Tiktok Is Making Me Sad As Hell

Tiktok is making me sad as hell

okay last post of nice things before i log off for the night, because i am many things but i am NOT a doomposter:

cclingy my beloved. fucking phenomenal, from the start of the ending series right up until that final explosion. the last thing ctommy ever did was stall to save tubbo. the last thing ctubbo ever did was run to that prison to save tommy. they love each other SO much

we got so many plotlines resolved! the nukes, what happens when you die, limbo--that was really really cool.

the writing of these first three streams--hell, for the first half of this one--was fucking phenomenal. some of the best work i've seen on the server, and i'm so so genuinely glad i got to see it.

i'm choosing to have a good-faith interpretation of ctommys final conversation with cdream. yes, i hate it and think it was horrible framed, no, i do not think it was written that way to tell us tommy forgives dream. i think it was intended as an 'we understand each other' sort of narrative, and a demonstration of how kind ctommy can be, even after everything. i don't think he wrote that ending to redeem an abuser.

there's a lot to criticise, but i loved most of the dream smp storyline. i don't regret loving this at all. i'm very much awaiting cctommy's lore discussion stream, because i genuinely want to know what he was thinking--but my takeaway today will not be one of regret, or hate. i'm glad i got to be here. i'm happy to stay. and i'm so, so fucking glad i got the chance to love c!tommy

as much as I'm not thrilled about this ending, I cannot say that my time has been wasted. I have loved every bit of the story that tommy has created. it's been full of drama, funny moments, but mostly, it's been full of love. to me, that's what matters the most. I was here when l'manberg's walls were built, I was here for the elections. I was here when they were thrown out, when pogtopia was made, when techno joined. I was here when wilbur lost his final life on the 16th, I was here for exile and bedrock bros after that. I was here for doomsday, the disc war finale, tommy's healing arc, snowchester, wilbur's revival, all of it. and all of it made me happy and had truly changed me as a person. I've made great friends, I've written so much, and I've had a lot of fun. no matter what, I am truly grateful for the awesome character that was ctommy and everything that came as a result of it. what a wild ride

IM BANGING ON THE FUCKING WALLS RIGHT NOW

TOMMY FUCKING INNIT

What the fuck. /pos

THIS STORY WILL HAUNT ME FOREVER. THIS IS NOTHING LIKE THIS STORY. NOTHING. I THOUGHT WILBUR SOOT DESTORYED ME WITH HIS STORY LINE BUT THIS IS SOME HOW WORSE.

THIS IS NOVEMEBER 16TH ON CRACK. I WILL BE SHOCKED IF I DONT SOB AFTER THE FINALE STREAM TOMORROW.

It wasn't an "I'm sorry" in the 'I forgive you for everything sense'

It wasn't an "I'm sorry" meaning 'I wronged you and I need to apologize'

It wasn't an "I'm sorry" in the sense of 'You've done nothing wrong and I'm wrong for assuming you did"

It was an "I'm sorry" meaning 'You're a human too, and I'm sorry I have to do this, I'm sorry I have to destroy you. You may have hurt me, but you're still human.'

It was an "I'm sorry" That said 'You don't even know why I'm apologizing yet. I'm going to kill you, and you don't know, but let me apologize anyway'

It was an "I'm sorry" that meant 'God damn it, why couldn't we have been happy? We both wanted the same thing, we both had the same goals, so why couldn't we have that? Why did you have to go so far that it all felt apart, to make something we had in hand so far out of reach? Why did you need so much control?'

It was an "I'm sorry" That said "We're both going to die. I don't want to kill you, I don't want to kill anyone, but I can't let you live either.'