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“star wars needs more nuanced female characters” you guys couldn’t even handle padmé deciding she was done with politics, didn’t want to serve anymore but did so out of obligation because the next queen asked, and then ultimately chose wanting her husband and children over saving what was left of the republic

girls on tumblr: am I making any difference in the world does my existence even matter

me precisely 0.5 seconds earlier, seeing their username on my dash: my FRIEND?? my friend POSTED something?! JOY joy JOY!!

So I firmly believe that everything Anakin did and said wasn't about him and what he needed to say, it was about what Ahsoka needed to hear and see.

There is so much to unpack within EVERYTHING of that episode but here's my attempt at trying to deconstruct the latter half of the Anakin & Ahsoka scenes:

"Ahsoka, within you will be everything I am"

For 15 years, Ahsoka thought that Anakin had died a Jedi. From the time she was 17 to the time she was 32 - it was a belief she held for her entire adult life! Her training as a Jedi was foundational to who she was (even if she wasn't a Jedi), and being trained by Anakin was the core of her Jedi training. For over a decade, she looked at that inheritance with nothing but pride over who had trained her and where she'd come from. And then she finds out what Anakin became. Obviously it's devastating to see someone who you consider family in the state, and to have them try to kill you! But the thing I'd never considered was how much it would make Ahsoka doubt herself. If Anakin trained Ahsoka - and you can bet she's now going over every memory of Anakin she ever has searching for double meanings, searching for signs of what he would become - what does that make her? What does that say about her training, and about all the lessons that shaped her?

"But my part of that legacy is one of death and war"

On top of that...Ahsoka has been a soldier and then a spy since she was fourteen. She was a literal child soldier! She was trained in nothing but killing and war, and then later had to train herself in killing and spying. Without a war to fight, who is she? Now that peace has (apparently) returned to the galaxy with the end of the Empire, what place does she have? What purpose does she serve? What knowledge of use does she have to pass onto Sabine?

"But you're more than that, because I'm more than that"

This isn't Anakin trying to defend himself, he's pointing out that to Ahsoka he means more than the death he caused, both as Jedi soldier and as Darth Vader. When he trained her, he didn't just teach her how to kill - he taught her how to respect and care about the men under her command, he taught her how to be brave in the face of insurmountable odds, he taught her how to be kind to the innocent. Clone Wars Anakin was just as much a Jedi as he was a solider, and so both trainings are what were passed down to Ahsoka. And his becoming Vader doesn't undo any of that. I don't think Ahsoka had ever figured out how to feel about Anakin's legacy, because how can she respect the man who became a genocidal monster? How can she respect and love and honor the man who tried to kill her? She should - well, not hate him, a Jedi (or even a not-Jedi) doesn't hate - but she should disavow him. But she can't, because he's still the man who stood up for her when the Jedi Council turned their backs on her, who drilled her in the lightsaber techniques that saved her life on Mandalore, who saved her life too many times to count and was her family. And she doesn't know how to reconcile those feelings with what Anakin became, and therefore she doesn't know how to reconcile the parts of herself that come from being trained by Anakin.

"You are more, Anakin. But more powerful and dangerous than anyone realized"

She's sidestepping the point by falling back on her default defense: Anakin fell to the Dark Side, and therefore everything that came out of his teachings - including her - is tainted. She still can't admit to herself that there was more to Anakin than his fall, and that all those parts of Anakin still mean something to her.

"Is that was this is about?" / "If I am everything you are-" / "then you've learned nothing"

She's still missing the point Anakin's trying to show her - that she carries his trainings and influence within her, but she is not Anakin. She is not tainted by Anakin's fall, and her fate will not be the same as his, because she's her own person who makes her own choices, and the good in Anakin's teachings - the good in her that came from them - doesn't just go away because Anakin fell. She's still so scared of Anakin's darkness - and what it says about her own inner darkness - that she can't see her own light.

"Back to the beginning. I gave you a choice - live, or die?"

For the last 10 or so years (however long since she returned from Malchor), Ahsoka's been in a holding pattern. All she knows is war, and she doesn't know what there is to life outside of fighting to live another day. She's terrified of who she is and of facing the ghost of Vader over her past. She's not living anymore, she's just surviving, moving from day to day. Anakin's telling her that's not enough anymore. Not being able to face her past and embrace her training literally killed her - Baylan was able to unbalance her enough to defeat her in a fight by stoking her inner discord. If she wants to return, she has to want to live, really live - she needs to find her direction in life beyond being a solider, and to do that she has to embrace her full legacy and training. If she can't do that, then she'll stay dead, stuck in the world between worlds.

"No-" / "Incorrect" / "You lack conviction" / "Time to die"

She still doesn't know how to see past Vader, so Anakin give her the opportunity to work through it in a way she can understand - by literally fighting her figurative demon.

"I choose to live"

By fighting Vader, by having the chance to kill him and embrace the Dark Side and realizing she didn't take it, realizing that she never even wanted to, Ahsoka finally realizes what Anakin's been trying to show her - she's not Vader, she never will be, because that's not who she is. Anakin's teachings are a part of her that she cannot escape, but there is more to Anakin's teachings than Vader, and there is more to her than what she has been taught. To find out what she is meant to be and move forward she must embrace where she came from. Only then can she return to the world of the living and move forward with her journey.

*reading the New Testament* getting a lot of Old Testament vibes from this

Hey so I really recommend the Jesus Revolution movie. Even if you aren’t a Christian, I still recommend it. This is not a movie that’s trying to condemn you. It’s genuinely and beautifully doing the opposite. I laughed and I sobbed watching it. Please go watch it.

MARY MAGDALENE (THE CHOSEN) ICONS

Please, like or reblog.

Por favor, dê like ou reblog.

"People out there want to define all of us by our pasts, but we do things differently because of Him."

If you see this you’re legally obligated to reblog and tag with the book you’re currently reading

#childhooddreambutmyparentswouldFREAK

Informal survey: reblog and put in the tags if you’re Protestant and ever wished you could be a nun/religious sister, if only it weren’t impossible. 

I really like the specific niche of star wars fans that are just obsessed with clones (like myself) bc I swear, we are the most avoidant group of ppl the galaxy has ever fcking met.

what do you mean Hardcase died on Umbara? he looks fine to me?

Fives? Died? girl when? last I remember he was choking the life out of chancellor palpatine

Waxer, dead because of Krell? not if you don't look at it he's not

Domino Squad? ALIVE AND BREATHING, THANK YOU!!

Ponds? killed by a bounty hunter? I'd like to see her try, Mace would kill her

99 will never die, fight me

Tup? are u crazy, I saw him yesterday, we hugged it out

THE ENTIRE 332 COMPANY? We are literally having drinks with them right now, what are you on about?

Jesse has never hurt a soul in his life, he is the goodest boy in blue, he would never raise a pistol to Ahsoka, stop talking okay??

Cody? kill obi wan? someone's been drinking the funny juice huh?

order 66 who? never heard of her, leave me alone, no I mean it. go away. stop. STOP, LEAVE!!

#hessome #ilovedallasjenkins

#thechosen #ilovethisshowmorethananything #thechosenseries

Leia Organa | from Star Wars: Women of the Galaxy

i wonder what it was like processing all of this shit in force ghost therapy for anakin and obi-wan. yes you're my father yes you're my brother yes i love you forever yes i hate (hated?) you yes i broke open the earth to throw you into the ground yes when i saw you unfiltered with my own eyes, crying, apologizing, it was supposed to be everything i ever wanted yes i am not your failure yes i thought of you every day yes i blamed you for everything yes it was really my fault yes we definitely still need to go through the 14 years we were family day by day to address each moment of pain and joy yes you are definitely a bastard yes that only makes all of this worse yes occasionally i would stare out at space and remember when you taught me to fight and to swim and first braided my hair yes i could never let you go yes that was a weakness yes it could also be called a strength yes you kept my son and daughter safe for the last 20 years of your life yes that makes me feel too many different things yes i am what you made me and yes. maybe im happy with that now

Don’t be afraid.

Obi-Wan: “I would never want to be in a relationship with a leader”

Also Obi-Wan: *constantly flirts with Satine Kryze*