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For Your Recent Event Can I Request

For your recent event can I request

Blue Ocean and #2

Thank you

Three Little Words (Gojo x Reader)

CW: rejection, blood, slight spoilers for the jjk movie, implied past satosugu i guess, mutual pining, reader is female, implied death, brief mentions of blood, mentions of injury

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"Sorry, not interested."

Three little words. Three little words was all it took to shatter your heart.

You had spent the last three years of your life trying to track down the person attached to the other end of your soulmate thread.

All that time spent hoping. All that time spent daydreaming about what he would be like, only for this.

For you to meet him because he was your new coworker, and fellow teacher at Jujutsu Tech. For him to reject you upon first sight.

You hadn't even spoken a word yet. All it took was him glancing at the red ribbon connecting the two of you for him to shut you down.

Your mind went blank. There was no way you heard him correctly, right...?

"What?"

"I'm not interested."

He stated casually, as if he was just commenting on the weather.

"You-You don't even know my name yet!"

With all logic having flown out the window, this was the best you could come up with.

"Oh, you're right. What's your name?"

Stupefied, you told him.

"That's pretty. Anyways, it's not you, it's me."

Taking your blank gaze as understanding, he perked up.

"My name's Gojo Satoru. I hope we can be friends!"

With an enthusiastic handshake, he was off, leaving you standing in shock, unsure of what just happened.

Reaching up and touching your cheek, you were surprised to find that it was wet.

Huh, that was strange. When did you start crying?

─── ⋅ ∙ ∘ ☽ ༓ ☾ ∘ ⋅ ⋅ ───

Days turned to weeks turned to months.

At first, things were a little awkward between you and your soulmate.

You were hurt, angry and confused. But the more time you spent with him, the more those feelings ebbed away, his presence a balm that soothed all your hurts and insecurities.

Why. Why did he have to reject you? Why did he have to be so insufferable? Why did he have to be so goddamn attractive? Why did he have to be aware that he was so goddamn attractive?

Why couldn't he send you any clear signals?

One day he was playfully calling you his 'best bud' while the two of you played pranks on Nanami or got into mischief.

And the next he was tenderly cupping your cheek and running his thumb over the dark bags under your eyes; concern evident on his face as he quietly asked if you were doing okay, and telling you to take a break.

And if he really wasn't interested, why didn't he officially break the soulmate bond? Why did he change the subject every time you tried to bring it up?

It was driving you insane. You were falling for him. And hard. But the echo of his words replayed in your head every time you considered broaching the subject.

You didn't know what to do.

So you did the only thing you could; you kept it professional. After all, the two of you were coworkers, nothing more, nothing less.

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Gojo was tired of just being your coworker.

He wanted more. Had wanted more from the moment he laid eyes on your breathtaking face.

Sure, it had broken a visceral part of him to reject you, but if it was to keep you safe, he would do it a million times over.

However, no matter how much he told himself he couldn't be with you, that he had to officially sever the soulmate bond, he couldn't bring himself to officially break the tie that made the two of you soulmates.

The more time he spent with you, the more time he got to spend with you, the harder he fell.

He had never felt like this towards anyone. The only person that had ever come close before this had been Suguru, but his relationship with him had been soured by the fact that they both knew Gojo's soulmate was out there.

But when you were in his life, his entire world lit up. Everything was brighter and more vibrant. He felt like you saw him for Satoru, the man he was, instead of the burdens fate and Jujutsu society had placed upon his shoulders.

So selfishly he had kept the soulmate bond intact.

And now, staring at your mangled form laying before him, the precious blood that belonged in your veins leaking out onto the floor as you struggled to breathe, he remembered.

He remembered why he wasn't allowed to love. Why he had pushed you away.

God, he was so stupid to think that Suguru wouldn't go after you. He was so stupid for believing that his friend wasn't irredeemable.

And his stupidity and selfishness could very well cost you your life.

"You never change, do you."

Only then did Gojo realize that he had been speaking aloud, voicing his inner turmoil as the two people he cared for most lay dying before him.

Suguru coughed, wincing as the motion aggravated his injuries.

"You say that she's injured because you selfishly clung to your soulmate bond, right?"

"What are you implying Suguru?"

Gojo asked, weariness and heartbreak in his voice as he applied pressure to your injuries. He couldn't take you to get help until he took care of Suguru, but he wanted to give his former best friend a chance to say his last words.

"What I'm saying is that she got hurt because you were selfish, yes, but not in the way you think you were. You aren't selfish because you refuse to break the bond. You were selfish because you kept your distance. You could've come to her rescue much earlier, but you didn't because doing so would admit that she meant something to you. And you were more comfortable keeping her at a distance, because you didn't want to have to fear losing her."

Suguru sighed, shifting to a more comfortable position.

"You know, I never hated the people at Jujutsu Tech. If she survives, tell her how you really feel. She deserves at least that. And after that, tell her I'm sorry, okay."

Gojo barked a laugh, tears burning the backs of his eyes as a looming sense of grief and apprehension filled him. He knew what he had to do next.

"Okay, I will."

He smiled.

"Wingmanning me till the end. My best friend."

His face softened as he reminisced on better times.

"My one and only."

Suguru returned the smile, and Gojo finished him, gently closing his eyes afterwards.

Standing and wiping the tears from his eyes, he turned and picked you up, before stepping into a new chapter of his life.

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When you woke up, you were greeted by the bright white of the hospital ceiling.

Groaning, you attempted to sit up, only to be stopped by the massive man-child sprawled across your lap.

With a snort, he shot up, disoriented as he rejoined the land of the waking.

Noticing you were awake, he froze, before reaching out and grabbing your hands.

"Can I say something?"

"Right now?"

You asked, a little confused as to what could be so important that he was waiting at your bedside for you to wake up.

"Yes."

His unusually somber tome threw you off.

"Of course. What's the matter?"

"I'm so sorry."

"Um, I'm confused. For what?"

"For rejecting you. This is by no means any excuse, but the last person I was close to abandoned me. I was afraid to let anyone get close to me, but instead of facing my fear, I excused it by telling myself that if I let myself care for you then curses would target you to get to me. So I told myself that it was to protect you instead of acknowledging that I'm selfish coward who was just trying to protect myself-"

"Hold up."

You cut off his rambling, needing a moment to process.

"Are you trying to tell me that you rejected me because you were afraid that in the end I was going to betray you, but you were too emotionally constipated to acknowledge that, so instead you convinced yourself that you were pushing me away for my own protection?"

Downcast he nodded.

"And you're apologizing for that."

"Yes. If I had just protected you by staying by your side, you never would have gotten hurt! The only reason you're in here is because I was too scared to admit that I love you!"

You froze.

"Say it again."

"What."

"What you just said."

Realization dawned on Gojo's face, and his cheeks turned a pretty shade of pink.

"I love you."

He murmured shyly, looking at the comforter.

You leaned forwards and hugged him, burying your head in his chest.

"Again."

You whispered, lips brushing against the fabric of his uniform.

"I love you."

A content smile spread across your face.

"I'm still sorta pissed at you, but you have no idea how happy you just made me."

You said, nuzzling into his shirt.

"I love you too."

He froze in disbelief. There was no way you returned his feelings. He didn't deserve that.

"Do you really forgive me?"

"Mmmm, say it one more time for me."

"I love you."

"Okay I forgive you."

Finally at peace, you basked in the warmth from being in the arms of your soulmate.

Who knew that those three little words were all it took.

Three little words to heal your heart.

Cuddling with soulmate, you knew that you would be okay, as long as he continued to tell you those three little words.

You deep personal reflection was interrupted by Gojo's voice.

"Oh, by the way, Suguru says sorry."

─── ⋅ ∙ ∘ ☽ ༓ ☾ ∘ ⋅ ⋅ ───

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1 year ago

#6 crimson red for your event game plzzz

i didn't even think about this as a possibility and i'm kicking myself. when i saw this in my asks, i had to physically restrain myself from dropping all my drafts to work on it.

Nice to Meet You (Todoroki x Reader)

CW: Child abuse, physical abuse, injuries, bruising, slight spoilers for the anime, swearing, angst to fluff

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"Get up."

Endeavor sneered down at his son, kicking him in the stomach again.

"You must surpass All Might."

Across the city, flowers inked themselves across your stomach, revealing your soulmate trait.

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"Shut the fuck up!"

Your mother hissed at you, dragging you by your arm down the stairs.

"Your siblings are trying to sleep."

Hysterical, you sobbed and thrashed trying to escape.

"Mommy I'm sorry please I'll be quiet please just let me go back to bed-"

"I don't believe you."

She threw you into the small basement closet and locked the door.

"I'll be back when you're ready to be quiet."

Blossoms curled across Todoroki's shoulder and arm.

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"If I raise him now, it'll be bad-"

"Mommy?"

Todoroki asked, poking his head around the corner.

The kettle whistled.

Slowly turning, Rei Todoroki spotted her son, but all she could see was a bright turquoise eye.

Picking up the kettle, she slowly approached him.

"Mommy?"

He asked again, backing up, but not leaving.

He knew something was wrong, but despite the alarm bells ringing in his head he wanted to stay and help, because he loved her.

And he continued to love her even after the searing pain of the boiling water.

Even after she scarred him, he continued to love her, because if he didn't, he wouldn't have anyone to consider a parent.

For months a red flower remained inked over your left eye.

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"Stay in your room until I come get you. How did I give birth to such an awful human being? How could you make your little brother cry. Stay here until I can stomach seeing you again."

Turning to leave, your mother was stopped when you flung your small body at her and clutched her leg.

"Mommy I'm so so sorry, I swear I'll be better! I didn't mean to make him cry! Please just give me another cha-"

You were cut off as your mother kicked you off her leg and stomped down on your chest before wordlessly turning and locking the door behind her.

You curled in on yourself, trying to remember how to breathe, your chest on fire.

A cluster of flowers in the shape of a slippered foot unfurled across Todoroki's sternum.

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For years and years, the only communication you had with your soulmate was flowers in the shape of bruises, the two of you sending them back and forth, back and forth.

Your soulmate trait made it so if either of you were injured, the other would have flowers inked across their body until the person who was injured healed.

The fates must have been in an ironic mood when they gave the two of you, two abused children living sad and loveless lives, that trait.

But at least it allowed you to recognize your soulmate immediately.

The first time you met Todoroki Shouto, you knew he was your soulmate. After all, the injury that caused his scar had been inked on your face for months, so of course you would recognize it.

After your first day at UA, you quietly asked if you could talk to him somewhere private.

Suspiciously he agreed, so the two of you walked to a park.

"I'm pretty sure you're my soulmate."

You blurted, wincing at how blunt you sounded.

He stared coldly at you.

"What makes you think that?"

You nervously explained your soulmate trait, and told him about the flower that had adorned your left eyes for several months when you were around six.

"Do you have a bruise on your right elbow?"

He asked impatiently.

"Right now-yes. Yeah I do."

He gave you a curt nod.

"Then we're probably soulmates. I have a flower on my right elbow right now."

You smiled at him shyly.

"Nice to meet you-"

He cut you off.

"I don't have time, or a need for a soulmate."

You stopped, not sure you heard him right.

"I don't need or want a soulmate. I have to work hard and surpass All Might. A relationship with you would just hold me back."

Tears crawled up your throat and burned the backs of your eyes.

"R-right! Of course! No I-I completely understand! I'll let you go on your way now. Sorry for wasting your time."

Turning you walked briskly away, not brave enough to look back or wait for a response.

Wiping your eyes on the sleeve of your blazer you took a deep breath.

It was okay. It made sense after all. He had seen all of the bruises and cuts and scrapes you worked so hard to hide from the public. Of course he wouldn't want you. It was obvious that your mother didn't, so why would he.

You were okay with this. You would have to be.

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"I would like to apologize and try to be friends."

You stared blankly at the dual-toned boy standing in front of you.

"...What?"

You asked, confused.

"Why."

After Todoroki had returned from his internship in Hosu, he had asked to meet you in the park where you talked the first time.

At first you had hesitated, but he seemed sincere, so you eventually agreed.

"After the Sports Festival, and my encounter with Stain, I realized that I've been a little..."

"Cold? Harsh? Unfeeling?"

You offered, a little peeved.

He winced.

"Yes...All of the above."

Then he squared his shoulders and bowed.

"I sincerely apologize for being so insensitive. I need to work some things out in myself before I'm ready to even consider a romantic relationship, however I would like to become friends with you and get to know you better."

You take a moment to process what he just said.

Hope bubbles in you, beautiful and bright. Maybe there was a future in which you could learn what it felt like to be loved.

"Stand up."

You said softly, fidgeting with your hair.

He straightened, looking into your eyes.

Was that...nervousness you detected?

"I forgive you. And...I would like to get to know you as well. So why don't we start over?"

He exhales in relief.

"That sounds perfect."

You smiled at him and introduced yourself.

He smiled back.

"It's nice to meet you. My name is Todoroki Shoto."

─── ⋅ ∙ ∘ ☽ ༓ ☾ ∘ ⋅ ⋅ ───

Okay I really really really want to make a part two of this where they finally become a couple. Should I? Thanks for requesting this anon! I had a lot of fun writing it!

<3 Lee


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1 year ago

Hey what breed dog do you have ?

i have a weimaraner!


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1 year ago

I do understand the differences between a character and a real life person, but most of the time people let their personal vision to bleed into a fictional setting, maybe even unconciously. You corrected yourself with the all 'trapped in a wheel chair' but your first writing seemed to express some underground annoyance towards disability that seemed to go beyond fiction. Levi doesn't exist, but people with disability who love aot and see people express this kind of feelings toward a disable character DO exist. Their feelings are real.

This is the last I'm going to say about that post.

I'm truly sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings. That was not my intent. The main point of the post wasn't even about the wheelchair. It was about the loss of all his friends and family and how he needs to carry their burdens alone.

Finally, the only "underground annoyance" I hold towards disability is the fear and helplessness in watching my father - who is my world - slowly stop being able to go on runs with me, then hikes, then walks, then he wasn't able to move around the house. And now neuropathy has led to him being in a wheelchair.

And I would never, ever, wish my father was dead. The thought makes me nauseous. As rough as it is seeing him struggling with neuropathy, I spend every day grateful that he survived the cancer, even if the treatment did this to him.

Don't assume things about people you don't know.

If anything else is said about the post, I'm just going to take it down.

@supersleepyboys don't assume things. I agree with all the points you made, but your comments were very hurtful, especially given the circumstances around my father. please, just think twice before attacking a stranger you know nothing about


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1 year ago

reminder that this event is still open, so send in your requests while you can!!!

it closes oct. 31

1 Year Anniversary Soulmate Color Event!

1 Year Anniversary Soulmate Color Event!

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Let me know if you want to get added to the event taglist!

It was recently my one year anniversary on tumblr, so I decided to do my first ask event! (I'm also rewarding myself because I caught up on my schoolwork)

The tag for this event is lee's 1 year anniversary event so filter it out if you don't want to see the fics from it.

Below are the rules and guide.

1 Year Anniversary Soulmate Color Event!

Here is the format:

Number (prompt) Shade (theme) Color (character)

Example:

Megumi angst with the "mark from last time your soulmate ever touches you" prompt

Would be:

#8 Jade Green

Step 1: Pick a Character (Color)

My Hero Academia:

Todoroki Shoto: Red

Bakugou Katsuki: Orange

Kaminari Denki: Yellow

Jujutsu Kaisen:

Fushiguro Megumi: Green

Gojo Satoru: Blue

Inumaki Toge: Purple

Yuji Itadori: Pink

Step Two: Pick a Theme (Shade)

Angst: blood, rust, ochre, jade, navy, eggplant, amaranth

Angst to Fluff: crimson, tangerine, pale, pine, ocean, lilac, rose

Hurt/Comfort: vermillion, dark, golden, forest, sky, plum, blush

Fluff: maroon, pumpkin, lemon, olive, baby, lavender, bubblegum

Crack: fire engine, safety cone, neon, lime, electric, violet, hot

Step Three: Pick an Prompt

#1. The closer you are to your soulmate, the warmer you feel, the further you are the colder. Basically finding your soulmate is one big game of hot and cold.

#2. You and your soulmate are attached by an unbreakable red thread tied on you ankles/wrists/whatever.

#3. Every night your dreams are actually your soulmate's memories.

#4. Once you reach a certain age you begin to feel a pull towards your soulmate, just like magnets. (someone please request a crack version of this)

#5. The name of your soulmate appears on your body only after that person falls in love with you.

#6. If your soulmate gets a wound or cut, flowers bloom out of the same spot on your own body.

#7. The first time your soulmate touches you it will leave a mark in the shape of their touch on your body.

#8. The last time your soulmate touches you it will leave a mark in the shape of their touch on your body.

#9. You and your soulmate both glow if you're in a room together for the first time. (This can get confusing if more than 1 set of soulmates are in the room)

*note: I found these prompts on Pinterest. they do not belong to me.*

1 Year Anniversary Soulmate Color Event!

At the moment, I am not comfortable writing nsfw, so please don't request it

I don't write poly relationships. It's not that I have anything against it, I just don't feel comfortable

Please be polite! I'm happy to write your requests, but please be mindful of the fact that I am also a human being with a life

Feel free to send in as many as you want, I'll try to get to all of them

The event will close on Oct. 31, meaning I will stop taking requests for it, but will continue to write and post any requests I received up until then


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