I Shall Go Find This Now...

I shall go find this now...

the fact that nearly 400 people have saved my vox machina playlist on spotify is atrocious. within the first ten songs, there is not one but two songs from hit broadway musical anastasia. there’s a fucking encanto song on there. half the songs i don’t even remember why they’re on there. people need to stop finding this playlist it’s embarrassing.

Siblings Parallel

“I’m deeply traumatized but look at her!!”

I can't wait to leave. Pack up and go to college. It feels like I'm not truly wanted even though people say I am. It wouldn't take long for most people to forget me if I left, i think. Probably only a handful. I'm just so tired, I shouldn't be, though. I don't do anything, really. I'm just lazy. I really need to get into therapy again ig lol

At least I have fanfic

I want to write, i have ideas, i can't write. If I had someone with me to bounce ideas maybe. Or hire a scribe to write down every thing I say like in medieval times

this year while we all celebrate pride month and celebrate ourselves as well as those who came before us and paved the way for us to do so, we must also think of those in gaza, queer or not, who live every day under a brutal occupation and don’t have that same privilege. happy pride, and may we see a free palestine in this lifetime.

I feel this so much. I just want to be happy, sad, loved, go on adventures, leave my house. Be with the people I'm reading about and be as brave and magical.

what huuuuurts the most

sometimes, the hardest part about life is reading a fic you can't see yourself in. Like these beautiful writers have created such a wonderful piece of brain work that you are upset that you can't exist as that person they describe. You want to just think about your smile in a sunshine reader insert or how you're the guts in a brave reader insert but it doesn't fit you.

and that's okay. because you can keep reading and be whoever you fucking want to be. you can scroll to find yourself as who you wish you were and who you feel you are today, tomorrow, forever. People are ever changing and so are you.