Times Are Tough -- Please Take This Work Of Utter Self Indulgence In The Midst Of My Finals! Two Worlds

times are tough -- please take this work of utter self indulgence in the midst of my finals! two worlds collide, out of pure character-design-enjoyment convenience :)

while I'm at it, wanted to get my thoughts down: I just finished apotheosis! may just be post-finale feelings, but it is 100% my favorite campaign. everyone absolutely KILLED it. would not recommend listening to episodes 10-14 in a day, though -- unless you wish for utter mental turmoil. many thoughts, and no adequate words yet... however, MANY images! hope to get around to drawing some related things soon.

imagine youre a teenager and one day you decide to steal a car because it looks fast and sleek and you want to travel on the road. so you go on a trip in your stolen car and you love it so much that you dedicate your life to the road. you spend your years travelling, visiting new places and picking up hitchhikers, all in the same car you stole, which at this point has become old and run down and needs refurbishing every now and then, but you never replace it because you live in this car now and it's your home. at one point your actual house was demolished and your family members are dead. the people you've hooked up with in your car have broken up with you and gone away. youve changed many times as a person, but your shitty car has stayed the same, the one constant in your hectic life. it's the last one of its model after they stopped manifacturing it: that's how old it is. then one day, your car suddenly breaks down in the middle of the road. you go out to get help and find a lady who weirdly knows all about you. she knows all the places youve been to and the people youve gone there with. as you talk with her more, you begin to realize that, somehow, the soul of your car—the one that's sitting broken outside—has transferred into the body of a human woman. your car is alive and now speaking to you, and she remembers all the moments you two have spent together, every word youve told her when you thought you were alone, every desire and complaint youve expressed to her in the middle of the night. your car is speaking to you, and she tells you that however much you love her, she loves you equally back. that you never really stole her all those years ago because she wanted to travel with you, and she wouldn't change you for anyone else in the world. you speak with your living human car, and you realize that, hey, she's kind of funny actually, and you might be a little bit in love with her, and she might be a little bit in love with you. but the desert you're stuck in is also sentient and evil, so your human car dies in your arms in order for her soul to transfer back into the machine and drive you away. so now you're back on the road with your car the same as always, except now you know she's sentient and maybe has feelings for you, so you sometimes let go of the wheel and let her take you wherever she wants. that's what happened between the doctor and the tardis in that one episode

you came back wrong and i am racked with guilt because i cannot bear to see you like this and i should have let you rest. i loved you so much that i defied death itself but i do not think either of us are happy

Late campaign Chip outfit idea.

I saw a really cool pair of boots on Pinterest that I thought suited Chip a lot so I just had to add them. Also thought it'd be pretty cool to give Chip some water themes since he's a Riptide captain as well as a nod to Arlin. Also gave him the feather and the coral to remind him of his fellow captain's.

more people would exercise if this culture didn't make it absolute hell

i am thinking about if,, if chip loses himself completely,, gillion doing another oath of vengeance type thing where his grief manifests as rage

except the problem is Who does he exact revenge on? they've already killed the person who killed chip, and his loss of himself has no one to blame,, so gillion has nowhere to direct the rage, no direction, no purpose,, and the grief consumes him.

he becomes feral, inconsolable, and furious. he becomes what he thinks he should have been, what he believes would have saved chip if he hadn't been so selfish - he becomes little more than a weapon to direct. you point, his teeth and claws and blade follow.

there is not much of gillion left, just the Champion, because the Champion wouldn't have let chip die, wouldn't have let him be lost, would have gotten there faster, would have been better.

so maybe, oath of vengeance is a bit of a misnomer. maybe it would be better to say he swore an oath of atonement.

(sometimes, when the battle is over, and all is quiet, you can see gillion slip out just a little bit. if its late at night, and you listen real close, you can just make out quiet sobbing from the captains quarters)