(Daily Journal )

(Daily Journal 🌼)

Thu, May 16, 2024

//revenge time or healing time??? 🤔//

🤍- I'm grateful for my mom, my dad, my bro, and my little cat family, which always makes me smile (mama cat just gave birth to four more cuties, so there are seven of them now!). I'm really thankful for the clean air that I still can breathe despite being sick for a week :") I'm happy that I'm getting way better today, and hopefully I can start running again tomorrow!

< TODAY >

Cleaned my room

Did revenge study session, reviewing 5 chapters of Statistics + prestudy 1 chapter for next week

< TOMORROW >

Focus goals

• Feel my body again (get moving!!) • Nail the Statistics problems

Focus tasks 🌼

✅ Morning run (30 mins minimum, but aim for 1 hour) ✅ Solve 20-30 Statistics problems (9 AM - 12 PM)

Other tasks

• Do Laundry

20 may 2024 - radiology 🩻

academics

study material : musculoskeletal radiography

led a discussion on osteosarcoma diagnosis (thank god it’s over)

clinics (GI)

others

registered for blood donation

rsvp’ed as evaluation team to disaster response student volunteers (to do: review triage & first aid materials)

laundry

reading james baldwin. paused, got too sad :(

🎧 SU SU SU SUPERNOVA ‼️💯

16.05.24 🌼 i'm so relieved my ba thesis is coming to an end because i kinda like having free time and not having to spend every available second in front of a laptop

🍥 Going Challenge🌷Day 20 of 82 🌸

🗼今日の朝は少し難しな起きました。でも運動あと、私もっと大丈夫です。皆さん、ストレスはがりませんしょう(?)。ただ疲れたら、休みましょう ❤️ (it was a bit hard to wake up this morning. but after exercise, i feel better. everyone, let's not get stressed. if you're tired, just rest ❤️)

🗼 randomly changed all my folders to be labelled in Japanese last night

📒 i had a lot of thoughts late last night, so i journalled and planned for a long time to try to relieve my stress...

😌 quick gua sha this morning since my face was puffy from lack of sleep

⛩️ Japanese lesson to wake up

😌 i planned to watch my favorite mukbang over breakfast but i was so tired and had no appetite, so... i... didn't eat and just left it on casually while coding to lower my stress levels at work (also learned a new Japanese phrase! ちょっと待ってください~ please wait a moment~)

💸 called my insurance company... again... their customer service is... surprisingly amazing even if their coverage is... meh -_-

💪 pulled myself together enough to workout well ☺️ i decided today was an arms day~ 🏋️‍♀️ (bgm highlights: lalali, easy, hype boy, dope)

😌 zone out while cleaning randomly especially sooooo happy to have finally organized my hair accessories and journals (that have yet to be used because once people know you journal pretty regularly, suddenly all your gifts are journals and you can't keep up 😂)

🚘 driving lesson

🕵️‍♀️ read a chapter of An Incomplete Revenge (bgm)

📒 journal in Korean

💌: 今日はたったの四時間私の携帯電話を使った! (today i only used my phone for 4 hours!)

Please don’t compare yourself to my blog or other study blogs because they only show the highlights.

There’s nothing wrong with taking it slow and enjoying the language! We’re all here to learn because we want to. There’s no pressure to learn quickly. Learning a language is a lifelong journey, and there’s no rush to fluency. Whatever amount you’re doing, it’s okay and you’re welcome on this blog :-)

the devil’s whispers:

you can do it tomorrow (if you don’t do it now you’ll never do it ever)

you have a lot of time left (life is actually pretty short and we don’t have that much time)

you can skip this one little thing today (you are functioning solely due to the fact that you have a routine)

i must respond to this one thing that is bothering me immediately (you don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head)

I must check my phone (u don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head)

panicking is productive (panicking never makes a situation better, but in fact exacerbates it)

I must listen to music while doing the most minute task (u don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head. and I like music as much as the next person but moments of sheer silence are crucial)

I must befriend everyone (some people just don’t mesh together and that is ok)

I can skip working out for the day (working out does so much for ur physical AND mental health)

If misfortune happens to me it’s because I am uniquely unlucky (misfortune has nothing to do with preordained circumstances and everything to do with random odds)

If I am mistreated it’s because I am a horrible person and I deserve it (most times people are projecting their issues onto u and it has nothing to do with u)

if I make a mistake I am uniquely horrible (we are all human and we all make mistakes. the important thing is to hold ourselves accountable and learn from them)

I must have this one thing I really want now (u don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head. also whatever u want will still be here tomorrow so this sense of urgency is false)

I am uniquely hated/disliked/ostracized (most people are busy w their own lives and don’t have the time to be hating on u. and if they really are then their life is pretty empty and their opinion should not be held in high regard to begin with)