He's Doing It On Purpose!!

He's doing it on purpose!!

every “aaang” jungkook made whilst eating roasted seaweed

I wanna talk about Jungkook

So yes, I’m nothing and I barely use tumblr but that thing makes me wanna say something so bad. First, I can relate to Jungkook in so many ways one would be surprised, 3 years ago me and my anxiety made me end 3 friendships, and you know how? I made them feel bad with my words, bc I’m a big mess and even now 20yo I can’t express myself right, that’s where I’m different from him, he learned how to express himself.

Y'all keep saying that his age shouldn’t be an excuse and a lot of other things but yeah, try to see his point, he was really young and alone in a big city starting a whole new life, he was dealing with new interactions, new persons and a lot of them at once. Anxiety is a shit thing that makes you think a lot and makes you fuck up a lot too, I’m not saying he wasn’t wrong, oh hell he really was, but let me tell you abt myself. I didn’t and I don’t know how to express myself, I also don’t know how to read ppl, that’s why all my friendships tends to end badly bc they think I’m rude, YES, back in high school ppl only related my name to the word rude, so when I met Jungkook and I started to know abt him I saw myself a lot.

I’m a Jimin stan and I felt bad when I first watched the videos, really sometimes I wish I could be there to just make Jungkook shut up bc if he didn’t know how to act he should be quiet right? I’m assuming here that we have a lot in common, and just like him when I don’t know how to act or what the other person is trying to express towards me….I say dumb things. Humans are scary and when you’re not used to them around it’s even worse. Jimin was clearly that one person Jungkook couldn’t figure out, but also he couldn’t just ignore, he didn’t want to, make fun of him came easy first so he adjusted himself in that skin and continued, that was a mistake, a bad one bc he was thinking abt his own comfort not jimin’s, then again, he was young and when you’re young you tend to be selfish, like “I’m the only one suffering in this world” agenda that I’m sure your 15yo self once did.

Did you ever stopped and thought abt his shift personality? He was there, making fun and all, but at the same time he was saying that Jimin was the hyung he would go for comfort, that he was always avoiding him bc he didn’t know what to do with that affection, that “of course he is handsome is just for fun”, he is the last one on visual rankings but he has cute toes and pretty eyes, and when he was directly confronted he’d say that ofc he likes Jimin, and he would say that with that tone like “isn’t that obvious?”……boy, no it wasn’t.

He got older something clicked, and it wasn’t Jimin getting more and more beautiful, that was probably his own self analysis. Jimin once said he wasn’t like that when the cameras were off, and I believed that, doesn’t make it up for his actions but, by the way he talks now, the way he says often that Jimin was there to call him out back in trainee days, you can see that they were close off cam, and Jungkook values his presence. So he was mean, he realized, he put effort in changing. Jungkook himself said he used to be selfish, you don’t know how proud I am of him bc the way that guy changed wow, I wish I could be more like him, but no, recently I made his mistake, I was flustered with myself and started to shoot this all on someone, I was rude af and realized that way too late, she was my friend for 2 years, we don’t talk anymore. Jungkook is obviously more well solved and adult than I am and that goes for Jimin too. Park Jimin is one hell persistent person, he knew Jungkook wasn’t like that that’s why he waited, Jimin obviously felt bad but he is such a mature person, mature enough to know that wth was going on with Jungkook there was a chance that he could change.

Oh and there was something abt Jungkook only seeing Jimin after he starved himself and became sexy, well, Jungkook did the same for Jimin to notice that thing wasn’t healthy remember?. Jungkook figured out himself and how Jimin is important and where he was ugly failing and changed that, now he doesn’t hold himself, he treats Jimin the way he wants to, he says the things he sees in him, he called him his catalyst bc he realized Jimin were always there. He failed, he realized, he changed, and he still changing. To be realistic I wish I could be like him, or else I wouldn’t lost ppl.

ANYWAY, that’s it, If u wanna judge someone remember you were never on their skin, I have social anxiety and I hate when someone keeps telling me how I should act bc it’s not easy, most of the time I’m rude without noticing, I’m not saying he has the same problems that I have, but I can relate with his behavior, and I know how it is to be judged, to know u were wrong, but can’t do smth abt it, and he did. I’m proud of him, I’ll learn like him, and I think there’s no other person right now better than him to be around Jimin, as his best friend, his partner, his whatever.

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tag what ao3 bts member u are 😔

kim namjoon didn’t battle intense self loathe and anxiety growing up, give up so much for his music career and leave his bright future in education behind, for you to just ignore him and leave him out.

min yoongi didn’t go through clinical depression and social anxiety disorder, neglect his studies for music and get no support from anyone but still do music, for you to call him useless and lazy.

jung hoseok didn’t wake up early in the morning to skip school and go to dance practices to distract himself from his mental conflicts and work so hard to get recruited, for you to call him a sidekick.

kim seokjin didn’t leave an entire field of his potential acting career to give music a chance, work his brains out to practice singing because he was recruited when he had no background of music, for you to call him talentless or “only a visual”.

park jimin didn’t grow up comparing himself to others, work hard to maintain his grades at school and work harder to practice contemporary dancing, starve himself to be an idol and skip breaks to practice singing and dancing for you to call him “overrated”.

kim taehyung did not come to seoul wearing a fancy jacket his mom gave him so “the city boys wouldn’t judge him” because he came from a poor family, sit near trashcans as he watched the rest practice and vlog because he wasn’t revealed as a member, for you to say he’s “just weird” and isn’t talented.

jeon jungkook did not leave his family, friends, education and his entire childhood behind and come to seoul at the age of 13 to pursue music when he wasn’t even sure he could, grow up thinking he had to wear masks in front of people and battle social anxiety, for you to paint him in a bad light and call him rude when he really isn’t whatsoever, and call him overrated.

bts did not go through so fucking much, come from a small entertainment company where they trained and put everything on the line despite being told it was useless and they were nothing, look for people that would attend their concerts, give their everything to the army, make so many contributions towards, not only the music industry but also towards humanity and the youth of our generation, spread love and stand strong and handle all situations maturely and professionally despite all the unnecessary hate, criticism, death threats they had gotten, work their asses off, starve themselves and sacrifice their sleep to practice and maintain their personal lives and give back to their family, society and friends for you to say they are “just a group of good looking boys with a fandom of a bunch of crazy teenage girls” and for you to call them overhyped.

when reality is that they are one of the few artists who actually write about things people wouldn’t talk about but should talk about, produce and write their own music, help millions with their own lives and issues, spread so much love and encourage so much positivity that is needed in today’s world, teach life lessons no educational institution ever could, lessons that are engrained into our brain and soul, ones we’ll never forget, and have a fandom — a family, full of people of all ages and races and cultures and everyone leading a different life with a different story, that love and support these seven boys despite all odds and continue to spread the love furthermore.

finishing a series but still being attached to the story and its characters