I'm A New Blog Too And I Can Relate And I Can Relate. It's So Disheartening When I Put So Much Effort

I'm a new blog too and I can relate and I can relate. It's so disheartening when I put so much effort in my stories and a few don't receive any heart. There's no interaction. Whereas I write one zero story behind NSFW and wow, it's so popular. But I don't like writing those kind much and I genuinely love writing. But not receiving notes and interactions really makes me sad at times!

i miss 2020 tumblr where even if i was a small blog, just starting, people could be found through tags and their works could be seen. now that i thought of starting over because of what happened, i get no notes or interaction at all on anything i post since this reporting and flagged things happened. and i don't even write nsfw!

aw i’m so sorry bestie :( that must be rough. i agree. i miss 2020 tumblr too. truly the golden ages :’)

people are irritating and performative these days it’s very exhausting.

oh but! since you don’t write nsfw… i think you shouldn’t be too affected by the flagging. i think the issue you’re facing might be your tagging system.

idk too much about enhablr but i’d suggest you look at the top posts with a lot of notes and see which tags they’re using. they’re likely using the most popular tags. that’s how you’ll get more interaction.

it’s a common problem with new writers bcs people can be on here for ages but still not know which tags are most popular. once you crack that code… it’ll get easier ^^

good luck and happy writing! 💛💛 hopefully this whole reporting issue dies down soon enough.

Me rn 🥺😥

jungkook hugging jin because he doesn’t want him to leave 🥺

After the whipped cream!! Again! IN YOUR FUCKING FACE WOOYOUNG!!!

Y/N!!!

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ch. lxiv - the freak

wooyoung × reader, ??? × reader

buy me coffee ?

in a school filled with the affluent, it would only make sense for birds of a feather to flock. but what if your new status doesn't immediately buy you a way into said flock? what if instead, it bought you sure rejection? to the rich and powerful, having different masks is a must. despite some people knowing your true self and your secrets

As the car Soobin drove halted to a stop in front of the hotel entrance, you immediately felt nervous. Seeing this, Soobin reached to take your hand in this, capturing your attention. "Hey, you okay?" He asked, worriedly looking at you. "Would you rather Kai or Yeonjun hyung be here?" he asked with a pout on his face which made you roll your eyes and gently poke the spot between his eyebrows where it was creased, "No, Soobin, I asked you to be here with me so I'm very much glad that you are."

Your reassurance made Soobin smile and nod, "Okay, I understand. Let's get this show on the road," he said before exiting his side of the car. You took a moment to take a deep breath, reminding yourself that if you could slam the shit out of Choi San, you can definitely rock this evening.

Soobin jogged to your side after tossing the valet his car keys and opened your door. You carefully stepped out, not wanting to step on the blush pink Versace dress Yeonjun put you in. If you think you were a vision, Soobin in his Studded Barocco Silhouette Versace suit is a Baroque painting that came to life. You would never think that Soobin, who went to class in his bedhead, would be able to style himself like so. And you could lie to yourself, being in Soobin's arms made you feel confident. Who else could get such a catch like him?

It was obvious that you were not used to being confident, not used to being comfortable in what people would say your "playground". Among the rich business people, you, who thought of yourself as cubic zirconia, finally realized that you were just a diamond that became cloudy and dirty because of all the trash you surround yourself with. Aka, the A to Z bullshitters.

You had so much fun socializing with people in different business sectors, you got so much insight into the business models, corporate system and hierarchy, and even received offers should you ever be interested in doing an internship. And to your surprise, Soobin was... not Soobin. The man who made fart noises with Beomgyu whenever Taehyun explained why he can't choose between French and Italian opera was not there. This is PROFESSIONAL Soobin. He's charming, he smiles a lot, and he can use specific business jargon well. Heck, he even introduced you to the CFO of a Medical Logistics company that his mom's research lab partners with.

Whilst you were socializing, you managed to take a peek at your parents and you saw how they were keeping an eye on you whilst socializing with other people themselves. But from the look on your dad's face, they seemed very pleased with your ability to fit in. Unlike your brother who seemed to only be there for the booze. Whilst you were mingling, he only stood by the bar at the back of the room not talking to anyone except for his friend whom he managed to bring to the event. You recognized him as Boo Seungkwan, a student at Prestige Academy. You're not quite sure which class he's in, but you know that he's a big gossip. He somehow knows anyone and anything going on. When you bumped into him as you were getting yourself some water, he even recognized you and asked if Taehyun had warmed himself with you. It kind of freaked you out a bit, but you couldn't exactly be surprised.

It didn't occur to you that you were going too fast too quick. Soobin grabbed your shoulders just as you swayed on your feet slightly when you took a step away from the people you were just talking to. "Whoah, you okay?" he asked, carefully stabilizing you as he leaned down to look at you worriedly. You shook your head in an attempt to shake the wooziness away, "Oh, I- I'm fine, I just..." you chuckled to yourself, "Dizzy, I guess?" Soobin shook his head and gently guided you towards the ballroom door, "Yeah, we're gonna get you some space and air, okay?" "But-" "No buts, you need to get a breather," he scolded as if you were a child. You rolled your eyes and muttered, "You have no butt." Soobin couldn't help but chuckle at your retort and nudged you gently with his shoulder, "We should stop letting you hang out with Beomgyu, you've been learning bad comebacks from him," and you raised an eyebrow at him, "I learnt that from Yeonjun."

Once outside, you felt the cold air on your skin and you took a deep breath. "I'll be right back, okay? I'm gonna get you some water," Soobin said before walking back inside the building.

"Seems like you finally found your confidence,"

You snapped your head and your body immediately tensed when you saw the figure taking steps closer to you which made you take a step back.

Wooyoung raised an eyebrow at you, "Are you seriously scared of me?" he scoffed. You couldn't help but furrow your eyebrows at him, "Can you blame me? Last time we had direct interaction you humiliated me in front of everyone at school," you pointed out. Wooyoung laughed and you noticed he was laughing at you sarcastically. The sound of his voice triggered your fight or flight response but your brain was unable to make a decision on whether you wanted to fight or take flight. Normally you'd immediately take flight, confrontations scare you, but your recent behaviour suggests that you should have been fighting your whole life.

"Did you forget that you threw whipped cream on my face?" "Whipped AND shaving cream, actually. Didn't have enough whipped cream because Mingyu made a lot of buttery nipples the day before," you corrected and Wooyoung just nodded. "And you seem more brazen too it seems. Those boys did a number on you," Wooyoung stated.

Hearing him talk about your new friends as if they were bad influences on you made your eye twitch. "What do you mean 'did a number'? They brought my confidence out," you defended. "Confidence?" Wooyoung scoffed, "Crashing your parents' event, attacking your friends in public, and then botching their grades intentionally, you really think those are confidence?" You couldn't answer him. Because he made a point. Was it really confidence or were you just acting recklessly?

With another step, Wooyoung now stood close to you. He let out a slow sigh as his hand reached forward to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear, "Believe it or not, I'm worried about you. I know you best because I have known you the longest and I can say for sure that this... Side of you... It's not you at all. It's what you think you should act based on who you befriend." You hated how his touch still affect you. Even after what happened to you two, due to the years of befriending him, he still feels like your confidant, your comfort. His hand began to softly caress your hair, "I just... I don't want you to change. I don't want the (y/n) that I knew, that I grew up with, to disappear," he confessed. At that moment, Woyooung was being genuine. The things he told you, it was true. He had never thought that whatever it is between you two would have happened. He never expected to lose you.

After the cake thing, he expected that there would be some strain, maybe awkwardness for a week or two. The text he sent you when you skipped school was a bad call on his part. The peer pressure, the way people were gossiping, it got into his head. Not that he was trying to excuse his behaviour, be he was just scared that his reputation would get a hit and his dad would find out. He didn't want to be so affected by his family or his dad, especially by the burden of being a member of his family. The one person whom he could talk to about his true feelings distanced herself from him and while he understood and couldn't blame you, it definitely sucked. Plus, seeing you around and changed by the people who betrayed him was not something he had hoped for.

Just as Wooyoung thought he was getting to you, your hand shot up and grab his. The grip was stronger than he imagined and it was evident that he was surprised based on the way he was staring at you with wide eyes. "No, you just hate that I'm not submitting myself to you anymore," you said. Wooyoung tried to pull his hand away from you but your grip was dead tight. "You simply didn't want to lose something that you thought you had," you let go of his struggling hand but you didn't let your gaze off of him. "You know, I always wondered why you never introduced me to your friends before I transferred here and... At first, I thought you were embarrassed of me, but I think it's because you didn't want to share me with anyone else unless it's necessary." While it was true that you were curious about why Wooyoung was so adamant about not letting his friends know you before, you were simply spitballing. But the look on Wooyoung's face let you know that you hit a nerve.

You don't know what came over you, but you took a menacing step forward, causing Wooyoung to take a step back. "You're... Possessive, territorial. But you're scared. You might be loud and extroverted, but your dad haunts you worse than how demons would." Wooyoung furrowed his eyebrows at you, "You'd know all about a demonic haunting, wouldn't you?" he spat. You chuckled and smirked at him, "So would you, don't you think? You've watched enough movies with me to know things and considering you let your dad's reputation hang over your head should've made you realize how bad it could get." You waited for Wooyoung to say something, anything, but you know that your words are sinking into his head. Finally knowing why Wooyoung is... Wooyoung, it made you pity him slightly. Only slightly because you're still pissed that he'd use you and now that it's out there, tried to gatekeep you from people. That's why he made you so submissive. That's why he diminished you down to being an assignment mule so you won't know the things that you're actually capable of. The oppression from your environment might be worse than you thought if you let yourself not even recognize your own abilities. And you're pissed at yourself for it.

"Is everything alright here?"

Both you and Wooyoung turned to the source of the voice to see Soobin standing with a glass of water in his hand. One of his eyebrows was raised and his stature tall(er), as if to assert dominance and send a message to Wooyoung that he's one wrong move from him away to pouncing on him like an animal.

You smiled at him and shook your head, "No, everything's fine, Thoob," Wooyoung's fists balled tightly when he heard your sweet voice calling Soobin by his nickname. "We should get back inside. Mr and Mrs Oh are looking for you," Soobin smiled at you. You nodded and turned to look at Wooyoung one last time, "Detach yourself from whatever's pushing you down, Woo. I did and I'm the best version of myself right now and I like the way I turned out I can be because I'm with the right people," you said before walking away.

Soobin offered you his arm and you took it gratefully. "What was that all about?" he asked as he handed you the glass of water. You took a sip before shaking your head and glancing at Wooyoung who was staring at your retreating figure, "Me doing something I should have done a long time ago."

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The contrast! 🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻

To think, both were said to the same person :)))