My Heart Went - Tumblr Posts
All I can say is- ow. Ow. OW. Love this but OW.
pairing: tobirama senju x reader
content: death; angst;
count: 2.3k
'I can't', he never heard it from you before. you must've sound pathetic — on the verge of crying and hasitating to obey. you defied him now when it mattered the most, when he had only you to depend on. he noticed your struggle but said nothing. you didn't understand how could he be so calm, as if it all was just part of a plan or another lesson to learn.
tobirama waited. he knew that at the end you'll trust him and do what he asks of you, even if it's hideous. it saddened him. it was his failure as a teacher — you should have left before, with the rest of the unit.
you took a step closer. he looked tired. his armor was dirty, with cracks all around it, and he's face… it's the first time you've seen him in such a bad shape.
'it's good to die by your side,' he said and a faint smile disappeared as quickly as it appeared on his face, 'you were my brightest student… ever since the day one. always so proud and cheerful. i couldn't help but to see my brother in you whenever you laughed. i know i shouldn't—'
you took another step and undid both sides of his armor until it fell to his feet. his jumper, sticky from his blood, clinged to his skin and it terrified you to notice how easy it was to see his ribs. it was difficult to accept what you were seeing before your eyes — his frailty. tobirama was dying before this mission even started and the sudden grasp of it was enough for you to come apart.
you placed the palm of your hand on his chest. you could feel his heart beating rapidly. please run, stuck in your throat, you're my hokage, I'll die for you. please run… you knew he'd hear you out but he's mind seemed to be already made.
finally, you pointed the knife in your hand against his throat, only mirroring his actions. back in the academy you only learnt about self-sacrifice, but this… was something else entirely. the double suicide won't be remembered as a heroic move — if it's going to be remembered at all.
distant noise made by the enemy, you concluded, travelled through the trees startling the birds. you've never heard such loud ones. the whole group covered the rising sun for a moment and all that was left was him before you and the knifes you held. you took a deep breath, although shaky it slightly calmed you down.
'it's time—' his voice wasn't the one of a teacher anymore. you thought he sounded… sleepy, as if he wanted to say I'm tired followed by goodnight.
but then he dropped the knife away from your neck. 'run,' he started and gripped your hands to keep the steel you held steadily at his throat, 'faster then i ever could,' and he pulled — so hard that with a single slash he had died instantly.
'n-no—,' you muttered and turned away, thoroughly crushed. you had to honor his words, even if it took everything from you to do it, you started to run.
the sequel to that really convolutedy titled piece of pledge!jk / brother’s best friend!oc
It’s too early in the morning for Jeongguk to wake up so you don’t try to hide your steps around the room. He didn’t snore but he did grumble and whine and is still on the floor from when he rolled right off trying to kick your blanket off. You woke up to the thud, settled immediately when he didn’t complain about pain. He just huffed into steady breathing. (At the very least he didn’t bruise himself again. You’d checked again when you got up.)
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