Do You Ever Get Reminded Of That One Really Intense Longfic That You Had Every Intention Of Writing And

Do you ever get reminded of that one really intense longfic that you had every intention of writing and had meticulous notes and complicated outlines for but then something happened and you aren't in the fandom anymore and you still have the desire to write the fic but it's slightly hollow now because it's a good idea and you think it would have been a great fic but you haven't been in the fandom for literally years and you don't have that bit of passion for it that you did when you were writing it and have just a weird moment of nostalgia where you want to reread it but it never existed

No Gain No Love Text posts, 2/2 (post 1)

The Time of Fever

Currently on 4th ep of something in the rain and I might just get a crush on jung haein idk kskkskskskks

Listen if you ever think your writing is bad and you want to give up, a published author beloved by thousands (I don’t understand why) wrote the line “When he was wiping that cow shit on me, it was quite possibly the most turned-on I have ever been.”

what I’m saying is please don’t let Colleen Hoover win, don’t give up on your work.

Question: Am I missing something or does the FL from Something in the Rain only exist to torture this man? Because my goodness she is so frustrating and I only have three more episodes to go.

So, after breaking up with the ML in probably the most spectacularly humiliating way possible, the FL shows up at his door oh so casually as if nothing is wrong.

"You're really angry, aren't you? I miss you."

She doesn't acknowledge anything that has happened in the past 72 hours like how she:

Demeaned their relationship by going on a blind date with another man;

Went behind the ML's back to meet with his birth father who he had gone no contact with for years because the man had abandoned him and his sister shortly after their mother died, moving to another country to start his "real" family;

Invalidated his feelings by suggesting he is immature for not wanting to connect with his father who, again, is a dead beat who left his older sister to raise him alone;

Disrespected his wishes once again by allowing said dead beat to get so shit faced drunk at her house that she was “forced” to ask the ML to come and pick him up;

Subjected him to even more verbal abuse from her vicious social-climbing mother who just a few weeks earlier had beat him and told him he wasn't good enough for her daughter...

And instead asks if he has tea in the house.

My face exactly, Joon-hee.

She somehow spontaneously gains a shred of empathy and FINALLY apologizes, explaining that she just wanted to "end a hectic situation". The ML, who must be a saint, acknowledges the situation and tries to share his feelings about what happened:

ML: I told you I understand that. FL: You are mad at me. ML: Even if things were difficult, you shouldn't have said that we should break-up. FL: At that moment I was angry. ML: I get it. Fine. FL: You're not fine. (pouts like a child)

Emphasis on the "tries" because when he starts sharing his frustrations and how worried he was about her during that fight with her mother, she skirts the issue:

ML: Do you know how I felt just now? FL: (Nods) I do. ML: Sure you do. FL: It was my mistake. I won't do it again. (smiles coquettishly) ML: Don't try to end the conversation. FL: When people get angry, they tend to say things they shouldn't. It's not like you don't make mistakes.

And then cuts him off because the "kettle started boiling".

Once she moves her emotional manipulation to the kitchen, she asks:

FL: Since the water is boiling, can we have ramyeon? ML: Why are you acting like this? FL: I'm too hungry. I don't have the energy to get scolded.

He picks out a pack of ramyeon, which she petulantly rejects and signals for him to pick another flavor. He does, shaking his head in disbelief, before heading to the closet to create some distance.

She then calls to him from the kitchen, "am I going to eat ramyeon by myself?"

This is the image of a man defeated.

Sir, I really don't understand how you're justifying to yourself that she's worth it. She has the emotional intelligence of a gnat.

FL: I said I'm sorry. I want to make it up to you, but I don't know how. That's why I'm being like this. ML: I'm trying to talk it out with you. Why do you take it so lightly?

So of course she moves to the bed for more emotional manipulation.

She needs therapy and he needs to grow a spine.

On one hand, I’m impressed that Something in the Rain actually has a complex (and occasionally unlikable) female lead who really illustrates how childhood trauma manifests in unhealthy behavior and thinking well into adulthood.

But I also have never wanted two characters to break up so badly as I do here so that she can work on herself and heal without hurting him so much in the process.

She exhausts me.

Side Note: The ridiculous amount of pouting this grown ass woman does makes my eye twitch.