When And If U Can, Can U Update Unwanted Love?

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Unwanted Love~ Jacob Black x Cullen!Reader

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A/N: @hawaii5ofan you asked, and you shall receive. If you ever have any ideas (any of you) on how I can help the story, please let me know. I want to know what makes you happy in a story. And that is for any of my stories. I will accept any constructional criticism.

BTW- I did create one other character other than Y/N, and that is Daniel Howard played by Brenton Thwaites.

The Start Of Something New

I finished writing in my journal at the same time a knock erupted from my door. I quickly ran into my closet and hid my journal before making it back onto my bed. I look over and grab the book off of my nightstand.

"Come in!" I yelled to whoever was at my door. I lay on one side of my body. One arm supported my body as the other held my book up to my face. The door opened slightly, and a head of blond wavy curls poked out of it. I look up from my book to see the man's golden yellow eyes looking straight into mine.

"Hey. How are you today?" Jasper asks with his thick southern accent. I give him a bright smile, but I can tell he can see the slight look of sadness in my eye. He gives me a sad smile and brings his full body into my room. "Okay, I know that smile. What's wrong?" he asks.

Ever since Jasper almost killed me, he's felt this overwhelming sense of regret. The first couple of years, he could barely look at me, and he always said "sorry" over stupid mistakes he would make. Over time, we built a friendship that no one in this house had. Our relationship has grown to the point where he doesn't need his powers to know how I feel. Sure he was friendly with Alice, but she's his wife and that's just what I like to call the 'Alice effect'. Everyone loves Alice.

Jasper walks over to my bed and sits down next to me. I sit the book back onto the nightstand and sit up, allowing my legs to dangle off the bed. I shrug my shoulders, leaving a silent pause until I start to speak.

"Being a vampire doesn't give me the same feeling on my birthday that I had as a mortal being. Every year, Alice throws me a huge party when she knows it's just going to be us, I look the same, and we're most likely in a different state every couple of years. I want something new that I haven't felt in a long time," I tell the vampire next to me.

"And what is that?"

"I want to go out and have fun like a normal teenage girl," I say. I gasp loudly at the realization of what I wanted to do tonight. Jasper looks at me with wide eyes. "Let's crash another party!" I finish.

"For your birthday, you want to go to someone else's party?" The Texan says in a questionable tone.

"Yes! It's almost time for school to start. You know there has to be someone throwing a 'back to school' party," I say excitedly.

"Well there are two things wrong with this plan," Jasper says. I give him a look, allowing him to continue with what he's saying. "1. I don't do well around humans, hence... you. And 2. How will you find a party?" he asks.

"You do quite well in school, ..." I start before being interrupted by "Eek" and "Yes! Finally!" I knew who was making the sound, and I knew why.

In an instant, a gust of wind rushes past us, and a wide smiled girl with a pixie cut is standing right in front of me. "Did someone say "find a party?!"" Alice says excitedly. I look at Jasper with a knowing smirk. ❤💛❤

In less than 30 minutes, Alice was able to find the biggest party hosted by a student at Forks High School. After practically begging Jasper to join us, we finally split up, so we could all get ready.

Because it was my birthday, I decided to go all out. It might not be my party, but I felt that I needed a change in scenery and clothing. I decided to wear a short 2-piece black dress. The top part of the dress was a halter top with different designs using different gems and rime stones. The bottom part was a black gathered skirt with gems and rime stones around the waist. And to top it off I wore matching black chunky block heels with straps around the ankle.

I joined Alice and Jasper in the living room, and I was marveled at their looks. Alice wore a blue 2 piece fit and flare dress. The top was a long-sleeve lacy top with a wavy design for the hem of the top. For the bottom part, she wore a blue floral pleated skirt. And she wore a black open-toed heel with a strap around the ankle.

Jasper didn't go too all out, considering he didn't want to go in the first place. He wore a crème white, black, and blue v-neck sweater vest with a white dress shirt underneath. Along with the vest, he had on some light blue jeans, along with sneakers. He looked good, but that was just something Jasper would wear anyway.

"Damn! We all look good!" I yell out towards my favorite couple. Alice looks at me in utter shock.

"Us? Y/N, I've never seen this side of you. First, you want to go to a party without me forcing you, and now you actually dress up for a party. Our little girl is all grown up," Alice said, turning to look at Jasper with her hand on her heart. Jasper and I chuckled at the girl's comment.

Esme soon walks into the living room to see her 3 adopted kids all dressed up. She smiles as she calmly walks behind them. "You kids look good. Where are ya going?" Esme asks in a loving tone.

"Y/N finally wants to get out of the house for her birthday! Can you believe it?" Alice asks the brown-haired woman in front of her. Esme only nods her head. She turns to me and gives me a bright smile before walking towards me.

She gives me a tight hug and whispers, "Happy Birthday, Y/N. I'm glad you're a part of our family." We pull out of the hug, allowing me to give Esme a wide smile with a shimmer of happiness in my eyes. "Now, you three have fun... but not too much fun. Oh! And girls... watch out for Jasper," Esme says walking off.

We make our way out to the car, and we start heading to the party. When we get to the location, you could easily tell which house it was, because it was the only house buzzing with lights and music. Every other house was calm.

We walked in, and the first thing I smelt was loads of blood mixed with alcohol. I could easily point out who was drinking and who was faking since it seemed everyone had a cup in their hands.

"Woah, you two look like total babes! Congrats, dude," a jock came up behind us. He held his hand in the air, waiting for Jasper to high-five him back.

"They're my sister and girlfriend," Jasper replied. I could see Jasper retaining from jumping on the man. He had that 'killer' look in his eyes. Alice softly grabs Jasper's hand and rubs his hand with her thumb.

The jock slowly put his hand down and said, "Hey, I'm sorry, dude. I didn't know." The jock quickly walks away in embarrassment.

"Can I kill him?" Jasper asks, not taking his eyes off the jock.

"Not yet," I say, earning a smack on the arm from Alice.

(Just a little SPN humor for my Supernatural fans. 😁)

"Hey, I'm gonna go get a drink. I'll be back," I say, getting nods from both Alice and Jasper. I walk through the gigantic house and find my way to the kitchen. On my way there I passed a kid throwing up in the bathroom, a group of guys playing beer pong, and a couple was making out in the middle of the hallway. I tried my best to slide past them without cringing, but they were taking up the whole hallway with their hands all over each other. Hopefully, they don't start stripping.

I get to the kitchen, and surprisingly there were only 3 other people there. I grab a plastic red cup and walk over to the punch bowl. I use the ladle to pour the drink into my cup, but the smell of the alcohol in the beverage gave me a sickening feeling in my stomach. I never had even a drop of alcohol before I was turned, but I'm guessing that this is the sick feeling drunk people get.

"Are you okay?" An unfamiliar voice said from behind me. I took a deep breath and gave the stranger a nod, hoping they would go away.

"Well, you don't seem it," the masculine voice behind me took a pause. I heard a chair being dragged against the floor. "Here, take a seat," the man says, taking my arm and helping me into a chair.

I sat in the chair hunched over, taking in all the things around me. The smell of blood was strong, but the alcohol was stronger. It was even mixed in with blood. I could feel myself slipping into my bloodthirsty vampire state. The man's arm still clung to mine, allowing me to feel his pulse pound inside his body. It was hard to hear over the loud music, but I could just imagine the sound of the blood flowing through his veins.

"Are you okay?" he asks again.

The most I could do at the moment was look up at him. I looked up to see a good-looking man with soft brown eyes and a kind smile. I looked at him as if he was a Y/F/M (Your favorite Meal) from Y/F/R (Your favorite restaurant). His blood was one of the only ones in the house that didn't wreak of alcohol.

"Yeah, maybe we can go outside. The smell of alcohol is making me dizzy," I finally speak. He nods, agreeing with me. He helps me up from my seat and walks me outside. His actions made me feel bad for the temptation to eat him.

As we're walking, I decided to apologize to the man.

"Hey, I'm sorry about back there. Parties, alcohol... people, it's all kinda new for me," I apologize.

"Yeah, I get it. I'm new to Washington, and my parents actually forced me to go to a party. They said that I need to make new friends. But- I mean- what's the point of making new friends if we're just gonna move again next year?" He says, walking with his head facing the ground. Even though I couldn't see his face, I could still tell he was upset. His slightly slumped posture and clenched hands in his pocket basically gave it away.

I looked ahead, towards the night sky. The moon held itself high in the sky. And behind it, hundreds of tiny stars glistened, giving the moon some pizzaz. But there was one star that had shimmered more than the others. One star that had given me the courage to step out of the Cullen traditions, and shine brighter.

"Well, I know that feeling. That feeling of always having to move, and never getting to stay anywhere long enough to make any real memories or real friends. But maybe we can change that. And we can start by you telling me your name," I say firmly.

"Daniel. Daniel Howard," the man said, now looking towards me.

I smile towards Daniel and say, "Well Daniel Howard, I'm Y/N Cullen, and I'm am so proud to call you my new friend."

"Well Y/N Cullen, it's nice to be able to call you my new friend too. And I'm not just saying that so I can get my parents off my back. I saw something in you when we met, and I think I wanna explore that," Daniel says confidently.

I chuckle, but my smile is soon lost when I saw where we had walked to. We had passed a sign that said 'Welcome to La Push Beach'. Silently panicking, I stop walking. Daniel continues walking, not noticing I'm not following. When he does notice, he looks around frantically before finding me in the spot next to the welcome sign.

Daniel runs up to me, "Hey, I know I keep asking, but are you okay?"

"Yeah, I just don't really enjoy the beach all that much," I calmly say. I have heard stories of the people on this side of town. Emmett describes them as wild men who feed on vampires. Now I've never met one of these men, but I don't plan on making today be my first encounter with them.

"Oh, well, that's fine. Let's walk back," Daniel tells me, wrapping his arm around my shoulder.

We turn to start walking back, but our path is blocked by a well-sculpted man. He wore a tank top and shorts, but he didn't smell like a normal human. He looked at me with an unpleasant face. He looked angry with me, but I didn't know why. Does he know who I am? What I am?

"You guys lost?" The man said with a growl. He continued to stare at me as if he was looking into my soul.

I looked back at the man in shock, but that didn't stop Daniel from being suspicious. "Who are you? Where did you come from?" Daniel asked, tightening his hold of me.

"I'm Sam, my family and I live by. When you live in a small town, people talk, and when people told me a guy and a girl was walking around these parts at this hour, I just had to check," he said, now looking at Daniel. He looks back at me and says, "Lots of tourists come through here, and I would hate for them to go missing"

I slightly cuddle closer into Daniel's arm and look down. Daniel starts to speak, "Well, we're fine. We came from a party nearby and felt the need to getaway. We were just heading back."

"Well, you guys be careful. You never know what creatures are hanging around here at this time," Sam said, giving me one last glance before walking away. I finally release the breath I didn't know I was holding.

"That was weird. I say that that's a sign to leave... now," Daniel says, making me chuckle.

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In my opinion, this has been the best birthday ever. I didn't need presents or a party centered around me, because I made a lot more memories today than I ever could.

When I got back to the party, I couldn't find Jasper or Alice anywhere. I knew Jasper felt uncomfortable about the party, so I knew that they had probably gone home, which I was right by the way.

My brand new friend, Daniel walked me home. The look on his face when he saw my house was priceless. We said goodbye at the door, and he left me to myself. When I went in, Alice and Rose teased me, thinking Daniel was a possible new boyfriend. I just denied everything and left them for my room.

To say vampires are nocturnal is a lie. We don't sleep. Well... it's more like we can't. When I first turned I thought something was wrong with me, but Carlisle eased my worry by telling me the truth. So, I stocked my room with a new book every day and I learned new hobbies. Sometimes I would do homework that I chose not to do earlier that day, or I would go with Jasper and Alice, or sometimes Edward (When he isn't moping around) to hang out at the lake nearby. Or on nights like this, I would lay awake on my bed, and I would think about my day.

I couldn't get the man from the beach out of my head. He seemed to only want to look at me. It was almost as if he was weary of me. As if he knew what I was. But his smell- his smell was interesting. He didn't smell completely human. It brought my mind to the story Emmett would tell me to scare me. He told me that these things were protectors of the night. Almost like werewolves, but they could change at will. I remember him telling me that they could get up to the size of 2-3 wolves.

But why didn't he attack me, if he knew what I was? Was it because Daniel was there? Or was it because they really aren't the rabid, vampire-eating, killers that Emmett scared me with?

I don't know. But even if I can't sleep, I'm still worn out. That mystery would have to be solved another day.

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Hey guys! I'm back right before New Year with this awesome story. I did throw my own character into the story, and I might need your help with the character relationship developments soon.

Anyways, I was thinking of bringing Bella and Jacob in the next chapter. What do you think?

Hope you're enjoying the story! 😁

~Love ya

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