Before You Ask, Yes I Project My Relationship With My Girlfriend So Hard Onto My TicciWork Headcanons.

Before you ask, yes I project my relationship with my girlfriend so hard onto my TicciWork headcanons. She’s the Clocky to my Toby :3

Eyeless Jack

He never wanted this to happen.

Ever.

The more he stared at himself, the less he saw hope.

His grey skin looked like that of an overcast day, his carved out eye sockets were jagged like the edge of a fucked up knife, and his mouth spewed a dark substance, what he could assume was blood and tar.

Where man meets beast is the line that he found himself walking on. As the hunt continued and the urges grew, he found himself grasping onto the slightest bit of humanity he had left in the depths of his infected soul.

Or, the bit of soul he had left.

All he could do now was stare.

What could he do?

He had tried to cry multiple times now and all that came out was that fucking black goo, the animalistic growls of anger that would leave his mouth only made him feel even more inhumane, and he couldn’t even ask for fucking help.

It was a daily occurrence he would curse himself for killing the only people who knew what the fuck happened.

It was a daily occurrence he cursed the heavens for ever letting such a thing happen to someone of such a kind soul with a bright future.

And every minute of everyday, he cursed the goddamn demon he found himself sharing a vessel with.

But mostly of all? He cursed himself for ever letting it happen.

Being antisocial isn’t about being crazy or violent. It’s about feeling bored and restless all the time, doing risky things to relieve pent up energy, viewing the world through “wining versus losing” “respect versus disrespect” “ally versus enemy”. There’s an apparent need for control that often shows up as being defiant, defensive, or argumentative when someone threatens that control. People with ASPD often take outside instruction as a challenge to their independence. “I do what I want, and you’re not the boss of me. Anyone who pushes rules and expectations on me is a parasite who needs to leave my life or be taught a lesson.”

Reminder that ASPD is often the result of trauma, and that violence and a lack of empathy and remorse are not crucial to a diagnosis (violence isn’t even part of the criteria). The main feature of ASPD is seeing the world through a need for individualism and power over those who threaten your autonomy— often because one’s trauma involved having their individuality and autonomy scolded or taken from them.

OK thats all the ASPD posts for awhile thank you 👍

I can just imagine Tobys tics acting up on that car ride with Lyra, which led to him believing he was the cause of the crash. If he wasn’t such a twitchy freak, if he was just normal, she’d be alive.

I can also imagine that the real distraction was Lyra catching a glimpse of Slenderman which prompted her to swerve off the road. Of course Toby never found out about this and would forever blame himself for her death. And maybe to him, being a proxy was nothing more but punishment for what he did.

How the fuck do people have mutuals without immediately wanting to befriend the fuck out of them. Am I just too much of an extrovert?

If someone interacts with my posts a lot I KNOW. I SEE YOU MF!! I remember names and shit and the social butterfly urge to make them my friend kills me. But alas some things are best kept as they are 🐐