Something I Found!

Something I found!

I want more Apollo cabin content. Not just Will, but all of the kids.

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Will Solace is an age regressor

ok ok here me out...

He's under a lot of stress and he feels like he has to be in charge because he's afraid that if he relinquishes control to someone else, they'll screw it up and people will end up hurt.

But he's a doctor, and sometimes, when you're a doctor... Sometimes, your patients die. Especially if they're demigods. And when that happens, he feels guilty and scared and angry, like he's no good for anything and everything is spiraling out of control and he can't even feel any of those feelings out because he has to push them down and move on to the next patient. Especially not now that he's 25 and works in a mortal hospital.

He wasn't even able to process the deaths of his older brothers, because he was a war medic and had to save as many people as he could.

But when he gets home, he can fall apart all he wants. And he wants to fall apart. Maybe he even wants to hurt himself, but he's learned not to.

So what does he do instead?

He regresses.

Regresses to a time before he knew death, before he understood what it meant.

And at first, it's not the cute, calming age regression that gets shown off on social media. It's heartbreaking to watch, this poor man who's had to act like an adult since before he was even a teenager, curled up on the floor, sometimes sucking his thumb, sometimes rocking back and forth, hugging his knees, other times kicking the wall and throwing around soft things made for throwing, always crying and screaming and tearing his hair out, having the kind of meltdown that isn't socially acceptable for a grown man to have, no matter how understandable it is.

But Nico knows what to do when he gets like this. He smells the death radiating from him, wafting through the house, he hears the crying, the high-pitched yelling that he can't do anything right and that it's all his fault and he should just die already so he can stop killing the people he's supposed to save. It tears his heart to shreds, even after hearing it a million times.

He gathers up his weighted blanket, and his stuffed cow, and his paci, and he kneels with him on the floor, lovingly wrapping the blanket around him and holding out his comfort items. He always asks if Nico washed it before putting it in his mouth, because even in littlespace, he's still afraid of germs. And Nico says yes, because of course he did. He washes it every night when Will hands it over to sleep, and every morning before Will leaves for work, just in case he needs it when he comes back home. Will puts it in his mouth and relaxes almost instantly, melting into Nico as he fully sinks into littlespace.

If he's verbal enough and awake enough, Nico has him do vocal affirmations once he's willing to take his paci out of his mouth, 'repeat after me, ok? I did my best, I am loved, I am worthy, I deserve to live, I deserve to be happy.' And sometimes Will can't get through them all, and he just bursts into tears again, and Nico comforts him and says it's ok if he's overwhelmed and they can try again after he's calmed down. But sometimes he can do it, and Nico keeps telling him how proud he is, that he did a good job and he knows it's hard saying those things when you have a hard time believing them, even though inside, he's breaking apart, because to him, Will is the most perfect person in the world, and it's so unfair that he feels so unloved, so worthless, that those words, that are supposed to be comforting, instead make him cry. But he'll put those emotions aside, just for a little bit, to take care of his little. He can cry it out later, when Will's big again, or with someone else who's not in such a delicate, tender headspace. For now, he'll make Will macaroni and cheese and let him change out of his big boy clothes, and when he has to go to bed, Nico will read him a story or sing him to sleep, and he'll snuggle next to him, one of the few times he's truly happy.

Sometimes, he'll regress all the way to infancy, before he could talk, but he'll still be awake. And it's up to Nico to tend to him, to make sure he's clean and fed and comfortable. Try to interpret his whines for attention to figure out what he needs.

But most of the time, he'll fall asleep in Nico's arms, before being able to change out of his bloody scrubs, or even relinquish the paci, waiting to be picked up and carried to bed and tucked in. It's exhausting being a nurse, after all, death or no death. Nico knows that he'll panic when he wakes up and sees blood all over his clothes, but he's not gonna strip him while he's asleep. He knows how to calm him down when he's little. So instead he just admires him for a while, how peaceful he looks when he's asleep, still suckling on his paci. And his empathetic, clawed-apart heart will heal once more, seeing his little one soothed and comforted and undistressed, hugging his stuffie in his sleep.

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I know this isn't ninjago guys but I finished this 17 hour painting for my art class and I was proud of it so...enjoy.

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