Finally Being Honest With Myself

Finally Being Honest with Myself

okay.... gonna make my confession here since i dont really have close moots in rl that knows tumblr, this is gonna be me safe place for this confession. I have finally figured out meself and um.... people i like...maybe. I've only ever recognised some situations before but never really pondered on it, because I was scared that I wasn't 'normal', but also learned that there is not really a clear definition of whats normal and whats not and just live life how you want it to be and lead on from there....

So now that I came to realise that my heart is more open with options as i found out it would, its definitely... strange? to feel attracted to more than one at the same time and... in different.... you know... genders... i haven't figured this out yet... but i guess i'll learn more about once i feel more comfortable about it

Not gonna lie it feels a bit....freeing but also... overwhelming... like "wait--i dont get to choose just one?!" kinda thing, but sometimes it draws back more to "maybe...i just convinced myself to like them" "maybe im not really like this" "am i doing it for attention?" "but the attraction feels.... real to me..?... right?" and more on the "am i sinning real bad?" as i was born in Christian family, and i love God, i mean i really do, and if what i really am feeling is a sin then it would be up to Him to judge me, i know that, but at the same time, He made people to have flaws and this is one of it, but loving isnt a sin..... right? its not supposed to, especially when the heart chooses on its own

But whatever i feel how i am right now, i know is not gonna be easy for me especially once i decide to tell people or be more open about it.... i hope by then the universe would be kind to me

i don't know why but when i see Mingi and the black spot (i forgot what its called xD) on his cheek, i just wanna smother it in kisses and use it as an excuse to kiss the cheek where the spot is while pressing kisses all over his face and watch him turn a shade of pink from embarassment

not really my first biaz in ateez, but the very first member i saw a video of was San and his acting, which was i think in a vcr for their concert if im not mistaken, then was re-upload on tiktok, he was in a stylish suit and talking to someone on the phone, and just from then on i started researching about them and the giant puppy just caught my attention and is now the love of my life

out of curiosity, who was your first ateez bias and who is it now? mine was mingi, and now it’s yeosang/jongho

this--- help--- i am currently ovulating and i am suffering

ateez with breeding kinks

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ATEEZ WITH BREEDING KINKS

pairings: ateez (seperately) x fem!reader

genre: suggestive, smut, bullet-point

18+ content - minors dni

warnings: breeding kink, mentions of pregnancy, unprotected vaginal sex

taglist ; @wooyoungsbae

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seonghwa ;;

possessive mf

has definitely thought about it

but was scared to bring it up to you

he'd mark you with hickeys, write his name on your skin in ink, but drew a - reasonable - line at fucking you full of his cum?

strange

one night, you two were... yknow

fuckin

"fuck, where do you want my cum, baby?" he asks as he presses kissed against your neck, making sure to be gentle around the already forming bruises

when you whine that you want him to come inside... oh shit

its all over for you

and once you saw the smirk and quirked brow he offered you, you realized that it was over for you as well

"yeah? want me to fill you up?" he says, his thrusts quickening as he seems to push deeper than he had before. "you want me to fuck my cum into your pretty pussy?"

all you could do was whine as you felt his warm seed fill your insides <3

hongjoong ;;

he likes how close it makes you two feel to one another !!

he's never really thought about it

to be fair, neither had you

it was a very,, spur of the moment kind of thing

you were both so invested in making the other feel good, you were willing to do anything to make the other feel more pleasure

he didn't realize it would be something he - and you - would enjoy that much until the time came

"are you close, honey?" he asks against your shoulder as you bounce on top of him, taking him so well

"so c-close, joongie," you say, your voice breaking slightly as a moan escapes you. "inside, please. wan' it s-so bad, please."

he couldn't deny you even if he wanted to

the way your face shifts into one of sheer pleasure once you feel his seed inside

he cant wait to see you like that again

yunho ;;

i feel like he has thought about it the most out of every ateez member

i feel like he acts very laid back, but is actually quite possessive of you

"hang out with who you want, but once you come home, i'll make sure you know who loves you the most" type of bf

is not afraid of marking you

neck, thighs, chest - there's been a hickey there at some point

he understands that the thought of getting pregnant can be scary, so he never brought up the thought of cumming inside of you unless you presented the idea first

so when you looked up at him with pleading eyes, begging him to fill you up

oh god

it felt like he had just regained all of his previous stamina from how his pace increased

"aww, does tiny want my cum inside her? make her tummy nice and round so everyone knows who she belongs to?" he would taunt, watching as you moan. "bet you'd like that, hm?"

yeosang ;;

he would be weary at first

he was always super cautious, so when you brought it up to him casually, he thought you were joking

once he found out you were serious, he took some time to think about it

you were on the pill, after all

"holy shit-" he would say as he finishes inside, watching as your squirm under him. the feeling of his cum around himself as he fucked into you, it was better than he could have ever imagined. "g-gonna get hard again, you feel so good."

let's just say, he didn't even get a chance to pull out before he got hard again

whew

san ;;

he .

have mercy

he would 100% tease you about it when you brought it up

would have you come sit on his lap as you talked about it, looking up at your with half lidded eyes as you explained it to him

nodding every now and then and watching as you stuttered above him

would smirk once you finished talking

i think you know where it goes from there

you'd be on top of him, he'd be bouncing you up and down as he attacked your neck, whispering praises about how you were so good, and how you are gonna look so pretty with a round tummy

once he finished inside, he'd insist on you staying on top of him with his cock still inside you

"we don't want any to spill out, do we?"

mingi ;;

he'd be a bit flustered at first

he feels like that's something super intimate, and you wanted to do it with him???

🥺

he'd take such good care of you

"are you ready, love?" he says from above you, your face flushed and lips puffy as you look at him. "you look so beautiful like this."

a straggled moan leaves his mouth as he finishes inside you, not used to the feeling of your walls clenching around him as he fills you

his breathing goes rigid as he looms over you, your breath mixing with his as he leans down and kisses your lips softly

"can we please do that again?"

wooyoung ;;

he is on you so fast

does not waste a SECOND

lips on yours, pushing you against the nearest surface

he loved how you so quickly responded to him, whining for him and begging

he would Fuck You Against The Wall

holds you up while pounding into you <3

"you're gonna have to beg for it, doll"

and oh, you do

when he finally cums inside, he stills himself, leaning against you and smushing you between him and the wall as you both catch your breath

"do you think you have another round in you?" he asks, his hips rutting into yours softly, the thought of filling you up again already getting him hard

jongho ;;

feel like he'd be like "why do you want a baby when i'm right here >:|"

then you explain that it was just for the thought and he was like "ohhhh :O"

yeahh much like wooyoung - wastes no time

he leads you to your shared room and lays you down gently, taking his time with you

he treats you so well :(

but when he finally finishes inside you, something suddenly changes in him

the feeling of you so desperately milking his cock of everything he had to offer riled him up more

after you both came, his pace didn't let up

"j-jongho! 's too mu-much!"

"you can fit a bit more can't you? i want to watch it drip from your pretty pussy."

FUUUUUU--- HAND IN MARRIAGE PLS 💜💜💜💜💜💜

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