"Are You Comfortable, Sir?"

"Are you comfortable, sir?"

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Adding scars, coloring page and adding some extra panel... done!!

now i can continue with my life~

*bonus: quickie bed hair Tseng*

one of my favorite things about andor is that people understand where the blame really goes — with the empire. we hear a little bit that the people of ferrix are mad at cassian, but in the end every single person he sees welcomes him back and says they're sorry about his mom. bix doesn't blame cassian. the younger inmates don't get mad at ulaf for not being to carry his weight in narkina 5. instead they help him. a lesser show would have made different choices. but in andor when people could blame each other they instead realize who the real enemy is and that's solidarity.

yeah namor was hot BUT CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE TRIBUTE TO CHADWICK BOSEMAN?? the opening funeral scene? phenomenal. the ending scene with shuri remembering him? broke me. the sheer lack of any sound in the clips? goosebumps over the entirety of my body.

louis is going down as one of the characters of all time btw. there's something about characters who are so deeply repressed in every facet of their lives continuously fighting for happiness, yet ultimately unable to achieve that happiness because they've denied themselves for so long that they no longer know what they actually want vs what they've convinced themselves to chase.

and it's fascinating, because that's so clear in the way that louis conceptualizes happiness by fighting for the things previously denied to him; the spectre of his perceived failures as a human haunt him and preclude the possibility at any new lease on happiness in the future. he wants to buy the fairplay because he links success with respect, and respect with fulfillment: the idea that as soon as his (white) peers are forced to admit he's a better businessman than them, he'll be happy. except he isn't happy, because there is no goal post at which point they'll accept he's smarter or more capable than them, and so instead he's forced back into a game that will never fulfill him, no matter how powerful or capable he becomes.

and then he tries to build a family, tries to surround himself with people who he can care for and who he can have a positive impact on, building connections for himself and bringing meaning to his life. which also doesn't work, because he's simultaneously haunting and haunted by his human family, and there's no way for him to reconcile what he's lost with what he's gained. he wants grace, and he could have grace, but he's spent his entire life knowing that every facet of himself is unacceptable to society, that he can't admit what he is without also being condemned for it. and it doesn't matter that grace isn't society, that grace would accept him - he is, to his own mind, an unacceptable thing. to admit what he is out loud could only lead to catastrophe, because to think anything less is dangerous to the very principles that allow him to exist.

and so instead of having grace in his life, he has claudia. and he can love claudia and he can adore claudia, but he can not find a connection to humanity in her, because she isn't and doesn't want to be human. he has, in his quest to find meaning and connection with humanity, surrounded himself with monsters.

and then he has lestat. lestat who, for all his grandiosity and hedonism and theatricality, is just as festering a pool of repression as louis is. he's a person who can be anyone, so long as anyone is someone who is seen and adored and wanted, because to be wanted is to be happy.

and so you have louis, a man who can't admit what he wants, because admittance is vulnerability, and vulnerability is death; and you have lestat, a man who needs to be wanted, because if you aren't wanted you're abandoned, and abandonment is a fate worse than death.

and then they both try to get happy.

I didn't come on this site to be called out like that

anyone else??

Did this before the serie came out and I'm glad It wasnt too far off lmao