Hi Im...back? After A While For Sure

hi im...back? after a while for sure 😔💔

this'll kind of be a small vent (sorry) but i've just been feeling frustrated? i couldn't study the entirety of last week because we had a family trip to north east (i loved it though ♡) and even prior to it, i had been completely off contact with my books because i had to undergo surgery :/

while i know that my circumstances were unavoidable and in a way it's not my fault. but also, i can't help feel guilty about not getting stuff done? i mean i have a HUGE pile of backlogs and i feel so terribly out of loop – even trying to sit down with books and trying to solve mcqs feels like a damning chore because i'm unable to solve a lot of questions that i know for a matter fact i'd find easier normally.

anyways, i also know that i can only change this for myself so i've been trying to slowly, but steadily get back to my routine. i'll probably start sharing my snippets from tomorrow again :), but i can't lie it feels nice to get this off my chest haha lol.

This user will become a doctor

push yourself. because no one else is going to do it for you.

hi everyone!

i'd been shying away from this moment ever since, but it's always better to start now than never, right?

i'm hri! i'm 18 and i'm in midst of my gap year studying for NEET. (it's a competitive exam to get into med school in india!)

i intend on using this blog to journal my progress throughout the year, and use it almost as a personal diary of sorts to help me navigate through what is currently a challenging phase of my life.

i hope that along the way, i'm able to help people out who find themselves in similar positions as me, and also make friends :)! (please feel free to reach out ♡)

here's to new beginnings, cheers! 🥂

bad habits that held me back for years

negative self talk: tune into your inner voice and turn mean thoughts into kind ones

prioritising comfort over progress: you have to actually do the work, then enjoy your rest and comfort (with less anxiety too)

hanging around the wrong people: you are the sum of the people you spend the most time with, choose your friends carefully

never taking responsibility: tough stuff happens to everybody, focus on what you can control (you) rather than blaming outside circumstances (not talking about trauma here obviously)

expecting praise for 'being yourself': you're good enough as you are in a spiritual sense, but if you want to be excellent at something you have to actually do the work, not just expect praise and reward for just showing up

liking the aesthetic more than the work: do you want to achieve that goal or do you just like how it looks on pinterest??? make sure you derive some level of pleasure and satisfaction from the pursuit

overthinking: seriously just tell your brain to shut up. stop over intellectualising and over thinking every single thing. find your heart to guide you and save your brain power for working on your passions...