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You got any interesting song/artist recommendations? It can be any genre at all, im not picky

Btw your poetry is soo good!!

Oh my god, thank u so much! ^^

As for the music... Lately I've been listening to russian artists like Flëur, or снова не успел. Check out nine inch nails' Ghosts, if you're into ambient/instrumental stuff. And also, I've been relistening to A Thousand Suns by linkin park, which is one of my fave albums <3

Ah btw, congrats on being my first anon message lol! I appreciate it!

'the toothworm (the hell inside the tooth)' by anonymous, southern france ca. 1780 in on everyone's lips: the oral cavity in art + culture - uta ruhkamp (2020)

I should be asleep but I can’t stop thinking about Ram and John’s reaction to it. If we Assume, as 90% of the world does, that there was nothing sexual/romantic between them, then both of these things (Ram itself and John’s reaction) make no sense. Ram is not cruel in its lyrics, not really, but throughout the whole album runs this very interesting thread of almost-but-not-quite taunting self-satisfaction. As someone else said, it’s very “my wife and I are having a great time off by ourselves.” But Paul is a smart man and he knows John Lennon will see it as a taunt. So that makes it a taunt.

But again, this doesn’t make sense if John and Paul were simply besties. If they were, Paul wouldn’t feel the need to implicitly tell John that he has a wife now and doesn’t need John anymore to make good music and good love, and John wouldn’t have felt so abjectly hurt (and dare I say jealous) by it.

Also there’s a part of this interview from 71 where someone asks John about Ram and that part is interesting but y'all have been SLEEPING on the last part of that question, when someone follows up with “and don’t you have a song on your new album that could be seen as a response to Ram?” And John’s like well yeah, you could see it as a response to this, or it could just be about a chick I used to know, wink wink.

Bruh. Why u always comparing Paul to women in relation to yourself. It’s like you’re literally asking people to ask you if y'all ever fucked.

Jean Paul Gaultier Fall/Wint 1992

paul in 2021 saying that he's happy that in 'get back' he's be able to study everything about john him saying that he recently bought a lot of john's drawings and hung them on his wall so he can look at them all the time him talking about the love songs he wrote for john and him just reminding people over and over again that john was his best friend and that he's first and foremost a john lennon fan and saying yeah, i love him i love him i love him over and over again — all of this makes me so fucking emotional man imagine loving someone so stupidly much that even when you're basically 80 and they've been gone for half of your life, they've been gone for 40 years, even then you still love them the same way you've always done because that's the kind of love that never goes away that's the kind of love that lives inside you and that's the kind of love paul feels for john and it's just so damn beautiful

joining in on the regional miku trend with scouser liverpool miku! 💗

Okay but imagine being doomed by the narrative and knowing it. Imagine asking, begging God for answers but knowing that he was the one who called for your death.

Imagine asking God to save you and knowing that he's the one tying the noose

love judas coded characters, like yes ahah your role here is to betray the person you love most

I do think the majority of us should strangle the shame that lives inside of us like wringing water from the rag until we are soft and dry and weightless

So didn't realise that people didn't know about the John Lennon 1980 'dear one' thing. As we're all here though I wanted to mention that the phrase 'my dear one' potentially has a bit of a story arc when it comes to John's relationship with Paul. For those familiar with British English, 'my dear one' sticks out as it's not a used term of endearment at all. So where does it come from? It could be a non-straightforward Victorian throwback, but more likely its hearkening to the use of the phrase in Eastern meditation to denote your nearest and dearest. Great, already off to a sweet start (and lines up with Yoko having Paul on the next-of-kin list with Julian and Mimi when John died).

It POTENTIALLY gets a bit more layered than that though once you add in the idea of hugging meditation. Contrary to what Paul says (sorry Paul, I do believe you on most things, just not this) despite being 'Northern men' TM the Beatles were a huggy bunch. John mentions it in the 1967 Hunter Davies interview:

''We used to be embarrassed about touching each other. We’d do an elaborate handshake just to hide the embarrassment… or we did mad dances. Then we got to hugging each other. Now we do the Buddhist bit… arms around. It’s just saying hello, that’s all.''

As pointed out in @thecoleopterawithana and @monkberries amazing posts, the Buddhist bit is hugging meditation which became popular in the 1960s. In hugging meditation, you

''have to make him or her very real in your arms, not just for the sake of appearances, patting him on the back to pretend you are there, but breathing consciously and hugging with all your body, spirit, and heart. Hugging meditation is a practice of mindfulness. “Breathing in, I know my dear one is in my arms, alive. Breathing out, she is so precious to me.”''

We know physical touch was important to John. One of the plusses of being with Yoko was being affectionate with his best friend, he tells Paul that touching is good whilst hugging him and in the Get Back sessions he delightedly asks Paul about a vivid dream where he was touching Paul (whether platonic or romantic this always read to me as a blatant subconscious desire for increased intimacy with Paul). The desire for intimacy is still present in the 'Real Life/Love' demo in 1977 where John muses about holding a mysterious has-a-baby-expecting-another-lives-on-a-farm someone in his arms as if it was only yesterday (another piece of media I still cannot believe we have on tape).

With John's evident desire for physical intimacy in mind and the focus on holding dear ones in hugging meditation, I don't think it's too far to think that John would associate this term of endearment with a certain level of both physical and emotional intimacy. Whether its a slightly bittersweet ironic recollection of those times together in the late 60s or a sincere statement of their current relationship, Paul as his dear one could be seen as continuation of John's suppressed, resentful but ultimately present desire for reignited intimacy with Paul on multiple levels (again romantic? Platonic? Choose-your-own-adventure there, I'm not in charge of you).

Or I could be talking shit. Who knows? It's just fun to think about!

How I learned to stop worrying and love cleaning

Watch youtube cleaning channels (eg The Carla Project, A Beautiful Mess, Midwest Magic Cleaning). I learned so much from watching these: cleaning techniques, but also just watching things go from dirty to clean made certain jobs feel surmountable.

Get yourself a set of products and tools. The grease around your extractor fan is a different chemical than the white deposit on your toilet rim, and a brush can reach corners a cloth can't touch. I can go into specifics in a separate post if anyone wants, or you can just follow point 1 and learn the way I did.

Don't try to blitz a room unless you're working with a team. Blitzing is the crash-diet of cleaning. You exhaust yourself, the effects don't last very long, and your lasting memory from the experience is bad enough to put you off doing anything about it. Chip away at your housework, and allow your mind to fixate on the thing that's annoying you most today and deal with that.

Set a realistic goal and stick to it. Assess your energy and time, and set yourself a goal that's doable. If you don't have the time or energy to do wash the floor and put the furniture back in, don't take it out. Ignore the voice that says "while you're here, just ..." because you might run out of energy or time, and a job half done leaves you frustrated and can be worse than not starting. If you finish the job you start and have something left, you can start another and get the satisfaction twice!

I grew up in a house that was not hoarded, but was very messy. (I often say it was the kind of house where you might say "what is that smell" for a couple of weeks before you find the source). My mother was always vocal about her hatred of housework so I never learned the skills of cleaning.

I'm also neurodivergent, and very prone to relying on the SHARP method of organisation (Stacks, Heaps, and Random Piles). Mac from Midwest Magic Cleaning in particular has helped me understand some of the psychology of my difficulties. And watching all these youtubers take homes from absolutely filthy to sparkling clean has made the idea of getting my house clean seem so much more realistic.

No one is wholesome. No one is "pure." Such expectation wears away at a person's soul. It is like handing someone a magnifying glass, and with that glass, they look at their life. The previous actions in their life. Sorting such actions into pure (precious, worth protecting) or evil (wrong, worth eliminating), and after measuring the weight of the actions, they decide if they themselves are good or bad. "Am I still pure? After looking at these actions, am I still wholesome enough to receive care and love?"

I've seen it and felt it. I recoil when I see others call people wholesome as a result. (Actions can be in good faith. That is 'wholesome'. But an entire person...?) It is a comforting word for some, however.

basically I think that if your protagonist doesn’t want to fuck someone so bad it makes them look stupid, then there probably isn’t enough energy in your story. “Fuck someone” isn’t literal btw—they can want to uncover the secrets of their parent’s death, they can want to prove their worth, they can want a donut from one particular bakery—it can be anything so long as they want it so bad that they’ll make decisions that make any sane person go “are you a moron??”, with little to no forethought, or even tons of forethought and this is still the option they chose. Because they want to fuck that thing so bad.

night time

Britney Spears in 2000･ﾟﾟ･｡☆

Song, Allen Ginsberg

You may say I’m a Dreamer (but I’m not the only one)

Like Dreamers Do (1957): I, I saw a girl in my dreams / And so it seems / That I will love her  |  Oh you, you are that girl / In my dreams / And so it seems / That I will love you   |  And I waited for your kiss / Waited for the bliss / Like dreamers do  |  And I, I, I / Oh I’ll be there, yeah / Waiting for you, you, you | You, you came just one dream ago / And now I know that I will love you / Oh I knew when you first said hello / That’s how I know / That I will love you

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All My Loving (1963): I’ll pretend that I’m kissing / The lips I am missing / And hope that my dreams will come true / And then while I’m away / I’ll write home every day / And I’ll send all my lovin’ to you

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Things We’ve Said Today (1964): Someday when we’re dreaming / Deep in love, not a lot to say / Then we will remember / The things we said today

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I’m Only Sleeping (1966): When I wake up early in the morning / Lift my head, I’m still yawning / When I’m in the middle of a dream / Stay in bed, float up stream (float up stream)

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Eleanor Rigby (1966): Ah look at all the lonely people / Ah look at all the lonely people | Eleanor Rigby / Picks up the rice in the church where a wedding has been / Lives in a dream

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Strawberry Fields Forever (1966): Always, no, sometimes think it’s me / But you know I know when it’s a dream / I think, er, no, I mean, er, yes / But it’s all wrong / That is I think I disagree

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A Day In The Life (1967): Woke up, fell out of bed / Dragged a comb across my head / Found my way downstairs and drank a cup / And looking up I noticed I was late / Found my coat and grabbed my hat / Made the bus in seconds flat / Made my way upstairs and had a smoke / And somebody spoke and I went into a dream

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Child Of Nature (1968): On the road to Rishikesh / I was dreaming more or less / And the dream I had was true / Yes, the dream I had was true […] Underneath the mountain ranges / Where the wind that never changes / Touch the windows of my soul / Touch the windows of my soul

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Oh My Love (1968): I feel the sorrow / Oh, I feel dreams / Everything is clear in my heart / I feel life / Oh, I feel love / Everything is clear in our world

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Good Night (1968): Now it’s time to say good night / Good night, sleep tight / Now the sun turns out his light / Good night, sleep tight | Dream sweet dreams for me / Dream sweet dreams for you

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I’ve Got A Feeling (1969): (I’ve got a feeling) / Everybody had a good year / (A feeling deep inside) / Everybody had a hard time / (Oh yeah) / Everybody had a wet dream / (Oh yeah) / Everybody saw the sunshine

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You Never Give Me Your Money (1969): One sweet dream / Pick up the bags / and get in the limousine / Soon we’ll be away from here / Step on the gas and wipe that tear away / One sweet dream came true today / Came true today / Came true today (yes, it did)

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The End (1969): Oh yeah, all right / Are you gonna be in my dreams / Tonight?

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God (1970): The dream is over / What can I say? / The dream is over / Yesterday / I was the Dreamweaver / But now I’m reborn / I was the Walrus / But now I’m John / And so dear friends / You’ll just have to carry on / The dream is over

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Imagine (1971): Imagine all the people / Living life in peace / You may say that I’m a dreamer / But I’m not the only one / I hope someday you’ll join us / And the world will be as one

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Jealous Guy (1971): I was dreamin’ of the past / And my heart was beating fast / I began to lose control / I began to lose control

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Country Dreamer (1972): You and I, country dreamer / When there’s nothing else to do / Me, oh my, country dreamer / Make a country dream come true

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Best Friend (1972): Well, I wake up in the morning, I’m still dreaming ‘bout you / Tell you, pretty baby, I’m blue / Wake up in the evening, I’m still screaming out / Over you, over you

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Hands Of Love (1973): But when I saw you last night / I knew for the first time / That you were the one I’d been dreaming of

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Six O’ Clock (1973): It could be the comfort going to my head / That makes me wanna dream of you / But while you’re sleeping softly in your bed / I wanna tell you, I’d like to tell you / I’d love to tell you too | I don’t treat you like I’d like to treat you / Every diamond in the sky is in your eyes / But I don’t treat you like I / No, I don’t treat you like I / No, I don’t treat you like I should

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#9 Dream (1974): So long ago was it in a dream / Was it just a dream? / I know, yes, I know, seemed so very real / It seemed so real to me […] Dream, dream away, magic in the air / Was magic in the air? / I believe, yes, I believe, more I cannot say / What more can I say? / On a river of sound / Through the mirror go ‘round, ‘round / I thought I could feel / Feel, feel, feel / Music touching my soul / Something warm, sudden cold / The spirit dance was unfolding

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In My Dreams (1974): [unitelligeble] is a dirty [unitelligeble] / It eats you away at the seams / [unitelligeble] for the injured / In my dreams

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I’ll Give You A Ring (1974): You look a little lonely / Maybe I could meet you / Tell me where to reach you / And I’ll give you a ring | I’ll take you to the pictures / I’ll miss the second feature / Lord, I can’t believe my eyes / I must be dreaming

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Nineteen Hundred and Eighty Five (1975): Oh my mama said the time would come / When I would find myself in, love with you / I didn’t think / I never dreamed / That I would be around, to see it all come true

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San Ferry Anne (1976): You’ve got a lot / And from what you’ve got / I’d say you’re doing well, dear | Dressed like a dream / And if things are what they seem / You’re looking swell, dear | Your little man / Brings you trinkets when he can / But he can’t stay, dear | That’s very well / But inside your shiny shell / You dance all day dear | So go, be gay / Let your feelings leap away / Into the laughter | San Ferry Anne / And the world keeps turning / Happy every after

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Real Life (1977): Was I just dreaming, was it only yesterday? / I used to hold you in my arms / And now the baby / And another on the way / Lalalala in a farm / Why must we be alone? / It’s real life

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Beautiful Dream (1979): If I had a dream, baby it’s the kind that will do / I gotta share it, share my dream with someone like you / The moon is shinning up above, and I got a heart full of love  |  What am I gonna do with it, baby? (3x) / If I can’t share it with you  |  I can’t toss it in the river / And I can’t toss it in the sea / I can’t write it in a paperback / So baby come and get it from me

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My Life (1979?): My life, take it, it’s mine to give / Take it, let me live in you / My life, take it, it’s yours / Do what you will, I dedicate it to you | What’s the use in waking / If you’re not there to share the dreams and nightmares?

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Summer’s Day Song (1979): Someone’s sleeping / Through a bad dream / Tomorrow it will be over / For the world will soon be waking / To a summer’s day

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Real Love (1979): All my little plans and schemes / Lost like some forgotten dreams / Seems that all I really was doing / Was waiting for you […] It’s real love

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Watching The Wheels (1980): People say I’m lazy / Dreamin’ my life away / Well, they give me all kinds of advice / Designed to enlighten me

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Borrowed Time (1980): When I was younger / Living confusion and deep despair / When I was younger / Living illusion of freedom and power | When I was younger / Full of ideas and broken dreams (my friend) / When I was younger ah hah / Everything simple but not so clear

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Twice In A Lifetime (1982): Who knows how to find love / Think before you give your answer / Who knows what a mystery may bring | Once in a life I’m a lucky man / If I can find the kind of love / That’s gonna last for me | Twice in a lifetime / Is one of those unspoken dreams / We usually reserve for fantasy | Who knows how we find love / Stop before you give your answer / Who knows when a mystery begins | I know, I know / I know because it’s happening to me / I know, I know

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We Got Married (1984): Working hard for the dream, / Scoring goals for the other team, / Times were bad, we were glad / We got married. / Like the way you open up your hearts to each other, / When you find a meeting of the minds. / Just as well love was all we ever wanted, / It was all we ever had.

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Lindiana (1984): Hold on Lindiana / Don’t let go of your dream / With your head held high you would touch the sky / In your long forgotten scheme / Hold on Lindiana / Don’t lose sight of your dream / It’s important (to us) to us

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However Absurd (1985): It’s funny thing, half serious, / With our hands on our ears. / Living dreams with mouths ajar, / Wide awake, we go to sleep. / However absurd, however absurd / It may seem.

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Don’t Be Careless Love (1987): Shadows play and flicker on the bedroom wall / They turn into a bad dream overnight, / Something could be terribly wrong. / Don’t be careless love (3x) | In my dream you’re running nowhere / Every step you’ve taken turns to glue, / Walking down a spiral staircase / Failing through, failing through

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The Lovers That Never Were (1987): For as long as the sun shines in somebody’s eyes / I believe in you baby, so don’t tell me lies / For as long as the trees throw down blossoms and leaves / I know there will be a parade of unpainted dreams

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Motor Of Love (1988): I can’t get over your love / No matter how hard life seems, / There’s a light in my dreams / Thanks to you

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I’ll Always Be Here (1991): [MARY DEE (as ghost)] I’ll always be here, / I’ll never leave you, / I’ll always be in your mind. / Dreams of the future, / Ghosts that the past left behind.  | [WOMEN’S CHORUS (ghosts)] You’re sleeping amongst us. / We’re in your dream. / Who are you? / Why call us? / What does this mean?  | [FULL CHORUS (ghosts)] Disturbing our slumber, / You move so fast.  | [SHANTY and MARY DEE (as ghost)] Ghosts of the past.

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Ghosts Of The Past Left Behind (1991): [MEN’S Chorus (ghosts)] You’re sleeping / Amongst us / We’re in your dream | [NURSE] You’re dreaming. Try to rest, my child

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Peace In The Neighborhood (1991): I was there, I really was / At the center of a love vibration / People sharing with their friend / Helping each other out / Peace in the neighbourhood / Helping each other out | Then I woke up from my dream / To see things as they really are / People struggling to survive / How can peace hope to stay alive?

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House Of Wax (2007): Lightning hits the house of wax / Poets spill out on the street / To set alight the incomplete / Remainders of the future | Hidden in the yard. Hidden in the yard | Thunder drowns the trumpets blast / Poets scatter through the night / But they can only dream of flight / Away from their confusion

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Lovers In A Dream (2008): Lovers in a dream / Warmer than the Sun

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Only Our Hearts (2012): But only our hearts will know / If we’re gonna spend it together / Only gone to the dreams that we share / Only our hearts know how much love is there.

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Demons Dance (2013): I can’t wait much longer 'til you tell me baby / There’s some chance we’ll get together maybe / Sooner or later I’ll be in with half a chance / I can’t wait 'til I hear you tell me that you want me. / 'Til then my dreams are gonna haunt me / Got my demons doing such a happy dance

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Back In Brazil (2017?): Back in Brazil / There lives a girl / Dreams of the future / And a far far better world | […] Back in Brazil / She feels afraid / Hope starts to crumble / And her dreams begin to fade

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Confidante (2018): In your reflected glory eye / Could dream of shining far off lands / Would serpents turn to bits of string / And play like kittens in my hand

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Hand In Hand (2018): We can make this dream come true / Only if we want it to / We can make this dream come true / Only when we understand / Everything in life is planned / Can we make this dream come true

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In A Hurry (2019): How could she leave? She’s gotta stay / Somebody has to sit and wait / Deep in a dream, she hears a voice / "It’s not too late to celebrate"

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‘Now, Kitty, let’s consider who it was that dreamed it all. This is a serious question, my dear, and you should not go on licking your paw like that—as if Dinah hadn’t washed you this morning! You see, Kitty, it must have been either me or the Red King. He was part of my dream, of course—but then I was part of his dream, too! Was it the Red King, Kitty? You were his wife, my dear, so you ought to know—Oh, Kitty, do help to settle it! I’m sure your paw can wait!’ But the provoking kitten only began on the other paw, and pretended it hadn’t heard the question.

Which do you think it was?

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        A boat beneath a sunny sky,

        Lingering onward dreamily

        In an evening of July—

        Children three that nestle near,

        Eager eye and willing ear,

        Pleased a simple tale to hear—

        Long has paled that sunny sky:

        Echoes fade and memories die.

        Autumn frosts have slain July.

        Still she haunts me, phantomwise,

        Alice moving under skies

        Never seen by waking eyes.

        Children yet, the tale to hear,

        Eager eye and willing ear,

        Lovingly shall nestle near.

        In a Wonderland they lie,

        Dreaming as the days go by,

        Dreaming as the summers die:

        Ever drifting down the stream—

        Lingering in the golden gleam—

        Life, what is it but a dream?

               THE END

— In Lewis Carroll’s Through the Looking-Glass, and What Alice Found There (1871).

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[Disclaimer: This is an exploration of the theme of John and Paul as Dreamers, as it appears in their songs. I don’t intend to claim that all/any songs are specifically about the other. Suggestions for additions are welcomed. My gratitude goes to @vairemelde for already giving one.]

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Also,

I Just Believe In Me | John’s Disillusionment

Insomnia | John and Paul’s Sleeping Schedule 

The Surrealist | Lennon-McCartney and Magritte

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plz reblog for science

- cherry wine is about domestic abuse. it’s now called a cute proposal song.

- too sweet is about seizing the day and ignoring healthy habits in favor of having more fun with unhealthy ones. he’s actively critical of himself in the song. it’s now called a song about thinking you’re superior for drinking black coffee.

- take me to church is about worship as a metaphor for sex. it’s called a religious song.

- eat your young is a song about war and political greed. it’s called a song about sex.

- now, the strongly political message of nobody’s soldier is being ignored in favor of calling it a metaphor for hozier’s relationship with his fans.

when are we going to stop simplifying hozier’s music down to cute little cottagecore bogman forest music? maybe you dont want to hear this but i don’t care. quit listening to hozier for the aesthetic. there’s a reason why empire now, foreigner’s god, butchered tongue, etc. songs with unignorable political messages are among his least popular songs.