lex | 24| xe/xem | author | mcr fan | tma spiral touched
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Sick list of symptoms bro. Now try humanizing your behavior instead of pathologizing it.
hey girl. did you know that it’s okay to never fucking forgive them? that no part of you is required to pretend to be okay with all that stuff that never should have happened to you? that you’re allowed to be angry for all ways you were stolen from you? okay, just checking. i love you.
stop hating fat people. especially yourself. “oh I don’t hate fat people” okay then why do you act like fatness is a moral failing? being fat is just your body’s response to various factors in your life. it is morally neutral. if you’re unhappy, deal with the root factors of the unhappiness, not the fatness. your body is doing the best it can to get you through whatever you have going on. be kind to it and stop hating it
Reblogging things I like feels a lot more goblinesque than upvoting ever did. The upvotes felt like "hmm yes, I approve *golf claps*" while reblogging feels like furtively staring at something before shoving it in your mouth and scurrying back underneath the nearest piece of furniture.
Which isn't to say that I don't like it. But I definitely find myself going "maybe I shouldn't reblog this because I've already reblogged a bunch of things today and I don't want to look like I don't have a life," I say as I close the app and reopen it like one of those little automatic box toys with the switches.
parents are so crazy because they can say the most fucked up shit to you when your brain is forming and it sets the tone for your whole adult mind set and then they forget about it the next day
Guess who taught himself how to open the rice cooker and woke me up by screaming in between mouthfuls of hot rice
you have to kill todd howard
pre covid you could make a room of freshmen laugh with a video of griffin mcelroy sayin todd howard repeatedly. now you gotta kill someone. You have to kill someone.
I saw one similar to this but it got me curious so im doing the same thing but slightly shifted:
(ps: if the pfp has a lot of colors/a tertiary color, just chose the one that seems most obvious)
guy who is not necessarily nonbinary but also not NOT nonbinary. guy who doesnt fit into the binary-nonbinary binary. if you will
press Ⓧ to PENIS BLAST
(Afternoon April 13, 2023) The Missouri Attorney General just used an Emergency Rule to ban all gender-affirming care for people of all ages (yes, adults) in the state.
In order to receive any care, transgender minors and adults alike will have to:
have 3 years of documented “severe” dysphoria
18 months of state-mandated conversion therapy
have zero mental health conditions, most specifically anxiety, depression, or autism
require tests for “social contagion” for 15 years after beginning care
This will cut TENS OF THOUSANDS of trans people off of medical care. Please care about us, oh my god.
officially decided that anyone who tries to divide the lgbt community is a fed. i dont care if you're not actually a fed, if you're causing infighting in a minority community then you're a fed who just isnt getting paid to be one. either apply for a job at the CIA or shut the fuck up
Masculine men belong in the queer community just as much as anyone else.
What’s up late night folks? Here’s an eerie shot I took down a pitch black road in the middle of the night
Truly and honestly existing as a trans man is so fucking beautiful.
Everything you’ve faced and dealt with, every challenge you’ve been forced to confront at a disadvantage, it’s helped make you into who you are today. Good, bad, something that’s somehow both and neither. You’re here today and there is never a thing better than that.
Offer your strength, offer your weakness, there will be another who needs it at that time.
christopher paolini wrote eragon for a) gay kids obsessed with dragons and magic b) tween/teen lesbians who identified with eragons pathetic yearning for arya and would have committed mass violence if they didn’t kiss at least once and c) the horny girls obsessed with murtagh
Frequently occurring scenario in 4 steps:
a nonverbal/nonspeaking autistic who struggles to express themself in "proper English" talks about an issue within the autistic community
-> almost no likes, no reblogs
I write about the same thing later; good wording and clear structure
-> many likes, lots of reblogs, people commenting "Oh, that's so important to know, thank you!"
Honestly....... It may be confusing at first, but once you know the pattern it's actually pretty easy to understand ungrammatical sentences on AAC.
You know that many autistics struggle with "I" and pronouns, right? Assume they'll simply drop it and refer to themselves in third person (their name).
Many AAC devices make punctuation difficult. There will be a period after a word because the device just . does . this . thing . here. And often no commas because that's complicated too.
Maybe "I am", "This is", "There is" or "It's" are difficult to find - assume it's "is", or sometimes "I am" is just "Am".
Future and past tense can be difficult too. The context helps here.
"Is not [name] . Say. Is . Say . Green." - "That's not what I said. I said it's green."
Plus, sometimes words are hard to find so it's easier to describe them.
"Red water" or "waterfall eyes" could be easier/faster to find and write than "blood" or "I am crying/sad", depending on the device or the language skills.
And if you really don't understand something because the preposition is unclear and you don't know if the thing in question is in the bathroom, in front of the bathroom, on the sink, under the sink, etc..... Just ask for clarification.
Once you know what words are important for the meaning of the sentence, it's not that hard. Don't ignore those of us who struggle with expressive language just because you're used to "proper" English.
are we all just NOT talking about the ace flag sticker on breanna’s laptop in leverage redemption s2 bc i for one will be ONLY talking about it forever
If they say shit like "somft,, tumby...." in regards to your body or other peoples bodies or drawings of fat people or fat things you have to kill them. It's the only way. You have to kill them
rb and put in the tags what the prev person is to you
it's been said before and i'm sure said better than i can phrase it. but really, really - if you like making "i'm going to kill myself" jokes, please try switching to being ironically conceited instead.
anytime something goes wrong, say things like "ah well at least i'm beautiful and charming and everyone loves me." when you forget something, try "my big huge brain is so smart and thinking about too many other very big wizardly thoughts you wouldn't even understand." when you're frustrated by one of your symptoms, start talking like you're in My Immortal. "Life has come for me but my eyes are beautiful pools of gorgeous fire and my hair is amazing. I stuck my middle finger up at life and told it to fuck off and it did."
just... try it for a month or two. try saying the most absurdly self-congratulatory shit you can think of.
i know it's tempting to make suicide or self-harm jokes. and for me at least, a decade ago (!) when someone suggested i stop making those kinds of jokes, i was kind of at a loss for what to replace them with. i wanted to make light of these moments, but genuinely (at the time) my first thought really was suicidal ideation. there was a part of me that even felt like ... i was kind of "making light" of that voice. that if i could say i want to die lol, it would help take the sting out of that genuine (albeit passive) desire. like i could turn my illness into a joke.
when i started complimenting myself instead, it felt awkward and stupid. it felt really, really ironic. what i was actually saying was nobody would ever think this stuff about me, that's what makes it so fucking funny.
but. the effect was immediate. first thing i noticed was the people around me. when i dropped a glass and said ah my skin is too beautiful and sleek the glass has swooned and broken for me, other people were suddenly overjoyed to jump in with the joke. rather than making an awkward moment, we'd both start cracking up. ah princess sleek hands, i've heard of you.
i was 19. i hadn't noticed i'd been making others tense when i said i want it all to end. i know now that it's incredibly hard to know how to walk that moment - do you talk to them about your concern? do you potentially make them uncomfortable by asking if they're okay? do you ignore the situation? do you help them pick up the glass, or do they need to do it by themselves? are they genuinely made suicidal over this small moment? and most importantly, how do you - without professional training or supplies - actually help?
most people want to help you pick up the glass in your life, they just have no fucking idea how to do it. they don't want to make anything worse. they don't want to make assumptions about you. they love you, they're scared for you - and being scared makes people kind of freeze up. it's not because they don't love you. it's because they do.
now when something bad happens, my first thought is how can i make a stupid joke about this. it isn't my brain saying you're a dumb fucking bitch. i spend more time laughing. i spend more time being gentle with myself. i spend more time feeling good.
and the thing is - what's kind of funny - is that you'd be surprised by how many people agree with you. the first time i said i'm too pretty to understand that, someone else said to be fair you're the prettiest person in this room. i promise - you really don't know how kindly your friends see you. but they love you for a reason. they sort of reverse-velveteen-rabbit you. your weird and ugly spots fade away and you just become... the love they want to give you.
go love yourself ironically. the worst thing that happens is that you end up tricking your reflection into actually loving you.
I have a lot of gripes with the 2012 adaptation of Les Misérables but I will be forever grateful they did it at that time because if it was after 2014, we would have had James Corden as Thénardier for sure and it would have been unwatchable
When it feels like writing is impossible but you really really want to write anyway, just skip the bits that don't inspire. Write 15 openings of scenes and nothing else. Write that one emotional conversation with only the dialogue like a script. Write that one emotional conversation with none of the dialogue.
Be so self-indulgent you almost feel over-indulged by the end.
Sometimes you're torn between wanting to write but not having the spoons to actually do writing proper. So don't do it properly.