Every Time I Feel Like I Figure Something Out About Myself, I See Something, Or Think Of Something, And

Every time I feel like I figure something out about myself, I see something, or think of something, and doubt myself. Feel fake.

I call them masks because if I “become” one of them it’s easier to deal with certain situations.

Sometimes I feel more like one of them than myself. Like I’m on autopilot and someone else is driving, but I’m still the one giving directions, having taken the role of copilot instead.

Sometimes it’s more like a very intense feeling about something I normally wouldn’t feel that intensely about.

A few are only very rarely “out” (like crisis mode man) and sometimes I feel like I make them up.

None of them really have voices. I don’t hear them so much as I feel them. I feel like I’m faking or trying to be something we’re actually not.

Does anyone else feel like this?

Brain says it’s Thursday (its fawking Monday???) and I’m on waiting/panic mode but WE DON’T HAVE ANYTHING ON THURSDAYS?!! Why is this happening???

Not wearing glasses (especially while in a bout of derealization) makes for interesting moments. I thought I saw a bird skeleton (mask or head) with a bright pink bucket hat driving a car. Looked very cool and will not be looking closer cuz I would like to think there’s a bird skeleton figure driving a car out there somewhere.

Ever watch a movie or a show (or YouTube playlist) or read a book and get extremely confused when something you very vividly remember happening isn’t there? Or something you have zero recollection of happening IS there???

The moon is cool, especially when I see 2 without my glasses XD. It looked very pretty tonight

Yeah they kinda look like Spring Bonnie 🤷