I Think Weve Got Something Thatll Stretch Across Lifetimes

i think we’ve got something that’ll stretch across lifetimes

when hozier compared himself to a wild animal saying screaming “do not let me in if you do not want me. i will come back if you feed me, hold me, want me. stop. you do not want this. i can be dangerous, you do not want me.” and then “i’ll be howling outside your door, screaming, scratching, calling to you, for you. don’t you hear me?”

*isolates myself* perfect! but why am i sad

trans people i’m happy you’re alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m so glad you’re here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! keep doing your best!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate that i miss you.

i know i shouldn’t,

that you were bad for me

but i cant stop the want of

the feeling of being next to you

from rushing back into my body

like i’m being jolted back alive.

i miss you.

i hate it.

what’s worse is that maybe,

maybe,

i’m not hallucinating the looks you give me.

maybe you think of me, too.

maybe you wish you could

notice more things about me that i never did.

like how i turn my shoulder when

passing someone i don’t want to talk to.

have you noticed i never do it with you?