Me + You: A Love Story

Me + You: A Love Story 

by Jack Tew

Still.

I don't think I would ever want to be sad or make another one feel that way. Much to my dismay of how we're capable of bringing a person in a gray place despite loving with good intentions, despite wanting to pick up the broken pieces and make it a little bit whole than it ever was. I guess, we can't always be an answer or even proudly hold that title. Moreover, we get to redefine love better as we hurt, we get to embrace its concept deeper when we allow ourselves to feel its impermanence, in presence; but love, in its untouchable form, never fades. It's kept inside our hearts' pockets and we'd always peek through these unhealed holes and see it there, feel it throbbing telling us to shut up and love more, to let it explode beautifully and make others catch its debris because people deserve a little part of it, despite the hurt, we all like it anyway. Life and its detour, happens, not because its supposed to be negative. Maybe it's just another way of finding redefining. Love is never completely gone, it rests. But it's rebellious that way, that's why it annoyingly tries again. Steer clear away from excessive, love better in an enough manner, understand the dark parts and the beauty of balance. Life, is short, and there isn't enough time to dwell on built-in misery we can always fight off. Stay still.

What are your ground rules/conditions/checklist if someone wants to win your heart back?

I think I misplaced my heart Idk where it is? Haha. Who are you? Hello, I’m answering still.

I’m probably the most uncomplicated but straight-forward) human being I think, I bore/scare the s out of the ones I date. Anyway, in terms of ground rules and checklists; the thing I’m really into is just being plainly direct? No mind games/manips, it’s a waste of time. Tell me what you want, say it, I give it to you; vice versa.

Next, this one’s important to me. I think the thing that I really need the most is having someone who understands life deeply or better than I ever could. Please. Still in the works, I am not honed nor ever a concept, I am trying. Just hold my hand while I solve this, I’ll hold yours.

Uhm, I don’t say this a lot but I terribly need a guide to spirituality and maybe that’s why I gravitate towards the religious…. well, most of the time. Haha? But, yes, I think? I lack that. Putting God in a center of a relationship works, it’s not a cliché because not everyone is in for that anymore. Rarely, especially in this generation.

Emotional support, yes, because I cry too, I lowkey cry a lot. Hihi. Hug me? Ty.

Probs be with who I could call up and cling to just to eat sushi while I'm still in my pajamas. Hehe.

Idk if growth and comfort could ever co-exist. Maybe? Maybe not. Maybe? Maybe. But it sure is a beautiful thing to witness growth and feel at peace because you’re home but still moving.

Travel junkie, has that severe hunger to feel responsibly free. Yes.

I felt a bit cheesy just by answering this one. I really don’t know if it’s adult-ish. Looool, forgive. Anyway, thanks stranger! :)

Mornings of a thinker.

Woke up today feeling a bit steady. I swore to myself I’d practice mindfulness everyday after being in a month full of unnecessary anxiety and worries I probably created myself which I really don’t have to? It’s a mind play. I even deleted all the songs with words in my playlist so I wouldn’t dwell on the emotional side of any song. I’ve been listening to instrumentals for quite a while? Hehe, dork. Life is a surprise and I have been here, I can’t say I know the ways through it because If I did, I wouldn’t be in the same situation again. Maybe I need to learn a lot still, to embrace my lapses and think about all my wrongs and correct it, there’s always a chance to correct it. Yes?

Anyway, I really just want to blog because I felt at peace this morning. Aside from the unexplained tiredness and muscle pain as I opened my eyes, hearing subtle movements, craving caffeine and wanting to sleep more. (Haha!) Questions did bothered me. 

What do I want out of life?

Stability.

In my own terms though; financially, emotionally, spiritually. Not in the ways where I’d let someone hand it over. I want hard work. I like my own discovery. There’s comfort knowing I could stand on my own, afford my wants and support my own needs first. Also, help my family in the little ways I could.

I want a life where I won’t worry about tomorrows.

Fulfillment.

It’s a battle.There are days I lose my touch to the things I really want for myself and I die inside when I let it win. But what the heck right? If I am really made for it, I’d do something about it. I just want to cancel out the whining and just do, ‘til I find myself in the right place over and over.

Simplicity.

No questions, I like myself best in this setup.

What else? Is there anything else?

Guess those are the only three vital and realistic things I should aim for.

Forgot to post my month ago travel vlog! :)

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