Moving Forward

Moving Forward

There’s two ways we fake claim ourselves and I’m curious to see if other people do the same.

The first way is the most obvious, convincing ourself that we’re not a system, that our alters are made up and that we don’t have DID.

The second way is being convinced we have DID but that our Alters are all made up and we don’t have information about the actual alters of our system. (Ex. In our system we have Aspen James and Salem, if these alters were just made up, but there are alters in our system that are undiscovered and not made up.)

I don’t know if anyone else feels the same way as the second one, but it’s a weird thing to think about.

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A one page HSR comics I did about Stelle and the crew. I really dig the trash panda as a main character.

I just finished Penacony and now I wanna draw ten million Fireflies.

the night before d-day

sunday and robin headcanons 🕊

cw: mentions of religious grooming, manipulation, and abuse

1. sunday felt immense guilt as he wavered from believing in the harmony into believing in the order for being a "traitor" and so he would pray penance everyday, not because he wanted to be forgiven (he felt beyond it), but because he felt immense anxiety over being punished for his "sin" specifically through something bad happening to robin. the day he missed his prayers, robin got shot.

looking back now, perhaps his plan failing had also been part of his punishment. but he also worries that ena may see it fit to punish him as well due to his failure. so he prays even harder now out of his fear for robin's safety.

2. because sunday was the more sensitive child but still always sidelined his needs for robin, robin developed her strong sense of will and self out of firming up her resolve in order to be a grounding presence for sunday, and also out of feeling pressured to be the "perfect idol and sister" worthy of her brother's sacrifice and love for her

3. sunday suffers from chronic pain on his hands similar to the presentation of stigmata.

4. gopher wood was the type of parent figure who made sunday's mistakes into opportunities to sermon him about morality and sin; he never punished sunday directly but would manipulate sunday this way through emphasizing his sinfulness and feeding his guilt so that sunday would end up seeking punishment or atonement himself. he also constantly praised robin over sunday to put pressure on her to pursue greater career heights that would isolate sunday from her while establishing to sunday his lack of worth in comparison to her to worsen his self-sacrificial tendencies.

5. robin mentions that she couldn't hear their mother's song during the disaster that took her life but sunday could. unbeknownst to robin, it's the song he used to sing to her as a lullaby. when she was shot, he made sure to sing it to her again while she was recovering.

6. robin is the one who kills the bugs for them because sunday can't even look at them.

7. sunday hates not being without gloves and especially avoids touching people he isn't close to without them. robin is one of the few people he doesn't feel anxious touching without gloves.

8. robin has an official celebrity fragrance that she was invited to assist in the formulation of. she specially requested that the fragrance have tea notes meant to resemble the tea sunday is fond of; she felt a signature fragrance designed for her could not be complete without a symbol of his part in her life.

9. robin has extremely broad music tastes and listens to everything, but she typically composes songs meant to fit her image as an idol.

10. sunday says harsh words when angry while robin gives a cold shoulder when angry.

11. robin is very used to compliments and even flirtatious remarks due to her career and thus doesn't fluster easily. she's also become good at sensing who's being genuine and who's just trying to pander. sunday on the other hand is unexpectedly bashful in the face of forward interest and doesn't quite know how to respond to flirting.

12. the reason robin has such strong a strong belief in human kindness started from witnessing how kind and selfless sunday always was growing up together