I Felt My Heart Flutter When I Saw That...

I felt my heart flutter when I saw that...

This 😍

Forgot to show y'all this!

I HAVE THE CAL KESTIS SHIRT!

Gotten it a few years back...from Macy's! Lol

Apparently, I have two copies of this shirt, the one I'm wearing above is short sleeved and the other one I have hanging in my closet is long sleeved...the reason why? Macy's got my order mixed up so for an apology, they gave me an extra...I have other merch wear which says a lot!

I need some personal help with this...

How should I word this?

YO ITS FRIDAY THE 13TH I JUS REALIZED!

Lol, fun fact for ME....

My mom doesn't ALLOW me to write smut, so my smut is secret safe here! I wrote smut for the first time and my mom was like...

it was in middle school...wanted me to delete everything...it was of Kylo Ren...

I then wrote smut again, this time I'm older...writing on these colored construction papers...and my dad was searching my room for something my mom wanted to have and I forgot to hide SAID collection and the next day I had "the talk"....with her questioning me why I have written smut again 4 years later...why is there smut written of female characters this time? I mentioned to her I like men AND woman, and she didn't buy that...saying if I write smut again, I will be punished....

This is why I wanna move out so I can live by my own rules...

so sorry this is story! lol

hey fun fact actually, smut can and does have plot in most cases! if you don’t want to read smut then don’t, some of y’all are so insufferably up in other people’s business all the time i need you to get a fucking job that isn’t being obsessed with smut writers. if you want fluff/angst/whatever else show some actual support for it! y’all say shit like this then don’t reblog your favorite writers’ fics, you’re all bark and no fucking bite.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!

being in a relationship with cameron monaghan…

masterlist

start and development of relationship

i think you and cam would be the embodiment of childhood best friends to lovers

your families were super close friends and lived next to each other in the los angeles suburbs

they made play dates, made sure you attended the same kindergarten, school etc.

this meant you saw each other literally every second of every day but you didn’t mind

every other weekend your parents would get together in their backyards and have a barbecue which meant the two of you would stay up the whole night together

you would fall asleep together, waking up in his arms or with his head on your stomach

casual display of affection because ‘you are just best friends and have been doing it since you were kids’

late night deep talks on the rooftop!!

trying your first cigarette together and breaking into fits of coughing and laughter as the hot smoke clashes with the cold night air

one time your parents asked you if you two were together and you denied it so fast lmao. like you were flustered!!

“imagine if we dated.” “imagine.”

when either one of you had trouble sleeping you would throw rocks at each other’s window to spend time together

you would always end up in the backyard, talking until you fell asleep

your parents found you like this most days

even they knew!!

“i know you better than i know myself”

you too were interested in the entertainment industry so sometimes you wouldn’t see each other for weeks

one day you get into a huge fight because the other went on a “date” and didn’t tell the other

“do they even know [small insignificant thing you mentioned once] …”

no one knew how to act until you kissed each other

the silence was so loud

“it’s always been you” / “i’ve always loved you” / “i have loved you all my life”

being each other’s firsts and lasts at the same time

he gifts you a necklace with his birthstone that matches the ring he bought himself (with your initial engraved)

being super excited when cameron gets cast in shameless!!

you got booked for your first tv show and started working on music

what the relationship would include

dedicating songs to cameron

forehead/cheek/temple/top of head kisses

making songs with cam!!

adopting pets together (bonus if its cats and dogs)

cameron appearing in your music videos

everyone being obsessed with you like they are with blake lively and ryan reynolds

cam’s hands are always on you!! around your waist, hand resting on your thigh, holding your hand, anything!! this man needs to feel you at all times

anytime there is a shameless cast reunion you’re automatically invited cause everyone loves you and you’re basically a part of the team

“there’s not a moment in my life where i haven’t loved you”

any award he wins he will always thank you first. it just comes naturally

i feel like he’s the type of boyfriend to save video edits of you

and then watches them when you’re away because he misses you…

so random but i have this tugging feeling that emma kenney and you would be super close. like when you catapulted to stardom during cam’s time on shameless, you were emma’s favourite singer and she’d always ask cam how you were and if you ever wanted to hang out with her

it was adorable!!

this + noel being the biggest y/n-nator (you sang at his wedding)

since we’re already talking about the shameless actors being your fans we cannot forget the nr.1 fan SHANOLA!!!

back to the things the relationship would include

late night beach trips

morning coffee runs with the dogs

cameron attending most of your concerts

bonus: fans film him jamming to your songs with your friends and family and they go super viral!!

cooking together, music blasting through the entire house as you dance together in your underwear

even in your thirties your parents still have weekly dinners. it brings back so many memories and a wave of nostalgia washes over you

just imagine how sexy cam would look in black linen pants and a white shirt (first few buttons undone) holding tongs as he stands by the grill with a beer in his hand inspo pic

cameron always cups your face, holds your face or places his hand on the back of your head when he kisses you!!

playing mario kart and cursing at each other (you did this as kids too)

occasionally late at night you have a couple of drinks and smokes, reminiscing about your childhoods

when cam hugs you he lifts you off the ground and does a little spin

leaning into each other when laughing

bonus: your/his wedding vows going something like this: “do you remember how our parents always used to joke that we'd get married one day? we’d get so defensive and embarrassed. they acted like they had us all figured out. now they’re in the front row having the last laugh […]” + imagine cameron singing an original song (something like perfect by ed sheeran)