Those Little Changes

Those little changes

I really hate it when I notice that something had changed, even how little they are. From the way you look at me, from the way you talk to me or from the way you smile that is not as goofy as before. Like we're back at square one, the indifference stage.

The way you look at me like we didn't have memories of the good old times we're laughing our asses off. The way you talk to me like you don't know how to start a conversation with me,when supposedly I'm the one who's always starting a conversation and we end up chatting with each other,jumping from one topic to another like we have our own little bubble. The way you smile is a smile you give to a stranger. It's not the smile you give me to me every time our eyes met. The smile that will make me smile or laugh because of how silly and cute you are when you're smiling.

But you know what I really hate? The wall that you're building, maybe because we know that soon we wil part ways, so you're distancing yourself to me. Can you not worry about that and treasure the time we have to create another wonderful memories to look back when we're apart from each other?

Can we just cross the bridge when we get there, cause I'm also afraid of the things that may happen but I'm most afraid that these changes will go on as we part ways.

I don't want to see you looking at me with those eyes and smile with your lips and talk to me with your mouth like I'm just a stranger with a lot of memories.

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once-in-a-magic

6 years ago

I miss my old energy

So, it's the first day of exam tomorrow and I'm gonna cram, after I post this tho.

You see I was a studious student back then, last school year.

I was doing well so good, even in Math!!

I pass the requirements on time, whether it was an individual or group activity. I always do extra effort in every task. Studying every time there will be a quiz, I always do my assignments at home, I always review if there's an exam. But that was before.

All the energy I have, the passion I have are drained.

Sure, I still do the things that are needed to be done, but it's not the same as last year. The will and the passion I felt while studying there was so overwhelming that I really miss it.

This year all I felt was how average I am.

I am neither good nor bad just in between

And it sucks big time.

I wish that the passion and the will I had back then will come back, maybe I lost it at my old school.

I better look for it there.