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Take a second out to think about this: in your life you search and search for the right person for you. Every time you break up with someone you get one step closer to that person. You should look at moving on as getting closer to meeting the one.

- Ian Philpot

You said we were an accident.  You'll always be my favourite one. <333

There comes a time when eventually you must let go of false hopes, stop protecting your feelings, and accept reality vs. fantasy.

Ryan Holden (me)

goingdead:

iwasjustsayin:

Single or attached I hope everyone remembers that it begins with loving yourself. Who you are and what you are. I see posts about how sad they are to be alone. But, you are never truly alone. Someone you don’t know cares about you.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Believe me, if I could forget you, I would.

lyricalhoax:

residentevil:

believeinnarwhals:

(via bathroomwindow)

Wear a big smile every day, regardless of your pain.  Eventually, you'll be as happy as everyone else believes you are.

But at the same time we're still young; we have the time to realize that we were wrong.

save me from this cold world

please, won't you take me away?

hide me from all of the empty nights

smother all of my nefarious fear

tell me we can get away from this

whisper that you'll always be here

scream in the dark that you love me

hold me till forever ends

designer drugs and designer friends

I don't need no love, all I need is the DJ.

Into Dust

I feel as if everything's falling part...fading into dust.

And it sucks.  Because I hurt so much.

I just trudged through the fog and snow and cried like a bitch.

I got in a yelling match with my family.

Everything is hopeless; and I'm scared about not getting into the college of my dreams.

It's all I'm holding onto, so if I can't go, I have nothing...

I push everyone away, and I feel like I hate everyone, even myself...

I wanna get high or drunk, but I can't...

I just don't want to feel anymore...

I want to fade away, into dust...

"Remember those walls I built?  Well, baby, they're tumbling down.  And they didn't even put up a fight.  They didn't even make a sound."

"Halo" by Beyonce

goingdead:

lightdarkandshade:

lrn2liberty:

kissmykass:

OMG YES.

^_________________________^

An Unsweetened Summer

You clutched onto me like I was The One And still I couldn’t contrive the worst had yet begun. Your touch made me feel electric and alive, And when I was without you I couldn’t survive.

This is the book I am currently reading.  It's hilarious and explicit.  I love it.  I'm only fifty pages into it, though.

A gay Lutheran teen, Charles James Stewart II (aka Smart-ass) chronicles a very memorable senior year at South High in Crystal Lake, Ill. Named after his aspiring state's attorney dad (whom he calls First), Charlie uses journal entries to chart his feelings with typical teen angst: griping about his parents, describing his unrequited passion for straight friend Bink Binkmeyer and skewering school. His less private tirades soon land him in trouble with Mrs. Bailey, a New Agey English teacher, and with icky fellow student Kyle Weir, a homophobic anti-Semite. The most hilariously heated entries depict falling in love for the first time with Rob Hunt (whose mother, Kathy, is in quite serious condition with ALS). Throughout the diary, Charlie keeps revising his college application essay, and it's not easy for him to watch his parents' marital troubles during First's campaign—or just to be a gay 17. Ferguson's exuberant portrait successfully re-creates coming-of-age's dizzy heat.

From Publishers Weekly

Them country boys on the ride! With them big fat wheels on the side! Peep the vertical grills on the ride! And aw-awww-awww-awwwww!

"Aw Naw" by Nappy Roots

"You can't stop wishin' if you don't let go, the things that you find, and you lose, and you know." - Jack Johnson

She's so good, but she's no good for me.  Miss Delaney.

"Miss Delaney" by Jack's Mannequin