A Thread Of Me And My Bf And Why I Love Him

a thread of me and my bf and why i love him

The Sun and The Ocean

You were as blue as the ocean, I was as yellow as the sun. Together we made a beautiful shade of green. As green as the grass that spreads around the meadows. As beautiful as the leaves that hug the branches of a tree. We were perfect. Then the night came and swept away the sun. The ocean could not see her anymore. The moon hid her away. The stars swapped her out. She was gone. Would she come back? Of course, she will. Daytime always arrives. The ocean will always see the sun again. They will always shine upon each other. He loves her as much as she loves him. And each night he waited. He waited for the night to pass until he could see his beautiful sun again.

i cant stop reading it

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Levi giving orders with confidence👀

Im so happy to see him in his element. Now I'm really interested to see grand admiral leviathan main story maybe??👀

this is just me in a nutshell

Levi is the Grand Admiral of two navies. The actual Hell Navy, and then the one commander of ship wars.

Levi is significantly less successful in his shipping war endeavours…

Levi: LOOK! IN EPISODE 45 AT 3:12 THE TWO OF THEM STAND NEXT TO EACH OTHER!

Satan: Yes Levi, I understand that, but why are you in your uniform?

Levi: I need to get into the right headspace, Satan!

CRYING, SOBBING, EMPTY ON THE FLOOR. ILY BUT YOU BROKE ME ;0;

hello !!! can i ask for hcs for obey me boys when they find out that mc is living in an abusive hosuehold? i saw that your askbox is open and i'm just in a really REALLY bad place right now

yes, dearest, you absolutely can <333 may i ask how you are, anon? my inbox is always open if you need someone to talk to. as someone who’s also living in a toxic household, writing this brought me a bit percent of comfort so i hope it also does the same to you, anon!  warnings: self-harm, suicide attempt, overdose, abusive household, cursing, sexual assault, overall has very abusive themes (done towards mc), comfort (by the brothers) also not edited

Older Brothers finding out that MC lives in an abusive household

LUCIFER

He knows from the start, if there are any restraining orders or records in your application form. 

If there are no records, Lucifer is observant enough to notice the warning signs-- flinching when Mammon or Levi is too loud in the dinner table, your pulse picking up when Satan changes his tone from kind to menacing in a quick second, laughing uncomfortably when Asmo’s hands wander too close where it shouldn’t be, your eyes widening in every tight hug Beel gives, and being wary of Belphie in general even though you’ve made up already. 

Prideful as always, he told himself that it wasn’t his business until he started seeing you as family-- regardless if his feelings developed platonically or romantically. His family is his business and there’s no way in hell that he’s letting you go back to the human world if you aren’t safe. He shoots you a text to come meet him to have an important discussion.

Your heart hammered in your chest as you open the door to his private study. What could be so important to discuss at midnight? Has Lucifer... finally caught on? Gods, no no no.

“MC, I’ve noticed some things that...” Lucifer trails off, explains calmly, and it still catches you off-guard. You stutter. You ramble until you’re in tears and collapse on your knees on the polished floor, scared and terrified because you can’t lie or he’ll punish you--

You feel Lucifer’s coat on your shoulders. instincts kick in and you cling to him, feeling like a lost child over again.

Lucifer carries you to his chair, asking you if you’re comfortable enough to tell your story. “You don’t have to tell me, MC. I’m sorry if I pushed you with that question.” 

“But I hope you know that you’re precious to me, and I’ll protect you in any way that I can.” He says finished, determined, and you break out in sobs again as you finally tell him about your story: all the abuse, the pain, the unwanted touches, even the one you inflicted upon yourself just to feel something.

Lucifer listens. your abusers are sure not to see another day.

MAMMON

Let’s face it: Mammon is an abuse survivor himself. He might not be good in verbally comforting others, but trust me when I say he’s the best in listening and generally being there for you. It shows in his actions.

You were having your weekly Saturday movie night, sitting side by side when a scene scares Mammon and he shouts. Loudly. 

You jump out of your seat and run.

“Fuck, did ‘ya see that MC? Totally wasn’t scared-- MC? Where did ‘ya go?” Mammon looks at the back of his couch. Under the tennis table. On his bed. “Hey, human! Why did ‘ya leave me?”

Mammon hears soft sobs from his closet. He walks up carefully. “A-are you crying, MC? Why--”

“No!” It’s your turn to shout now. There are fresh streaks of bloody self-inflicted scratches on your arms and Mammon’s confusion turns to worry in an instant. “I’m sorry for running, f-for hiding, please don’t hurt me, I’m not gonna do it again I swear-- please!”

When Mammon grabs your wrists, you cry and beg harder and honey, it broke his heart in a million pieces.

He leads you to his bath, where he gently helps you wash your wounds. You won’t stop crying and saying sorry over and over again. Mammon always tried to be strong in hopes to impress you but fuck it.

He is now crying with you. 

After cleaning your wounds, he wordlessly led you to his bed to rest. The silence suffocates him, and Mammon knows he should comfort you but he is so scared of saying the wrong thing. 

“MC--” “ Mammon--” You speak at the same time. He urges you to go on, and his hands that holds you close shake.

“Mammon... do you also intend to... to-- ravish me?” You ask, looking down on the floor while Mammon felt like everything stopped. “Please let me go, I won’t tell anyone, o-or if not, just please be gentle,” Your voice cracks in the end and Mammon breaks.

“Never in a million years, MC! I-- Fuck,” he sobs, and your own lips quiver. “I didn’t know, MC. I’m so sorry for what happened to you, I didn’t mean to shout and hurt you in the process, I’ve been always like this around you and my brothers and...” Oh. Oh no. Does that mean that there were times that you felt unsafe around him without him knowing? “I’m so so sorry for everything.”

He moves to hug you but stops himself. “Can I... Can I hug you?”

He only does when you verbally say yes and you both sob in each others arms. The night ended with both of you in his bed, telling him stories of your experiences in the human world and your household. Mammon nods and listens, and you don’t see how his tears keep running, but you notice how his arms are snug against your body like he’s afraid to let go.

Mammon also doesn’t want you to go back when your year ends but he will not tell Lucifer immediately, not without your consent.

On RAD, he’ll hover closer when you walk beside him but not with his old greedy, possessive way but because he genuinely wants to protect you. Everyday, he’ll be outside waiting for you at the end of your class even though his own class is located three buildings away. 

Mammon would also try to comfort you in his own way: by showering you gifts and trinkets that remind him of you. He wants you to feel appreciated just for merely existing, and that he can see a piece of you in his world every where he goes.

Congrats, you now have a personal butler that would put Barbatos to shame <3

LEVIATHAN

You sometimes forget that this boy is the Grand Admiral of Hell’s Navy.

He knows the look in someone’s eyes when they are absolutely terrified and about to surrender their life, and that’s the way he sees you one night you were sprawled out on your bathroom floor.

You weren’t responding to your DDD when you’re supposed to be with him in an important raid. Since his Henry is the only person he is willingly going to go out of his room for (and because he’s worried) he barges inside your with no warning.

It’s canon that Levi uses his smell to detect people. So when he doesn’t see you lounging in your bed like usual, he enters the room further to search for you. Only then he notices the amount of anxiety and fear you radiated in the air and he panics.

He enters your bathroom and Levi saw his worst nightmare come true. His best friend is lying on the floor and-- where did you even get those hellsmoke sleeping pills? It’s lethal for humans! “MC! what did you do?”

“I’m sorry, I-I don’t wanna go Levi. I don’t wanna go--” You sob, body shaking and he wastes no time to scoop you up and carry you in his arms. He calls for Lucifer, for Mammon, for the rest of his brothers, and it’s a tone they haven’t heard from Leviathan in a long time-- the command of a Grand Admiral. In a split second, they were all in your presence and ready to help on whatever way they can.

You spend three days passed out on Lord Diavolo’s castle, but you survive. Every single day, Leviathan is by your side.

When you wake, you see him napping against a Ruri-chan plushie. You gently flick his forehead. “Earth to my Lord of Shadows?”

“MC?” Levi gasps, and he immediately holds your hand in his. “You’re awake! I was so worried, everyone was worried, I was too slow and why-- why did I see you in that state, MC?” He cries, and you cup his cheek to wipe his tears.

All Leviathan wants is honesty and answers, so you give him just that. You tell your story, your past, and how it followed you here in Devildom and drove you to purchase those pills in an attempt to overdose. He listens and cries by your side.

He’s not unfamiliar with those feelings of helplessness but it broke his heart to see you suffering from them too. “MC... please don’t go back. please. I-- I’ll do anything to make you feel safe, make you feel comfortable here in the House of Lamentation and I’ll even stop talking shit about myself because that’s what you want just please. Don’t leave. I can’t let you be taken away from me again.”

Leviathan starts going to face to face classes more instead of online classes just to spend more time with you. It’s not so bad going outside when he has you by his side. On the positive note, he gets more chances to make you smile every day. 

He gives you freedom to choose whether to tell Lucifer or not, but ultimately convinces you to do it.

You’re his Henry. and he’ll be damned if he ever lost you.