Sea, a misnomer for her birth name, is unclassified and often viewed as a misinterpreted mortal for the past twenty five years. She is an optimistic yet cynical realist who occasionally experiences moments of pessimism. As eccentric and dull as she may be, the colors in her mind relentlessly declines the vibrant watercolors that were kissed by spring rains. As her vivacious personality blooms, her daily coordination reflects an imbalance of positivism. As for her goal to reach out to the unreachable, she must allow fairy tales to unfold. She also bathes in her own inadequacies in hopes to replenish her very own hollow heart that pumps to the sound of empty choruses. The walls she built out of tentative hopes has latched on to expectations that are crumbling now. Whilst embarking on a journey with no directions, she must accept the reality of her uncertainties and live humbly. Volatile, she’s fearful and fearless. PCOS-friendly
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What Does Death Have To Offer Me?
What does death have to offer me?
Nothing that is! Just some dirt, a casket, and critters. Yes, it would be a relief to not have to go through the hardships of life. But it's the easy way out. I'm trying to overcome thoughts of death. Whether it is natural or induced.
I don't want to die by suicide.
I surely don't want to die because I'm obese.
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Sometimes I'm really convinced that I'm better off dead.
I'm a book of shielded twists....
I just wanted to inform others that may ever follow me that I tend to be emotionally random. One day I would be melancholy. The day after I would feel apathetic. The following day, I would feel jubilant.
Here are other corresponding emotions I would experience all at random times:
-Discouragement
-Dissatisfaction
-Sorrowful
-Pleased
-Jaunty
-Misfortunate
-Frustrated
-Keened
-Receptiveness
-Enlightened
-Peacefulness
On that given note, I would like to apologize in advance. I'll never have a particular theme/subject that will be relevant to this blog. It's whatever I'm feeling at the given moment. I suppose I'm inclined to a non-routine, in comparison to a fixed schedule. Spontaneity right?
I guess I'm a grizzly bear.
Last night felt uber hot and uncomfortable, so I tried to sleep it off. But it's too hot now since the AC overheated and stopped working. That's not a great way to start off the day. It's so hot and humid outside and I only have a small fan in my room. But......it goes back to my defense that "fans aren't AC's, so it only circulates the air around you." If my house is burning up and my fan is on, it's only shooting hot air around. I wish my pool was open! I could use a double dipper in that chlorine water! XD
Not really. I'm hands down a "cold person". I rather be cold than hot. Here's my philosophy: if you're cold, you could always adjust your temperature by putting extra layers of clothing, wearing sweaters, gloves, hats, etc...But if you're hot, you can't control the heat, so you try to wear less clothing, but still risk having sun damage done to your skin if you're outdoors. You get sweaty and dehydrated. Blah, a person like me would never have the guts to strip naked. As unpleasant as that may seem, I know local individuals do it.
Sigh, I'm burning up!
P.S. Even the cold water from the sink/hose is hot :(
Is this a glimpse of hell? :-/