How It Feels Seeing New Angela Image

how it feels seeing new angela image 😁

sorry if this may come across a little vent-ish, but i just wanna get my feelings out, so-to speak.

if you guys already dont know, ive been working on a little pet project of mine for awhile called Rubicon Company. its something that me and my friends are putting a lot of love and effort into, and I'm very excited to show it more publicly.

its been in the works for, gosh, almost a year now? I'm nearly ready to start posting about it more actively, since I'm about halfway done with the prolouge's draft.

... however, thats the problem. i feel like I've been putting so much work onto it on my own. i don't expect any of my friends to do the work for me, no, I expected to be doing most of it on my own, but because of that, I feel like progress has kinda... slowed to a halt? the process of the project getting done solely revolves around me, which kinda sucks.

i really wish i had some source of income, just so that I could commission an artist or someone else to do some of the work for me. i cant do that, though, because i don't even have access to my own money, and i can't get a job.

i love it so much, but i can't spend all my time working on it. not only do I have schoolwork, but I have other projects I want to work on too, but I don't want to just... let it die.

im not gonna, like, ask for money or anything because the last time somebody from the internet wanted to give me money, it turned into a whole argument with my dad, so I don't want to open that can of worms right now, plus i'd feel bad asking people for money without giving something back.

maybe i should just try and go talk to my parents about it again and try to open up writing/drawing commissions? but also, the every other time I've tried, it just gets pushed to the side, and my parents are already stressed with other money and medical issues.

it's just.

this is probably my longest post yet, but I just wanna vent out some of my feelings. thanks for reading, if you did.

heartwarming: girl who found her huion tablet immediate made 5million doodles <3

there is an extreme lack of chill argalia content and so i must fill that niche in immediately

CLEMATIS POSTING

(clematis is a color fixer project moon oc! shges also married to argalia :3)

clematis is a character i care about a lot, i need to post about her more.... she's so silly. she's 6'6". she could probably bench press a car if she wanted to. she wants to quit her job if being an assassin to go run a flower shop. she got top surgery just because she didn't like having boobs. she's married to a terrorist. she has 3 kids. she's even bisexual.

im actually really proud of her color fixer title- rouge is a shade of pinkish red, similar to the color of a rose, but it's also really close to the word rogue, which is a word associated with unpredictable behavior, similar to the clematis flower, which are known for growing very unpredictably. also, when used as a verb, rogue refers to removing defective seedlings from a crop.

hoo boy (still nowhere near done)

im working on a cult of the lamb ttrpg!

this is my first time building a ttrpg from the ground up, but so far its been a very smooth process! so far, i have all of the base game buildings, weapons and curses down, as well as all of the follower traits!

currently im working on the relics, character creation, and other small things. im leaving combat for later, since it kind of scares me at the moment, lol. ill post more updates in the future, and yes, once it's finished, i'll be posting the doc publicly for anyone to use!

FLYYYY PERFECT WINGS WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN HIIIIIDING (GOODBYE, GOODBYE, GOODBYE! x2)