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All I can say is- ow. Ow. OW. Love this but OW.

pairing: tobirama senju x reader

content: death; angst;

count: 2.3k

'I can't', he never heard it from you before. you must've sound pathetic — on the verge of crying and hasitating to obey. you defied him now when it mattered the most, when he had only you to depend on. he noticed your struggle but said nothing. you didn't understand how could he be so calm, as if it all was just part of a plan or another lesson to learn.

tobirama waited. he knew that at the end you'll trust him and do what he asks of you, even if it's hideous. it saddened him. it was his failure as a teacher — you should have left before, with the rest of the unit.

you took a step closer. he looked tired. his armor was dirty, with cracks all around it, and he's face… it's the first time you've seen him in such a bad shape.

'it's good to die by your side,' he said and a faint smile disappeared as quickly as it appeared on his face, 'you were my brightest student… ever since the day one. always so proud and cheerful. i couldn't help but to see my brother in you whenever you laughed. i know i shouldn't—'

you took another step and undid both sides of his armor until it fell to his feet. his jumper, sticky from his blood, clinged to his skin and it terrified you to notice how easy it was to see his ribs. it was difficult to accept what you were seeing before your eyes — his frailty. tobirama was dying before this mission even started and the sudden grasp of it was enough for you to come apart.

you placed the palm of your hand on his chest. you could feel his heart beating rapidly. please run, stuck in your throat, you're my hokage, I'll die for you. please run… you knew he'd hear you out but he's mind seemed to be already made.

finally, you pointed the knife in your hand against his throat, only mirroring his actions. back in the academy you only learnt about self-sacrifice, but this… was something else entirely. the double suicide won't be remembered as a heroic move — if it's going to be remembered at all.

distant noise made by the enemy, you concluded, travelled through the trees startling the birds. you've never heard such loud ones. the whole group covered the rising sun for a moment and all that was left was him before you and the knifes you held. you took a deep breath, although shaky it slightly calmed you down.

'it's time—' his voice wasn't the one of a teacher anymore. you thought he sounded… sleepy, as if he wanted to say I'm tired followed by goodnight.

but then he dropped the knife away from your neck. 'run,' he started and gripped your hands to keep the steel you held steadily at his throat, 'faster then i ever could,' and he pulled — so hard that with a single slash he had died instantly.

'n-no—,' you muttered and turned away, thoroughly crushed. you had to honor his words, even if it took everything from you to do it, you started to run.

Hellooo hon can i request pls? Can u write for tobirama a one shot where he rejects his s/o but then he sees her with another guy in the village often and starts to realize about hia feelings but its late bc she is marrying this other guy? I need some angst hahahah. Its ok if you don't want to write it! Thank you 😘

A/N: Hello anon, thank you for the request! Here's some Tobirama angst. It made me sad to write this but here we are. The things we do for angst. Hope you enjoy.

Warnings: none. Just pure sadness.

Words: Around 1.475

' The Fire Which Didn't Burn '

-"No. I do not love you."

Those words echoed in your mind days after his initial rejection. Over and over again until it was all you could think about. It stung your heart each time you repeated the sentence. The never ending feeling that it was something you did wrong wrecked your mind, it made work harder and rest scarce for a while. You didn't understand. You were sure he felt at least some semblance of love for you, in the end you were the one he truly did let in his company. One he could rely on for anything that he may need. Or did you read the signs that wrong? At that point it wouldn't be a surprise if it was all for business sake, seeing as you both worked together on making the village prosper and bloom.

But that was almost an whole year ago. Even more. Since then you have moved on from the heart ache. Although a few select close friends knew of your pain, you never indulged them with your gloomy moods that came and went. It was a tendency you seemed to pick up from the younger Senju and the years you spent at his side. Not letting anyone really in. Only letting them scratch the surface of it, to know enough to leave you be.

It has been a whole year since the last time Tobirama had spent proper time with you, a whole year since you both sat down to unwind and discuss things amicably. At the confession of your feelings for him he was rather cold, cooly brushing you off and trying to get back into his work. He didn't feel like it was such a big deal then, he believed that it didn't matter as long as you both still remained a good bond. But he was proven wrong. You recoiled from his reach and even disappeared from his sight. His ears seldomly heard of you anymore. It was as if you disappeared from the village all together. Even if he saw traces of your work, your signatures and reports. It was all superficial.

At first this didn't bother Tobirama much, even if he was initially worried about your lack of communication with him. The man was simply so drowned in his work to take some kind of action, to do anything to smooth things over with you again. On certain days, when work was lesser, he would indulge himself in things he did with you once. Only then feeling the effects, the weight on his shoulders due to your absence. There was no more of your reasoning voice, no more laughter, no more endless teasing when the two of you were alone, no more long nights where the two of you shared your worries and even fears. There was none of it. Only distant memories.

As stubborn as he was, he would finally come to terms that he, in the very least, missed you greatly. That he should've done something sooner. Now he felt embarrassed to even try after so long had already passed.

Tobirama had recently started to seek out information about you. Head full of things, horrible things. Were you alright now? Have you moved on?

As it turns out, yes you were alright and yes...you have moved on. You were still working as a ninja, so how you managed to keep out of his sight so much and for so long surprised the silver haired Senju. And when word reached him that you were getting married soon. He was...he didn't know how to feel, actually. You had found another man to love and share your burdens and future with. He had spotted the pair of you once in the village, walking peacefully side by side. Hand and fingers entwined together. You pressing into his side once to give him a quick hug. Him smiling down at you, a genuine, earnest smile which you reflected back just the same. It made Tobirama ill. A deep, gut wrenching feeling over took him so much that he wanted to bolt. As unlikely as that was for him.

Perhaps this was karma. You were his most trusted friend. You understood him at best and at worst times, and you dealt with him when he was being difficult. You were with him at his side even when his brother got fed up with his arrogance. The amount of times you sat at the stairs on his porch, waiting for him to cool off were countless; even your company alone was salve enough. And not to even mention your beauty, you were the rare one that really caught Tobirama's eye, like no other woman has before. And yet, he pushed you away. Perhaps this was his punishment. The maker gave him a chance, a chance to be happy and content and have someone with him and he let it fall and shatter to the floor. Tobirama could only scowl, and he found himself in a sour mood ever since.

He wouldn't admit it but his heart was aching. Was this how you too felt?

-"Tobirama!"

You exclaimed. Shock written all over your features, the basket of fruit, fish and vegetables hooked onto your elbow. Neither of you knew what to say at first. Tobirama was just as shocked as you, regretting not using his sensory abilities to sense you and turn in another direction. Now that you two ran into each other his tongue felt dry.

Your breath stopped in your throat as you searched his eyes, his face for anything that could indicate some sort of reaction. Yet the only thing you found in his scarlet gaze was yearning, and then emptiness once he collected his racing thoughts.

"Y/N. It.. it has been a while."

He spoke, clearing his throat while his heart felt as if it was going to burst out of his chest. The clothes he wore suddenly felt suffocating and scolding. A tangible tension grew between the two of you.

"Yes. It has been...How have you been doing? I surely hope you are getting some proper rest, I heard there was quite a scuffle recently."

Trying to keep the conversation average failed. A frown became prominent on his lips as he only nodded, in a almost mechanical fashion, but didn't respond to the question. You caught his gaze flickering, only for a second, down to your ring finger. Where the silver ring was. A small gem held on the top of it. And you understood, in a way.

"Oh..."

A wind breezed past the two of you, but it didn't feel comforting. It felt chilling and hot and dry all at the same time, like raking hands that clung to the both of you. If you were paying just a little more attention to the Senju, you would've seen the sadness collect in his eyes. Even if his face remained cold and unreadable. His eyes gave it all away.

The conversation ended rather awkwardly with both of you wishing each other well and saying your goodbyes. So many things were left unsaid then. It wouldn't take Tobirama long after that quick encounter to really admit it to himself that he has grown feelings for you, that he was in love. Realizing a year too late. A year he wished he could get back so he could be with you instead of that man. A year that could make it all better, for the both of you. But no matter how many sleepless nights he had, no matter how much he wished and even prayed, he couldn't take your happiness away. He couldn't even dare do such a thing, couldn't dream of it.

Sometimes you would even worm your way in his dreams, his mind visualizing a future he knew he couldn't have. A happy one with you at his side, in a house different from the one he was in now, with enough space for the both of you and even another addition. No matter how much he dreaded those dreams, he let himself drown in the comforts of them even if for a moment. Letting himself experience what could have been. The phantom touches and plush kisses that soon turned to dust in his mouth when he woke. The image of you still dancing vividly in front of his sleep hazed eyes.

Other times he even found himself crying in those dreams, angry, bitter and regretful tears. Clinging onto you in his dreams, pleading to not wake up yet to make it all better. It pained him. That he couldn't have you anymore. You were now married to someone, and that someone wasn't him.

Tobirama saw how happy you were, genuinely. And he wasn't going to take it away just because of his own mistakes.

Now it was his turn to share the pain you went through. He accepted it all. It was now his responsibility. His mistakes.

moar villain tobira designs ^-^ 

Tobirama's death is so looked down upon or just simply not understood by so many people.

He was literally losing chakra, already being low on it meaning he was way weaker than with edo tensei which is half his power.

Yet he decided to fight 20 high rank ninjas, and two who literally ate Kurama from the inside meaning they had 9 tails chakra with them.

Rather than being scared Tobirama told his students to go back and focus on other aspects of the war while he fights them all. He valued their life more than his own, most likely.

He also knew he will most likely die so he planned ahead for the future and named Hiruzen the next Hokage.

He then went on and killed all those people that meant threat in that situation - the 22 (?) ninjas -

The cause of his death wasn't being murdered, but low chakra, exhaution and fatal injuries from battle.

Even way before he became my comfort character that impressed me so much.

Thank you a bunch for the tag!!💕

And this is always a bit hard to choose 😅 my mind goes blank when the question is asked. But 5 dorky facts about me?? Let's see..

I snatch sugar packets from caffes, so beware ig lol

I have an obsession with dragons. 😌 Love them. Can't live without thinking of them at least once a day.

On a more similar note as Freyr, I hate tea. On rare occasion I actually have to drink tea it has to be something like wild berries or pomegranate otherwise I'll just scowl at it and hope the earth swallows it. Coffee is ok, but not the biggest fan of it either.

I didn't have an actual crush in a looooooooong time and it's beginning to be concerning 🤔 2d men for life it is woo wooo

I don't like pools, especially public ones. I need currents, the strong rivers and waves. I nEeEd them. I once tried to backflip into a pool and ended up just hitting my back. That stuff huRt.

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