Whenever People Ask Me Why I Draw, I Have An Hard Time Answering It. While The Impact Of My Life Experiences

Whenever people ask me why I draw, I have an hard time answering it. While the impact of my life experiences and the result of it being a declining mental health sure plays a big role in why I draw the things I do, the reason of me drawing is not that deep at all. In fact...if I had to describe it with one word it is fun. Passion even.

I never really cared for likes and how many people look at my art. Likes and Follows are just metrics that cause stress for myself and also might lead into me playing a role, slowly loosing the focus of who I am and what I stand for. But who is my art for?

First and for-most I make the art for me. For the pure joy of creating. It is a satisfying feeling to move your pencil or digital pen across a canvas, slowly creating a world that you imagined or dreamed of. To use Symbolism to tell stories. To capture feelings that are difficult to express with words. And secondary. My Art is made for people who stop by and take time to look at my work. Maybe getting inspired by them to pick up a paintbrush and draw themselves. But also for the people who want to sit down and feel stuff from time to time. People who either want a good laugh, a good cry or something inbetween. People who like to dream. Or people that are openly willing to talk about mental health cause this topic ties like a red line across my work. (if it's not leaning towards the dreamy, playful side of course)

The image you see here is a visual representation of the image above. I called it "Passion". The Drawing process was quite interesting, as it originally started to be an artwork which should capture my view of "AI" . How AI could be a good thing but unfortunately that technology fell into the hands of some greedy people which only cause harm with it. But I think I should keep that topic for another day. As an Artist, I must admit that I'm a bit tired of this whole AI talk.

Anyway...

The more I worked on it, the further away it went from it's core idea to a point where I had no idea what I was doing. This was one of the reasons why I was a bit unsure of posting it on social Media but a friend encouraged me to do so, as she said "This Artwork really made her feel something that she cannot describe. And that more people should see it" so here we are. Trying not to be shy about it.

The Program i used to paint this was Photoshop. And in case anyone want to know which brushes I used: I mainly used the Ahmed Aldoori Brushset , some brushes by Jeremy Fenske as well as the Kyle Webster Brushes for the effects)

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Today I'd like to show you a little stylized Self-Portrait as it was about time to change my profile image for this year.

Drawing Characters, let alone, drawing Portraits for sure isn't my biggest strenght, however I wanted to explore how far I can push it, how much I learned over the years and try to capture my personal spirit. And I think I did a pretty decent job at it! Hopefully.

(This Artwork was made in May)

It's very hard to put my feelings into words when I first heared Samo Mi Se Spava by Luke Black during the first Semi-Finals. It was a mix of being amazed by how experimental the song was but I also felt this odd feeling of Nostalgia. But also being amazed on how fresh this song sounds...as I said, very hard to describe.

I decided to draw my perception for this song. The image idea was inspired by one shot during the Grand Final where it looked like the flower Bed Luke formally layed in turned into Angel wings (it was just a composition thing). ...and I knew from that moment on "I had to draw this"

And I didn't intended this image to be that vulnerable. It even got to a point where I was insanely embarrassed and felt stupid for even drawing this image in the first place. "Wouldn't it be better to start this idea anew and find a new way of depicting the idea?"...but I tried to pull through. In the end. I still like it. It's still super vulnerable but I think I'm okay with that feeling now haha!

100% agree. I mean, there are companies out there that work with Passion and creativity but it's ridicolously hard to get into them. (especially if you're from Europe)

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In 2021 I had this amazing opportunity to draw for an amazing fanproject called Project Gaia.

A project that combines the fans love for the Game Horizon Zero Dawn! And these were some of my pieces.