Skinned Her...

Skinned her...

AI valentines I've been working on!! They're finally finished yayyy

me when the disability disables me: oh what the fuck? this sucks. what the hell man!

Really want to do a valentines drop but i dont think my edgar charms and 2001 lanyard restock will make it in time >_< grrrr

But i ammm thinking about making the shaker charm designs into acrylic pins if anyones interested !!!

bc i dont think ill restock the shakers but the design is fun still so id like to still use it..

"Not everyone is going to like you."

And look, I logically get that. Different personalities, different beliefs, views etc.

But the high masking autistic side of me deeply wants to know why and how I can change it because this outward personality has been carefully crafted over decades of successful scripts, reading books on body language, conversation studies and people watching.

I have carefully pruned back the parts of myself that others find distasteful, weird, off-putting...the "uncanny valley" effect that I give if not carefully schooling every single aspect of my outward appearance.

So, when that's rejected, there is a part of me that needs to know why. What needs to be pruned? What needs to be further detailed like a sports car so that I'm running correctly and I'm appeasing to everyone?

And also... This is an aspect I'm trying hard to unlearn. I was diagnosed late so my whole personality was built upon these rules and laws of interaction. Unlearning that and trying to accept that being me, authentically, is okay...that shit is difficult.

Anyway. Sorry to be an English major on main but yes all stories have meanings and say things