Biggest Scam In Modern Society

biggest scam in modern society

i like the idea of having friends. i like to imagine close bonds, mutual understanding, a sense of belonging, security, having someone who will pull the world's edges for you—it is, in fact, my favourite thing to write about.

the reality, however, is very different to this fantasy i have envisioned in my head. because actual friendships require time. they require time, energy, emotional investment, and care—things i struggle to give. these expectations are quite overwhelming, quite draining; the effort to maintain regular contact, engage in conversations, meet the emotional needs of others is so very exhausting.

this dissonance between fiction and reality often leads me to withdraw and give up. i realise the reality is unattainable and i go a full circle. and the fantasy remains just that—a fantasy.

real-life interactions fall short on my expectations—or i fall short for them. so i'll retreat back into my solitude, choose the comfort of my own company over maintaining friendships that can never quite live up to the perfect version in my head.

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