Had A Dream That I Met A Wizard And We Fell In Love And Became Unhealthily Attached To Each Other So

had a dream that I met a wizard and we fell in love and became unhealthily attached to each other so we decided to meld into one single creature together but the process was horrifically slow and painful and most of the dream was us lying in bed holding hands while lesions opened up in our skin and seeped out blue and green fluid and the wizard said "this is going to take a very very long time" and I said "that's ok"

passages that had me prepared to walk into the sea

Reblog if you’re over 20 and still read/write fan fiction.

I’m curious!

people always say autistic people think in black and white, but then they *teach* us in black and white. good girl, bad girl. good (normal) behavior, bad (abnormal) behavior. you have to be consistent with these kids

my therapist gave me a feelings chart and when I circled more than one told me to choose one feeling. in social skills group, they were always asking questions like, “is talking about airplanes expected or unexpected behavior?” and “it depends” was not the right answer- talking about airplanes is unexpected, inappropriate, abnormal, bad behavior (at least when you are one of Those Kids. when you like things too much you aren’t allowed to like things anymore)

here is your behavior chart, you either get a sticker or you don’t. here is your anger scale, you aren’t allowed to say you don’t know. we need an answer that fits into a graph because we are graphing your anger. here is a social story where everything is so simplified it resembles real life about as much as stick figures resemble people. here are your right and wrong answers and you play, move, think wrong

special educators are some of the most rigid people I’ve met. you have to follow the program. it has to fit on this chart. you have to be consistent with these kids

"spam liking will get you blocked" spam liking will get you a kiss on the mouth

To be in love

Sometimes it doesn't matter how many stars are in the sky because I will still look at you with my whole heart in my hand as an offer to your beauty.

And If i will pull my own eyes out while I look at you it's because after you no art will ever have meaning again.

I wish you could be me so you could see why I love you and never be afraid again.

I want to be your light and bright your day, but also your shadow so you could hide safe with me.

I want to walk hand in hand in these worlds made with words that we love, I want to be eternal so my love will last forever like a book that can't be burned.

You made me stronger and stronger is getting my love.

You made me alive.

May the stars shine stronger for you and may the sea sing songs for you.

May the whole universe be beautiful enough to be worthy of you.

And may I be worthy too.

To be loved by you is like being made with stars in the eyes, gold as skin and ocean in the veins. To be whole as the sky and the earth, to be loved by God itself.