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I'm sorry, I'm still sitting on your thought! ๐ My wip is taking longer than I expected.
I've also run into this problem where the more I write him the more I fall in love with him ๐ฅบ



Me while reading your Prince Beomgyu thought in my ask box:


Are you secretly reading my wip?! I don't want to spoil it, but one of the themes is the same! ๐คญ
I always love the way you write Prince Gyu ๐ฅน I will get to answering it soon for others to enjoy! ๐
OH DID I PREDICT YOUR WIP?? wow i guess i'm a mind reader then ๐คญ๐คญ
and hehe i'm so glad you enjoyed my prince!beomgyu thought! i just loooove prince txt so much and beomie has been bias wrecking me a bit lately ngl he's such a softie ๐



warnings: eating, mention of bones (remains)
words: 600
A wild fae finds you in the white covered forest. You'd lost your way thanks to a snowstorm, your sense of direction gone when the fresh snowfall hid your footprints that showed which way you had come. He didn't seem affected by the cold, and he certainly wasn't dressed for it. Surprised to find a human out in the dead of winter, he is fascinated by you, approaching with a warm smile and bright eyes that somehow brings a little warmth to your cheeks.
Shivering and stammering with the cold that has settled deep into your bones, you ask if he knows somewhere you might find shelter in hopes that he might allow you to warm yourself and give you a bite to eat at his home. To your pleasure, he smiles even wider and offers you his hand.
His hand is blissfully warm compared to your own body and the atmosphere, and you wonder if he has warm blood to withstand the temperature. You're too focused on the heat he supplies to notice that you haven't walked very far or that you've been led to sit on a fallen tree log with no sign of shelter in sight. The fae dangles a berry in front of you, and your eyes light up as if you've just been presented with gold.
The fruit is nothing substantial and certainly won't do anything to remedy your half-frozen state, but your stomach is painfully empty. Grabbing the offering eagerly, you swallow it down gratefully. It looks like a fruit you've seen before, only it tastes much sweeter in comparison to the one you know; the flavour bursts on your tongue with just one bite, exciting you and seemingly pulling you out of your exhausted state. Immediately, you crave more and to your luck, there is another right before your eyes before you can even process the thought. You pop it in your mouth whole this time, sighing softly as your teeth crush the juice from the berry and your taste buds tingle. This time, the same fruit you tasted moments ago is sweetly sour, a delicious bitter tang dancing around your mouth.
You turn to see the dark-haired boy fondly watching you chew, his bright smile raising his cheeks around his eyes. You don't seem to notice that you hardly feel the bone chilling effects of the winter scene around you anymore, or the now violent trembling in your arm and hand as you reach to accept another of the pretty fruits from his palm. Nor do you seem to realise that the way this wild fae watches you with affection is akin to the way people admire their pets.
This fae boy lives in the forest of eternal winter that you willingly walked into. It's his home. And now, it's yours too. You stay with him and eat, never noticing the way your body is slowly succumbing to the harsh temperature, seeing only the beautiful boyโthe sole source of warmth in this place. It's not cruelty, though the fae are known to be mischievous tricksters. He just wants you to stay with him. Being the first human he has ever seen, how could he know that the climate of his freezing forest could be dangerous to you?
Though he may be the oldest of the small kin living here, he is the most naiveโyoung at heart, always distracted by the wonders of the forest, never catching sight of the bones of men perished amongst the snow as his more knowledgeable brothers did. Perhaps one of them will find you just in time?
Boxer Bangchan, who just happens to have his debut on the same night one of your co-workers drags you to the match. You hated the idea of watching men pummel each other until one is declared winner in a dark room with cheap alcohol. Until you saw him step into the ring.
There was no explaining the shift in your mood toward the match the moment the smaller opponent stepped into the light, a wave of sniggers and presumptuous comments flooding through the crowd of spectators around you. Suddenly, the only appalling practice here was the discriminatory attitudes of the men around you, and it made you grit your teeth in unexpected frustration. Not knowing what had come over you, you hurried to the closest bet-taker and placed the ten dollar note in your pocket on the smaller man everyone else in the room had bet against.
Boxer Bangchan for whom you find yourself returning to that stuffy room for, pleased to see that after his first win, you're not the only one putting money on him. Surprising yourself entirely, you add each of his fights to your calendar and attend every one. You bet on him each time, regardless of how many times he's won or lost. His wins feel like yours somehow, showing all those who doubted him from the start how arrogant they are. The rush you feel when he stands with a grin on his sweaty face and chest heaving with exertion after each win is something you never thought you could feel when you first stepped through those doors.
Boxer Bangchan who hears of his first backer's loyalty and it only makes him practice harder, fight with more fervor to win and not let down his number one supporter. He might not know your name, but he's sure it's you; he's seen your face in the crowd at each of his matches since that first night, standing up front with a smile to match his pride in his victories and clapping politely but steadfastly for him in his losses. He can't help but think of you now as he wraps his hands in preparation for his final fight of the season, his heart picking up speed at the thought of your reaction if he wins, or if he loses.
Boxer Bangchan, whose eyes look across the room to meet yours with a triumphant smile as the referee raises his arm over his head and announces him the winner. The excitement and pride he sees there is well worth the hustle he puts in every day, makes this success even sweeter. He's quick to shower tonight, not taking his time to let the heat soothe his aches, and even quicker to towel off and change, his hair still damp in places. When he finds you've lingered at the bar longer than usual, his heartbeat evens out with relief, and he feels another high entirely as he walks up to introduce himself and buy you a drink.



warnings: Soobin and reader share a bath together but itโs just fluff note: I hope weโve got some Swifties here! inspired by Paris by Taylor Swift. I've listened to it a thousand times but one day it prompted this idea.
โ gender neutral reader
TXT member Choi Beomgyu spotted out and about with a date!
When the photos hit the internet, you weren't even in the country. Neither you or Soobin saw the articles, the tweets, messages from the band's management, or even teasing texts from the members. You were so far removed from it all, and blissfully happy.
It was the longest vacation you'd had together, with Soobin finally having the time off to travel out of Seoul. Sure, you'd gone with the boys for tours when allowed, but it was finally just you and your boyfriend โ in a place where he wouldn't be recognised, and with no work schedules to squeeze time together around.
For the first couple of days, you didn't leave the hotel room, the 'Do Not Disturb' sign a blessing. No early calls, no waking up to knocks on the door or an empty bed. Just sleeping in, waking up and ordering lunch, then napping together or watching a movie. You didn't even mind the jet lag; it was a good excuse to stay in bed and cuddle.
On the fourth day of your stay, you explored the hotel, making it to the in-house restaurant for breakfast. The place was quiet โ off season at this time of year, the waitress explained. There was a moment where you thought she recognised Soobin, with the way her eyes kept flicking up and between the two of you as she wrote down your order, but then, as she leant down to take your menus, she smiled and made a comment about how cute of couple you were. Soobin grinned, half shy and half proud, reaching for your hand and placing a kiss to the skin as you were left to yourselves again.
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It's a change of pace to walk around the city and not have phones pointed at Soobin. To not hear screams or gasps or whispers at every turn. The two of you wander freely, sans masks or dark sunglasses, in the light of day. There's plenty of time to dawdle, enjoying the sights, going wherever you're drawn to go. The city is beautiful, and shopkeepers and cafe owners greet you with friendly smiles as you stop by.
The freedom Soobin feels is evident in the way he carries himself and how he keeps looking over to grin at you. You find an ice cream parlour and share the dessert on a bench, watching birds and clouds, the occasional person passing by with a cute dog that you both get excited over. When you move to get up, Soobin grabs your hand and tugs you back to his side, wrapping an arm around you with a chuckle. The sunlight and cool breeze lull you into a somewhat tranquil state. You don't think about home or what's to come after this retreat from real life. Meandering back to the hotel as the sun is setting, you catch a mesmerising sunset from the viewpoint of your room's balcony.
โโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โ
The bath tub in your hotel room is big enough for the both of you โ two and a half, you tease at the way your boyfriend's feet stick out over the edge. Still, this was a luxury you never got at home; the tub at both of your addresses too small to fit the two of you at once. And, you point out, it's nice to enjoy a quiet bath without rambunctious maknaes playing doorbell dash in an otherwise quiet hotel. Maknes and Yeonjun, Soobin adds.
He plays quiet music on his phone to add to the atmosphere, humming along softly as he places his hands on your shoulders, applying gentle pressure until he feels the muscles relax. Then, he picks up one of your hands from the edge of the tub to trace with his finger, eyes following the lines of your palm. You watch, almost hypnotised, as his large fingers fold over yours, the rest of you encapsulated between his long arms and legs. Between the low lighting of the bathroom, the warmth of the bath, and his voice, you're sent into a light sleep, only waking when you're pulled from the water, which has turned lukewarm.
You mumble an appoplogy, eyes opening for only a moment before they droop to a close again, and he whispers something back, but you don't take it in; mind and body too relaxed. Feeling the mattress underneath you as he sets you down on your back, you sense something being wrapped around you and realise it's one of the hotel robes, but you can't find the will to help him get your arms into the sleeves. You hear yourself giggle and Soob's chuckle echo back, his forehead pressing against yours for a moment before it's gone, and you wonder why. Thoughts of how much you love this โ feeling like you're in your own little world, where there's only the two of you โ flood your mind, and you almost start to drift off again until you hear the sheets rustle beside you.
Soobin's hair tickles your jaw as he kisses your neck, arms finding your waist in the dark. His skin is warm and still damp, and this somehow adds to how sleepy you feel. Your arms are too heavy to reach for him. Soon, his movements still, his cheek resting against your collar bone, and you're both out.
โโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โ
It isn't until you're in the airport, full from breakfast at their swanky little restaurant, and having perused all the little shops to pass time, that Soobin finally sits down and opens his messaging app to flick his members a selfie of the two of you with your luggage and sad faces to say you're on your way back. His eyebrows draw together, lips moving wordlessly as he sees how many unread texts are in the group chat. But not just normal conversation that's been going on without him, as his eyes register your name multiple times. Scrolling back, he finds the first message he hasn't seen โ a link to a popular tabloid. The first thing he sees is a candid photo, definitely Beomgyu, and definitely you, though thankfully most of your face is obscured by the shadows of night as you walk from the back door of a stadium to a waiting van. Then he sees the title. The members apparently find it hilarious, but as he backs out of the group chat and sees numerous messages from management and other staff, he knows the company isn't taking it as lightly.
He clicks his phone as you sit down beside him, and despite the storm that he knows is coming, he can't help but smile at how content and loved-up you still look. He decides he'll wait to fill you in, let you enjoy the end of the trip. He himself feels like he's on a love high, his heart warming up as you thread your arm through his and drop your head to his shoulder.
written by mapofthemazeinthemirror - do not repost my work in any form
Thank you for these lovely words! ๐ฅน I never imagined someone quoting my work like this... I'm so glad you enjoyed it! Saying that you could feel their emotions and that you were immersed is such a compliment, I'm so happy, thank you so much! ๐ญ



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Noble reader x Prince beomgyu
author's note: This isn't very fleshed out because it's not something that I had planned on writing โ thereโs a lot of telling not showing โ and I have other things that I want to work on that this idea interrupted! I also kept a lot of details vague to allow readers to imagine your own interests. I hope this doesn't read like it was rushed (it took me about a month) and that I caught all the errors. This is inspired by Violet aka @blackhairedjjun and her fic Flowers of Every Colour. Her persona of Prince Yeonjun and vivid scenes live in my mind and I recommend you read it if you haven't yet!
word count: 6k
The prince often feels overwhelmed. Sometimes it seems as if everyone in the castle is looking for him at all times. Officials come to find him during his lessons, upsetting his tutors. His tutors come searching for him when council runs late and cuts into lesson time. No matter where he is or what duty heโs busy with, he receives notes from staff or delegates. He feels as though heโs in a constant game of tug-of-war, with his attention being the thing thatโs fought over.
After a long lesson that had been rescheduled to a late evening hour to allow time for an urgent discussion with his advisors in the afternoon, Beomgyu could feel a headache coming on. As he departed from the study where tutoring was held, he felt heavy with exhaustion, a pressure pain behind his eyelids. He was so on edge that his head whipped toward every creak of the old floors, every distant sound of a door opening or closing, anxious that it was somebody seeking him out for yet another task that only he could see to or decision only he could approve. He just needed a minute โ one minute at least โ to himself. Every waking hour was spent in the presence of others, so much filling his days that his mind played it all back as he lay in bed at night trying to chase some much needed rest. Since becoming his parentsโ consort, it felt as though he hardly had time to hear his own thoughts.
There was one place he knew nobody would look for him. Wearily he carried himself across the long open hall, past the top of the grand marble staircase he usually took to his rooms. He felt a little paranoid with the way he kept glancing around and over his shoulder as if he might be attacked at any moment by a โthere you are, your highness.โ If his father saw him now, heโd be scolded for looking like a thief in his own castle.
On reaching his destination, he breathed a sigh of relief. The library was quite large, with wall to wall mahogany shelves, beautifully covered atlases and historical volumes as far as the eye could see. Unlike the rest of the castle with its overbearing chandeliers, the library was lit with the soft glow of sconces. Finding a desk tucked away in a corner, Beomgyu sank into a chair. This was an area of the castle he hadnโt visited more than a handful of times, and never of his own will. He hadnโt been keen on reading growing up as his older female cousins had, always requiring a book to occupy them during the duration of their stay when they visited. The young prince had always preferred to spend his time outside whenever he could, and he'd found the silence of the library was stifling. It was bliss to him now. He only wished the buzzing of noise in his head would stop if he soaked in the silence long enough.
The place was empty, nobody to protest his posture as he leant his elbows on the hardwood desk and pressed his face into his hands. Closing his eyes, he willed his mind to quiet. He focused on his breathing. In, out. In, out. Inโฆ
It was no use. His head was still swimming with facts from his lesson. With things he had to remember for tomorrowโs conference and the names of politicians heโd met yesterday, their faces all blurred together in his mind. With his advisors calling for him, the head of house calling for him, everything needing his deliberationโ
He dropped his head onto his arm on the desk. Even the silence couldnโt help him, it seemed. Was this to be his life? A mind full of endless chatter?
Beomgyuโs tired eyes wandered over the spines of the books he could see on the far wall. Their rich colours, greens and reds, whites and browns, many with delicate gold foiling of titles he couldnโt make out. His eyes traced up the aged ladder leaning against the shelves, the one he was always given a telling off by his chaperone for playing on whenever he was dragged up here. The corner of his mouth turned up at the thought of those simpler days. His cousins had married and had children, far too busy to visit except for special occasions โ usually only those of a ceremonial nature. The last time heโd seen them, the children hadnโt remembered him at all, it had been so long.
Sighing unconsciously, his gaze drifted to the decorated ceiling, not even making the effort of lifting his head from his arm. The elegant painting that adorned the library ceiling had been done with a skilled hand. Beomgyu couldnโt even begin to imagine how many hours something so beautiful and detailed would have taken. It was a dazzling scene of the night sky, with clouds and stars that seemed to swirl around each other in a silent dance. He could see every fine stroke that had gone into creating the layering hues that made up the deep night sky, that brought texture to the clouds and made them look as though a gentle breeze could move them, and stars that seemed so meticulously placed. Heโd never looked so attentively at the art before, but he found a new appreciation for the work as he discovered his thoughts had grown quiet. Maybe this was why people spent so much money on paintings, he pondered, before his eyes drooped to a close.
The prince had almost completely dozed off when a soft gasp pulled him from the edge of sleep. Eyes blinking open, he realized that heโd gotten far too comfortable. He felt slightly groggy as he lifted his head from his arm, which had gone dead with the weight, and wondered at how long heโd been sitting there. Thumbing at his lip, he found a wet spot had begun to grow at the corner.
โIโm sorry,โ came a voice, the source of the gasp that had brought him back. Would he have spent the entire night here if heโd not been woken? His dazed eyes looked up and found you, shrouded in dim light. He caught sight of recognition dawning on your face before you dipped into a respectful bow.
โIโm so sorry, your highness, I didnโt mean to disturb you,โ you said hurriedly, as if the words couldnโt get out fast enough. Did you think he was going to scold you for being here at the same time he was? โI was just leavingโฆโ
Fighting off the lingering drowsiness, Beomgyu waved a hand, feeling sheepish at being caught in this position. โPlease, thereโs no need.โ
You seemed to relax a little at that; the way your shoulders lowered as if you'd been tensed didnโt go unnoticed by the princeโs eyes. He had become skilled in recognizing stress, whether it was because he grew up in a somewhat high-stakes environment or he was sensitive to it now as a stressed adult himself, he was unsure. The book you were cradling in one arm caught his attention now that you werenโt clutching it so tight. Beomgyu didnโt recognize you, and he knew everyone who worked in the castle. It bewildered him a bit that you knew him but he didnโt know you, despite that being the case with almost every person he met. Suddenly he felt a touch embarrassed. Not only had you caught him in an unmannerly state, but he didnโt know your name, and he couldn't think of a single thing to say.
โI really was leaving,โ you caught him out again by speaking first. Your eyes met for a long silent moment, and Beomgyu thought the silence had never been less stifling. Then you seemed to remember yourself, eyes dropping to the book in your arms. โI just need to put this back.โ
Beomgyu stared at the back cover of that book as if it could help him, too occupied with scrambling inside his head for something to say to notice the way you nervously brushed the hair away from your face and stole shy glances at him.
โWhat is it?โ he blurted. Internally he cursed himself for the way it sounded. Heโd only wanted to say something before you walked away. There was an overwhelming feeling he couldnโt name. A longing for you to stay. A feeling of stupidity for not being his usual collected self.
As someone with an official title, meeting new people was always planned, always with a purpose, an end goal. He knew each time what was expected and required of him; how to act, questions to ask and answers to give. This was the first time he could remember meeting someone by accident, and it didnโt seem to Beomgyu that he was very good at it. Taking a breath, he attempted to reign in his panic and try again. โWhat are you reading?โ
You had to look down and check. Turning it over in your hands, you revealed the cover to him with a shy smile. With just one glimpse at the title, Beomgyu knew it would be of no use to him in trying to make conversation. It was a topic he knew nothing about.
โOh,โ he said aloud. He hadnโt meant to. Hoping you hadnโt heard the disappointment in his voice, he rushed to cover himself. โIs itโฆ good?โ
Your small laugh surprised him. The sound of it lessened the knots in his stomach, even as he wondered if he had made a fool of himself.
โItโs useful,โ you answered, looking him in the eye again. He tried to concentrate as you spoke, to hold on to the words and not get too distracted by your smile or your eyes. โIโm doing research for a scholarship and only the royal library has the books I need. Thatโs why Iโm here,โ
โThe scholarship?โ Beomgyuโs eyes had gone wide. โThe scholarship that only one person is picked for every five years?โ
Your eyes lowered as you began to blush. โYes, that one.โ
โWow,โ Beomgyu subconsciously sank into his chair in awe. โYour family must be very proud.โ
You laughed once more, unaware of how the princeโs eyes lit up each time you did. โWell, I haven't got it yet.โ
His mouth caught your contagious smile. โBut to even be considered is a great accomplishment.โ
Your eyes were the ones to light up this time. Clutching the book close to your chest again, you leaned forward, your fingers curling over the back of the empty chair in front of you. โThis is the most impressive library Iโve ever seen.โ
Beomgyu sat up taller in his chair. โIt is, isnโt it?โ He couldnโt help the proud grin that took over his face as he looked around.
โWhen I come here I lose track of time,โ you went on. You were unmistakably animated with enthusiasm, and he was completely taken with you. โThe first day I came here, I lost a whole two hours just reading all the spines. Even the ones that arenโt required reading.โ Lowering your voice as if to share a secret, you confided, โIf I lived here Iโd probably never leave the library!โ
Beomgyu suddenly felt guilty. Heโd never thought about the knowledge that could only be found in this library, and that very few were permitted to the books that contained it.
โIf only I had the time to read for pleasure here,โ you went on.
โWell, why don't you take some home to read?"
"I'm not permitted to take books out of the library," you said sadly, your attention on the book in your hand as your finger traced the spine.
Beomgyu thought back to the summers he'd shared with his cousins; days he'd spent running around the courtyard in the sunshine while they lazed under a tree with their noses between book pages. "I am," he supplied. His voice came out surprisingly excited. "I could read them for you."
You looked around at him as he stood up from his chair. "Read them for me?"
The prince felt as though his smile was plastered on now. He couldn't hide it if he tried. "I could read them and tell you about them."
He felt your eyes go warm, glowing on him like the sun as you brought out your own smile. "I'm sure you have more important things to do, your highness."
Beomgyu shrugged.
***
That was the reason that Beomgyu started his days by going to the library. He read while he ate his breakfast, which luckily didn't have a set time to be finished by, as it took him a little longer to eat this way. He found himself getting so engrossed in the book that he would forget to eat at the same time, averaging a mouthful to every three paragraphs, his meal cold by the time he finished it.
Then he would read in his room at night. He found that it was an effective way to turn off the noise in his head left over from the day, helping him to sleep better. Many times he would nod off in his chair before waking up and getting into bed. He would take notes sometimes, to better remember the things he wanted to tell you about.
He looked forward to the closing of the day. Once his schedule was complete and it was almost time for dinner, he would slip up to the library in hopes of catching you and relaying all the things he'd read about so far. Excitedly and enthusiastically he'd tell you interesting facts and historical stories from his current book. He had much more energy at the end of the day than he'd had before now that he was sleeping better.
The library had become a sort of safe haven to him now. His tutors complimented his new interest in his learning during lessons, retaining and remembering with a sudden ease, and many of the staff had noted that he had become a lot less tense. The serving staff who saw him with his face behind a book each morning were amused, often surprised as he rattled off facts to them as they laid out and cleared away his breakfast. None of them knew the reason.
On his rare day of rest, he came to find you straight after lunch. He'd confirmed you'd be in the castle today the last time he'd seen you, and he'd been so excited last night that it had taken more than just one hour of reading to send him off to sleep. The day was sunny, and with some persuading Beomgyu convinced you to take a small break from your studies to sit in the garden. You were a little anxious about being caught taking advantage of your privilege to be at the palace by being seen with the prince, but he assured you that he would take care of it.
Deep in the garden, the two of you wandered up the stone path that divided the lawns, chatting casually. The gardens were magnificent. You'd only seen them from a window in the castle, but the further you walked the more beauty there was to see that couldn't be viewed from a distance. The path led to a beautiful paved area with a grand gazebo. Beomgyu ushered you to sit on the ornate bench, forgoing the custom that he should be the one to sit first and taking a seat once you had. Your heart was pounding despite the relief you felt that you'd not run into any trouble on your way out of the castle, and you were sure you felt it leap each time Beomgyu laughed.
He had produced a book when you looked back from admiring the scenery, from somewhere you could not determine. Your face lit up as you took in the familiar cover; it was the one book in the royal library that you'd longed to read most. Beomgyu beamed at your excited reaction as he held it out for your taking. You had to fight the urge to glance around and make sure that nobody was seeing as you took it from his hands.
You read it aloud, with Beomgyu listening intently to every word. In the back of your mind, you wondered how you ended up in this position. When you'd started coming to the castle to study, you had never imagined you'd catch sight of the prince let alone talk to him, and yet you had been in his presence more than anyone else inside the palace. Now, as you read, you took every opportunity to look from the page up at him, finding his eyes on you, his undivided and eager attention completely yours. You were quite comfortable being at his side by now, but sometimes when he looked at you, you could feel the prickling of heat beneath the surface of your cheeks.
You hadnโt thought he would follow through on his offer, but each time you saw him enter the library it made your whole day complete. Truth be told, it had begun to take your mind off studying a little. One moment youโd be reading about a lost dynasty, and the next youโd realise you had stopped taking in any information and your mind had turned to Beomgyu. It also happened that you would dawdle while reshelving the books youโd been studying, delaying your leaving in case the prince showed up, which he always did.
Time seemed to fall away around you as you read. Minutes were marked by each turn of a page and seconds by the now steady beat of your heart, until you were so enthralled by the text that you could have almost forgotten the scene you were truly in.
Beomgyu chuckled lightly and you paused your reading. Your eyes readjusted to the glow of sunlight on the backdrop of bright white flowers beyond the gazebo as you took in his smiling face once more.โYouโre really enjoying this one.โ His eyes flicked down to the page where you were marking the place youโd stopped with your finger. โYou havenโt looked up for the last five pages.โ
โIโm sorry,โ you couldnโt help but laugh too. You felt almost giddishly content in this moment; in a breathtaking garden with a good book and someone you felt was becoming dear to you.
โNo, itโs wonderful,โ he assured you. โIs it as good as you imagined?โ
โNo,โ you answered in one breath. โItโs better.โ Beomgyu beamed, and it made you feel so warm you mightโve been sitting directly in the sun and not under the shade. But just then, a sudden cloud passed through your mind. โIโll be sitting the scholarship exam soon.โ
Looking out over the garden, you couldnโt help but feel sad as you thought of how much more you would miss your visits to the palace now that you had fond memories and someone you could call a friend here.
โAre you nervous?โ
You shook your head softly. It wasnโt the answer to his question. He hadnโt caught your meaning. โMy studies will be finished then.โ
The princeโs eyes brightened even more. โThen you can read whatever you like, whenever you like.โ
โYes,โ you agreed distractedly. In your mind you were going over the future possibilities. If you were awarded the scholarship, youโd be going off to attend university. If it was not granted to you but to someone else, your life would go back to the way it had always been.
Beomgyu seemed to catch the somber look in your eye as you looked to the distance. His expression faltered. โOh.โ He shifted on the bench beside you. โOh, you meanโฆโ
โI wonโt be coming to the castle any more,โ you affirmed.
His eyes lost their sparkle only for a moment as he thought through this information. Then he seemed to perk up again. โWell, I can invite you to visit. To visit the library. Iโm sure thereโs still so much to learn here.โ
Your heart swelled with the idea that he wanted to see you more, even if you knew that it wasnโt a probable conclusion. It wasnโt that you didnโt trust the princeโs word, only that you knew that he was a busy man with tight schedules, that you were the eldest child of a noble family with a future to be decided and forged ahead. You returned his smile and tried to ignore the thought that you wished heโd come to the library months ago, that youโd met sooner so you could have had more time together.
โWould you like me to keep reading?โ you asked as you reminded yourself that he was a prince and that was all he would ever be to you. It was a fortunate happenstance to have met him at all, you reminded yourself as he nodded eagerly and propped his chin into his hand to listen contentedly as you began to read again.
It didnโt stop you from clinging to every moment and trying to engrave every detail into your memory.
***
During the last few days you visited the castle library, you tried your best to think about Beomgyu as little as possible and focus solely on study. It was a hard task. Passing the grand portrait of the royal family in the hallway without looking was like trying not to glance around when feeling the presence of someone you know. It felt as if the library was haunted now. Almost each corner held a memory of the prince finding you and bumbling eagerly through a tale, helping you carry books back to their shelves, or asking you to come and sit in the garden.
You had seriously considered leaving early, removing yourself from the castle before the hour he usually made his way to the library. But you werenโt sure which would hurt more โ knowingly missing out on seeing him in the last few chances you had, or having more encounters in which to grow more attached. The thought of both made something inside of you ache.
Just when youโd convinced yourself you had made up your mind to leave, you passed a window and spotted a carriage pull up at the entrance gates below. The door swung before the footman could rush to open it and there he was. You didnโt know he hadnโt been here in the castle. The heart that had sat heavy in your chest felt leagues lighter just at this distant glimpse of him. As you tried to gauge whether you were relieved you hadnโt gotten away without seeing the prince, you saw him rush inside. He disappeared from view of the window and you looked up into the purple hued sky of the fast oncoming dusk. Maybe you were safe after all. He was clearly on his way to tend to a matter of importance. Feeling assured you could slip away unnoticed, you slid the last volume back onto its shelf and made for the door.
The sound of hurried footsteps on marble gave you pause. Unconsciously you backed away a few steps frin the open double doors, ready to wait out the staff who must have been ascending the staircase on some urgent errand. But the huff of exertion you heard was familiar. Heart pulsing suddenly and in a mind of suspense and disbelief, you waited with bated breath.
When Beomgyu stepped through the doors, you felt an overwhelming gratitude that you hadnโt succeeded in your departure. Even after a mere day without seeing each other, seeing those warm eyes and the smile that broke across his face when he found you felt akin to finding a well of water after a month without rain.
โIโm so glad I found you here,โ he said in his usual way, and it sparked your smile just as it always did. You were so occupied with trying to memorize this feeling, to make sure you remembered this moment, that you didnโt reply. Beomgyu was preoccupied himself and didnโt seem to notice. โI got you something.โ His grin turned a tiny bit shy.
You blinked in surprise as the words sank in. โYou gotโ? Your Highnessโโ
Beomgyu chuckled. โCome on, none of that.โ Your eyes didnโt leave his as he reached for the hand at your side. His other retrieved something tucked under his arm. Gently he turned your hand upwards, and you hardly had time to process anything before an object was placed into it.
You looked down to see the very book you had been reading in the garden, only it wasnโt the same copy. This seemed to be a newer edition, with a beautiful blue velvet cover. It felt quite luxurious as you turned it over in your hands. A gasp emitted from you as the glint of the gold page edges caught the light. It was the most special and thoughtful gift youโd ever received, and, you thought, far more precious than any of the books that surrounded you in the royal library. You found yourself so touched that you wanted to cry, but you fought back the tears as you looked up at your friend.
The prince looked twice as happy as you felt. His eyes sparkled despite the soft lighting, and his cheeks had taken on a slightly bashful pink. โSo you can finish it,โ he told you softly. โAnd read it over and over again, any time you want.โ
You were still speechless, and you could feel the hot prickle of tears threatening to build. Before you knew it, you had thrown your arms around his neck, his arms closing around your back. Never did you imagine anything like this. You were stretched up on your toes, and you were sure he was leaning down to hug you, but you were too wrapped up in the moment to think about any of it. It felt like you were holding on to each other a long time before you finally parted. The urge to kiss his cheek filled you as you brushed away from him, but you thought better of it. The last thing you wanted was for him to feel as though you were jumping to conclusions that were presumptuous.
โI donโt have anything to give you,โ you fretted. The weight of the book in your hands made you feel unexpectedly empty-handed.
Beomgyu chuckled. โItโs a โgood luckโ present. Except I know you wonโt need luck.โ
โThank you, Beomgyu.โ His smile somehow grew at your use of his name. You knew you had his smile etched into your memory already.
โYouโll have to tell me how it ends,โ he said as the two of you made your way slowly down the stairs. It was the first time heโd walked you out, and you were too intent on borrowing more time with him to worry much about being seen together when you reached the grand hall.
โNo, I wonโt,โ you retorted with a laugh, looking up at him as you both dragged out each next step as subtly as possible. โYou have your own copy here,โ
Beomgyu pondered this for a moment, lips pursing, before formulating his reply. His eyes were determined as they met yours again. โWell, weโll have to discuss our opinions on the ending.โ
Neither of you took notice of the way the heads turned and followed the two of you as you crossed the hall. It was mostly palace staff at this time of evening. With the book clutched to your chest, they could only gather that this was the spark that had ignited Prince Beomgyuโs sudden penchant for reading. Many silent smiles were exchanged across the room as you passed.
โYou will come if I invite you, wonโt you?โ Bromgyu asked on the front steps. His face was earnest, maybe the most youโd ever seen. โWhen you have time out from school?โ
โOf course,โ you replied, meaning it with all the hope in your heart. โBut I havenโt gotten the scholarship yet.โ You felt cause to keep reminding him.
โAs well as I know how often you could come to visit if you didnโt get it, I know you will. I have no doubt.โ
You looked up to see the genuine look in his eyes, sincerity doing little to conceal the sadness. โWeโll see each other again.โ The words felt like truth as you spoke them. โAnd in the meantime, we can write.โ Beomgyu nodded eagerly.
Disappointment tugged at you when you spotted your familyโs carriage roll up through the gates. With a small bow and one last smile, you stepped into the vehicle, still clutching Beomgyuโs gift. You kept your eyes on him as the horses walked on, watched him wave until he was out of sight. There was a renewed heaviness about you as you sat back and settled in for the journey home. Even the first stars beginning to emerge from the darkening sky couldnโt comfort you as you gazed out of the window solemnly.
***
Prince Beomgyu tried his best, rather unsuccessfully, to stifle yet another yawn. Heโd stayed up too late reading, and now he was sitting in the grand hall trying to go over his upcoming speech with bleary eyes. He hadnโt intended to go to bed quite so late, but each time heโd told himself heโd close the book at the end of the chapter, he hadnโt been able to. The closer heโd gotten to the end of the story, the more gripped by it heโd become and the faster his eyes seemed capable of taking in the words. Heโd read until heโd finished the book, then sat in stunned silence. He couldnโt help but wonder if youโd finished the book yourself, and heโd had the strong urge to start a letter. Instead, his good sense had taken him to bed, where heโd remembered the speech he should have spent the night memorising. The book had been a satisfying distraction. Without it he likely would have tossed and turned the whole night in anticipation of giving his speech.
Beomgyu was still new to public speaking and was not fond of it. As the hour grew closer, he found himself stumbling over his words as he practised. He could feel his heart rate increase, seemingly with each tick of the loud ornate clock across from him and every sound that carried into the hall from the room full of people he was to address.
Getting to his feet, he began to move about the room in an effort to soothe himself. His thoughts attempted to reassure him. He knew what was expected of him. He knew, for the most part, what he was to say. But then the image of hundreds of pairs of eyes all fixed on him crept into his mind, sending a chill down his back. As he passed the clock, he felt it was taunting him โ it seemed the minutes were passing faster than they should. He could almost feel the second handโs torturous chanting inside his chest from this proximity. With a shaky sigh he turned to cross the room away from it again, fiddling with the golden buttons on his jacket cuff which he had already fastened and unfastened more times than he could count in his nervous state.
Through the open doors across the hall he could hear the familiar sound of a carriage arriving out front. Beomgyu allowed himself to imagine it had come to rescue him. He had the urge to go and greet it, just to give him a brief distraction, but the clock stared him down, boasting a mere five minutes remaining until he must speak in front of the crowd. Reaching for the small paper in his pocket, he made to sit once more and make himself concentrate on revising the words, until a voice called his title. He jumped back to his feet in panic, fearing they had come to usher him in early, but as he turned to the door beside him that led to the luncheon, he found no one. Instantly some of the tension in his raised shoulders fell away.
โBeomgyu!โ
His heart skipped over one beat as he spun toward the entrance and saw a figure in a half mannerly run. Disbelief flickered in his mind at the sight of you, the first in weeks, but his body suddenly felt lighter than it had all day. You were rushing toward him, an unmistakable grin on your face, footsteps muffled by the thick ancient rug that carpeted the tiled floors.
Beomgyu stepped away from his seat with only seconds to spare, his face still one of bewilderment as you threw your arms around him, almost knocking the prince off his feet. His heart was thudding rapidly in his chest, but now it had nothing to do with nerves. His arms went around you instinctively as you met chest to chest, and in his excitement he brought you up onto your toes with his hug. Your laugh in his ear was like a familiar tune from a yesterday heโd longed to return to.
You pulled back to see his face, speaking first as you saw a question forming in his mind. โI got it! The scholarship โ I got it!โ you exclaimed.
The sun seemed to dawn on Beomgyuโs face, along with something that looked proud. โOf course you did! What did I tell you?โ
His arms had relaxed around you to let you draw back, and now you glanced down at the placement of your hands on his shoulders, looking a touch shy in your realisation. His smile grew at this.
โYou worked so hard.โ He spoke more softly than a moment ago. His heart didnโt seem to settle as the two of you untangled from each other. He had half a thought to check on the time before another thought replaced it. โI finished the book last night.โ
Your smile turned fond. Heโd missed you more than heโd thought he had, which was hard to imagine. โI finished it the night you gave it to me,โ you admitted with a small laugh. โDid you like how the story ends?โ
Beomgyu reached a hand out toward yours in a small movement, his skin tingling at the feel of your warm fingers as you allowed your own to close around his. It was the second time heโd touched your hand, and this time he could hold it longer. โYes,โ he replied as he felt his smile widen. Your eyes met his again with a new shine. โI liked the ending very much.โ
The clock chimed across the hall, announcing the hour and reminding him of his impending task. The door opened and his advisor appeared. If he was surprised to find the prince with company, he didnโt show it. The man simply smiled and nodded his head respectfully. โTheyโre ready for you, Your Highness.โ Then he disappeared back inside.
Beomgyu took a deep breath. He found that he wasnโt as anxious as he had been before. There was still a lingering nervousness, but it had been softened by another feeling. Even the wall of sound that was just beyond the door seemed to have dulled at the back of his mind. He looked at you and you nodded towards the open door.
โMy parents are inside. I used them as my excuse to come here.โ He caught your clever smile, then felt your hand on his shoulder, and before he knew it youโd raised up onto your toes and your lips brushed his cheek. It was the kiss youโd held back before. โGood luck. But I know you wonโt need it,โ you said, slipping away through the door before he could react to the tingle on his face.
The princeโs mind was pleasantly blank as he faced the door and the duty ahead of him. It seemed his nerves had been replaced by a buzzing sensation that felt rather like courage, matching the tingling trace of your kiss on his face. Equipped with a smile, he stepped into the room feeling like he was about to give his best speech yet.