I'm Delusional In The Way That I'm Truly Of The Belief That Finding Out About A Certain Feature I Was

I'm delusional in the way that I'm truly of the belief that finding out about a certain feature I was previously unaware of on the laptop I've been using for 3 years will not only instantaneously make me a better studier, but will also give me the motivation to actually study.

10 people died in the Bronx last night due to a fire that killed 10 people in the Bronx last night during a fire...

Me not wanting to delete my original comment in an argument because it would mean the other person won, and then realizing that contrary to popular belief I'm actually winning by choosing to disengage and focus on more productive things in my life while the other person is putting their energy into this meaningless endeavor.

It's such a funny thing because given the blogs that I follow and how they make such overtly and unabashedly personal posts informing everyone of how "in the mood" they are with posts that often sound something like:

"Feeling really [h-word] and just want to [something gay and raunchy] with [their preferred type]"

I feel like it wouldn't be that big of surprise to anyone who follows me, or anyone who happens to stumble upon one of my posts if I were to carry out the same action of making similarly toned posts.

I always stop myself before making them though, because there's this mentality I have that says that I need to maintain a so-called "professional and academic integrity" (as if I were the New York Times) in my blog.

In essence, it allows me to communicates similar in-the-moment feelings of arousal without straying too far into the territory of things that I couldn't say on YouTube without immediately getting demonetized.

That said, many of my posts are literally about how I would write the perfect fart scene, so who am I really fooling?

I love how the mentality that's been pushed lately on social media has been one of "being in your you era" or "entering your villain era" or worst of all "not owing anyone anything" which, as I've mentioned in a previous post, is nothing more than the same hyper-individualistic self-isolation, and apathetic mindset that many gymbros participate in that's simply being repackaged and marketed femininely as "self-care".

Meanwhile, and not to sound like I'm "not like other girls", the mindset I've been in has been one that's completely the opposite in which I seek to strip myself of any and all egoistic tendencies, while simultaneously looking towards those who are very talented and skillful but are low-key and humble about it as inspiration for what I one day aspire to be.

Listen, I'm not saying that not liking either candidate in an election and believing "both parties are the same" is grounds to not vote at all. I'm aware that harm reduction is a very serious issue and that throwing caution to the wind conveys a sort of privilege-driven apathy towards society.

That being said, the response of leftists towards people who believe that both parties are the same attempting to shame them for feeling this way is always so funny to me, because they'll say something akin to:

"Saying both parties are the same would've been profound 30 years ago, but now it just shows that you're out of touch."

not realizing the incredibly fitting irony in the fact that in the same way those who don't vote maintain the status quo by not taking action, they themselves are also contributing to it by actively playing into a system that always makes you choose the "lesser of two evils" rather than completely dismantling it and starting from scratch.

What's even more is the fact that these same leftists will always use the argument of:

"Politicians wouldn't try to take away voting rights if voting didn't do anything" as if the Electoral College and gerrymandering don't exist which stand squarely in the way of actual democracy, and as if both of these aren't just different forms of control that they've been duped into believing have any legitimate purpose behind them.

Fittingly, you'll find that their passion towards abolishing the Electoral College seems to be much quieter as well as their focus on participating and spreading awareness of local and state elections. Instances in which voting has a more immediate effect.

At the end of the day, while marginalized people will not be placed in immediate danger by choosing the "lesser of two evils", they will never truly be protected. Their fates will forever be hanging in the balance as if it were purgatory, never truly feeling secure because there will always be a potential countdown to when your existence expires.

The so-called "lesser of two evils" will not given them protection as much as it will continue to use them as a means of promoting an inauthentic message of progression and acceptance that the public overtime will come to accept as reality.

Oh, and for those leftists who are going to inevitably tell me:

"If you don't see the difference between either party then I don't know what to tell you."

Let it be known, not once did I ever say they stood for the same things, nor that you shouldn't fight against the worse reality. All I'm simply asking is, why have you become complacent with only two options, and if you are in fact not content with this, what are you doing to fix this?