He sits up and rolls back on top of you, caging you in. He presses his thigh between your legs so that you can grind on it as he kisses you again. “Are you sure arguing with me doesn’t make you horny?” he teases. “Can feel you throbbing against me, baby.”

“I’m horny because you’re hot and your dick is hard.” 

And because you like him, Seonghwa thinks giddily. 

“We can talk about it later, then,” he surrenders, reaching down to pump himself a few times. “As long as you’ll say you’re mine.”

You tilt your head to the side as you process his request. “Yours?”

“Mine.”

“You want me to be yours?”

“If that’s something you want.”

“It is something I want.”

“Then say it.”

“I’m yours.”

“Fuck,” Seonghwa hisses, grinding against you. He’s not even inside of you yet and he feels like he could explode.

“Please, Hwa,” you whisper and reach down to line him up yourself.

“Wait fuck, I don’t have a condom.”

“I have an IUD. It’s okay,” you assure him.

“Are you sure?”

“As long as you’re clean.”

“I am, I haven’t been with anyone since last year, and I’ve been tested.”

“Me too.”

“Then we’re good?” he asks. 

“We’re good.”

“Perfect. Deep breath, baby.”

Seonghwa’s arms threaten to give out the instant he begins to push himself inside of you. He should have been the one to take a deep breath. He already knows how you taste so he really should have been more prepared for how good you would feel but then again Seonghwa had always been a bit Icarian in nature so his overly ambitious attitude is pretty par for the course in light of everything. 

“Hold on, just... just give me a second,” he stutters.

He swears you clench around him purposefully, playing it off with a meek “sorry, it was an accident” when he glares at you. He wouldn’t put it past you to turn this into a competition too, but he wants to remember your first time together as something special. He wants to be in the moment with you, wants to make you cum over and over and over on his cock until you can’t say anything but his name. He wants to make tonight all about you. He wants to make every night about you, but he’ll have to start with tonight. 

“Are you okay?” you ask him, voice so sweet he almost has to pull out so he doesn’t end what’s barely started. 

“You feel too good,” he admits, dropping his head into the crook of your shoulder. 

“If you cum now, we can just go again, right?”

Right. He forgot about that. He needs to stop thinking with his dick. 

“Yeah, right. Right.”

“Fucked out already?” you tease, brushing his hair out of his eyes. 

“It’s you,” he pants weakly. “How can I not be?”

You open your mouth, probably about to say something smart in reply but he rolls his hips just as you do, pushing himself deeper inside of you. The words seem to dissolve on your tongue, your mouth falling open in a moan instead.

“What was that, baby?” he asks, moving even faster now.

You answer in mumbled nonsense. Seonghwa smirks down at you and leans forward to kiss the point where your neck meets your collarbone. He thinks about what a hickey would look like there, what kind of attention it would draw from everyone tomorrow morning. 

He can’t dwell on it for too long, though, because you’re yanking him back up by his hair, warning him that you’re about to cum.

“Already?”

“It’s you,” you repeat his own words back to him, and he feels his own stomach tense up in anticipation. “You and your perfect dick.”

Okay, so, less romantic than his sentiment but the structure was still there. It made him feel warm inside nonetheless. 

“Can I cum, please? Please?”

“Do you think you can be quiet? We don’t want a noise complaint, remember?” 

“I c-can be quiet.”

You’re lying through your teeth and Seonghwa can tell, he’s known you for so long now that he;’s memorized all of your tells. But he’s right there on the edge too and he wants nothing more than to cum with you.

“I’m close too, baby. Shit, can I cum inside you? Please?”

“God, yes- please, give it to me...”

He kisses you as he cums, managing to swallow some of your moans and cries of his name as you cum even harder than you did the first time. He’s sensitive by the time you finally come down from it but he doesn’t pull out. 

“Can we lay like this for a second?”

You nod easily, letting out a soft laugh when Seonghwa drops his weight on top of you. “I don’t think I can move anyway.”

“Not with that attitude, you can’t.”

“Oh my god, get off of me.”

“Sorry, what was that? Couldn’t hear you.”

“You’re the worst!”

“The worst at what?”

“Everything!”

“You didn’t seem to think that a few minutes ago,” he points out. 

“I’m having post-nut clarity,” you mumble, pushing weakly at his shoulders. 

“I didn’t know that happened to girls,” he muses. 

“There’s a lot you don’t know about women,” you snap, still struggling underneath him. “Maybe if you talked to one once and a while you’d be more knowledgeable on the subject.” 

“I’m talking to you, aren’t I?”

“That’s because I- are you getting hard again?” you ask in disbelief. 

“I told you that bickering with you turns me on!”

“You are unbelievable!”

Seonghwa kisses you and rolls his hips experimentally. You moan, relaxing under him immediately. 

“Fuck, that feels good,” you sigh against his lips. 

“Yeah, we’re definitely going to be late to brunch tomorrow.”

happy birthday emily!! i'm so lucky to call you my bestie and i hope you enjoyed your very late present :)

— unknown

Hello, dearest readers,

Thank you for your continued support.

I am still in the hospital because of a few things.

My kidneys are not doing well (but very slowly improving) because of the antibiotics I was on to clear up the sepsis.

Apparently, those two meds are great for infections but highly toxic, and now I have a minor/moderate kidney injury.

My original Hospitalist Doctor, who was off for a couple of days, has returned.

She found out that I can’t leave the hospital because they are still fighting about wound care.

We thought I had been accepted into Valley Presbyterian Hospital for daily wound care, but they will not let me start until September.

So now they are trying to find somewhere to go for wound care that the insurance will cover between now and September.

My insurance is fighting it because they don’t want to cover anywhere.

So even if my kidneys are good to go, I can’t go anywhere.

I still have major brain fog and what not which the doctor says may take a while to get over since when she first saw me I was “one foot in the grave,” and I need to give myself a break.

To be perfectly honest, I am getting clearer every day but exhausted easily.

So we will see.

I am not giving up on you guys or my love for writing anytime soon!

💜💜💜

To The Wolves

♦️Pairing: Rebel leader Hongjoong x afab doctor reader x Rebel Yeosang ♦️genre/au: rebel leaders/dystopia. one-shot ♦️Word Count: 3,376 ♦️Warnings: mentions of a raid, lil bit of blood, smut(warnings below cut)- 18+ MinorsDNI ♦️AN: okay so thanks to my ult's just coming for my throat with that teaser video- and THIS just adding to the brain rot, this was created. a head's up that like halfway i lost focus and when i came back i had no idea what i was planning so i just winged it so if it seems like the tone changed a bit, there's that. ♦️Network: @pirateeznet ♦️and thank you my beta reader: @yourfatherlucifer

♦️♦️♦️Smut warnings: choking, rough, slight voyeurism, slight mxm, slight degradation, unprotected sex (dont do this), oral (m receiving), petname: Doll- yeosang is called pretty boy. lmk if i missed any.

Wolf in sheep's clothing was such an understatement when it came to these two. Two you had decided to trust with your life, your safe space, your dreams. Two men that were standing before you with their familiar innocent and sweet expressions, that after tonight, you realized were lies.

Hongjoong and Yeosang were the two that graced your doorstep the most, asking for supplies to help the needy and wounded or to get patched up themselves. What had started as two boys just trying to help out their communities after the raid attacks had turned into a friendship that you cherished and coveted. Their sweet smiles and gestures, heroic words that made you believe there was good in this damned city.

Those same two men were at the center of bloodshed and chaos earlier in the raids you so horrible despised. Sure you didn't care much for their foe, the men that ran this city with a heavy hand- but you also hated their anarchist ways to combat it. You always avoided the raids, keeping your doors open to give medical attention to any bystanders caught in the crossfire, and that was how you had met them.

And why you had run into the heap of chaos early tonight because you had seen them head that way. You had followed out of concern, worried for your friends, only to see a side to them that still had you reeling.

You had run into Yeosang at first, calling out to him as you had pushed past people in white cloaks. He had looked back, locked eyes with you, and watched his beautiful features harden. Jaw clenched, he twisted his head to the side as he turned away from you, barking orders.

Panic had welled inside your gut as you realized he was part of the rebellion- a bit part. So you ran, it didn't matter where, through alleyways and more of the chaos; you heard bombs go off and more leaving you frightened on more than one occasion.

You were hiding in an alley when he came across you: Hongjoong. There were a bunch of civilians before him, running away from the chaos and he seemed to be guiding them. He had looked rather shocked to see you crouched against the wall, struggling to breath, calling out to you.

You bit back the urge to tell him what you saw, noticing a bit of blood on his chin as he held his hand out to you. You had pushed it away and stood up with a scowl, shaking your head.

The grin he gave you as he dropped his hand was purely sadistic and had your blood running cold. “Aw come on, don't be scared of me now.”

“Fuck you.” You spat, moving around him to make a run for it.

He licked his lip, that smirk still there. “That can be arranged, doll.” He didn't come after you, just watched you run.

You should've known he didn't chase because he could just walk into your little clinic, your home, at any time: you gave him a key.

That's how you found yourself in your current predicament, fresh out of the shower and finding the two men you had considered confidants and more, in your room as if they owned it.

Yeosang at least had the decency to look guilty while Hongjoong was wearing that stupid innocent smile you now knew was fake. He didn't seem to care much, both still in their outfits from the riot and the blood from his chin was now smeared down his neck.

“Hey there doc, did we catch you at a bad time?” Hongjoong sat on your bed, legs outstretched before him as he leaned back on his palms. Yeosang stood by the door, arms crossed and unable to meet your gaze- wearing just a towel might have something to do with that though.

Holding the fabric tighter around your body you lifted your chin and stared Hongjoong down. “You better be here to return my key.”

He clicked his tongue to the roof of his mouth, reaching into his pocket and pulling said key out. “This key? Mmm, I don't think so.” He tossed it over to Yeosang who caught it easily. “You know we didn't intentionally hide this from you-”

“No, we decided to.” Yeosang added, staring Hongjoong down with the same tick in his jaw from earlier. “When we realized how you felt about the rebels, we didn't want to risk our resources getting thinned.”

Your jaw went slack, staring over at him. You weren't sure what shocked you more- his admission or how much it hurt to think that they used you for your connections. “So what… you pretended to be my friend to get access to my meds and resources? Are you fucking kidding me?!” Anger burst through you, hands clenched into fists on the towel. 

“We thought about it.” Hongjoong replied, getting to his feet with ease. “You're a good doctor, you have a good heart, we needed you. Still need you in fact. Don't run from us now.” He stopped just before you, reaching out to cup your jaw. “We know you like it, you want it. Want us.”

You stiffened at the touch, cheeks burning red as his words washed over you. Wanted them? He can't possibly mean- oh but he did. They had noticed.

It was just a silly crush; an attraction you vowed never to voice because they had been clients and then friends. You were a good person, you told yourself that, and that was the excuse you used never to make a move. You didn't want them to think you were friends with them to get their dick. And you didn't want them to think you were disgusting just because you wanted both.

Now that little crush was complicating things further. Who you thought were innocent, saint-like men were not that at all. No, they were rebels that thrived on anarchy and had your knees weak with the hard energy they had about them.

“Was it all a lie?” You squeaked out, defeated by your own emotions and the knowing look in his eyes.

This time it was Yeosang who stepped closer, a hand going to your hip as if to comfort you. “No, the only lie was keeping this part of us from you. We wanted to tell you.”

“We should've.”

“I didn't want to scare you-”

“That's you. I think I liked her trembling in that alley.” Hongjoong bickered lowly with Yeosang as they seemed to cage you in. “What do you say, doll, now that you've seen us as we are? You still want us?”

Yeosang pushed your damp hair to one side of your neck, running his nose up the curve of your exposed throat. “Do you want to see just how… rebellious we can be?” The deep rumble of his voice sent shivers down your spine and to your core.

Suddenly you felt like prey trapped between two salivating wolves. Both had a possessive hand on your hips, Yeosang's wrapping around your throat to expose your neck more while Hongjoong plied your fist off the top of the towel to loosen it. The worst part? You didn't fight them at all.

Your eyes were wide and locked onto Hongjoong’s dark gaze, his bottom lip pulled between his teeth as the towel fell open and to your waist. Truthfully you were at an impasse. Morally you felt conflicted. Emotionally you hurt. But hormonally? Your thighs were becoming wet for an entirely different reason than the shower.

“Is this a lie? A ruse to get me to trust you again? To keep me in your clutches?” You whispered into the space between you, swallowing hard against Yeosang's hand.

“Do you want it to be?” Hongjoong asked as he peeled the towel from you, hands running up the front of your body appreciatively.

“No.” Your answer was immediate, no need to think it over because this was the truth: you wanted it to be real. With each touch you were beginning to ignore the rational sides of your mind as well, debating on taking them up on their offer.

A kiss to your sweet spot on your neck and the massage of your breasts was the final string broken- you caved. “If it's not, if you really want me like this… then show me.”

Your consent was all they needed before they snapped, devouring you just like the hungry wolves you expected them to be. Hongjoong’s lips were on yours while Yeosang's fingers sought out your other pair, finger sliding between the slick folds. The groan he let out just below your ear at how wet you are only had your walls clenching for more. They were positively sinful.

You weren't a rebel but damn did they make you feel like one against your own heart. With every kiss, every touch, you craved more. Wrapping your arms around Hongjoong you pressed closer, legs spreading to accommodate Yeosang's hand as he worked two fingers into your hole, spreading them to work you open.

You were the first to pull away, turning to Yeosang as a moan fell from your lips. Before you could say anything he was pressing his lips to yours.

“Fuck you’re so hot, doll. It's been so hard holding my tongue around you.” Hongjoong took your arms and guided your hands to his pants, bucking his hips to rub the bulge against your palm. “And listening to Yeo whine and pine for you was fucking torture. But I'm a generous man, I'll let him fuck you first- do you like that idea?”

Yeosang wasn't letting you pull away from his lips, his hand cupping your jaw and holding you in place while his fingers leisurely pumped into you. So you got creative with answering Hongjoong, squeezing his cock while grinding your hips down onto Yeosang's hand.

“Hmm I think she does- make sure you fuck her right Sangie~” Hongjoong stepped back, your hands in his as he gently pulled you away from Yeosang.

Both his fingers and lips chased you, stumbling after you with a growl. “Joong-”

“On the bed Sangie, and lose the clothes.” The pretty man stripped while Hongjoong helped you onto your bed, moving your body as he pleased while inspecting you as he saw fit. He arranged you like a doll, humming with approval as you let him. “Hmm you listen so well now, where did that attitude go huh?” When you whined in response he chuckled darkly. “I knew you would fucking like this.” Spreading your legs apart he made you hold them wide, admiring your wet cunt.

You squeaked out when he slapped your pussy, wide eyes meeting his amused smirk. It was still hard to wrap your head around this new side to him, your heart beating wildly in your chest, but he was right- you liked this. “I-I do. I-I'm trusting you both.”

As Yeosang climbed onto the bed, situating himself between your legs, Hongjoong moved off the bed to the end where your head. “That's a mistake doll, you shouldn't trust us. Don't you know how bad we are? You saw us.”

Yeosang took over your hold on your legs, pushing them wider to lift your ass off the bed a bit. “I think she likes the idea of being corrupted. Want us to corrupt you? Ruin you?”

You nodded, tearing your gaze from Hongjoong to look down at Yeosang, breath caught in your throat at the sight of his cockhead pressing against your entrance. “Fuck yes- please.”

“I guess you’re right, our little good girl wants us to ruin her. We should do it thoroughly then.” Hongjoong’s hand slid into your hair, both of you staring between your legs as Yeosang gave you just what you wanted: he pushed his cock forward, inch by inch disappearing into your sweet folds. 

Yeosang’s head fell forward a bit, lips parted in awe as he too watched. “You’re sucking me in so well.” You would’ve reached for him if Hongjoong hadn’t gone out of his way to pin both of your hands under your head, holding them by the wrist and your hair. When he bottomed out, you clenched down, both of you moaning from the pleasure.

Hongjoong was getting a bit impatient though, tsking. “Come on Sangie, ruin her.” 

Yeosang snarled his upper lip at Hongjoong, the tension between them palpable for a moment before Yeosang had his hand around your throat and was pounding into you relentlessly. The 0 to 100 of his movements had you reeling, crying out as your head fell back into Hongjoong’s hand. With your ass slightly off the bed, legs bent up to the point your knees grazed the bed under your arms, Yeosang was rubbing every inch of your inner walls that mattered.

“This what you wanted?” He hissed out, and part of you didn’t think he was talking to you; at least not entirely to you.

The fact Hongjoong answered with a breathless ‘yes’ had you clenching down on Yeosang, his harsh thrusts faltering at the feeling. 

It felt too good to actually focus on Yeosang, and with his hand adding just the right amount of pressure on your throat you couldn’t watch him even if you tried. But Hongjoong? You could see his expressions perfectly. He had a wildly dark look in his eyes, that sadistic grin appearing for a second whenever his eyes flickered down to your throat but otherwise he was watching the way Yeosang was ramming his cock into you.

Yeosang’s low grunts were a perfect compliment to his rough thrusts, the bed rocking from the force that didn’t seem to bother Hongjoong at all. He stood still, taking in the sight before him while still holding your head in the palm of his hand, watching as Yeosang brought you to a climax in the next few strokes. You cried out, Yeosang fucking you through the high that just made youre head even more fuzzy with ecstasy, barely registering the soft curses he let out at the realization that Hongjoong didn’t have any reaction. You whined for him, wanting him to want you just as much as Yeosang did, yet you didn't think he did. But just as Yeosang had seemed to snap, escalating quickly, so did he. 

Hongjoong quickly pulled his pants open and down, his cock springing out and slapping against your cheek. “Open up Doll, I can’t let the pretty boy have you all to himself.” 

Your head fell back, mouth open, moaning around his length as he wasted no time stuffing you in sync with Yeosang’s slowed thrusts. The angle had you gagging, the hand on your throat not helping much either, but you were enjoying it. No, it was the low rumble that left Hongjoong that made it enjoyable. Still reeling from your climax, the two men leisurely made use of your holes, showing that even in their quest to ‘corrupt you’ they were still kind.

Or perhaps it was just a momentarily sense of ease they gave you, Hongjoong’s hips snapping with a sudden roughness that had tears brimming in your eyes.

“Fuck I can feel you in her throat-” Yeosang whined, matching his thrusts as to not be outdone, his grip tightening around your throat making it tighter around Hongjoong’s cock

“Oh yeah?” Hongjoong moaned out in response, his hand covering Yeosang’s as the two locked eyes. “You feel every fucking thrust? Every inch of my cock inside her?”

You gagged, your now free hands grabbing Hongjoong’s pants and tugging before you really did find yourself suffocating on his cock. That would be one hell of a way to go though.

Hongjoong didn’t even take his eyes off of Yeosang at the gurgled sounds you made, but at your whine- “Don’t worry doll, I haven’t forgotten about you. Just need to make sure this dumb pretty boy has enough brain cells to fuck you properly.” He released your throat, letting Yeosang relax his grip and the pressure.

“She’s not complaining.” Yeosang shot back yet you swore he seemed to like it.

“That’s because she’s too busy choking on my cock. But I’ll happily take over fucking that sweet cunt, show her that it takes more than a pretty face to fuck properly.”

Yeosang groaned, hand removed from your throat to hold the back of your thighs, bending you a bit further to hit deeper. You cried out around Hongjoong’s cock, eliciting a breathless whine from him that was echoed by Yeosang.

“Fuck, I can’t tell if you’re enjoying my insults or pissed off by them but look at you- found yourself a second wind Pretty boy? You have the muscles for it, but not the brains for a comeback?”

The tension between them was palpable and felt through each thrust, beginning to annoy you just a bit as Hongjoong focused more on degrading the man fucking you with such a ferocity you really couldn’t think of much more. Not about to be forgotten, you clamped your pussy walls down around Yeosang while hollowing out your cheeks and sucking, resulting in both men cursing while their thrusts momentarily faltered.

“Oh fu- doll don’t do that.”

“We’ve been neglecting our baby.” You whined blissfully when Yeosang’s thumb found your clit, adding just a bit of pressure that had your hips bucking. “I’d also rather hear the sounds she’s making.”

“Oh really?” Hongjoong pulled out, leaving you gasping for air while he stroked your spit along his cock. “Mmm, you’re right, she does make better sounds with her mouth free.”

You honestly didn’t give a damn about the loud noises leaving you as you held onto Hongjoong’s legs. “C-close, wanna come.” Lifting your head a bit you could see Yeosang now and the sight he made: muscles bulging as he held you folded over enough you could easily see the full length of his cock disappearing into your squelching cunt -which alone was a sight to behold- yet you couldn’t take your eyes off his fucked out expression. Pupils blown wide, hair sticking to his forehead and brow that was scrunched together in concentration, and lips parted around soft little moans that were barely audible over your own.

He looked like he was straight out of your wet dreams but better. Better because you could see Hongjoong stroking his cock in your peripheral vision. His free hand was once more under your head, both of you watching Yeosang and you swore that both of you loved the sight of him fucking you.

You didn’t have time to question it, not when Yeosang’s head fell forward, letting out the sweetest whine in his deep voice. “Come with me, please~”

It didn’t matter which of you he was talking to, the next moment filled with a symphony of sinful sounds as you were covered inside and out with their cum, eyes rolling to the back of your head as your own orgasm washed over you. 

You were still reeling when Yeosang pulled out and set you down, leaning down to still a kiss that required all your focus just to give back. Your legs were still shaking, well aware you would be sore tomorrow and lucky if you would be walking without issues in the next hour. Your throat and thighs felt thoroughly bruised and used, so did your cunt.

The raid you had stumbled into earlier was forgotten, brain still buzzing from the effects. Yeosang’s body heat was replaced by a damn towel, cleaning off the cum on your chest and shoulders before it was tossed to Yeosang who cleaned up your thighs and core. Slowly you blinked up at Hongjoong, barely processing that he was fully dressed now.

“Now that everything is out on the table, we won’t be holding back anymore. Are you prepared?” That cold twisted smile was back on his face, Yeosang coming into view with his jaw tightly clenched with emotions you couldn’t place.

Now the raid did come crashing back to you: the sight of chaos and destruction and these two in the middle.

Wolves in sheep’s clothing, and you happily let them devour you.

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