What If I Die In My Sleep And Nobody Remembers Me The Way I Want To Be Remembered.?

i was just lying in bed and the thought poped out in my mind all because the right side of my neck hurts when i turn my head how fun ! i need help Just a Thought and ill literally be in the worst outfit im not even wearing pyjamas like im wearing nice jocker socks tho that's something right how do i even want to be remembered as the kid that wanted to carpe diem but was too anxious and sensitive can i at least have a pride flag in my grave why am i taking this sk seriously im writing it like someone's gonna see it after my death i probably need sleep cause brain cells aint working good night y'all