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there are so many things that I want to do. I think I will stay on my phone for 2 more hours

"forgive and forget" WRONG! go to hell

Like flowers

Close to you:

My first love, look, view, and knot.

Just once, not long.

A second I’ll be gone,

Like ice in a summer drink,

A few minutes, that’s all I ask.

To put my soul at peace,

To gaze at your achievements from far away,

Only for you to not see my longing stare,

To wish we never departed,

To wish life was never what had been.

To tell you what I felt,

All that time,

When I was too naive to know,

Too young to feel,

Too afraid to speak,

And too proud to reach.

We parted ways and became strangers, once again.

Alexandre Dubois-Drahonet: detail of Female nude, back view (1831)

“Slut” by Daphne Gottlieb

i die first in every horror movie, before the innocent boyfriend, the too- curious best friend and the foolhardy pal. death comes blind fast and easy, familiar as the top button of my blouse popping open and suddenly i’m an angel on the cutting room floor, wearing gore, a blank stare, not much more.

i do it over and over. i can play like this for hours.

sometimes i enter a dark room and unbutton my shirt, rock my hips  side to side until the killer’s music comes on. then I button up quick, laughing or shaking, sometimes both.

from the way i look after i’m split open you’d never know: i was born a baby. i still sleep with my stuffed poodle. her name is “tammy.” after my parents divorced, i wet the bed for a year. i want to be a nurse. my favorite color is blue.

first kiss at 12, first shame at 13, first blood at 14. skipped four years of gym, skimmed just the tips of my stepfather’s fingers, nothing more. i never took my clothes off for a doctor but my body became a secret handshake all the boys knew and i didn’t. the ghost story made me a ghost.

now, at 16, i only remember my own skin when i am touched. it makes me real when i strip down, take it off, find the edges of my body through your eyes or under your hands, against your skin. it feels like death every time you stop.

there is nothing i can do except open my throat and say the word for girls who are the ghosts of want:

“slut.” i’ll take my shirt off while you watch— call it love when the knife rips through my ribs, when the ice pick cracks my chest, or however it happens this time but first

here’s my prayer: that what happens to girls like me who die dirty, give it up with a shudder like pleasure— pray that when we’re killed as martyrs we get loved like saints.

𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐏 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆

when you are still desiring that means you are living in state of unfulfilled desire. you deny yourself. you tell yourself you don’t have it when you in fact do. recognise that and identify yourself as the person who has their wishes fulfilled. you are God. God doesn’t desire, He just gives it to Himself.

it’s exhausting to live in lack. imagine all the ease you would feel if you just gave yourself everything you’ve ever wanted. you want to feel fulfilled. if you desire something, are you going to let that desire stay a desire? why would you? just give it to yourself already.

as consciousness is the only reality, if you desire daily in consciousness then the outer world will reject you.

Live today simply knowing your desires are fulfilled. See them fulfilled if you'd like but know they are. You will notice your posture lengthening. You will breath with more ease. These are EFFECTS. - Edward Art

manifesting isn’t pretending you have it. you actually have it and you just have to accept it. having something physically is just the after effect of you allowing yourself to have it in your imagination. stop accepting the 3D as the thing that is “real”. the 3D is you, just as everything else is you. you are everything. now, knowing that, why would you want to dwell in lack? knowing that, wouldn’t you want to feel fulfilled? feel it. you own the world and that’s the only justification you need.

feel that feeling of success, accomplishment, relief. dwell in it.

If you become frightened by looking to the outside, come back within and know it is fulfilled. - Edward Art

it’s your job as God to use your imagination to achieve the feeling that your desire is fulfilled.

Feel.

Let me start off by saying this: stop trying to find something that will finally trick your mind into believing it to be real.

I recently got curious as to why we read so much on how to manifest and once we have all the knowledge we need, we seek more and more.

The more we read the more clueless and helpless we feel. These are things I think abt often, in order to make my posts as helpful as possible because I see what a lot of you struggle in.

First you seek your desires, and when you're told you should not seek your desires-you seek to not seek them. You seek the feeling and then you're told it comes from the state- so now you seek to feel the state.

You read this post that tells you you should understand how loa works and now you seek to understand.

This is because you feel yourself to be a certain way, and take it as the truth.

I sat with myself and started thinking about where I went wrong, why I feel so trapped and helpless when I have knowledge on everything I need to know and more I order to manifest?

I came to the conclusion that to me, a lot of loa posts teach manifesting and everything around it like a school book. Like the topic itself is beautiful, but when you try to explain it logically, it becomes boring and forceful.

You seek more information because the way it's given to you.

I came to the conclusion that I never liked the word "belief", it's what always stopped. It traps me into trying hard, repeating info until you get overwhelmed and bullying yourself when you sprial. Creating blockages by feeling like something is wrong with you.

I'm glad Edward art's recent video talks about this, and as he would put it; it creates a hell of your own.

When you think of belief, you think of I think of habit and something that's hardended and complex. When you think of habit you think of repetition, and then you go back to repeating affirmations until you spiral again and fall down.

Only to ignore being honest with yourself because you're afraid and deny yourself that care when you need it to the most

Let me make it clear when I say: your problem is not belief, it is feeling.

If you are looking for a step by step loa manifestation routine that will guarantee you your desires faster than the void, you're in the wrong place, and have the wrong idea.

It is then when you sprial. When you restrict yourself and logically try to make yourself strongly belief in your manifestation.

A lot of you have seen repeating lines from every loa blog, mabye you're tired of us saying that "imagination is the only reality" and " you are God and other than you there is none above " and wished we'd say something different, something that would help you, but what else is there??

What else is there more to say after discovering you are God and that everything is a reflection within you?? Nothing because it covers everything there is to know.

You only "fail to manifest" when you fail to feel yourself be God. Not believe yourself be God, FEEL yourself to be God, feel to be the only reality, when you fail to feel yourself be the only one in power, that is when you state comes forward and you dress yourself in it.

Please meditate on my words, and truly accept yourself to be the only one. I'm talking about feeling it to the bone, not just become aware and then go onto the next post, realize what this means to you. The rest follows you, as everything does.

If it's said that everything is taken care of, thay you need only to go to the end, be aware that as God it is already so, then what else is there to do other than accept and feel how it is?

You only need to give yourself permission to shamelessly feel yourself to be, and all the worries you had before will quiet down. Do not think about checking how much you believe you have your desires and actually enjoy what it's like already having them.

Don't try to believe, but feel.

affirmations and vaunt for the void state ♡

AFFIRMATIONS

— MASTERING THE VOID STATE

I love how no matter what I always tap into the void state in literal seconds

I am a master of the void state

It’s set in stone that regardless of everything, I tap into the void state in seconds

I don’t know why but I always tap into the void state instantly

Isn’t it wonderful how it barely takes me any time to tap into the void state?

It’s just a simple fact that I always tap into the void state instantly and effortlessly

I am the void and therefore I always tap into it instantly

— TAPPING INTO THE VOID STATE

I am

I simply am

I am nothing but pure consciousness not attached to any reality

I have no choice but to be in the void state

My consciousness has no choice but to exist purely in the void state

I love being in the void state

With every affirmation I get closer to the void state

I truly believe that I am in the void state

I feel so free and calm in the void state

VAUNT

I love being such a master at the void state. I’m going to tap into it today just like I have every other time and it’s literally going to take seconds. Like, I don’t need to affirm, don’t need to relax, don’t need to meditate… all I need to do is set the intention and boom! I’m in the void state. That’s how good I am! Nothing can or has ever been able to stop me from tapping into the void state. I’m going to tap into it today and I’m going to succeed and get all my desires like every other time. It’s not even a question.

inspired by @littlemissprettyprincess ♡

More pretty stained glass windows

angel’s fulfillment challenge

welcome to the unofficial official challenge of angel’s vault ☆

i’m going to say this now, this isn’t going to be some crazy, different thing. this is literally how the law works lol but i say challenge because it's for those who see them as fun, want to be disciplined and set the tone for the new year! (or whenever you’re reading this)

𝐈. the point of this challenge is to…

fall in love with imagination

enjoy fulfilling yourself

get your desires duh

stop over consuming and apply no matter if you think you need to know more.

𝐈𝐈. important guidelines!

read this post to get a gist of states because this is what this challenge is about. fulfilling yourself in imagination. you don’t need to read it every time to know you’re doing it right, this challenge will do it all for you.

affirmations and visualizations are techniques so what is your way of thinking that feels comfortable to you? sometimes you don’t even need it. for me, i mostly need to feel that i already have it. have fun, experiment with daydreams/scenes, affirming and/or feeling. it doesn't have to be the same every single time.

𝐈𝐈𝐈. steps

choose what you want. go crazy. do not condition your desires. you are limitless. if you can see it in your mind, you can have it. famous? nepo baby? money? db, df? better self concept? gender revision? time change?

decide right now you are the person who already has what the want. so guess what? there is nothing to get because you already have your desire. manifesting money? you already have it. manifesting an sp? you already have them. manifesting your dream life? you already have it. that is your state.

fulfill yourself every chance you get in the day. no you don’t have to lock yourself in the room to affirm/visualize/feel all day. no you don’t have to be in the state all day, you are always passing through states but remember, the state you constantly make your dwelling place MANIFESTS. so make an effort to return to it as much as you can and want to.

ideas: do it in the morning when you wake up, in the afternoon, whenever you have free time like on your bed, going home, walking, during class and before you go to sleep.

bonus: do this meditation by edward art daily, it's not mandatory. it's not like all the other meditations, give it a shot. get off tumblr, stop over consuming

make it fun, it’s not a chore! have fun daydreaming/visualizing you shopping with all the money you got, getting compliments from people on how they’re so amazed at how successful you are, have fun complimenting yourself in the mirror while you repeat affirmations, have fun looking around and going “yeah, i literally have ____” sounds nice and fun? because it is. manifesting is simple.

4. get your desires. there is no deadline. i hate that shit 😭 srrynotsrry, that would be contradicting the law and this challenge. you already have it, you’re not getting anything on a time crunch. not no 3 days, not a week, not two, not a month. THERE IS NOTHING TO GET WHEN YOU HAVE IT NOW. ONLY NOW.

challenge summary:

YOU ALREADY HAVE IT!

𝐈. why should you fulfill yourself?

because when you fulfill yourself in imagination, you are changing self. and what is a reflection of self? the 3D.

it’s not your job to make things physical. your job is to change your mind.

focus on yourself. there is nothing to change or to get in the 3D because it’s nothing but a mirror that shows/proves you right in what state you identify and dwell in.

“Stop trying to change the world since it is only the mirror. Man’s attempt to change the world by force is as fruitless as breaking a mirror in the hope of changing his face. Leave the mirror and change your face. Leave the world alone and change your conceptions of yourself. The reflection then will be satisfactory.”

“I AM wealthy, poor, healthy, sick, free, confined were first of all impressions or conditions felt before they became visible expressions. Your world is your consciousness objectified. Waste no time trying to change the outside; change the within or the impression; and the without or expression will take care of itself. When the truth of this statement dawns upon you, you will know that you have found the lost word or the key to every door. I AM (your consciousness) is the magical lost word which was made flesh in the likeness of that which you are conscious of being.”

𝐈𝐈. additional tips

doubting? let it pass. don't give it power. why are you doubtful if it's going to come or if the law works when you have what you want right now? if you're dwelling in doubts then you're not being the person who has it.

worried about when it's going to come? that doesn't make sense because you literally have it right now lol

want to ask a question? why? you literally have it. what's there to ask? try asking yourself first.

simple.

have fun, angels. remember that YOU ALREADY HAVE IT. send me your successes in the inbox!

signed, angel ☆

𝑀𝑦 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑓𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑟𝑢𝑙𝑒𝑠:

*ೃ༄ THE FIRST RULE IS THAT I MAKE THE RULES, NO ONE CAN TELL ME HOW TO MANIFEST ‘RIGHT’ IN MY REALITY *ೃ༄

I AM ALWAYS DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT, NO MATTER WHAT I GET MY SHIT

I AM A MASTER AT MANIFESTING AND I GET ANYTHING I WANT IN LESS THAN A SECOND

*ೃ༄ I AM THE GOD OF MY REALITY, WHAT I SAY IS THE ONLY TRUTH *ೃ༄

I ONLY HAVE TO AFFIRM ONCE TO GET MY DESIRES BECAUSE MANIFESTATION IS EXTREMELY EASY FOR ME

I NEVER DOUBT IN MY MANIFESTATION ABILITIES BC I HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF AND THE LAW

*ೃ༄ NOTHING IS TOO BIG FOR ME TO MANIFEST, NO MATTER WHAT THE LOGIC IS THAT SURROUNDS IT I CAN STILL MANIFEST IT IN LESS THAN A SECOND *ೃ༄

I AM FORBIDDEN TO STAND IN MY OWN WAY AND OVERCOMPLICATE THE LAW (THAT WILL FOREFIT INTO 20M OF SATURATING)

THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS ‘FAILED MANIFESTATIONS’ I RECEIVE ALL MY MANIFESTATIONS INSTANTLY

*ೃ༄ AGAIN FAILING IS NOT AN OPTION FOR ME, I ENCOUNTER SUCCESS IN ALL I DO ALL DAY EVERYDAY *ೃ༄

ONLY MY DESIRED THOUGHTS MANIFEST

FEELINGS HAVE NO EFFECT ON MY MANIFESTATION

*ೃ༄ MY LIFE HAS NO CHOICE BUT TO BE PERFECT AND I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT RECEIVE EVERYTHING I DESIRE *ೃ༄

I AM UNBOTHERED BY THE 3D

I AM THE ONLY CONFIRMATION I NEED (CHECKING THE 3D WILL FOREFIT 20M OF SELF-CONCEPT)

PURGES/TRANSITION PERIODS DO NOT EXIST IN MY REALITY

*ೃ༄ I DO NOT WAIT, I MANIFEST IN LITERAL MILLISECONDS *ೃ༄

what’s stopping you other than yourself.

you can do anything just believe in it.

Really excited for Across the Spider-Verse

shifting isn’t hard.

via Are.na

I really like the idea being thrown around that Mike has a stack of unsent letters to Will. All of them signed Love, Mike. Because it does make sense — imagine writing a letter to your best friend and signing it easily with love, and then writing a letter to your girlfriend, and you freeze. You’re stuck. It’s supposed to be just as easy, but suddenly it’s not, and you’re forced to confront something. What do you do? Hide the ones that hold a secret and send the one that makes sense to the world! I don’t know, I just think it’s really neat!

OF COURSE!!!

Reblog if you think asexuality is a legitimate sexuality.

I'm trying to prove something.

PLSSS

“Do you have to do that here?”

Regulus looked up from his plate. They were halfway through lunch and Regulus had been trying to tweak an essay before his next class. “Do what? My homework?” He asked.

“No,” Sirius hissed and gestured at Regulus with a wave of his hand. “Do you have to wear that thing in front of all of us? We’re trying to eat, Reg.”

“Why would my jacket stop you from eating?”

“It’s not your jacket! It’s James’ jacket. His favourite jacket - and you wearing it in front of everyone is basically like having public sex. Nobody wants to watch their little brother have public sex, Regulus!”

Regulus blinked. Sixteen years had made him accustomed to his brother’s eccentricities. James, on the other hand, was looking slightly pale. “If me wearing James' jacket is like having public sex, what is giving Remus a handy in potions?”

“A good time,” Said Remus, before going back to his tea.

“How do you even know about that?” Sirius asked. His eyes shot to James’ guilty face.

James shrugged. “I like to share my trauma.”

Clicking his tongue, Sirius turned back to Regulus. “Take off the jacket.”

“Go fuck yourself.”

Regulus got no chill 💀

My fave part about our resident sad boi is that he tells it like it is 😂 Made Reggie look more like Timmy in this one.

Inspired by the wonderful @groovygryffindor ‘s textpost! (Go check them out everyone!)

“jegulus would never work in canon because james wouldn’t do something like that to sirius”

and why exactly james’ character is about sirius?

Hannibal scenes vs. behind the scenes photos

if you don’t get to strap a knife to your thigh underneath a flowing ballgown while dancing with your rival at least once then what is the point