SATAN'S SELF-IDENTITY ISSUES

SATAN'S SELF-IDENTITY ISSUES

{⚠} Disclaimer! Lesson 11, 51 and 58 spoilers ahead! There's also mentions of dissociation.

I'm thinking about how insecure Satan is about his own identity... We all know the issue he has with Lucifer because he comes from him, and he doesn't want to be related to him in any way, since he wants to be his own person, separated from Lucifer, but there's more than only that. Imagine being born from someone like that, and then being treated like a sibling, it would be really confusing for you since you are not siblings. I remember multiple scenes where Satan says that he's not Lucifer's brother or he doesn't want to be, and it's understandable, since he's actually right, but the thing is, even tho he was always treated like any other brother, he never felt like one of the brothers, but he had to stick to it. Satan also has shared memories with Lucifer, which can potentially make him dissociate from his own person, and may be another reason of why he "hates" Lucifer. But he doesn't really hate Lucifer, it's more of a "fear" he has, as we can see in lesson 58:

That "you hate yourself" makes me ask myself... Why? It's understandable that he has those insecurities and issues with his identity, but why does he really hate himself? It may be because of the same reason, because of his identity, he doesn't know who he really is, he's still trying to understand and assimilate the situation, but maybe it's because of how he was born, maybe he wasn't only born from Lucifer's wrath, but also from his self-hatred, Lucifer was a prideful angel, and being kicked out from the Celestial Realm must have been a thorn for him, losing his high rank, the position he was so proud of, and not only that, but he turned into a Demon, a being he hated.

In lesson 51-9 we can see how Simeon calls Satan "Sully" multiple times, and how it all ended up being a Simeon's plan to make Satan understand Lucifer better, that's when Satan obviously goes all mad with Simeon for doing that. Simeon had good intentions, but what he didn't know is the complexity of Satan's feelings, he underestimated his feelings and comprehension, Satan doesn't hate Lucifer, he hates himself because he doesn't know who he is, and the only one he can blame is Lucifer since he was the one that made him, he was born that way because of him.

I want to finish this post talking about a previous lesson, and that's lesson 11, when Satan and Lucifer were switched bodies. After that lesson, their relationship seems to have improved, and that's because Satan got the opportunity to live in Lucifer's body, giving him a better understanding of him, how he is, how it feels being Lucifer, and that solved one of his self-identity issues: He's not Lucifer.

how good is he at flirting?

includes: luke, artem, marius & vyn !

pronouns: n/a (somehow dodged using any, so gender neutral?)

a/n: manifesting luke ssr bc he won't come home

✧ luke pearce

on surface level, you'd think he's pretty bad at flirting

this guy literally friendzones himself

but he's an airhead who's good at flirting unintentionally

showers you in sincere compliments that don't compare to empty flattery. luke is nice like that,, so cheerful and supportive,,, your personal cheerleader, if you will. also very willing to help whenever you find yourself running into a problem

actually he's so nice that some people get the wrong idea

he'd compliment a girl so well that she'll think he's hitting on her... in a really respectful way

or he'd offer to carry their heavy bags and open the door for them

luke isn't trying to seduce them, he's just really used to doing those things for you...

and being your childhood friend has its perks!! he doesn't shy away from skinship — hand holding and hugs are a few things he can indulge in. you could say he flirts through casual touches.

“your hair grew longer again,” luke comments, brushing away your bangs. “they'll poke your eyes. you should get it cut soon.”

childhood friend flex alright

✧ artem wing

oh god he is terrible at it

29 years old and has no dating experience lmao

so pure,, and super shy,, or maybe just embarrassed?? he chokes up when he tries to compliment you and ends up chickening out more often than not

celestine is not amused

it's like she's helping a pubescent boy confess to his crush rather than coaching a whole grown man........ then again, she can't imagine artem saying pickup lines lol

he's bad at expressing his feelings verbally but he can be unexpectedly smooth??

as a superior, he treats his coworkers well, but everyone can see how he favors you

small things like bringing you a meal when you miss lunch, or waiting for you to finish overtime and offering to drive you home after

maybe invite you to eat dinner he prepared while he's at it. he's a decent cook, and he likes seeing your happy face when you taste his food. what? you say you want to eat his food everyday? sure, he can make that possible if you marry him

there is no in between istg

yeah it's not totally direct, but suggestive enough that his actions imply he's interested in you

(then again, given how dense you can be, he might need to wave a neon sign spelling “WILL YOU MARRY ME” so you'd finally get the point)

✧ marius von hagen

ah... this guy huh

he flirts with you all the time but the problem is he does it too much that you end up thinking his flirting is just a joke

not to mention you probably haven't ever considered him as a potential romantic partner; his position as the pax's ceo making things difficult aside, you most likely only think of him as an annoying little brother...

nevertheless, marius continues to pursue on! what marius wants, marius will get

he has tons of money. you might not be the materialistic type, but surely you'd still appreciate gifts right?

whether it be chocolates, branded clothes or jewelry, he'll give it to you. oh, do you perhaps like flowers? once he hears about this little detail, he immediately prepares a gorgeous bouquet. huh? you say you don't need all this stuff? then what do you actually want?

“a date.” you rub your aching temples, feeling your headache worsen after seeing marius's expectant gaze. “just take me on a normal date, you don't have to send gifts to win me over. a movie will suffice. and don't rent an entire theater this time.”

marius grins in victory. there's nothing more he can ask for.

“then can we hold hands?” before you could glare at him and immediately refuse, he cheekily adds, “if we don't, i fear i might busy my hands by making another online purchase instead.”

of course marius lied. when it comes to you, he only gets more greedy by day.

✧ vyn richter

oh damn. he is good. really good.

out of all of them, vyn is arguably the best at flirting. no i don't accept constructive criticism on this matter.

he knows what he wants, so he'll get it no matter what. he already has a few courting plans in mind.

a natural at slipping compliments in casual conversation. he doesn't get shy, not at all — what's there to be ashamed of?

you could be attending an art exhibit to marvel at paintings when he'd suddenly shift the topic to how beautiful you are. oh, is your face turning red now? no, don't hide your expression from him; he'd like to see what you look like flustered from his flirting. it's very adorable.

straightforward and doesn't make things harder from him. if he wants to hold your hand, he'd immediately ask instead of hesitating like he's in some painful slow burn fic. hm? you say he's bold? he laughs, but doesn't deny it. he'd rather go all out than watch you slip away from him.

he likes to observe your reactions, finding them amusing. just the smallest things make your face heat up. you're so cute that he can't help but tease you sometimes, purposely initiating more affection than usual.

“you're... somewhat touchy, aren't you, dr. richter...” you awkwardly cough when he has his arm around your waist again when you're watching a movie, directing you to lean towards him. you're afraid he might hear your loud heartbeat.

“not quite,” he admits, changing positions so you could rest your head against his shoulder. “but you're an exception to a lot of things.”

not so slowly but surely, the distance between you is becoming shorter.

What if Thirteen prefers to fly solo because she knows the weight of her job? To her, it's better to extinguish the candle of random strangers she's never met and probably never will meet than a friend or a loved one. As she gets closer to MC, the harder it is going to be for her when the time comes when their candle eventually goes out.

how they're like when they want your attention

— in which i post my short hcs on how your favorite tot suitor would be like when they're clingy or in need of your attention !

— includes all four of the men. no prns for reader so gn!reader?? :,)

— a/n: damn i miss writing for tot ;;; unedited + not proofread, wrote this in a span of 5 goddamn minutes

artem ;

he tries to drop hints but fails to do so and basically almost makes a fool of himself if it weren't for celestine to save him. </3

he just wants to hold your hand. :( but he doesn't know how to initiate it without being awkward.

but at the end of the day artem will be able to hold your hand, but you had to do the first move.

mission failed successfully for him?¿

luke ;

he's shy when he does it, cheeks slowly getting tinted in red as he clumsily tries to do things that will hopefully get your attention.

but sadly you were too focused on something else.

ends up pouting at you and literally dragging you somewhere else just so you can notice him. 

desperate times calls for desperate measures, work can wait later. he just wants to spend time with you.

vyn ;

what vyn wants, vyn will receive.

oh, you're focused on something else that isn't work? vyn will strike up a conversation with you that will make you far too curious to the point you'll forget about work.

he apologizes that he drifted your attention from work, though. he just wants to talk to you but couldn't really wait.

marius ;

he's. he's very vocal about it. doesn't shut up at all.

would annoy you a lot just so you can give him attention. he finds you cute when you're mad at him anyways.

and he'll act petty - attempting to guilt trip you for the nth time ever since you got into a relationship with him.

but of course he'll act all puppy like towards you in the end when you're actually mad at him. he knows that you can't really stay mad at him but he overuses the fact.

tot boys and comforting them

characters: all of them

ARTEM WING

just the regular things, cuddling, chatting, and spending time together in general makes him feel a lot better

he’s pretty simple when it comes to his interests, and when he’s upset he isn’t too difficult to deal with. give him a few kisses and a rub on the hair and that should do the trick <3

when he’s upset, you should just let him be close to you. he finds it nice to sit next to you and just enjoys your presence. you don’t have to say anything, just being there for him is all he really needs from you

might be a bit clingy but he still respects your space and won’t be over-bearing

LUKE PEARCE

he tries not to show how upset he is but sometimes you can just tell :((

honestly would prefer if you didn’t ask him straight on why he’s upset. it kind of makes him feel embarrassed. try to hint at it and he’ll take the initiative to tell you what’s wrong. but you have to go at his own pace.

let him be the one to kiss and hug you, it gives him a sense of control over himself. be open to his body language and non-verbal cues because he isn’t going to be as expressive as usual when he’s feeling down.

take it slow or fast, depends on him. be attentive and observant of how he’s feeling and go on from there !!

MARIUS VON HAGEN

you gotta be a lot softer with him when he’s upset,,save the teasing for later

you can’t tease him when he’s down because he takes it to heart. if you tell him he’s annoying as a joke, he understands that you’re messing around. but when he’s upset, he takes it personally.

it’s a lot easier to hurt his feelings when he’s sad, so you have to focus on just taking care of him. praises make him so happy !! tell him he’s smart and talented and handsome!!

when he’s upset he’s just a lot more sensitive to what you put out there, so make it easier for him and shower him with love n affection <3

VYN RICHTER

he likes to be pampered,,like a lot

skincare routines, dates, movies, candlelit dinners, literally take him outside and do something with him, he’ll love it. he just wants to go anywhere with you, and if he’s upset, that’ll work wonders.

and if it’s a stay-at-home kind of day, spend time just hanging out with him and he’ll be relieved of all stress <3 he just really likes to go out and spend time with you. makes him feel all soft inside

basically just be around him and he’ll be alright <3

Character Study: Satan’s Birth

Character Studies will be essays that focus on specific (and important) aspects of a character that may be easy for readers to overlook. They’re not comprehensive works: those will be appropriately dubbed Deeper Dives.

The first one I’m taking a crack at is one of most confusing parts of Satan: how he came to be, and what that means.

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