Thinking Of Ethan Nakamura. About How In BotL He So Clearly Didn't Want To Be In Kronos' Army. About

Thinking of Ethan Nakamura. About how in BotL he so clearly didn't want to be in Kronos' army. About how he joined anyway because his mother was mistreated by the Olympians. About how he knew Kronos and Luke mistreated him but his loyalty to his mother was more important than that. About how he realized his mother's goals could be accomplished better without Kronos and betrayed him despite being so high up. About how it killed him to fulfill his goals

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Introduction

‼️not dead, just on hiatus‼️

About me

19 years old

From Arizona

Will write sfw and nsfw

She/they

Rules

No homophobia, transphobia, racism, or anything of the sort

Must be 18+ to read nsfw posts

Characters I will write for

Mattheo Riddle

Jason Todd

Leo Valdez

Tim Drake

Percy Jackson

Simon "Ghost" Riley

Miguel O'Hara

Hobie Brown

JJ Maybank

Requests

Please only send them when open

Don't be offended or mad if I don't do them

Make sure there's nothing in the request I don't write for

Things I DON'T write

Nsfw:

Scat/piss

¡ncest

Ped0philia

Daddy kink

Age regression

Body mutilation

Pretty much any super extreme kinks

Bl/mlm (I'm female and don't feel comfortable writing that)

Sfw:

Child death

Pregnancy

Main character death

Bl/mlm (I'm female and don't feel comfortable writing that)

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⭒𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲. 𝐣𝐣 𝐩𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐬 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲, 𝐩𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲, 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭.

⭒𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬. 𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬(𝐥𝐨𝐥 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭?), 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭, 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐚𝐛𝐮𝐬𝐞, 𝐟𝐞𝐦!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫, 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐧𝐭 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 :|, 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭

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you approached the maybank household with a sigh, pushing back your hair as you made your way to the entrance. 

I would say I'm sorry

If I thought that it would change your mind

But I know that this time

I have said too much

Been too unkind

jj had gone MIA for a few days now, which wasn’t really a surprise but it was coming close to a week. he was ignoring calls and texts, and wasn’t at his house most times—so you were holding your breath hoping he had come back.

“jayj?” you called, knocking on the paint chipped door that creaked open upon on impact.

it’s not locked, why isn’t it locked?

I tried to laugh about it

Cover it all up with lies

I tried to laugh about it

Hiding the tears in my eyes

'Cause boys don't cry

Boys don't cry

you took it as a sign to let yourself in, eyes immediately wandering around the messy living room that was littered with beer bottles and trash.

“jj?” you called again, your voice slicing through the silence as a loud thud was heard around the corner.

seconds later, the missing blonde you and the pogues had been so worried about came stumbling into view.

“y/n?” he sounded surprised, eyebrows knitted together before his expression quickly morphed into anger. 

I would break down at your feet

And beg forgiveness, plead with you

But I know that it's too late

And now there's nothing I can do

“what the fuck are you doing here?” he yelled, voice bouncing off the rickety walls and attacking your ears.

you noticed a bruise on his chin, a bloody cut on his top lip with a matching one above his eyebrow.

his hair was messy with strands sticking to his forehead, dark circles under his eyes.

“i was- w-we were, the pogues, w-were worried about you,” you stuttered out, watching as he shook his head angrily, “you haven’t been answering our calls, a-and, and you just disappeared!”

“and why do you think that?” he spat, eyebrows raising in a sarcastic manor as he waved his hands around.

So I try to laugh about it

Cover it all up with lies

I try to laugh about it

Hiding the tears in my eyes

'Cause boys don't cry

Boys don't cry

“i didn’t want anyone to see me- i didn’t want you to see me!”

his words felt like a knife to the gut, scratch that, to the heart.

never in your entire friendship has jj yelled at you like that, yelled at you period. he treated you differently from everyone else, treated you differently from the pogues.

everyone knew, everyone saw. it made them want to snap and yell out, “just shut up and kiss each other!”

I would tell you that I loved you

If I thought that you would stay

But I know that it's no use

And you've already gone away

“what did i do?” you whispered, only causing jj to get more frustrated by the second. he was practically gnawing on his bottom lip, a bad habit he had picked up along with many others.

“just forget it,” he mumbled, running a hand through his tangled hair before pointing at the door.

“leave.”

“no.”

his blue eyes narrowed towards your figure, mouth opening to say something but nothing came out.

never have you ever talked to him like that, but you could say the same about him.

“what did you just say?”

his voice was thick, tongue like venom as he took a step towards you.

“you need help jj,” you said, frown etching it’s way on your face, “luke is hurting you-”

“stop it!” he practically screamed, hitting the wall next to him, causing you to flinch and step back.

Misjudged your limits

Pushed you too far

Took you for granted

Thought that you needed me more, more, more

you had never been scared of jj until now. he never gave you a reason to be.

he noticed this, eyes softly dropping and mouth slightly agape, “j-just stop it.”

his voice dropped to a whisper, his once beautiful blue eyes filled with light—gone.

there were tears, threatening to spill and flood his broken face.

“please don’t be afraid of me,” he begged, taking another step towards your small figure as you shook your head.

“i could never be afraid of you, j,” you whispered, which was mostly true. he would never hurt you, his emotions just caught you off guard in the moment.

“i’m not like him.”

“you’re not like him,” you assured, a single tear falling down his face as more prepared to follow.

he shook his head, each shake getting more aggressive as he squeezed his eyes shut, hands coming up to tug at his hair.

“i’m not him.”

“j-” your hand reached out to stop his hand from pulling at his locks, jj catching you off guard as he grabbed your wrist and pulled you into him.

you body collided with his softly, his arms wrapping around your waist as he squeezed you tightly. you stood on your tip toes to loop your arms around his shoulders, letting them find home in your neck as his tears decorated your skin.

“i’m sorry,” he sobbed quietly, breath hot against your neck as you shushed him.

Now I would do most anything

To get you back by my side

But I just keep on laughing

Hiding the tears in my eyes

'Cause boys don't cry

Boys don't cry

“don’t apologize, jayj,” you whispered, “i’m here—and i’m not leaving.”

he tried to subside his cries, whimpers leaving his lips as a result.

“you’re not leaving?”

you shook your head, fingers running through his hair as your nails scratched the back of his head, a small action you’ve learned calmed him down over the past months.

“i’m not leaving.”

Boys don't cry