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Dreams
Hi, it’s me, Melody! What I wanna talk about this time is, dreams. Some teenagers have dreams about what they wanna do in the future and some simply doesn't have one.Dreams do play an important role in peoples’ lives. It’s totally fine if you don’t have one now, I believe you’ll find yours someday.
As for me, I wanna be rich, like crazy rich, like a millionaire. Well, that’s actually a really common one if you think about it but still let a girl dream. Besides, it’s not entirely impossible for us, is it? There’s also another one; it’s to travel around the world. I’ve always wanted to visit those beautiful places that exist in this incredible world. That’ll be a great luxury. Imagine spending a night in an expensive suite and enjoying the scenery of the city. Everyone would love that, wouldn’t they? Okay so, before I get carried away with my daydreaming, I’ll stop this here and talk about my current reality.
After I graduated from high school, I was actually lost about what to do. But then, I ended up choosing my university major as an IT student. Simply because there weren’t any other better choices that interest me. Back then, I was thinking, maybe I’ll become a game developer and apply for a job at a company. I got that idea solely from my love towards otome games (which are anime simulation types). But everything changed when my parents wanted me to continue their business in their stead. I had no interest in their work and I was strongly against the idea. They finally gave up but everything I’ve thought about until then crushed and I became lost again. I’ve decided to become a freelance software developer or something along the line at least. So that way, I can still fulfil my dream of traveling while I’m also able to work no matter where I am. My career path is pretty much unclear but I refuse to give up on my dream. I hope one day I’m able to do as I wish and see my dreams becoming a reality.
Thank you for reading till the end. I wish for you to find your dreams if you don’t have one yet and for those who has one, I wish you achieve it as soon as possible. Spreading love and kindness to everyone. I hope you have a good day!
~Melody~
Day 1
I thought why not do the 30 days writing challenge, it’ll be fun so here it is.
day 1 : describe your personality
Actually, I don’t know where to start with this. As a teenage girl who’s currently going through a growing up process, my personality changes a lot. Sometimes I went from 0 to 1000 real quick, which I mean like “I’m a fabulous queen” to “I’m a living failure who has no purpose in life”. It’s nothing too surprising though, I feel like most people can relate to this too. If I have to describe myself, I’m kinda savage and rebellious with my family, can seem cold to strangers, but actually nice with friends and bubbly. I have trust issues and family issues so it usually takes a lot of time to get to know me or for me to warm up to people. I have a positive mindset most of the time and is self-motivated and I’d say I’m pretty good at healing myself. I’m an ambivert, I’d like to stay quite but that doesn’t mean I don’t like participating in conversations or discussions. I like taking the lead in life and everything but I can be a good follower too. I’m also a feminist. I think that’s about it, I’m still changing and nothing really is set in stone. Sometimes, I even give myself a complete makeover ‘cuz I’m bored. So, these are common facts I can think of at the moment, about me.
I wish whoever’s reading a good day and happiness. Spreading love to people.
~Melody~
Day 2
day 2: things that make you happy
It usually doesn’t take much to make a teenager happy. For me, I’m happy when I’m alone around nature or flowers, when I'm reading a good book indoors with a cup of warm coffee while the rain gently pours outside. I love my own company and some little things make me happy. I’m happy when I’m daydreaming and when I’m doing whatever I want. Well, there’s not much I can say I guess.
I hope whoever’s reading this a great day and wishing for your happiness. lots of love from me.
~Melody~
Day 3
day 3: a memory
I had trouble thinking of this one. People tends to remember sad things over others, I do remember sad days far better than good memories. But I'd like to share a crazy memory. It was a year before my high school graduation, I signed myself up for a school play under the “stop human trafficking” champaign. I also signed myself up for the script writer and director. The chaos started there; the people in my class had literally no respect against each other. They rarely followed my instructions as a director, they did everything as they wished. I made a mistake in choosing the main actress and only realised that when she started causing trouble around the group. She had an argument with the main actor, with the setting crew and with literally everyone. It was such a huge mess. Despite the chaos inside our group, we managed to at least get the third prize. I was aiming for the first place with our script but we had to make do with that. Not to mention, I had to rewrite the script countless until the competition day drew near. Seriously, that gave me a lot of headache as the organiser. I've learned my lesson there too. What a crazy experience.
Anyways, I hope whoever’s reading a great day. Sending love to everyone.
~Melody~
day 4
30 days writing challenge
day 4: places you want to visit
Everybody knows what I’m going to scream when asked this question; Japan! My number 1 favourite country. I’ve always dreamt of living there since I was very young. As you may or may not know, I'm an otaku and crazy about everything in Japan. 🇯🇵 My dream country.
Next is Korea; I’ve recently started staning the best boy band; BTS and became an ARMY. So the desire to go there is rising with time and needless to say, Korea is a beautiful place.
After that, I want to go to Paris; city of love, I've always wanted to go there too. Whether it be just me, myself or with my friends or with my special someone. It doesn’t really matter, the place is already romantic in its own ways. And then, the big apple, and many more. As I stated in my previous posts, my dream is to travel around the world but these are the places I want to go the most and first.
I hope whoever’s reading a great day! Spreading love around.
~Melody~
day 5
30 days writing challenge
day 5: your parents
This is a sensitive topic; I never really tell people what I’m going through. One, cuz’ I don’t trust them, two, they won’t understand, three, I’m lost myself. My parents and I don’t have a very good relationship, at least from my perspective. Sure, they give me anything I could possibly want but it’s not that simple. In the past, I was stressed, depressed and my insecurities were drowning me. It’ll be unfair to say they’re the cause of those but they’re related to those in many ways. My parents make me feel emotionally drained. I’m not really sure it’s ok to put the blame on them; I mean I know they’re stressed themselves and had anger issues and had no clue on how to raise kids properly. I can’t be in the same place as them, it suffocates me. At least, thanks to them, I’m who I am today; mature for my age, learned to fight insecurities and depression. We all go through many hardships in life, and they shaped you into who you are. Well, I'm proud of who I am actually. And I made a vow to myself that when I get married and have kids in the future, I'll make sure they know they’re loved, and raise them the best of my abilities and not let the history repeat itself.
I hope whoever’s reading a great day, stay safe and loved.
Day 7
30 days writing challenge
day 7 :favourite movie
As I'm an otaku; my first and foremost favourite movie must be Howl’s moving castle. I love that movie very much, I love both the illustrations and storyline. I think it’s a wonderful movie.
Another one has to be spirited away, although I'm not a fan of the female protagonist, I really love the plot and the male protagonist. This also is a wonderful movie, and I love the supernatural genres.
Have a nice day everyone!
~Melody~
❤️ F•R•I•E•N•D•S ❤️ ~;~;~ I'd say have tissues at the ready. I cried because of happiness as much as sadness. This show has given me comfort in my dark days and also a gang who seem to be there for me always 🥰 This reunion, many of them might underestimate it or even condemn it, but they do not know... Do not understand how much seeing this cast, these characters, that world come back to us in this way after 17! years 🤩 And I think they did a damn well job at bringing this reunion to us 💕 First off, the cast were so endearing and amazing as themselves but we all saw how much they'd put themselves into those characters and how very much alike they are to their characters. It was a great decision to not to shoot another episode but give us that sense of nostalgia along with special cameos and recreation. To see them break down after so many years on those sets, was something else altogether 🥺 The whole reunion cuddled you into warmth and gave you that sense of comfort and support in these trying times. 🥰 The cherry on the top of this reunion were • The Bloopers! - couldn't get enough of them 😂 • The Sets! - ab-freaking-lutely amazing! 😍 • The Quiz! - wonderful scripting (as one will expect with friends!) 🤩 • The Cameos! - They were all so cute and it made me cry 😢 • The Fashion Show! - Didn't expect that at all! 🤯 All in all I adored and loved and savoured the whole show without blinking 🥺 The hang over hasn't ended with the show and it'll not end with the reunion 💖 It is one of those things that'll define me and my life 🥰 #miracleswords 🧑🤝🧑👫👬 #friends #friendsreunion #friendsseries #series #reunion #monicageller #rachelgreen #chandlerbing #joeytribbiani #phoebebuffay #rossgeller #courtneycox #jenniferaniston #matthewperry #mattleblanc #lisakudrow #davidschwimmer #hbo #friendship #reunion #trending #trend #write #writing #love #life #reesewitherspoon #bts #bloopers #justinbieber (at Bengaluru) https://www.instagram.com/p/CPYQ0v4FO6H/?utm_medium=tumblr
"God made us in his image." He used himself as a reference for shaping us up with our different forms of his creation. How our bodies should and can be, how our back stories are supposed to be written, and also how we can find the end of the chapter of the book just in time to create another sequel in our next book. It feels fascinating to know the powers we all have in our own differences. Even if God created enemies upon us seems to be fine since he does seem to be preparing us to face them in an epic combat or find a way to solve it all. Either way, we are all in each other's stories until the next book is opened. -Andrew P. Wheeler
Tuesday, 6th of August / Mardi 6 août 2024
Yesterday, I forgot to write about my day so I'm doing it now.
So, since I was working until late, (because I'm always more focused at night), I slept late, so I woke up at 11 something and was still so damn tired.
That day, I was supposed to go karting because I had 12 tickets from a year ago that were expired very soon (it would have been more than a 100€ wasted)
So I had to vacuum the house before going out, it made me sweat like crazy and I ran out of deodorant and I don't even have time for a quick shower before going out, so I'm scared of smelling very bad, plus I'm tired so it very much makes me angry (but I think it was more stress than something else, since I was supposed to also organise it so I go with my cousins, but social pressure makes me ughhhhh)
Anyway, my cousins in the end were busy so they were not coming, at least I have this pressure off my shoulders. I dont know why but having to organise something with so many people put so much pressure on me.
So it was just me and my 4 sibling (yes you heard that right, and yes I am actually the oldest sibling, help). And my mother.
Glad she also came, I could not for the life of me keep all those dangerous sibling under control without going crazy.
At least, I have a brother my age, but the 3 left are young children.
So anyway, we go and have to walk a lot because for an unknown reason the bus doesnt go until the karting place.
We arrive, we share the tickets, there are 6 tickets for children so they take 2 each.
And 6 for adults so we take 3 each me and my bro.
It was fun. I rode the kart like crazy, it was on concrete, outside, so it equals mode adrenaline. There were lots of turns/curves and the goal was to do a lap as quickly as possible.
Each time I rode, I was getting used to the kart so I was going faster. I once tried to see how fast I could go during a turn but I messed up and when I was turning, I got straight into the foam barriers at my right. The hit was so powerful I moved the barriers, I hoped no one payed attention because I felt like a guilty bisch.(You know this feeling when you're a child and you feel like you're going to get grounded bcs you messed up and you feel very guilty? It's a feeling that stayed, I'm scared of autority, or people coming and telling me I did bad ಥ_ಥ )
Anyway, I made sure to quickly move on and not overthink. Another time, it was at the start of the 2nd race, I did not expect the kart to turn this easily, so by turning right I did a 180° turn, I was turned on the opposite direction of the race, so I quickly turned, got back on track and carried on.
Then, during the 3rd race, I made my worst mistake. So a bit of context; There was a girl (prob around 20y old) during the race she was going very slowly meanwhile everyone else was fast, it's not a problem, maybe she's scared or it's her first time, it happens, she has her reasons.
But, I once happened to be riding near my brother, so I started I to race him to go past him and win, but it was right when we were approaching to where the girl was. Just so you know, the road is broad enough for 2 karts to pass, not 3, and even for two you have to be careful. So my brother sees her in front and starts to slow, but I don't, I'm behind my brother, their cars are next to one another, I don't have enough time to slow down so I just completely ran into them.
I so powerfully hit my brother who in turn hit the girl. I swear I'm sorry and did not do that in purpose. My kart kept going but it made my brother's kart do a 180° turn, same for the girl.
So I slow down again, look behind, their cars are turned the wrong direction, I thought for a second I saw smoke for my bro's kart, (fortunately it was gravel that had been kicked up by the wheels). So they just go back on track and I hope the girl's not traumatized by the impact or the hit. I would have apoligized, but the thing is, when you're riding you can't talk or be heard because you're wearing a hood, and on top of that a thick helmet.
So I just resumed my ride, and at the end of it, as soon as my brother and I get out of the cart we have to go home, (my dad had to take my bro to an appointment, so my dad told us to come quickly and drove us away).
I'm sorry for the girl, my brother said, since he was right next to the girl, he for a sec thought I had broke her neck or something 💀💀.
He's probably exagerating to mess with me, but nah I feel sorry. My bad.
If girl you ever happen to have gone karting Tuesday 6, and ever happen to read that, know that I'm sorry. I hope you're alright.
So after that, I go home at 7pm
Had to do a few things (again...please let me rest). I was sooo tired, the whole day I didn't even have the energy to talk or be excited for the karting, yeah it was fun, but only in my head because I was physically exhausted, I had also eaten only a little so imagine my exhaustion.
WHEN I FINALLY GOT TO RETIRE FROM MY FAMILY, it was 10.30pm, and didn't even make my bed or put on pj's, I just took my pillow and blanket and slept on top of all the things on my bed.
At night, I woke up at 1am and had a hard time going back to sleep. Y'know what's strange? Usually, I am a big sleeper, I always fall asleep super fast and I don't wake up at all at night, but lately I have been having a hard time with waking up at night and not being able to go back to sleep. Why could that be? Am I becoming kinda insomniac, or is my sleep schedule just really messed up?
Well, in conclusion I had a really fun day, 2nd time of my life I go karting, but the only downside was my anxiousness and tiredness. My lil'siblings also rode with children like themselves, (for children they have slower karts), it was the first time for the youngest, so they were all happy and ultra hyped up. (That's a W for oldest daughter, I'm glad I could make them happy).
Another funny thing, during the ride, to go and come back from the karting, I was revising the "code de la route", in english I think it's the highway code or smthg like that. Before learning to ride, you first have to pass this exam. And here I am, causing accident on the road (at least it was with a kart and not a car, obviously I will not ride like that with a car, I don't have homicide on my mind).
So welp, at least I'm not scared of going fast (not sure if this experience is relevant for riding a true car, but it's better than nothing? )
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(I know no one reads what I write and that no one will read all that, but personally I love listening to others life and experiences, so maybe if I keep doing that I will find people like me, and also, I just need someone to tell about my life without feeling like I'm throwing all my life on them.)
Bye, à plus amis invisibles.
Wednesday , 28th of August
Today I took the theoretical exam for my driving license.
Kinda anxious, I don't know what the result will be.
Have to wait until tomorrow.
For the rest life has been good.
Managed to wake up early and be productive.
Did some stretches and worked out a bit.
Ever just find yourself staring up at the ceiling questioning whether people like you or not?
A prominent fellow
When I was a kid, I thought he would last.
Then, I believed he was invincible.
I would draw all of my dreams in art class.
Hoping he would find them formidable.
Growing up, he’d stay in the picture.
See, he was the most courteous there was.
There to comfort when the lights flicker.
An entirely humble man without flaws.
Getting older, I’d understand the truth.
I’d learn there were problem in paradise.
After, I was so scared to loose my youth.
But I learnt life uppermost’s not goodbye.
I won’t worry now, I’ll try to be bold.
Hey you! Stop worrying already.
My dear friend, do not regret getting old.
It’s a privilege denied to many.
Preach Papi
To real for real life ❤️
A lot of writing tips, I feel, can relate a little to the rest of life.
It's really easy to get caught up on a small plot point and mull over it, editing and editing that one point again.
But that won't get you anywhere.
Even if it's not perfect, you have to keep writing past that or else you'll never end up making progress.
That embarrassing thing you did five years ago? That one comment? They suck, and they can hurt or keep you awake. But it's a minor plot point, and you have to step over it and keep writing. Even if out of spite.
It is quite possibly one of the hardest things to do in both writing and in real life.
I think furuta character is basically ishida.
I mean COME ON, his 'super peace' is a way of saying: 'I'm here for the lolz'
