My First Instinct Is To Protect You, No Matter The Cost. ( For Charles Also Hi! Excited For Another

❛  my first instinct is to protect you, no matter the cost.  ❜ ( for Charles also hi! Excited for another dbda friend! )

          this  is  how  it’s  always  been  with  them,  and  yet…  the  fierce,  protectiveness  that  charles  feels  for  edwin  makes  him  want  to  rebuke  the  statement.  he  doesn’t  doubt  the  validity—hell,  he’d  do  literally  anything  for  his  best  mate—they’re  always  looking  out  for  each  other.  but  charles  doesn’t  know  what  he’d  do  if  something  happened  to  edwin.  you  couldn’t  have  one  without  the  other.  at  this  point  in  time,  charles  wasn’t  sure  if  he’d  know  how  to  function  without  him.

          “ oi,  aren’t  you  supposed  to  be  the  brains  of  this  operation ? ”  his  lips  curl  back  to  reveal  a  grin;  light  teasing.  “ i  think  i’d  feel  much  better  if  you  let  me  handle  the  brawn  and  you  keep  using  that  big  brain  of  yours,  yeah ? ”           he  knows  that  edwin  is  being  serious—more  so  than  a  heart  attack,  even—but  he’s  not  quite  sure,  given  the  odd  squeezing  sensation  of  his  chest,  that  he  could  handle  the  thought  of  edwin  getting  hurt  because  of  him.  no  matter  the  cost.

𝖙𝖜𝖔 𝖜𝖆𝖗𝖑𝖔𝖈𝖐𝖘, 𝖆 𝖈𝖑𝖊𝖗𝖎𝖈, 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖆 𝖇𝖆𝖗𝖉 𝖜𝖆𝖑𝖐 𝖎𝖓𝖙𝖔 𝖆 𝖇𝖆𝖗...

𝖻𝖺𝗅𝖽𝗎𝗋'𝗌 𝗀𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝟥 multimuse feat. two 𝗍𝖺𝗏𝗌, 𝗌𝗁𝖺𝖽𝗈𝗐𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗍 & 𝗐𝗒𝗅𝗅 !

🐝  *  ―  𝑷𝑰𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 / 𝒀𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  i can't stop thinking about you even when i try.  ❜ ❛  every time i see you, it's like my heart skips a beat.  ❜ ❛  i never realized how much i needed you until you weren't there.  ❜ ❛  do you ever feel like there's something missing ... like a piece of your heart is somewhere else?  ❜ ❛  i wish i had the courage to tell you how i feel.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how much you truly mean to me.  ❜ ❛  do you ever wonder what it would be like if things were different between us?  ❜ ❛  sometimes i wonder if you ever think about me the way i think about you.  ❜ ❛  i had a lot of dreams about you recently.  ❜ ❛  somehow, you're always on my mind.  ❜ ❛  i think i've been in love with you since the day we met - scratch that, i know i've been in love with you since the day we met.  ❜ ❛  my biggest wish is to hold you close and never let you go.  ❜ ❛  all my life i've felt like a part of me was missing, but with you i've finally found it.  ❜ ❛  you deserve better than who i am right now, but i'm gonna keep trying to become someone you do deserve.  ❜ ❛  every time you smile at me, i get this flutter in my chest.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever be worthy of your love?  ❜ ❛  i want to be the person to make you happy. the one person you can always come to with whatever you need.  ❜ ❛  will we ever get another chance together?  ❜ ❛  you were the best thing that's ever happened to me.  ❜ ❛  my biggest regret is ever letting you go.  ❜ ❛  i'm still in love with you ... and i honestly never stopped.  ❜ ❛  when i wake up in the morning, you're the first person i want to see.  ❜ ❛  every time i wake up, i check if you wrote me another message.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could be as important to you as you are to me.  ❜ ❛  it hurts when you don't talk to me like you used to.  ❜ ❛  i miss everything about you, your touch, your laugh, your smile. i wish i could have that back.  ❜ ❛  i want to fall asleep wrapped in your arms.  ❜ ❛  hold me closer; i always feel safer when you're with me.  ❜ ❛  there's so much i wish i was able to tell you.  ❜ ❛  i know things aren't easy right now, but i want to remain a fixture in your life. after all, you're one in mine.  ❜ ❛  i miss the way you always made me smile.  ❜ ❛  you're the reason i keep holding on.  ❜ ❛  maybe we're supposed so to remain a case of 'right person, wrong time' forever.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how i feel about you.  ❜ ❛  i'm yearning to hold your hand in mine.  ❜ ❛  i think you are the one for me, and i hope one day i'll be the one for you, too.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever become more than a friend to you?  ❜ ❛  my heart belongs to you, always and forever.  ❜ ❛  my first instinct is to protect you, no matter the cost.  ❜ ❛  i've been thinking about us a lot lately.  ❜

“If you’re a girl without means in this world, life is very scary… but I ain’t afraid of dying.” Clem @ Charles for their rdr2 verse 👀

          charles  will  never  know  what  it’s  like  to  be  a  woman—won’t  even  pretend  to—but  he  knows  how  it  feels  to  have  nothing;  to  have  nowhere  to  go.  he  knows  what  it  feels  like  to  have  to  face  the  possibility  of  dying,  but  it’s  not  something  he  wants  to  do  anytime  soon.

          he  eyes  her  for  a  moment  before  replying,  “ you  have  a  lot  of  life  left  to  live. ”  she’s  still  so  young;  she  has  time  to  make  something  of  herself  and  live  a  fulfilling  life—hopefully  somewhere  far  away  from  outlaws  and  gangs.  “ it’s  good  to  not  be  afraid  of  the  inevitable,  but  never  be  reckless  about  it.  to  be  reckless  is  to  be  foolish  and  then  nobody  wins. ”

          after  a  moment,  he  places  a  hand  on  her  shoulder,  reassuring.  “ there’s  more  out  there  for  you  than  you  realize. ”

thank you to everyone who reached out. i’m still working to get back into rp but it’s hard. i’ll try. maybe a blog revamp will help idk.

Jenna Boyd - born: 1993