Maybe Its Not Our Fault | L.sangyeon

maybe it’s not our fault | l.sangyeon

synopsis: you knew this was a problem that was bound to come up when you started dating the one and only, the boyz’s leader, lee sangyeon - fans.

pairing: tbz’s sangyeon x reader

genre: angst!!!

wc: 1.2k

network(s): @kflixnet

warning: obsessed fans, cursing, hate speech towards reader (derogatory terms)

leona was listening to: maybe it’s not our fault by yerin baek

not proofread

note: guys pls listen to the song but sangyeon’s cover version while reading this it would make your experience so much better /gen

“sangyeon, i don’t know how much longer i can do this,” you said, looking down at the floor, refusing to meet his gaze. “y/n, what are you talking about? are you hearing yourself?” he was angry, but at most of it all, he was confused, at a loss of words even.

“of course, i’m hearing myself, did you forget what happened last week? we can’t even be happy together, it was our one year anniversary, for god’s sake!” you were fuming to say the least. after last week’s events, you weren’t sure how to go forward in this relationship anymore.

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“baby, are you ready yet?” sangyeon called out to you as you came out of the room, replying to him in a cheery tone, “yup, let’s go!” just like that you guys were on your way to spend a fun-filled day at lotte world. it was rare that you guys could go to such places but you figured it would be okay since it was the weekdays and school holidays wouldn’t be coming around til next month.

however, when you guys arrived at the said place, you were taken aback by how many fans had gathered, just to catch a glimpse of their idol. you had no idea how they got wind of sangyeon coming to lotte world that day but all the feelings of disappointment and frustration came rushing back to you.

sangyeon noticed how aggravated you became so he caressed your hand but that wasn’t enough to turn your mood around. sangyeon insisted that you guys continue with the plans because he knew and trusted that his fans would respect you guys’ boundaries.

but as soon as you step foot out of that van, sangyeon was proven very wrong. fans swarmed you guys, flashing cameras almost blinding your eyes, the high pitched screaming coming from all directions gave you a headache. yet all you could make out was the harsh threats thrown to you, “you bitch! that’s our man!”, “stay away from him!”, “he deserves someone prettier, not a rat-looking girl!”, “you don’t deserve him, what are you even doing with him! you just want fame and money, don’t you!”

you knew better than to believe what they were saying but you couldn’t shake off that feeling of not being good enough. if fans were saying this about you, there must be something about yourself that they realise isn’t up to standards.

the fans blocked your way and you eventually got separated from sangyeon, causing them to take advantage of the situation, pushing you around as if you were some ragdoll. pain surged through you as you took strong blows to your ribs and you wondered where the hell sangyeon was, only for you to realise security had been called and when you were carried to the van, sangyeon stared back at you from inside.

you were disheveled, your hair messed up and your face was contorted in pain and all sangyeon could do was stare at you in shock.

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“i want to be able to do normal couple things like taking a stroll in the park or even watching a movie at the cinemas without having to sneak around and speak in hushed voices, sangyeon,” you muttered, tears eventually dripping down your cheeks and into the palms of your hands, “how much longer do i have to endure this from your fans that you love so much? will we ever be happy and free?”

“so, what? are you going to break up with me, just because of the fans?” sangyeon’s voice quivered as he tried his best to stand tall in front of you. “i thought our love was stronger than this, y/n.” you thought he was going to storm out of the room but he didn’t. after all, sangyeon was never the type to walk away from his problems. that was just how he was, a responsible and caring man you fell in love with.

but now, are you falling out of love? where did this insecurity come from? why was your heart feeling so anxious? “it is, sangyeon. i have faith in us but your fans say otherwise,” you sniffled, wiping your tears by yourself.

“fans, fans, fans, that’s all you think about! have you considered my feelings about this? you went into this relationship, knowing fully well that this plays a huge part for us, you need to get your priorities sorted honestly!” he didn’t realise what he said was too hurtful until he saw your surprised expression, the eyes he found so beautiful, glossed with tears threatening to spill.

“n-no, wait, y/n, you know i didn’t mean any of that,” he said, making his way towards you. “save it, sangyeon, you said what you said,” you stood up abruptly, ready to leave the apartment but before you could do that, a hand held your wrists and spun you around into a tight, warm embrace.

“i’m serious, i said all of those out of anger, i would never think of you that way,” he mumbled into your neck, the tears you had wiped away earlier on squeezed their way out your eyes. “y/n, my love, look at me. i am so in love with you and i’m not going to let you go just because of this. you mean so much to me and i don’t know what i’m going to do without you. so please, don’t leave me.”

you managed to look him right in the eyes and you could see how sincere he was. you knew he meant every single word he just said. a drop of tear had rolled down his cheek and his lips trembled as he begged and begged you not to leave him.

you swiped away at his tears, pulling him close, arms wrapped around his shoulders as you rubbed his nape, giving him all the comfort you could offer him, “i love you too, sangyeon, i’m sorry.”

“we’ll get through this together, sweetheart, i promise.”

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wew, angsty fic about sangyeon??? i’m dead, legit cried while writing

love, leona!

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you are down to earth (most of the time at least). you have a good head on your shoulders, and people admire you for the way you know how to handle yourself in any situation. however, when you get with your friends, you know how to have a great time too. people admire your silent strength, passion, and dedication to the things that you care about. your friend group dates would probably be taking walks because you appreciate nature and the little things in life......... but also group facetimes where you have competitions of who can make the ugliest face. also...... tell me why everyone is secretly in love with you and you would make the best significant other

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you are so pretty, like, the prettiest in the room at any given time. people are intimidated by how put together you are. you might come off cold at first, but when people get to know you, they realize you care more about your loved one than yourselves. you’re probably super smart but really humble about it xoxo. the four of you would be one of the most down to earth friend groups, and the one that everyone comes to for advice <33 but also the type of friend group that spends hours at the mall, trying on outfits and hyping each other up even if it’s a forever 21 shirt that says “I <3 tacos”.

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DID YALL HEAR JACOB’S COVER YET ONGSHDDJKD IM IN TEARS HE SOUNDS SO GOOD I CANNOT THE WAY HE SAYS I REALLY LOVE YOU AT THE END MY HEART BROJFKFKFJFKFK

theyre doing okay !! everyone went out tonight and i hung back to work on my literature assignment and im actually hanging out with them rn !! theyre sleeping whilst i angry type and awh at them THEYRE PROBABLY SICK OF ME JUST SQUEALING WHENEVER I SEE THEM BUT THEYRE DOING AMAZING I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING OMG

glad to hear that they’re doing okay!! i hope your literature assignment is going well hehe, it was a good decision to stay back and not go out ⊂(・▽・)⊃

AND DW IFY MY CATS ARE PROBABLY SO SICK OF ME HUGGING THEM EVERYTIME PLSS ALSO NW I LOVE TALKING ABOUT CATS UWUWUWUEUE

does anyone else play superstar tbz… bc this is so funny

they cleared the hard mode and we are the ones who receive a prize HELPPP thank you tho 😝😝

i love u sm bro and you are an amazing human being love you bro <3

bro.. this is so wholesome AAAA, thank you sm mae (づ￣ ³￣)づ love you, you’re an amazing person aswell <3 take my hugs