How Am I Supposed To Be Okay With This? I Want To Read About Their Wedding And Marriage And Mortgage

How am I supposed to be okay with this? I want to read about their wedding and marriage and mortgage so badly…

rainbow rowell just casually confirming simon and baz are married with absolutely no warning 😭

I finished the Tartaros arc and I have feelings. I’m making these feelings other people’s problems.

Lucy never wanted to be alone or neglected. So as a kid she always summoned Aquarius to be her friend. Aquarius only convinced Lucy to summon the Celestial Spirit King by telling her that Lucy has friends to lean on. But in the end, Lucy was alone again. Natsu and Happy left and Makarov disbanded the guild.

Juvia effectively killed Grays father. She loves Gray so, so much and had to take away his only remaining family. But the most heartbreaking part for her is that she told him. She said that she doesn’t deserve to love him but yet still does. And he thanked her.

Gray met his dad. But he ended up leaving too. The hug will never not make me sob. Sometimes a father’s hug is all you need and Gray will never have another. He didn’t want to fight Silver, let alone kill him. But he had to for his new family, Fairy Tail.

Erza finally admitted to the Tower hurting her. She locks everything so far away that any raw emotions are confusing. I don’t think any of the Tower kids will ever heal.

Natsu. All he ever fought for was to see Igneel. He wanted to talk with him, show him that he learned to write, and cook, and is powerful. It is all Natsu wanted. But he never got it. Igneel was murdered in front of him and they never truly got to talk and ask questions and be a father son. Igneels parting words were to “Look to the future, where the power of life lies,” so Natsu did just that. Acnologia would probably attack again in the future, so Natsu left to become stronger and protect his remaining family.

Sorry for the rants, this arc is so heartbreaking and good. Don’t get me started on Believe in Myself.

Simon in the first 150 pages of Carry On

WIP Wednesday

This is from my current WIP and it's double anything I've written before. It was supposed to be short and sweet but adding two more POV's and a habit of using drawn out metaphors made it longer.

Basically, it's looking at Simon and Baz's relationships from the perspective of places and things in Watford (think the Crucible, Shepard's truck etc.) with Simon and Baz chiming in with their thoughts and feelings on the events through the series and after.

Anyways, this is an excerpt from the POV of the Catacombs from about 5th year:

Baz would always come down and escape. He’d hunt the ever present rats, wander around for hours, and spend time at his mother’s grave. From what I picked of his conversations with Natasha, it was hard for him. His father pointedly ignored who he was. Baz felt that he had to be the absolute best to meet his mother’s standards. He was a vampire, not even a human, and he had no support when he was at Watford. Hence waking in the small hours of the morning to hunt rats in the dark to stay alive.

I found it… I wrote an entire fanfiction based on this exchange, but at the time I couldn’t find it for the life of me. Randomly scrolling today, I found it.

Anyways, the fic is: https://archiveofourown.org/works/54709297 If you’re interested.

ok but this is so on brand for them 😂

Part two:

It’s totally normal to know exactly the features your sworn enemy has.

Simon didn’t hesitate for a second to help Baz. And he was absolutely willing to skip all lessons to find Natasha’s killer.

I’m talking about both of them. Simon talks about how Baz has ‘a face for pouting’ and Baz goes on a full monologue on how basic and blue Simon’s eyes are.

The Mage is spending so much time searching for an answer to Simon. But Simon doesn’t need an answer, he just needs someone to love him.

I’m rereading Carry On for the 4th time in less than 18 months and here are some things that stuck out to me. I was reading around a friend and they were so suprised about how into the story I was. But it’s Simon and Baz and Penelope and Agatha. How could you read it and not be fully engrossed? Anyways:

Simon and Agatha didn’t believe for a second Simon would live past this year. That’s why she broke up with him, because she thought she was dating a future funeral.

Penelope is in denial about Simon’s fragility. She believes that Simon would manage to live through the Humdrum if she also fights hard enough.

Simon- Baz’s-eyes-are-the-shade-of-gray-that-happens-when-you-mix-dark-blue-and-dark-green-together Snow.

Simon is obsessed with Baz because Baz represents what the Mage is fighting against. Dark creatures, the Old Families, power. He notices all that as a rebellion.

Also, head over heels in love. But we’ll get to that.

The Mage did everything to fix Simon. Instead of, I don’t know, being a good dad, he became headmaster, did away with the oral exams, reformed the entry so anyone (Simon) could enter, made Simon his heir, gave Simon his sword and wand, started raiding homes for artifacts to fix a child HE broke and made numpties kidnap Baz, and tried to get Simon away from Watford so Simon wouldn’t hear any visitings. Just keep the kid around, man.

Fuck the Mage.

Rainbow putting 3 straight chapters of Baz’s POV is such a good move. She was obsessed with him, Simon was too, and the world deserved as much Baz as we could get.

I will forever love how the millisecond we get Baz reflecting on himself, we get the line “And I’m hopelessly in love with him”.